The paramedics rushed Kurt into the emergency center doors and it was tough for me to keep up with the fast paced crew. They quickly found him a room, and the paramedics quickly but gently got Kurt from the stretcher to the hospital bed. By now he was awake, but he seemed groggy.
Two nurses then walked in and bandaged Kurt's wrists, and monitored his vitals. They told me the put him on a 72 hour watch and a doctor would stop in soon and then left. Now it was just Kurt and I.
"Mmm, these hospital gowns are so disgustin." Kurt slurred
I laughed and shook my head and the beautiful boy laying in front of me. That was the Kurt I knew. The one always making fashion comments and snarky remarks. I pulled up one of the hospital chairs to the side of Kurt's bed and gently grabbed his hand. I squeezed his hand lightly, and he very lightly squeezed back. I brought my lips to his hand and then looked back to Kurt.
"Kurt, your family will be here to see you soon." Kurt froze.
"Kurt, it's okay. They're your family. They are not going to hate you for this. They'll be upset that you didn't talk to the Kurt, but they are going to love you even more than they already have. Don't worry."
Kurt didn't say anything, and it seemed that on that cue Carole, Burt and Finn walked into the hospital room. All three of them had red rimmed eyes; I suspect those tears were fresh
"Hey there buddy." Burt said
Kurt did not reply.
"Kurt" Carole said "Honey it's just us. We love you." She said
Yet again, Kurt did not reply. Now Finn tried to get him to talk
"Kurt, if it was Karofsky, I swear I will walk out of here right now, and find him and beat his ass."
Again, Kurt didn't move. Infact, he was emotionless. My hand was still in his, and all he did was squeeze my hand. A doctor walked in
"Ah good, Kurt's family. Mr. Hummel, your son has been put on 72 hour watch and will have to remain in the hospital until this is released and the staff is certain he is stable enough to go home. His wrists are infected pretty badly, so we have some medications for him to heal that. When he is released from the hospital, he will need to see a therapist starting 5 times a week. If you need help looking for one, the hospital has a list of recommended psychiatrists. From there, they will prescribe him anti-depressants or other medications if he needs them. We'll have to see where it goes from there."
Burt nodded, and shook the doctor's hand again. The doctor than turned around and walked out of the room.
"Kurt, you know that we love you right?" Burt said in a shaky breath
Kurt did not reply
"Blaine, can I have a word with you for a minute?" He said again.
I nodded, and looked back at Kurt who was frantically looking at me, squeezing my hand harder than before
"Kurt, baby , I will be right back. I just have to go talk to your dad and your step-mom and Finn first. I promise, I will be right back."
Kurt finally released my hand and I walked out of the room with Burt, Carole and Finn. We walked down the hallway to the floor's little sitting room, away from Kurt's space so he couldn't hear us.
"Blaine, has he talked to you?" Burt asked
"Only a little bit here and there, but yes, he has talked to me. He froze when he heard you were coming to see him. Mr. Hummel, I wouldn't take it personally. I think he's worried that you'll disown him, or be ashamed of him, or be upset with him over his actions. I tried to explain before you came that you would always love him no matter what, but he didn't respond."
"How did you find him Blaine?" Burt asked
"I saw Kurt didn't seem himself this week. He never mentioned anything of this ever. I knew the bullying was going on just as much as you did, and I'd ask Kurt about it and he'd say there was no incidents. I was worried he was upset lately, so I brought over some musicals and flowers to surprise Kurt. When he didn't answer the door, I let myself in and starting shouting his name. I walked into his room looking for him when I saw a note on his desk addressed to me. I opened it and it was telling me how he had wanted this for a while and he wasn't good enough for me and that he would always love me but this was something he wanted and something that he felt he had to do. I started screaming for Kurt, and then I found him in his bathroom on the floor with boxes of medicine. He was cutting his wrists open and blood was all around him and I just didn't know what to do.." by now I was crying, and so was Burt, Carole and Finn. Carole walked over to me and gave me a huge hug. Finn sat down and buried his face in his hands. Burt didn't move. He looked upset and angry.
"Sir, I swear I didn't know that Kurt was going to do this. He had just started to slip out of being himself this week. He never told me anymore. But I don't why he never talked, sir, it was so sad and I know you think this is all my fault, I do too, but I just don't why because Kurt and I have been becoming closer everyday and.."
"Blaine, calm down. And call me Burt. Blaine, you saved my son. If you hadn't come over, we probably would've found him… dead. Blaine, I want to thank you for being here for my son. I know you love him and I know that he needs you. I don't know why Kurt won't talk to us, but he'll talk to you. Please just do what you can to make him better."
"I will die trying if I have to." I said. With that, Burt hugged me and gestured for me to go back to Kurt.
"Aren't you coming to see him too?" I asked
"He's not ready to see us yet. When he feels ready, call me or Carole or Finn. Please keep us updated on everything."
"Yes Mr. Hum… Burt."
I turned around and ran back to Kurt's room. He was sitting with his head turned in the exact same position I had left him in.
"Kurt, darling, it's me. I'm back. It's just me Blaine."
Kurt slightly turned his head. His eyes were wet with tears and his cheeks had streams that started at his eyes and worked all the way down to his chin. A new, fresh tear, was taking the same path. The previous one had.
"Kurt, they still love you. They are just worried and upset that you would try something like this. Kurt, they'd give up anything for you. Anything. They hate saying you hurt." I said, as I walked over to Kurt and planted a kiss on his forehead. When I pulled back, Kurt's eyes were still closed. He slowly fluttered them open.
"Blaine." Kurt said. I looked at him intently
"Break up with me." He said.
This absolutely broke my heart. I love Kurt so much, why would he ask me to do such a thing?
"Kurt, I don't care what you say, I am not leaving you. Today doesn't change anything about how I feel. If anything, I love you more Kurt. I love you more than I have anything in my entire life and nothing, not this, not anything in the future will change that Kurt. I see you with me fifty years from now, our children will be successful and they will be getting ready to have grandchildren. Kurt, I don't care what you do, I'm not leaving you." I said. I managed to hold my sobs back until I was done talking.
Kurt was now crying too, his tears pouring out of his eyes.
"I love you Blaine."
"I love you too Kurt, and we're going to fix this. I'm going to fix you one piece at a time. I love you more than anything."
Kurt weakly lifted his arm to gesture me over. I complied. He pulled my shirt lightly, as he moved my mouth down to his. He kissed me, his lips moving slowly on mine. I pulled away a few seconds later, but only so I could speak.
"Don't ever leave me Kurt." I whispered on his lips as I pushed them on his for another kiss.