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For hours, Nessie cried in her bedroom as Alice and Esme tried to comfort her, but none of their efforts were working. The child kept crying about how Jake hated her and how he was never going to come back. Her stomach was so tight that she was experiencing bad cramps to the point she vomited a couple times.
"Nessie, Jake doesn't hate you," said Alice rubbing her back.
"Yes he does," she managed to choke out. "He hates me because I hurt Elijah."
"No he doesn't; he said something that he didn't mean, because he was already angry about something that happened at the party we went to. He loves you."
"He doesn't love me. My daddy doesn't love me, and Mommy is crazy. Nobody wants me," she sobbed until she started to hyperventilate.
Esme took over, by getting her to control her breathing. "Yes people do love you. I love you, so does Carlisle, Emmett, Alice, Jasper, and Rosalie." She tried to hug the little girl, but Nessie didn't want to be held. "Alice try to call Jake again."
"Yes ma'am," Alice said leaving the room. Since Jake had stormed out, she had been trying to call and text him for hours, but Jake turned off his phone. She called him again and once again he didn't answer. "Damn it Jake. Maybe Edward can get a hold him." She called her older brother and couldn't get him either, since Edward was currently with his agent. "Damn." She sighed as she tried Jake again, but nothing, so she left a voice message. "Jake, its Alice. Please come back to the house, Nessie is a wreck without you. I don't care what the fuck you're doing, just get your ass back now." Hanging up, she went back to the bedroom, where Esme hadn't made any progress with Nessie.
"Anything?" Esme asked. She was pulling off Nessie's shirt, because the child had vomited all over herself again.
"No and I tried calling Edward, but nothing."
"Well hopefully, Jake will come back soon. Alice clean her up; I while I speak to your father."
"Yes ma'am," Alice replied taking over.
"Daddy where we going?" asked Elijah. Sleepily he stared out the window of the car. He had no idea where they were going and was growing very bored of just watching the scenery pass by. In a sense of guilt, he missed Nessie and wanted to say sorry to her.
"Who knows," Jake replied not taking his eyes off the road. There was no plan to take them anyway, as long as they were away from the Cullens. So far the trip had been a three hour drive, which made Jake reflect about how bad he had treated Nessie, but he couldn't bring himself to drive back and apologize. Besides he doubted that the Cullens would even want him around. Images of Emmett killing him filled his mind. "Hey you hungry?"
"Yes, we get burgers?"
"Sure." Jake drove another fifteen minutes before finding a small diner that was open. He and Elijah entered the place to find that there were barely any people inside, but Jake didn't care at all. He didn't want too many people around. Sitting Elijah in a booth, Jake sat next to him and put his head down. The constant guilt about yelling at Nessie was eating him apart.
"What can I get for you two?" asked a waitress coming up to him.
Jake lifted his head a little. "Can I get a Pepsi and apple juice for him? To eat can we have one small cheeseburger and a bacon cheeseburger and just one order of fries?" he asked not even bothering to look at the menu.
"Sure thing, be right back with your order," she said walking off.
Elijah sat silently looking at his daddy as he played with his fingers; it took a few minutes before he decided to speak. "Daddy, when we go back?"
"When I think of a way to say sorry," Jake mumbled. Elijah, why did Nessie hit you?"
"Cause I call her a name."
"What name?"
"Bitch," he said.
Another sense of dread filled Jacob, because he knew exactly with Elijah got that language from, lifting up his head; he stared at his child. "Do you know what that word means?" Jake asked.
"No, but you and Damian say it."
"Just because we say it doesn't mean you can say it. It's a bad word for a girl and other people."
"Am I in trouble?" Elijah asked as his eyes filled with tears. He didn't like saying bad words.
Jake hugged him. "No, you didn't know what you were saying. But I never want you saying that again or I'll punish you. Whenever we get back, you will apologize to Nessie about what you said."
"Yes sir. Uncle Paul punishes me," Elijah admitted.
"I know and I fought him because of it. You'll never be near him again."
