Tilly and Jen had not spoke to each other for almost a week now. It had been a week full of curious looks and savouring glances. Although Jen hadn't left Tilly on a bad note last week, she still needed her space. She couldn't believe what she had let happen, but worse yet, how it could feel so right. She hated not knowing whether to regret it or not. She also felt a huge amount of guilt around Tilly. She almost felt threatened around her. The fact that she was going to leave minutes after they finished making love almost made it seem as though she used her for it. Jen could not stand that thought. It made her feel filthy and sick to the stomach. She knew all to well that Tilly was a virgin until then and had always stuck to the rule that she wouldnt ever have sex with anyone she wasn't in love with. The things Tilly could say, the damage she could cause with just a single word, Jen could go to prison with a click of her fingers. All she ever worked for could be gone. All the work she had produced to the highest standard even from the smallest things like homework when she was 10 years old, then college and onto university. All of that would of been worthless. Feeling physically sick Jen ran out of the classroom, she couldn't handle the sight of Tilly anymore. She ran into the bathroom and leaned against the sinks looking into the mirror infront of her. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath. She heard the bathroom door behind her creak open slightly. She glanced up into the mirror and saw a tall ginger girl standing in its door way. She turned around to see her with her own eyes. 'Jen, are...are you okay?' Tilly asked, knowing it was a silly question. Jen didn't reply, she felt angry. The sight of Tilly annoyed her. The pit of her stomach felt so much hatred. Tilly leaned beside Jen and place her hand upon hers. Jen snatched it away without hesitation. Tilly looked at her, with a glimpse of shock, she was used to getting rejected by Jen but not as rapidly or desperatly as then. 'Jen?...'
'Just go away, Tilly!' Snapped Jen, in a tone that even surprised herself a little. She looked down at the floor. Tilly stormed out towards the door. Jen immediatly felt guilt.
'No Tilly please. You know I didn't mean it!' She pleaded.
Tilly turned around. 'You know what Jen? I'm sick and tired of your little games. Let me know when you figure out what you want, yeah?' She gave her an ice cold stare before slamming the door shut behind her. Jen signed hard. Now that she had took her anger out on Tilly she now felt guilty. But Tilly was right Jen really did have to make up her mind so that she could focus on it. She knew that she wanted her job, the job she'd dreamed of for so many years. But her heart desired Tilly, more than she had ever desired anyone or anything before. She loved everything about her. Her hair and how adorable it looked in a bow, how focused she is on getting into Cambridge, it reminded Jen of herself when she was that age, so determind. Her giggle and her breathtaking smile. She secretly loved the way Tilly would cheekily answer Jen's questions with inside jokes they had before shared, in class. She loved it all. But she often wondered if she only wanted Tilly because she couldn't have her. Did Tilly even want her back that bad? Was it worth the risk? As you can tell Jen's weakness is that she thinks way too much. Like when Tilly had shown her the picture that Esther had took, she couldn't stop looking at it and over thinking about it. Wondering what was going through her mind at that time. But then it came clear, Tilly was on her mind, Tilly was always on her mind. But the fact she was just there in the same room as her, the fact that if she wanted her she could have her as simple as that. The way Tilly looked into Jen's eyes gave her hope. Thinking about it now she was surprised she only held her hand and not anything more.

The bell rang, snapping Jen out of her daydream. She walked out of the bathroom and back into the classroom she had abandoned. She walked in only to see Tilly...talking to the head teacher. Jen's heart pounded against her chest. She felt the biggest lump in her throat and her stomach dropped. 'It's over' she thought to herself. Feeling tears draw near. 'Oh Miss Gilmore, we've just been discussing you!' He said in a sharp tone. Jen stood there in silence. Just waiting for him to end her whole career there and then. 'Tilly was just telling me how you felt ill and rushed to the bathroom! And by the looks of things she's right, you look awful!' Jen looked at him in shock then over to Tilly who had a blank expression upon her face. She opened her mouth but words didn't come out.
'Now now, don't you worry! You can have the rest of the day off! I hope you get better by tomorrow'
Jen managed to mutter her thanks before nodding him goodbye and glancing one last time at Tilly. As she exited tears escaped her eyes. She couldn't take hiding anymore. She had feelings for Tilly that didn't seem to be going any time soon but also had so much love and passion for art, she had a job, a home, a car. Everything she could've ever wanted, but it all seemed incomplete because she didn't have Tilly to share it all with.