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Nothing was ever quiet as Jake tried to type out an essay. It was late afternoon and Jake was already at his breaking point. "Daddy, Nessie bugging me," yelled Elijah running into the living room at top speed.

"No I'm not," replied the girl yelling as well. "He won't share his Legos. I want to build a castle."

The two stopped and started to yell at each other.

"Mine!"

"No!"

"Yes!"

"No!"

"Stop!" Jake shouted covering his ears with his hands. He already had a massive headache and the kids fighting wasn't helping it one bit. "Elijah share."

A frown crossed the child's face. "Mine," he said defiantly.

Not liking his son's stubborn attitude, Jake got up, went to the bedroom and took out the Legos. He then put them in a cupboard and locked it. "Now no one plays with them."

"Not fair," cried Nessie.

"I don't care, now both of you go and do something quiet."

"No, want Legos," cried Elijah. "I want! I want!"

"And I said no."

"Yes," he screamed. "I want, I want. Bad Daddy." Seeing that Jake wasn't responding to his words, Elijah screwed up his face, fell on the floor and started to throw a temper tantrum. "My toys," he wailed.

Nessie angry about the situation felt like she was going to cry. "He's being bad, can I play with them?"

"No!" Jake replied.

"But I want to," she screamed.

"And I said no."

She grew red in the face, as she fell on the ground and started to throw a tantrum. "You're mean."

The terrible headache Jake already had started to become more painful as the kids screamed their lungs out. Not wanting to be bothered, he went on to the balcony, closing the sliding glass door behind him. Feeling his phone vibrate in his pocket, moaning to himself he answered it. "Hello."

"Hey Jake," came Edward's cheerfully voice.

"What do you want?" Jake snapped.

"Did I do something?"

"No, sorry. Nessie and Elijah are both throwing fits over some toy and I have a headache."

"Sorry."

"When are you coming to visit?"

"I don't know."

"Can you come now? It's been over a month since I last saw you."

"Sorry Jake, you know I can't."

"Can you at least try, please?"

Guilt ran through Edward as he heard Jake sob over the phone. "Jake, I can't just drop everything to leave, not after last time. Tell me what's wrong? Nothing can be that bad."

Fresh tears started to run down Jake's face. "You're wrong. You're not raising two kids by yourself."

"But at least you're not struggling financially."

"That's not the point. They may get along, but they like to fight with each other, then they both throw a fit when they can't get their way. Nessie is constantly talking about you coming back, and they are both picky eaters. All of that combined with Nessie's activities, our therapy and college is wearing me down. Life is hell right now."

"Jake everything will be okay. I promise."

"You always fucking say that; you don't have to spend your days with two kids under the age of seven. Elijah was hard enough as it is, adding Nessie into the mix with her need of constant attention is exhausting. I can't do anything for myself; I barely even see my friends."

"You'll manage."

"Fuck you."

"Jake don't be upset, life is always hard. You of all people know that and life will start to pick up."

"Come back at least for a day please."

"Look I'll try my best, but I'm already taking a few days off to visit my brother Jasper. And then I have to go overseas. I won't be back in the states for another month."

Streams of tears ran down Jake's face, as he thought of the possibility that he was truly alone raising two kids. Carlisle and Esme couldn't help, because they were in Washington. Alice had her own life in college. His sisters were raising their own kids, his dad wouldn't accept him, Quil and Embry also had their own lives along with Edward's other siblings. "You can't do this to me."

"Jake calm down I'm not doing anything."

"Yes you are. You don't give a fuck about my feelings."

"Of course I do, but I can't just drop everything to be at your side every time you have a problem."

"You did before."

"Yes and those times the threat of being sued or losing millions of dollars was not hanging over my head. Jake, I'm sorry, but you're going to have tough it out on your own for the next few weeks. The minute the tour is over, I'll be right at your side." Hearing a beeping sound on his cell, Edward had a call coming in from Tanya, knowing he needed to answer it he wrapped things up with Jake. "Hey I got an important call coming in; I'll call you later bye."

"Wait." But it was too late, Edward had hung up. Wiping away his tears, Jake went back inside where the two were still throwing tantrums. Feeling pissed about Edward and his whole situation; he picked up a glass vase and threw it against a wall.

The shattering glass made the kids stop and stare at Jake like he was possessed.

In a voice barely above a whisper Jake said, "Both of you go to your room." Not having to be told twice, the kids ran out. Feeling physically ill, Jake pushed cleaned up the glass, before he fell on the floor and started to sob. The whole point of being with Edward was to be happy, but he wasn't even close to that emotion.

Hearing his daddy cry, Elijah slowly crept out of his room and went to him. "Daddy don't cry, I'll be good," the child said feeling tears well up. When he didn't get a response, he wiped some of Jake's tears away. "Daddy, I sorry. Daddy." Jake's arms wrapped around him and pulled him close. "Daddy."

Jake just kept silent as he held his son. Eventually Elijah buried his head in his daddy's chest feeling extremely guilty about what he did.