"When I see Grandpa and Madison again?"
"I don't know."
Jake rested his head back down, until their food came, but he had no appetite to eat anything. Elijah feeling just as guilty as his dad barely ate any of his food and just drank his juice. "Daddy, my tummy hurt."
"Why?" Jake asked.
"Don't know; it hurt after you said what I said to Nessie was bad."
"You're feeling guilty about saying it."
"How I make it go away?"
"By saying sorry."
"We say sorry now?"
"We should, but I don't think the Cullens will want us around. C'mon I don't feel like eating." Jake got to go boxes for their food and they went back to the car. "We can't go to anyone," Jake said to himself. Putting the car in drive, Jake drove around for another two hours thinking and having no particular destination to go to. Pulling into a gas station, he filled up the car and he and Elijah used the bathroom, before driving some more.
"Daddy where we going to sleep?" Elijah asked as he yawned. Outside day quickly faded into night and stars filled the darken sky. It wasn't snowing, but it was extremely cold outside. Jake knew they couldn't sleep in the car all night and only had enough money on him to afford a motel room. He drove for a few minutes, before he found a rundown motel. It was the typical place that inspired horror movies, but Jake didn't care as long as it was warm.
"Daddy, why don't we go to Grandpa's house?" Elijah asked as he explored the dingy one bed motel room. The place smelled like disinfectant spray, had peeling wall paper and a rat could be heard in the walls. Looking under the bed, he saw a condom laying there along with some white stuff in it. Disgusted he climbed on the bed.
"Because me and Grandpa had a fight and we won't be seeing him for awhile." Not going into any more detail, Jake collapsed on the bed and curled himself into a ball. Even with life looking up for him with a job, having Edward and two kids that loved him; it seemed that his life was still crashing.
"Daddy?"
Jake almost snapped at his son, but backed off at the last second. "What Elijah? Daddy is really tired and needs to get some rest right now."
"Nothing," he said climbing into Jake's arms. He was going to ask if they could call Nessie, but he could see that Jake's emotions were unstable at the moment. "Night Daddy."
"Night," Jake replied holding his son close. They both laid there, but neither could easily get to sleep.
As the night wore on, Jake sat wide awake on the bed looking down at Elijah. Since the motel was a few feet from a gas station; Jake left Elijah alone for a few minutes, while he picked up a pack of cigarettes, a new lighter, some cereal packets and a miniature bottle of whiskey. He drank the whiskey before he even got back to the room. Sitting outside, he started to smoke as he stared up at the sky. All he could think about was how he messed up everything.
Snowflakes slowly came down on him and the wind whipped his bare arms. He didn't go back in until he felt his fingertips go completely numb. Resting next to Elijah, he looked at the alarm clock, which read 4:00 am. He knew he wouldn't be able to sleep now, so he turned on the TV and watched early morning porn. The porn was nothing good, just a cheap movie from the 1970's that Jake didn't even get aroused off of. Switching the channel, he found infomercials. Eventually the infomercials were so boring that they caused Jake to go to sleep.
Three hours after Jake fell asleep; Elijah woke up and stared at the television. Knowing not to wake his daddy; he used the bathroom and explored the hotel room again until he found Jake's cell phone. Turning it on, it took a few seconds to warm up to reveal text messages, voice mails and missed calls. He put down the phone and ate his leftover burger for breakfast, as he did Jake's phone went off. Getting up, he answered it. "Hello."
"Elijah is that you?" asked Edward.
"Yep, hi Edward."
"Hi where is your daddy?"
"He's sleeping."
"Where are you at?"
"Don't know, we at a hotel."
"Give the phone to your dad."
"Okay." Elijah climbed on the bed and started to shake Jake. "Daddy, Edward want to talk to you."
Mumbling something incoherent, Jake woke up enough to take the phone. "Hello," he mumbled.
"Jake, I've been trying to reach you and so have Alice and your friends." He had called the house again yesterday, and Alice told him about what had happened and how Jake wasn't answering his phone.
