~ Soooo.. phew. This chapter was fun to write. Hah. I didn't know how to do it at the beginning, but I hope you all like it. ;}
~ It's a bit sad, though. :o
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Stefan's back leaned quietly against the wall of the hallway and he was totally concentrating on what Elena was about to say, but she was just stumbling around the actual topic.
Damn it, get on the point, Elena, Stefan thought.
A shudder made its way down Elena's spine. Could she really tell Katherine the biggest mistake of her whole life? And could she trust her to not tell it Stefan? Elena's head was spinning.
"C'mon, Elena! Tell me!" Katherine nudged Elena's hand with hers. And Elena sighed deeply. "Fine. But let me think for a moment..." Elena whispered.
"Why? Do you have to collect the memorize in your head?" Katherine snapped at her before Elena shot her a warning look.
Stefan bit the inside of his cheek. Maybe he should walk in, let her know he's here? It wasn't fair to her that he stood here, listening to what she has to say. But would she ever tell him? Probably not... So he kept his back pressed against the wall and continued his eavesdrop mission.
Katherine just sat there, in the water filled tub and waited for Elena to tell her that -oh-so-big- secret. She still felt like crap, but all this distracted her from how her body and her mind felt. Sore.
Another deep sigh jumped from Elena's lips, and she inhaled deeply before opening her eyes to look at Katherine, she was ready to tell her the whole story. No matter who Katherine was to Stefan or what she would think about Elena. Elena decided to tell her anything. She had to get it off of her shoulders.
"Sooo..." she let out a soft breath. "Where do I start?" she asked, more herself than Katherine.
Katherine leaned against the back of the bathtub, ready to listen to Elena. So did Stefan, he leaned back againsth the wall and focussed himself on Elena and her words.
And then Elena finally started. "So about one year ago, I was with this guy, Matt. We started dating some when in high school and it got more serious from time to time." she made a brief pause, looking at Katherine who had her eyes locked on Elena.
"Well, time passed and we moved together. He really loved me, I guess. But I..." she lifted her shoulders in a soft shrug while shaking her head a little. "I guess I didn't even know what love meant.. And even now.. I think I don't know what love is.. Maybe I'm not capable to love someone."
Katherine rolled her eyes in her head. Can't she skip that boring drivel and get on the point? But she didn't say anything, she just listened to Elena.
'I think I don't know what love is'? Ouch. That hurt Stefan a little. He kinda loved her.. Not love love.. But love.
Elena continued quietly. "Matt did everything for me, he was the perfect gentleman.. Just like Stefan, now." A small smile seemed to appear on Elena's lips by all the memories.
"But Matt.. He had this friend. His best friend actually." Elena's lips immediately sunk and the small smile on her lips vanished. Her face tensed a little and she had to bite her lip to stifle another sigh.
Stefan knew where this was going but he just couldn't move.
"His name was Tyler.. And there was a time where Matt was always working.. and I felt so alone and.." she couldn't bring the words over her lips and she already felt a tear filling her eyes when Katherine finished what Elena was about to say, "And you slept with his best friend..."
Katherine's lips twitched up into a dark smirk, she adored Elena in this moment. Not even Katherine had done something like this before. Woah. And the little innocent Elena? She betrayed the man that loved her the most with his best friend.
Elena nodded, her whole face had sunken, she looked so sad. "Yes.." she said guiltily and quiet as a mouse.
A tear rolled down Elena's cheek and dropped in the water of the bathtub.
"Matt came home and caught me and Tyler in his bed." she finished and a soft sob escaped her.
Stefan was sitting on the ground by now. His eyes closet and he was frowning to himself.
His Elena? A cheating bitch? No, please not. His mind drove randomly around. What now?
He hated cheating more than anything. And then with the best friend of your boyfriend? He was disgusted with her. He couldn't think clear right now. He abominated his own girlfriend right now. He couldn't even think about facing her right now, so he just kept sitting there.
"Don't tell it Stefan, please!" Elena muttered.
"I won't, are you crazy.. I promised you I wouldn't!" Katherine said, nodding quickly.