A few minutes went by before anything was said. "Elijah."

"Yes Daddy?"

"I'm a failure," he whispered.

Elijah didn't know what failure meant, but by the tone of Jake's voice he knew it wasn't good. He just kept quiet as Jake started to rock him.

Nessie hearing Jake's sobs went out and stood by him, feeling her near, he wrapped his arm around her waist and pulled her close. Loving the affection she was getting from him, she rested against him. "Jake, I'm sorry," she said.

"Don't apologize," he replied.

"Jake."

"Yes?"

"Do you love me?"

"Yes and I always will; you're my little girl."

Fresh tears sprang to her eyes, knowing for the first time that she will be always be loved by someone. In the back of her mind, Nessie denounced Bella as her parent and replaced the spot with Jake.

The depressive mood that filled the room was making Jake anxious, knowing it was affecting the kids; he stood up. "C'mon and let's do something fun."

"What?" Elijah asked.

"We'll find something."

A look of disgust crossed Jasper's face as he read about the medical experiments by Dr. Josef Mengele. He didn't want to think about what would have happened to him and Rosalie if they were taken to a concentration camp during World War II. Sighing he kept reading as he waited for Edward backstage of Richardson Auditorium, where Edward was providing a small free concert and a Q&A session. Jasper having no interest in hearing his brother answer questions, decided to prepare for his next class discussion by reading.

"Jasper."

Lifting his head from his book, he saw Edward approaching him with an attractive woman on his arm. "Hello Edward," he said standing up.

Edward hugged his brother. "Did I keep you waiting long? People wouldn't stop asking questions."

"Of course not, I was just reading for class."

"Always studious, that's why you're the smart one of the family. Are you ready to go back to your apartment?"

"Yes, are you sure that you have enough time to spend with me before going to Europe?"

"Yes, I had to cancel a few unimportant things. Besides we haven't been in the same room for awhile.

"Yeah," Jasper said. May I ask who you are with?"

"Oh, Jasper meet Tanya," Edward said.

"Pleasure to meet you," he said holding out his hand.

Smiling she shook it. "Hello, I have heard a lot about you."

An uneasy feeling filled Jasper as he looked at her. The last time he talked to Edward, he said nothing about bringing someone with him. If he had, Jasper would have anticipated Jacob.

Edward spoke up, "Tanya is a friend of mine that will be traveling with me for the rest of the tour." Or in better terms, Tanya became a part of the tour to stay near Edward, for possessive reasons. She figured that they would make the perfect couple. And everything she wanted in life will come true. She even took a break from school to follow him. Edward's understanding of her accompanying him was to have someone to fuck on the side and still continue his long distance relationship with Jacob. He had no intentions of entering a relationship with her. "Tanya are you okay going back to the hotel by yourself, while I hang with Jasper?"

"I'm a big girl Edward," she replied, kissing him on the cheek. "It was a pleasure to meet you Jasper."

"The pleasure is mine."

With a smile she walked off to catch the limo back to the hotel.

"C'mon I'm starved," Edward announced.

Nodding Jasper had Edward follow him to his apartment which was a short walk off campus. As they walked neither said too much, until Jasper felt that they wouldn't be heard once they reached his home. Once inside he whipped up some food and served some wine. "I thought you were involved with Jacob?" he finally asked.

A blush crept on Edward's face. "I still am; Tanya is just someone to have on the side."

"For sex?"

"Yes, since Jake won't do anything with me."

"Does he know about her?"

"No and I plan to keep it that way for awhile. Besides with the shit storm being a gay celebrity; Tanya is a cover."

"He's going to be pissed when he finds out."

"He won't find out; I'll eventually tell him about the cover thing."

"You're an asshole."

"Why?"

"Because you're leading him on. If you really cared about him and respected his feelings you wouldn't be sleeping with Tanya."

"Jasper, you of all people know that I need physical love. Jake won't give it to me thanks to his ex-boyfriend. Tanya is nothing more than sex, when the time comes; I'll drop her.

"Then you're not being fair to her either."

"Stop trying to guilt trip me Jasper. I know what I'm doing," Edward smirked taking a sip of wine.

Jasper knew playing chess with two people's lives was going to end tragically. "And it's going to bite you in the ass in the end. It always does. But I'm not going to tell you what you should do," he said giving up.

"Good, so tell me about your love life."

"Non existent. You know I want to focus on school, before committing myself to someone. How's Bella?"

"Still psychotic. I don't speak with her."

"What about Nessie do they speak?"

"Sometimes. Going back home anytime soon?"

"No, but I am going to L.A. soon to visit Alice and I'll make sure to see Nessie and Jake while I'm there."

"Okay do that."

"I will."

"Good." Edward ran his head through his hair. "Jasper please don't say anything to Jake about Tanya."

"I won't and it's not my business to tell him. Do you really care about him?"

"Yes, I do." he sighed. "It's just I know he has problems that won't easily clear up and I have tried my hardest to get him to trust me."