"My phone has been off. Let me guess you're calling because of Nessie."
"Yes, Alice told me that she broke down after you left. You knew she would do something like that, why didn't you go back last night?"
"I thought about it, but I needed to get a lot of thinking done. I'm going to go back today."
"Okay, I'm coming into town sometime tomorrow. I need to go."
"Alright, I'll see you soon."
"Jake, I love you."
"Love you to, bye." Jake hung up and stared at his phone. Not wanting to, but he did he read all of his text messages and listened to the voicemails that were left for him. The guilt that he felt became bigger. "Elijah c'mon let's go."
"Where Daddy?"
"To the Cullens."
Her dreams were full of nightmares that caused Nessie not to sleep good, sitting at the kitchen table; her eyes drooped as she stared at her lunch Because of the huge knot in her stomach, she couldn't eat. She had been forced to eat breakfast that she vomited immediately after the food hit her stomach. "Can I be excused?" she asked.
"Honey please eat something," said Esme.
"I can't or I'll throw up again."
"Okay, go lay down."
Jumping from her seat, Nessie ran to her room and fell on the bed. Taking out the bracelet Jake gave to her, she stared at it. She knew Jake would ask for it back. She curled into the fetal position and tried to think of some way to say sorry to Jake, but couldn't come up with anything.
As she laid in her room, Jake finally came back to the house and forced himself to ring the doorbell. Alice ran to answer and smacked Jake when she saw him. "Finally you came back," she said.
"And I didn't expect to get slapped," Jake said holding his cheek.
"That's for being an asshole."
"I don't appreciate you assaulting me and cursing at me in front of my son."
"Sorry, she's in her room, get your butt up there and apologize."
"Okay, you're scary for someone so small."
"GO!" she shouted pointing at the staircase.
Jake nodded and ran upstairs to Nessie's room. Taking a few deep breathes; he entered and silently closed the door behind him. Nessie sat up and stared at him. "Hey," he said. She didn't say anything, so he sat on the bed next to her. "I'm going to make this quick. I don't hate you and I'm sorry about what I said."
"You do hate me," she said.
"No I don't. The reason I got so mad yesterday was because I was already upset with someone else and I took my frustration out on you."
"No, you hate me," she cried burying her head into her pillow.
"I don't! Nessie, I understand why you hit Elijah. He called you a bad word."
She sat up. "Daddy used to call Mommy that a lot and she would get angry."
"Of course she would, that would is a bad way to describe anyone. Elijah heard it plenty of times, but I never told him not to say it, because he never did."
"Is he in trouble?"
"Yes, but you have to understand he didn't know what he was saying. He's still a toddler and is still learning a lot. You're a big girl and know better not to hit him."
"I'm sorry," she said.
Jake took her into his arms. "And I'm sorry again for being an idiot. I should have heard your side of the story, before I walked out. Can you tell me what happened yesterday?"
She let out a small sob. "Well I was watching cartoons and Elijah came and said that he had a secret that he couldn't tell me. He said it was something special from Santa. And I told him Santa wasn't real and I called him stupid. Then he called me the word."
It took a few seconds for Jake to digest what she just told him. "Nessie, I am sorry about what I said, but you had no right to call Elijah or anyone stupid and then you went and destroyed his faith in Santa."
"But Santa isn't real."
"To Elijah, he is. And Elijah needs someone good to believe in."
"But he needs to know that the fat man lies. He didn't get me what I wanted for Christmas."
"And what was that?"
"My daddy. That's all I wanted was for him to come."
"It was going to be a surprise for you, but your daddy is coming," Jake revealed.
"What?"
"He's coming tomorrow that's the secret that Elijah knew about."
Nessie gulped. "I'm evil," she whispered.
"No, you just didn't know all the facts. You, me and Elijah all made mistakes yesterday; we have to apologize to each other and go on with our lives. Nessie, you're like my little girl and I never want to hurt you like that again. Do you forgive me?"