"Okay. And how do you feel?" Elena said, her voice was ditched in sadness and she just wasn't able to curve her lips up into at least a little smile. No. She was almost pouting, right now.
"Okay. Better, a little. I wonder where Stefan stays.." Katherine answered with a light shrug. She wouldn't let Elena know how awfully destroyed she felt at this moment.
"Do you need anything, Katherine?" she asked kindly, standing up from the ground and wiping her cheek.
"A towel and new clothes would be great.." Katherine said, nodding at Elena.
Elena nodded back at Katherine and turned around to walk out of the room. Katherine was right, where the hell was Stefan? He said he'd leave for a few minutes, now it's already been half an hour and Katherine and Elena were still alone home.
The second Elena stepped out of the bathroom her question was answered. Stefan was there, in front of her, sitting on the ground, leaned against a wall and he didn't look at her.
"Stefan?" Elena was shocked to see him. How long had he been sitting there? Had he heard what she said?
Stefan shifted his eyes up to meet Elena's. His face was so cold, he had heard what she told Katherine, Elena was sure.
Elena's heart sunk into her stomach. "I..I can explain it.." she stuttered out helplessly.
But Stefan just turned his head away. "Get lost, Elena." he said without anything else. "Just go."
No. No. No. No. No. No. No. Nooo. He couldn't kick her out. What no! She needed him!
"Stefan... please..!" Elena murmured and she bend down to him. "...C-Can't we.. Talk.. about it?"
More tears welled up in Elena's eyes and she couldn't keep them in bay anymore. One made slowly its way down, out of the corner of Elena's eye, over to her nose.
He couldn't let her go. He was all she was living for right now. He made her happy. And now, in less than one minute she had ruined it all. She broke his heart and he broke hers. But why? It was the past! Let the past be the past!
Stefan didn't want to turn his head, he didn't want to face her, to see her beautiful face cry and that soft lips pouting sadly. He couldn't stand that. He didn't want to hurt her like this. But how could he trust a girl that cheated on a man that loved her more than anything.
How could he be with a girl like that?
"St.. Stefan..." her voice wasn't even a whisper, nor a murmur. It was a wafer of nothing. It barely reached Stefan's ears.
And he then felt her fingers around his arm. Her touch was so careful, so full of guilt. And that even though she hadn't done it to him. Stefan shook his head and tucked his arm away from her hand, he needed time to think. He deserved time to think. She should have told him!
"Elena, please go..." he mumbled quietly, still avoiding to look at her now crying face.
A sob came from her and he winced at the sound. "Elena go!" he repeated his words, a little louder this time, and it hurt him. It hurt so much.
But Elena's arm reached for his arm again, searching for anything to hold on to while she was quietly whimpering. "Please.."
Enough. He had to make her leave. So he concentrated on his expression, he tried to look as careless as he could in this situation and turned his face to hers. "Get the fuck out of my house." He said, cold and regret less.
Elena's world had a break down. Everything inside of her just broke apart. And when she didn't move, she felt two strong hands grab her arms and pull her up.
She was now standing face to face with Stefan. Before he started to drag her down the hallway. Stefan wanted her out!
Elena was stumbling, whining, tears where freely running down her cheeks, her cries filled the air. She was almost screaming quietly from the pain that her heart caused in this moment.
The fuss caught Katherine's attention, she grabbed a towel and he climbed out of the bathtub, she needed a moment to steady herself on her feet because she was still dizzy as fuck. But then she was able to run, run after Stefan.
"What the hell are you doing to her?" Katherine yelled when she reached Stefan. She jumped in front of him, looking at the sobbing small heaps misery in his hands, Elena. She was a crying mess.
Even Stefan couldn't take it anymore. Seeing Elena like this, but what he supposed to do? Take her in his arms, make her a tea and cuddle her on the couch? After that confession? No, and she wouldn't go by herself.
Katherine hadn't seen a girl like this in a long time. Sobbing, destroyed and looking as if she'd fall apart every second. She was not even standing, she was just hanging in his arms, like a five year old that was too tired to stand. And she hadn't seen Stefan like this in a long time either. He never handled girls like this.
