A/N: So I feel realllllly reallllly bad about not updating this in a while; I've been running around like a madman lately; it's May, so I have marching/jazz/concert band rehearsals, choir rehearsals, exams and on top of that, I've had migraines, loads of projects and stress. If I had time to write, I would've and I feel so bad for makin' y'all wait. So here, I bring you chapter 7 (: Review, read, anything. (:
I held Kurt's hand as I pressed the button that would get a nurse to get us out of here. We would walk back up to the hospital room and relax a little bit; being periodically checked on by doctors. The nurse came and opened the door to the room. She let us follow her back to her front desk. She typed in a couple things on her computer and then looked to us.
"Alright boys, before we send you back to your room, you're both going to walk in a room off to my right and see Doctor Jones. He's just going to ask you a few questions. He is ready for you, so you may go in at any time."
I looked to Kurt. I know that he hadn't talked to anyone besides me since the incident, and they were going to try and get him to talk to the Doctor. I pulled Kurt away from the desk and whispered to him.
"Kurt, you can do this. Doctor Jones is trying to help us. He's going to make you better. You won't ever have to feel like you've had to. Do you think you can try and talk to him? You don't have to tell him anything about the incident yet if you're not comfortable, but promise me you'll try talking to him?" I said. I saw his red tears again, welding in his eyes
"I don't know if I can Blaine." He said, his breath wavering
"Kurt, have courage. I will be right next to you the whole time. I promise you can do this. Now c'mon, let's go." I said
I latched on to Kurt's hand and we walked on to where Doctor Jones was, but before we could get there, the Nurse stopped us.
"Mr. Hummel and Mr. Anderson?" she called
We spun around
"I know I don't know you that well, but I think you guys are the most beautiful couple I've ever seen. Even cuter than my husband and I; and thought I'm biased, I'd say we're pretty cute." She smiled "But boys, you could teach a lot of couples about love." She said
Kurt smiled at her, blushing slightly. He looked to me and smiled. He turned back to the nurse to croak out his first words to another person.
"Thank you." He said quietly, still smiling. I could feel him squeezing my hand, so I squeezed back. I lifted his hand up my lips and kissed it softly.
We walked along down the hallway where we came by the room we were supposed to enter. Before we went in, I stopped Kurt. I pulled him in front of me.
"I am so proud of you Kurt. I have never been more proud to call you mine than I have now. And I promise you I am going to be here the whole way, no matter what happens. Kurt, you are the love of my life. And someday in the future, we're going to be spending the rest of our lives together." I said
Kurt smiled, his eyes glistening with what I believed was hope and love. He brought me in for a hug. I loved hugging Kurt; I could always feel his warm breath rolling down my back. I felt his chest vibrate as he spoke.
"Thank you for saving me Blaine." He said softly
"Kurt, if I had to, I would do it all over again. I'd do anything for you."
With that, we released from the hug. I held my hand out for Kurt, which he took, and we walked into the room awaiting Doctor Jones.
The room was a lot bigger than the last one we were in. It was definitely a conference room; there were whiteboards on the wall, a screen with a projector, and a small window off to the right. There was a huge table, a long oval shape that took up most of the room. Opposite of us sitting at the table was Doctor Jones. He had flies spread out all over table, and his brow was furrowed in confusion behind his glasses. He looked up to us from his spot, and he smiled. He stood up, straightening out his work coat and held out his hand
"Good afternoon Kurt and Blaine" he said as I took his hand and shook it. He held his hand out to Kurt for a shake and I help my breath. One of Kurt's hands was comfortably occupied in mine, so I squeeze it. I thought courage, and I hope Kurt knew that was want I was trying to tell him. He slowly took the Doctor's hand and shook it. I let out my breath and squeeze his opposite hand again. I looked to him and beamed a smile of pride at my brave, courageous boyfriend.