Tears ran down her face now that she knew she was like Jake's daughter. "Yes, I'm sorry," she sobbed.
"Hey don't cry," he said stroking her hair. "Hey I'm going to get Elijah, so he can apologize to him."
"Alright."
Jake ran downstairs and came back with Elijah. "What do you say to Nessie?"
Elijah lowered his head. "I'm sorry I called you a bad word," he said.
Nessie gave him a hug. "Sorry for calling you stupid. Santa is real. Your daddy told me that Santa was bringing my gift."
"Told you," Elijah gloated. "I told you; I told you. Santa is real and he bringing your daddy. Daddy when Edward coming?"
"Tomorrow," Jake replied.
"Jake is my daddy really coming for me? Nessie asked.
"Yes he is," Jake lied.
"Okay, do you think I should wear my new dress to see Daddy?"
A sheepish grin came across his face as he gave off an embarrassed laugh. He didn't know much about little girl dresses. "Sure, a new dress will be fine."
It took hours of arguing with his agent and other important people in the tour and having to pay thousands of dollars, but Edward finally made his way to Forks after telling everyone that the reason he was leaving was because of a family emergency. Driving recklessly in his rental car, Edward pulled in front of his parents' house and got out. He wouldn't be staying for too long, only enough to sort out the tour situation with Jake and hopefully convince the younger man to stay and that his parents were perfectly capable of taking care of Elijah.
Getting out of the car, he got his stuff and walked into the house. Before he could go into the living room, a small bundle attached herself to his leg. He looked down to see Nessie smiling up at him. Since she found out that he would be coming, she had positioned herself at the front window for hours waiting for him to appear. The only time she left was when she had to use the bathroom or was forced to go to sleep and eat.
"Daddy, I missed you. I got you a pretty present and Grandma helped me make brownies for you," she said delighted that he had finally arrived.
He ruffled her hair. "That's good," he said barely paying attention to her. "Where's Jake?" he asked looking around for the other man.
"Right here," Jake said walking towards him with Elijah in his arms. Edward smiled as he gave them both kisses on the cheek. Nessie watching the whole thing let go of Edward and got a sad look upon her face. "You got here fast."
"Well I really needed to talk to you and you have a bad tendency not to answer your phone. But I forgive you."
"Thanks I think. You never told me how long you'll be staying."
"I only have a couple days, hopefully enough to talk with you about everything. Let me talk to my family and then I'll take you out to eat."
"In Forks where everybody knows each other?" Jake asked sarcastically.
"No in Port Angeles and I have a disguise," Edward said kissing Jake on the cheek. "Anyway give me a couple hours."
"Alright."
Edward smiled and walked off to find his siblings and parents. Jake put Elijah on the ground and followed him.
Standing there Nessie tried to hold her emotions back, but it was becoming too difficult of a task. Her daddy barely noticed her and kissed Jake and Elijah, but not her. He didn't notice her new dress, or how her hair was done by Alice. He noticed nothing. For the first time since she met Jake and Elijah, hate consumed her small heart. Not only for them, but for the man, she called Daddy.
Elijah being a silently observer, saw how Nessie clenched her fists and shook with anger. Knowing it wasn't the best time to talk to her, ran off to be with his daddy.
Nessie watched him go and slammed her fists into the hardwood floors, until she felt something crack. Standing up, she ran off to the bathroom and locked herself inside. In there, she put her fingers under cold water and then wrapped the crack one with a band-aid. Going back out, she entered the kitchen where Edward was snacking on the brownies that she baked while he talked with Emmett and Jasper.
Jake noticed the band-aids but didn't say anything; he was too busy trying to get out of Edward's lap, but the older man insisted that he sat there.
"So bro," said Emmett. "When you come to Chicago can I get free tickets for this girl that I like?"
"Sure and I'll throw in backstage passes. She better not be hot, or I might have to sleep with her."
"Hey!" Emmett and Jacob said at the same time.
"What? Just joking. I wouldn't cheat on you, Jake," Edward said kissing Jake's cheek. "These brownies are good, who baked them?"