"But once he finds out that trust will go out the window. Stop being a selfish brat for once Edward. Years ago you said you would never cheat on Bella, but you did multiple times."

"That's different she was cheating on me to, which resulted in Renesmee."

"Who you never got a DNA test for," Jasper pointed out. "She could be yours, but I'm not going to discuss this."

"Good, I rather not talk about her. Besides we're suppose to spending time together," Edward said.

Taking a quite sip of her coffee, Alice walked out of the student coffee shop across to the bookstore to pick a copy of Imitation of Life by Fannie Hurst. Do to laziness and not being fully prepared for the challenges of college school work; she was failing English. Luckily her teacher, who was a fan of Edward's, agreed to give her a chance to bring up her grade by writing a seven page essay detailing the mother- daughter relationships in the book in regarding race.

After asking the person who ran the cash register, she was able to find the book fairly quickly. Not wanting to rush she browsed over to the magazine section and racked her eyes over them until she found one with a picture of Edward and some woman on the cover. Taking a quick peek at the title, she was almost glad that the magazine was a tabloid, known for making up lies, but still she wanted to read what it said about Edward.

Opening it up to the middle, a picture of Edward greeted her with the caption. A New Woman for Edward.

Edward Cullen, one of the world's most renewed musicians has been seen in the company of Tanya Denali. She is the sister of Kate Denali, a supermodel. The two have been seen together at two events and a concert that Edward threw at Princeton University. Sources have confirmed that the two act lovingly towards each other. Does this mean that Edward is officially done with Bella? Given her psychotic break down, our answer is yes. Hopefully Tanya will be better for Edward.

Alice clenched her teeth in irritation; she hoped that Edward wasn't involved with this woman. Not after Jacob had sacrificed so much. Thinking she hoped Jake hadn't seen the article or anything on TV or the internet. Quickly paying for her book, she ran outside and dialed Edward's number only to get his voice mail. "Edward, its Alice call me when you get free." Next she dialed Jacob's number, luckily she got him.

Jake who was in the middle of a nap, unhappily picked up his phone. It was one of the few times that he didn't have Nessie or Elijah bugging him. "Hello?" he mumbled.

"Hey Jake."

"Hi Alice, what do you want?"

"Have you heard from Edward?"

"No did something happen?"

"No just wondering. Um what are you doing in a few days?"

"Other than being a dad and a nanny, nothing."

"Good keep your schedule open. Jasper is coming into town and he wants to see you and Nessie. Do you know who Jasper is?"

It took his brain to register that name for a second. "Yes, I met him at Christmas. He was the real quiet one right?"

"Yes, he didn't go to the party with us and he had to leave early."

"I was going through so much shit; I didn't even notice that he left. "Okay, Alice is there anything else you want to tell me?"

"No, I have an essay to write. Bye."

"Bye." Shrugging he hung up the phone and checked the mail knowing that he wouldn't be able to get back to sleep anytime soon. Yawing he collected it and started to flip through. "Bill, bill, bill, Bella?" The letter was addressed to Nessie, feeling protective Jake opened it.

Hi Sweetheart,

Its mommy and I miss you very much. I miss talking to you and wanted you to know that I'm trying my hardest to get out of this place that your daddy sent me to. Once I leave we'll live together forever and never have to put up with your daddy's attitude again. Remember our special times, that will make you happy, since I know that dirty man that is taking care of you won't.

Write back soon.

Love,

Mommy

There is no way in hell Nessie is going to read this trash, Jake thought ripping up the letter. Who does that bitch thinks she is, calling me dirty. She doesn't know me. He let out a sigh, as he sat on the couch knowing that getting angry wasn't going to help anything. The television remote sat next to him, picking it up he turned on the TV only to be met with a celebrity talk show. Not caring too much, he watched until he started to nod off, but then Edward's name came up waking him back up.

A picture of Tanya and Edward popped up on the screen and the commentary implied that they were together.

Hot tears ran down Jake's face. He promised that he wouldn't cheat, he thought. He promised. How could I've been so damn stupid? He doesn't love me; he just wanted a damn babysitter. He clenched his fists in anger. Why? Why would he do this to me?

Reaching for the nearest item, which was the television remote, he threw it against the wall. An uneasy feeling ran through his body, not knowing what to do; he went into his bedroom and dug through his underwear drawer. At the bottom of it contained a small pill bottle. It's been months since he last took a pill, but now he didn't care anymore. Popping open the top, he swallowed two pills.

A wave of relief ran through his body, as he collapsed on the bed. Even with the relief; he started to cry. He still couldn't understand why Edward would hurt him like this.

Stop being a baby, his brain told him. You always anticipated that something would happen and now it is.

The tears stopped as Jake listened.

He hurt you, so hurt him back. Destroy him, make him beg for forgiveness.

He wiped the tears away as he sat up. Knowing what his brain was saying was right, he started to plan his revenge.

A/N- What will Jacob do?

Next Chapter- Coming soon