A/N: Well hello there, guys! I know, I know, I've literally been gone for like ever. But sometimes life happens and a lot of shit happened to me. I'd rather not go into detail, but I went into a really dark place and was lost for a good amount of time... but now I'm back to my old self! Honestly, this is probably going to be really hard, because I have no fucking clue where I was going with this story, but I'm going to try my best to keep going and finish this for you guys, and for myself! I'm sorry if this chapter is absolutely terrible, I'm trying to get back into it so give me a chance. So, let's give it a try.

"Girl I see it in your eyes you're disappointed

'Cause I'm the foolish one that you anointed with your heart

I tore it apart

And girl what a mess I made upon your innocence

And no woman in the world deserves this

But here I am asking you for one more chance

Can we fall one more time?

Stop the tape and rewind

Oh and if you walk away I know I'll fade

'Cause there is nobody else."

Ronnie's POV

"What?" My hands seemed as though they couldn't move fast enough and they seemed to forget how to work as I fumbled with the ropes that covered her body, crimson blood staining my hands. The desire started to build in my brain and warm saliva pooled in the back of my throat.

"I'm pregnant," Cassie cried, holding her stomach and locking her arms around my neck. I closed my eyes and wrapped my arms around her, the smell of her blood coating around me. "What if he's not okay, Ron, what if they killed my baby?"

"I don't- I..." I started, her smell intoxicating my mind, my eyes rolled back into my head and before I knew it, my lips were laid on her neck, teeth sinking into her veins. It was only a couple of seconds before I felt myself being thrown back and the cracking of my body into the wall behind me.

"Ronnie, what the fuck!" Kade growled, holding me back into the wall by my neck. I shook my head, opening my eyes to see everyone looking at me through a new set of eyes. Horror, disgust, terror. The look Cassie gave me almost ripped me completely in half, her hand pressed against the wound, trying to hold back the flow of blood that spilled through her fingers.

"I-I'm so sorry, I don't know what happened..." I started, tears pooling up in my eyes, I shook my way from Kade's grip and ran.

Kade's POV

It had been months since we had seen Ronnie. Luckily, we were able to get Cassie to a hospital in time, and months later she gave birth to a beautiful baby boy, Shancus, who was named after Darren. We had no idea where Ronnie had ran to, our guesses were that she was either running around, ripping people to shreds, or wallowing around somewhere. We had tried everywhere to find her, looking at her favorite spots- we even stopped and looked for her in her hometown, but there was no sight of here. Even though we were all worried, Steve and the vampaneze had to be stopped with whatever they were up to. Cassie's guilt got her for a couple of days, until she was reassured that it was Ronnie's bloodlust getting ahold of her and there was nothing she could have done to stop it, so she decided to stay at the Cirque and raise her son in one of the safest places she could think of. We all sat at a table in Vampire Mountain, drinking our ale, like sitting ducks.

"This is killing me," I started, slamming my fist down on the table, "Ronnie is gone, we don't even know if she's alive, or what's going on. We have no idea what Steve and the Vampaneze are doing and all we know is that it's no good, and there's nothing we can do about it!"

"Kayden, if there was something we could do, you know we would be doing it." Larten sighed with a shake of his ginger head, he looked over at Darren, who was engulfed in some sort of text given to him by the fellow princes, some sort of pre-emptive attack on the vampaneze, when Seba walked into the dining hall.

"Darren," he started "There is something we've found that you might want to see."

"What is it!" I interjected, only getting a disapproving glance from Seba.

"It is not something for you to see yet." Seba answered, and I blew a piece of hair out of my face in frustration, "it's probably something gay anyway."

"A homosexual?" Larten interjected, "I doubt there would be a homosexual in Vampire Mountain, Kayden. You are absolutely absurd." Darren ignored, our banter and pulled himself to stand, following Seba to one of the chambers deep in the back on the mountain.

Ronnie's POV

Darkness. No matter where I turned, it found a way to consume my heart and my thoughts. I was absolutely ashamed, and couldn't get myself to do anything. I ran as far away as I could, barely feeding to keep myself alive, because all I felt was shame- every time the blood entered my mouth I could still taste Cassie. Scars ornamented my arms from the attempts to end my life, and bruises covered my body in punishment for being such a coward to not end my worthless life. I didn't know who I was, I was lost completely. My hair was wiry and unruly, and my bones protruded from all angles, due to lack of nutrition. I laid in the shadows day after day, waiting for something to happen, hoping for someone to come along and be merciful enough to end my life for me. I had come across a drug dealer and stole his stash of sleeping pills. It takes hours to drag myself out of dreams. No, days. Hours or days or weeks. I can't tell. I don't know how many pills I've took. Everything hurts. Worms are gnawing on my cuts, through my joints, inside my ugly bones. My heart runs rabbitfast, then lies in the dirt to hibernate. I wait everyday to not wake up. But that's not what happened. I tried my best to go undetected, but when a vampire general stumbled upon me, they didn't hesitate to grab me and shackle me and take me back to the Mountain where I was going to have to face the people I desperately didn't want to face again. Each second felt like a million years as I waited, I knew that he would be coming, and I didn't know how I would handle it. I heard the footsteps coming from down the hall before they were even close to the door, and braced myself.

"Darren-" My voice was weak and cracked, the sound of it was foreign to me, because I had not uttered a word in months, it sounded unnatural.

"Oh, Ronnie." He was at my side in a second, wrapping his arms around me, his fingers running down my back, playing my ribcage like a xylophone.

"Please, get away from me." I pleaded, trying to push him off of me. I didn't deserve this, I deserved to be taken back here, punished and thrown into the pit of stakes. I didn't want him to want me, I didn't want this, "Please."

"No, god damn it!" He growled, grabbing my face roughly in his hands and forcing my eyes to meet his, "I'm so sorry, Ronnie. Why can't you understand that? Why can't you see that you're allowed to make mistakes, it doesn't make you a bad person. We all make them."

"I bit Cassie, that's not just a mistake! I feel it inside me Darren, there's something in me and it's not good. I'm not good, I don't deserve the time and effort! Why can't anyone just kill me? I just want to die." My voice shook and my sentences slurred, the rage filled my body, I screamed and thrashed against Darren, desperately trying to get out of the cage of my body. I threw punches at him, and he stood as still as a statue, taking all of my hits and blows, keeping his arms wrapped around me. My blood pressure started to lower, and my breathing slowed, and the flow of tears started to stop.

"Ronnie, please... I love you so much. No matter what you do, I'll be here- I'm here right now!"

"I'm broken, Darren."

"Let me fix you." I lifted my eyes to his, he looked exactly the same, but his eyes were old and aged. My hand raised to the side of his face, wiping blood from the corner of his mouth which was drawn from my rage and closed my eyes, slowly connecting my lips to his.

I'll be here, by your side

No more fears, no more crying

But if you walk away

I know I'll fade

Cause there is nobody else

It's gotta be you

Only you

It's got to be you

Only you