"Nessie did," Jake replied.
Looking around, Edward saw his daughter glaring up at him with the same look of hate that he had seen on Bella plenty of times. "They're good," he said to her ruffling her hair again. "Did Esme teach you how to bake?"
"Yes sir," she said her expression slowly changing from anger to happiness.
"Good at least you're getting my talent in cooking," he said stuffing another brownie into his mouth. "I need to stop eating these or I'll get fat."
"You could never be fat," said Emmett.
"Hey you never know with me eating all these damn brownies. Luckily my agent doesn't watch my weight like a hawk."
"Well if you do get fat, I will quit college and be your personal trainer."
"Good to know. Where is Alice at?"
"She's with Seth," Jake said.
"Who's Seth?"
"My friend Leah's little brother, they kind of hit it off well at the party."
Edward's left eyebrow went up. "She's a big girl," he said praying that she wasn't promiscuous. "C'mon Jake, we need to talk." Wiping his hands on a napkin, Jake and Edward went upstairs. Once in Edward's room, the door was closed and Edward attacked Jake's lips. "God, I missed you."
"It's only been a few days," Jake said pulling away.
"A few days to long, every minute without you is agonizing. Plus I wonder what you're up to and if anyone is trying to hurt you." His fingers brushed Jake's hair away from his face to reveal bruises. "Did Paul give you these?"
"Yes. He also kicked me in the testicles, if you want to know?"
"What? Oh my god, Jake." Not giving Jake anytime to react, Edward pulled down his pants and expected his balls. They were bruised, but nothing serious. "What else did he did do?"
Jake pulled up his pants. "He bit me on the cheek, tackle me and punched me."
"He bit you? Did he start the fight?"
"No I did, because he called Elijah a faggot and then admitted that he spanked him. I couldn't take that shit."
"Does your dad know he did that?"
"I guess not and I don't really care. He let that bastard hit my child and I'm not about to tolerate that. Once he comes to his senses and figures out that he needs to kick Paul out, then it would be alright. Then my sister is sticking up for Paul, like he is a saint," Jake explained. "No way is Elijah going back there."
"I understand, but I still want you to come back to the tour. Let my parents watch Elijah."
Jake rolled his eyes. "I like your parents, but I don't trust them enough to watch my son. Look I'm sorry and I do love you, but I can't go back. Let me and Elijah heal with each other for awhile."
A sigh of frustration came from Edward. "I don't want you to heal by yourself," he said.
"If you love me then you'll let me."
"I do love you, but people can't heal by themselves; they need someone supportive by their sides. That's why I want you near me. I know I'm not perfect, but I do want to be there for you." Edward took Jake's face in his heads and kissed his forehead. "I hate Damian for damaging you, so much. Why did you allow it?"
"Because I thought I was in love, but I can say the same back to you. Why did you put up with Bella for so long? Obviously she damaged Nessie in some way and she made you an over protective douche bag to people you love."
"I was overprotective way before I met you, especially with growing up with Alice. Just like you said that you loved Damian. I loved Bella at one point and just like Damian, her true colors started to come out. Look we've been over this before. I've told you why I loved Bella, but I don't anymore. Our relationship went downhill years ago. Now all I have to show for it is a daughter that might not be mine."
"Then get a fucking paternity test!" Jake yelled. "If you hate her so much, find out who her real dad is and stick her with him."
"I will when I have to damn time," Edward retorted. I can't exactly do it right now when I'm leaving soon. I didn't come here for her. Anyway did you find out why she hit Elijah?"
"Because he called her a bitch, after she said that Santa wasn't real, because you didn't show up on Christmas day."
"Well I showed up, so now her claims are false."
"You haven't paid any attention to her, since you've been back."
"I did compliment her brownies. Besides I didn't come here for her, but for you. For what Carlisle has been telling me, she's fine here. After the tour, I'm going to have her stay here permanently."
