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Start Tape #3 side 1

"I always wanted to say thank you to you Esme but I couldn't ever seem to get the words quite right in my head so in turn they were never said out loud. A shame really, you were a wonderful motherly figure to me and if you have any scandalous secrets… well let's just say you don't because I never saw any in your past. "

*bottles clink, Bella takes a large swig of something*

" So anyways Esme, I just wanted to say thank you for being there for me when I kind of needed you, and not at all when I really needed you. (AN: that made sense in my mind, but tell me if it didn't make sense in yours. Lol) Aren't mothers supposed to look after all their children, even if their weird and occasionally have to breath and eat? Or maybe I wasn't considered your child for those very reasons. Which is actually kind of ironic if you think about it, because the baby you had in your possession for a short time had was human, and had the need to breathe and eat. But you didn't want that baby did you? Your vampiric boyfriend couldn't be around little squabbling babies all the time. He had sensitive ears and a sensitive nose! Nope too much at stake, it was either bye bye baby, or so long hunny bunches. So you gave up the thing you had worked so hard to get.

I think your kind of disgusting. If I'm being completely honest with myself… and that tends to happen when I'm hammered, but I hate most of you, and you all hate me… Maybe you should just leave me alone… Oops! You beat me to the punch line! You're already gone! HAHAHAHA! Man I crack myself up. Seeyah you little murdering bitch!"

We waited for the telltale click that meant she had stopped recording but it never came. Instead we heard her banging about the room, she really was drunk. There was a crash, she had tripped and fallen, and then she started laughing this sort of strangled laugh. We continued to listen occasionally hearing a cussword and these weird choking sounds and it hit me, she was crying. It wasn't just small whimpers either, she had full on sobs wracking her body, I was worried she would break a rib or two, she was breathing so hard.

I looked up, burning tear tracks of venom running down my face, and they all just stared back. Each with the same expression of horror and wonder at the tears hurdling down their faces, this little human was devastating our family. She was showing everyone's true colors, the only way we had tolerated each other for so long was by ignoring them. Was continuing the tapes worth the heartbreak? We'd soon find out.