"Let her go!" Katherine demanded to him.
Stefan obeyed quickly, he pushed Elena gently towards Katherine until she was clinging onto her, sobbing into Katherine's bare shoulder. Stefan then turned around and vanished. "What the hell?" Katherine murmured to herself.
"He.. he.. he heard us, Katherine." Elena sobbed sadly into her shoulder.
"I see!" Katherine said quietly, looking after Stefan. She was worried for him, too.
"I'll drive you home, don't worry." Katherine said to Elena, smiling down on the broken girl in her arms.
- After Katherine brought Elena home -
Katherine re-entered the boarding house. "Stefan?" she yelled out for him.
And then Katherine heard a strange rushing sound and bubbling.. She frowned to herself and started walking, looking around for Stefan as she followed the weird noises.
Katherine's feet dragged her through the kitchen and out into the backyard. And then she found Stefan.
He was sitting in the whirlpool, his head was underwater but just for a moment before he came back up, bursting out, coughing and gasping for air.
Katherine eyed him for a moment. "There you are. I was looking for you.." she said.
Stefan turned to look at her. "Why?" He asked, without anything in his voice, no feelings.
Katherine just shrugged softly. "Don't know. I drove her home."
"Thank you." Stefan mumbled and sat back down into the water.
Katherine sighed. She wasn't good at calming people. She hated seeing him like this, though.
"Mind if I join?" She asked.. "Just you, me and a bottle of wine, maybe."
Stefan looked at her, she just had to be saved out of her own vomit because she drunk too much and she still looked like crap and now she wants wine? But he nodded.
"If you want, you can get a bottle, but just one, Kat!" He warned. And Katherine agreed.
She knew how to handle him.
- Two Days Pass -
Elena was curled up on her couch, blankets and pillows everywhere around her, the tv running, a bunch of old or only half eaten food from for two days ago all over her couch-table and used tissues all around the room, when her phone ringed. Please no, she wasn't in the mood to answer the phone now.
But she took it and looked at the display; 'Mrs Flowers'.
Crap. She hadn't walked Rusty in two days now. She cleared her throat and sniffled before she picked up.
"Hello? Mrs. Flowers?" she asked quickly, sniffling.
And a quiet, cute, old voice respond from the other side of the phone. "Hello, darling. How are you, honey?"
A little but weak smile appeared on Elena's lips. "I'm okay." she answered.
"But you sound like a little child that has lost her Teddy bear, baby." Mrs Flowers said, and Elena heard her smiling through the phone.
"It's nothing. Just a man." Elena said, trying to hide her actual sadness.
"Well, honey. Rusty my baby misses you.. Why don't you come over and tell me which stupid fool broke your beautiful heart?" the lady asked.
Ohh, if she only knew.
"Yeah, fine. I miss Rusty too, you can tell him, Ma'am. I'll be there in five." And with that Elena hung up and walked upstairs to get herself ready.
Once she was arrived at Mrs. Flowers place, she took Rusty and the Lady out for a long walk, she told her everything and Mrs. Flowers was a very good listener.
They arrived back at Mrs. Flowers door and she turned to Elena when she opened the door.
"Elena, sweetie. You have such a smart head. But that won't help you here, baby. You know what? You should go out today, have some fun. Forget him just for one or two hours, darling!" she suggested Elena.
Elena sighed. "It's not that easy, Ma'am." Elena said.
"Of course it is! Go out and get rat-arsed!" she told Elena.
And Elena stared at her, wide-eyed. What the hell... did that cute old lady just tell Elena to get drunk? But maybe she was right? Maybe that was exactly what Elena needed.
"Okay, I'll see, goodbye Mrs. Flowers." Elena stuttered and left to walk her way home.
Maybe Mrs. Flowers was right? And Matt didn't work on Sundays so she could even go and drink in the Grill. Fine, that was a plan. Elena Gilbert was going to make some party tonight.
~ Now you know her secret ;o
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