"You can't be serious?" Jake asked feeling frustrated at his boyfriend.
"I very much am. Look with my life; I don't want her exposed to it anymore than she already is. Besides she needs a stable environment. After the tour, I'm going to be busy with promoting the movie and taking more acting jobs. I'm not going to have enough time to spend with her."
"What about me? What if our relationship lasts after the tour? You won't have any damn time to spend with me or Elijah. What are you going to do drop us off somewhere and forget about us?"
"No, I'm willing to come out to the world with you by my side. It would be difficult with all my fans, but I do want people to know that I love you."
"I couldn't do that now."
"I know that and I'm not about to force you to be in the public eye if you're not ready. It's hard being there, your privacy is going to be very limited."
"Let's not talk about it."
"Alright."
They were silent for a few seconds. "We still have to talk about Nessie," Jake said.
"No," Edward said. "Let's talk about you. You've made up your mind about not coming back. I hate the idea, but I am going to respect it. However there is one thing you need to do for me, while you're back in L.A."
"What?"
"Remember what we talked about? You seeing a counselor. If you don't want to see Carlisle's friend, I can set you up with someone else."
"I rather be with someone that doesn't have too much connection with your family."
"Understood, I have Carlisle make a referral for someone else. Do you want a male or female?"
"Female, so do I have to do anything else?"
"Find a healthy hobby and a job where will people respect you, but even if you don't find a job. I don't care."
"I should go back to school. I kind of dropped out when things were getting bad. If I do this, then you have to do something," Jake said.
"What?"
"Let Nessie live with me and Elijah. Not that your parents aren't great, but she needs me and Elijah to feel like we're a family. If you need an alibi just say that I'm her new nanny. Male nannies are the new trend and since you are supposedly straight there is no temptation for you to sleep with me."
"Makes sense, but I don't know."
"Why not? I'm sure people have seen me with Nessie before; it's a good excuse. She'll be in school all day and Elijah in daycare. So I'll have enough time to do therapy and go to school. I can take her to lessons and since I'll be technically her nanny; you'll be paying me, so I don't have to look for a job. I'll cook, clean and…"
"Basically act like a wife," Edward pointed out. "Alright we'll do the nanny thing. Anything else that you want?"
"To tell Nessie that you love her."
"Other than that."
"Do it Edward, if you have any hopes of me staying with you."
"You wouldn't."
"Yes, I would and you better fucking mean it to." Jake thought for a second before speaking again. "Instead of taking me out to dinner, take her."
"Jake, I came here…"
"I know for me. At least do this one thing."
"Alright," Edward said. "Damn you're stubborn."
"When it comes to people that I love than I am very stubborn. Now go downstairs and tell Nessie; you're taking her out to dinner," commanded Jake.
"Yes sir," Edward said sarcastically while saluting. Jake stuck out his tongue and ran out of the room. Sighing Edward followed him downstairs; where the kids were at playing a video game. "Nessie come here."
Nessie walked to her father with her head down. She knew he was going to say some about how she was ugly, because of her expressions earlier. She had stopped being angry with him, when he complimented her brownies. "Yes Daddy," she said.
"Put your shoes on, I'm taking you out for an early dinner. Just the two of us."
Nessie couldn't believe her ears. "Really Daddy?" she asked.
"Yes, now hurry up."
Beaming she got her shoes and winter coat. Jake made sure she was warm and then the two left.
The ride to Port Angeles was uneventful, mostly Edward and Nessie were quiet and only talked a few sentences, but Nessie didn't care. She was just happy that she got her daddy to herself. When they pulled up to the restaurant, Edward became the perfect gentleman, as he opened her door and escorted her inside the Kokopelli Grill, one of his favorite restaurants that he would have taken Jake, if the younger man hadn't insisted that he take Nessie.
The place wasn't too crowded since it was only 4:45 in the afternoon, but Edward knew it was going to be full soon. The waitress escorted them to their table, where Edward pulled Nessie's chair out for her. "Thank you Daddy," she said offering a small curtsy, something she learned from her etiquette lesions.