"Well that right there shows loads of progress!" the Doctor exclaimed, looking thoroughly impressed. He gestured for us to have a seat across from him, so we did. We got comfortable and reconnected our hands under the table
"Kurt, the reason I wanted you to go to this appointment was to help get some of those feelings out in the open that you haven't before. Talking about certain issues with someone you trust can really relax your conscience and your nerves. Blaine was more than willing to be this outlet for you. I want you to know that everything you have told Blaine will be kept confidential by Blaine under law. He is aware of this. Now, before I can assess the future of the next couple days I need to ask; Blaine how did it go?"
"Honestly, I thought it went great. Kurt really opened up and accessed his pain, and I think talking it out put him at ease. I know there is still so much more to talk about, but this is a start."
"Kurt, how do you feel this went?" the Doctor asked. I squeezed Kurt's hand and let my eyes glide over to his face. His eyes shimmered of worry and fear. I squeezed his hand and mouthed "courage". He took a deep breath and spoke to the doctor.
"I trust Blaine with everything. I felt more comfortable talking to him about my problems than I would with anyone else. He's the only one I feel comfortable talking to right now about that kind of thing." Kurt said quietly
I squeezed Kurt's hand and rubbed my thumb over his. I was so proud.
"That's great Kurt, I'm glad you think that this went well. How did you feel after the appointment?"
"I felt pretty drained." He said "But it was a good kind of drained. I felt like a little bit of weight was lifted off my shoulders."
"Kurt, that's great. Fantastic. For your first full day here, you are making fantastic progress. Most people don't talk during these confrontations." The Doctor stated
"I think, as a psychiatrist, that having family relations and connections during such a hard time helps so much more than just sitting with a therapist or not talking really at all. This is the first step, Kurt. This isn't going to be easy; and I think you boys have that figured out. But it is possible to make it through. Just know you're not alone, Kurt." The Doctor said
Not alone… he was not alone. That was so true. He wasn't alone, I wasn't alone. I wished I had known that years ago.
"Now here's how I think the next few days are going to plan out. We still have Kurt on 72 hour watch, and that will remain so just for safety precautions. If all goes well in the remaining time on that watch, he should be able to be released. For the next two days, however, I would like you boys to come down and do this therapy. This seems to be working well. Now, I can't replace this with a therapist, however. We can talk about that in a few days when hopefully, you are having your released signed." The Doctor said
"You boys are free to go." He added
"Thank you so much Doctor, for your time and valiant efforts. I can't thank you enough" I said. I couldn't thank anyone enough for helping to piece Kurt back together.
"Thank you for helping Doctor" Kurt said. I smiled at him proudly
"You're very welcome boys. Head back on up to your room."
Doctor Jones walked out of the conference room, to leave us alone. I turned to Kurt.
"Kurt, I am so proud of you today. I was proud of you when you stood up to Karofsky, and I was proud of you when we sang at regionals together, but this is the proud I have ever been of you. You are brave, beautiful and courageous Kurt. And we're going to make it through this. You know, we're not alone. I promise you, we're going get through this, one step at a time."
"I love you Blaine."
"I love you too, Kurt." I said. I leaned in for a quick, but sweet kiss; pulling away with a smile.
"Kurt, there is something else we have to focus on now. You're parents and Finn and friends have not stopped worrying about you. Do you think you're ready to face them?" I said
I watched Kurt's eyes change from happy to scared. His smile turned into a frown and he looked at me
"I don't know if I can Blaine."
"Kurt, they are you're family. They love you, and they are just as proud of you as I am. They want to help you. And Doctor Jones is right, building great relationships now is crucial. Do you think you'd be okay if they visited?" I asked hesitantly.
"I don't know Blaine… I really don't. But I can try."
"That's my brave, courageous, boyfriend. I'm so proud to be with you Kurt. I can't imagine my life without you." I said
Next Chapter: Kurt's family comes to visit, and this proves to be a challenge. Also, in the near future, Blaine will be letting us know about HIS past struggles.
I hope I will be writing this very soon! Unfortunately, no promises ): I hope to have it up by the end of the weekend. But again, no guarantees.
Thank you all for reading! (:
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