"You're welcome," he replied pushing her up to the table and then he sat down himself. "For drinks, give her a small lemonade and for me iced tea," he said to the waitress.
"Coming up right up sir," the waitress said. "You look familiar, do I know you?"
"I doubt it," he replied. Of course she would, I'm a fucking celebrity, he thought.
"Oh, well I'll be right back," she said walking away.
Edward sighed as he looked across at Nessie, who was swinging her legs under the table. "So how is living with Carlisle and Esme?" he asked trying for some conversation.
"Okay," she replied. "But I never get to see Elijah."
"Well you'll get to see him more, because Jake is taking you back to L.A. with him, so he can be your nanny."
Nessie's eyes lit up at the news. "Are you going to come back to?"
"Sorry, but I'll still be on tour, but if I can. I'll come visit."
Before he could say anything else, the waitress came back for with their drinks. "Have you decided what you want?"
"Yes," he said. Can I have the Tequila Orange chicken, with a small Caesar salad and the mashed potatoes? And for her the grilled shrimp with the mashed potatoes."
"Coming right up sir," she said writing down the order.
"Do you still like shrimp?"
"Yes Daddy, but I'm not going to eat all of it," Nessie said.
"You can take it home and share with Elijah. Or knowing Emmett, he'll try to eat it." Edward eyed their waitress coming back. "Is there a problem?"
"No, but you're Edward Cullen right?"she asked. After she put in the order, it took hearing someone's cell phone go off with one of Edwards's songs as a ringtone to jog her memory.
"Yes."
"I knew it was you; I saw you in Seattle. If you don't mind, can I have a picture?"
"Sure."
"Oh my god, thank you." She pulled out her cell phone and took a picture with him. "Thank you so much." She squealed and ran off to go call her friends.
"Daddy why does that happen?" Nessie asked embarrassed.
"Because people have nothing else better to do," he replied taking a sip of his drink. Looking over, he saw more people approaching them. With a heavy sigh, he received them and signed autographs and had pictures taken. This went on until their waitress came back with an appetizer. "I didn't order this."
"I know," she giggled. "But it's free from our chef, who is a big fan of yours." She walked away leaving Edward to deal with more fans.
One woman that came up gave Edward a huge kiss and asked if he would marry her, which he declined. Another woman asked if she could adopt Nessie, which was met with a definite no. Others came up inquiring about Bella. One person came up begging for him to autograph her two year old child.
Eventually the crowd began to fizzle down, leaving Edward and Nessie alone, but that's only when the main course had came. Neither of them had touched the appetizer. Nessie was depressed because of Edward's fans, plus it was a little unnerving eating in front of a bunch of people. "Daddy can we leave?" Nessie asked.
"Sure," he replied, turning to the waitress, he requested that they get their food in to go boxes. Once their food came back, he paid the bill and the two left.
In the car, they drove in silence for awhile, until Edward finally spoke. "I'm sorry that our dinner turned into a disaster."
"It's okay Daddy, a lot of people really love you. Daddy do you hate me?" she asked staring straight ahead. She was afraid to look at Edward.
"Why would you ask that?" he asked.
"Because there were times that you told Mommy that you did and I remember before Mommy went crazy. I heard you two fighting and you wished I was dead and that you would dance on my grave."
The memory of that fight sent dread through Edward. "I did say that, but I didn't mean it. I was angry with your mother," he said.
"Do you want me to die?"
"Of course not. Sometimes adults say things that they don't mean when they're angry at a person that they hate."
"So you hate me?"
"I don't hate you. I hate your mother, but not you."
"Then how do you feel about me?"
"I love you, just in my own way. Look you know we're not close."
Nessie nodded. "Because of your work and Mommy. Mommy told me a lot that I should hate you, because you're not my really Daddy. She said that my real daddy is a better man then you and you're nothing but a faggot."
Edward flicked her on the arm. "What have I told you about that word?"
"But that's what she said. She's said a lot of other bad words about you."
"Did she ever say who your real father is?"
"She guessed it was someone by the name of James. She said that I looked like him and had his personality."
Thinking, nobody with the name of James came to Edward's mind. Then it hit him, James was about three years older than him and was known as the bad boy of Forks. He was a sadist, but Edward couldn't see that in Nessie's personality. Edward cringed at the fact that James could possibly be her father. Being a sadist, he loved causing other's pain and there were numerous stories floating around how rough James was at sex. James was very much like Damian in terms of personality; they didn't care about what they did to other people. Knowing James might be Nessie's father pissed him off.
"Don't ever believe that James is your real father, because I am," he said without thinking. "And never consider Bella your mother anymore, because only Jake should be considered like your mom."
"What do you mean?" she asked confused. "How is he going to be my mommy?"
"When the time is right, Jake and I are going to be married."
Nessie squealed. "When are you going to purpose?"
"I don't know; don't tell him about my plans. Anyway when you live with him; you have to help him a lot with Elijah and be a good big sister."
"I won't let you down Daddy," she said hugging him. Smiling she closed her eyes and fell asleep thinking about Jake being her new mommy.
When they got home, Edward took Jake to his room, so that they could talk. "How was dinner?" Jake asked.
Edward shrugged. "Got mobbed by a bunch of fans that wouldn't let us eat anything. Anyway, I told Nessie that she would be living with you and Elijah. She is more than willing to help out with Elijah, while you go to counseling. I'll have my assistant set up enrolling Nessie back into school and other things."
"Okay."
"You know I never gave you a gift." Edward went to his gab and pulled out a box. "Here."
Opening the box, Jake saw a silver chain with his initials on it and Elijah's birthstone. "Thanks, I thought it was going to be a ring for a minute."
"I know you don't want to get married and at this time; I can't even think about handling the pressure of marriage. One day, hopefully we could get married."
"Thanks for the gift; I have to give you mine now." Pushing Edward on the bed, Jake straddled his waist and started to kiss him as his hands explored Edward's body.
"Jake, you don't have to do anything."
"No, I owe you something."
"You don't owe me anything, so stop."
"Shut up and let me do this," Jake said pulling off Edward's shirt. He rubbed the older man's nibbles and then started to suck on them.
Edward stifled a moan, as he ran his fingers through Jake's hair. Blood rushed to his groin as Jake mouth kept sucking. However something in the back of his mind was telling him that Jake was only doing this, because he thought it was the only thing that he could do to repay Edward. If he let Jake go any farther then it could be detrimental to him getting better. However his penis was telling him something different. It ached wanting Jake to suck it, but Edward's brain won and he lifted Jake off of him.
"What?"
Edward sat up and stroked his cheek. "I know you're not ready to do anything sexual to me."
"Yes I am," Jake lied.
"No you're not. Jake giving me your body doesn't have to be a present. All I ask for is your love. Tell me the truth are you comfortable doing sexual things to me."
"No, but you're the dominant one in our relationship."
"No we're equals and don't ever forget that. Besides if we had gone farther, I think the whole house would hear my moans. Besides, I like giving you pleasure." Edward leaned in and started to suck on Jake's neck.
Jake let out a deep moan. "How far are you going to go?"
"I won't suck you off, but I do want you to mess your pants. Can I touch you down there?"
"Yes."
Edward smiled as he slipped his hand into Jake's shorts. "Tell me to stop if you feel uncomfortable."
"Ok." Leaning back, Jake grew hot as Edward masturbated him. Edward's skillful hands massaged his penis and then began to pump him vigorously, before he even knew it; Jake orgasmed and fell back on the bed. "Shit you're good."
Edward took his hand out to lick Jake's cum. "Good to know, next time I'll make it better," he smirked.
A/N- How was the chapter? I'm coming up with a new story, so it might be release in the next couple weeks.
Next Chapter-A short time skip that contains Bella coming back into the story, Jake deals with pretending to be Nessie's nanny and other things.