I heard a knock on my door, I got up from reading my newspaper and went to the door, opening it. It was Shaun.
"Hi…" I said, he looked happier than what he did last night.
"Hello, do you mind if I come in?" he laughed slightly, a smile appearing on his face. He had a great smile.
"no, not at all" I moved out of the way as he walked in, I closed the door. It's weird that I'm letting a murderer in my place, but I trust him. I turned to him.
"so…do you want to talk about it?" the light through the windows struck his eyes and made them look more beautiful than before. My heart kinda, melted.
"yeah, sure, you don't mind if I sit down do you?"
"not at all, make yourself feel at home." I smiled and sat next to him on the other chair as he sat down, I looked at him.
"where do I start?" he said, I slight sigh in his tone.
"the start…how you became this way, to this very day."
he sighed and looked down "it was 5 years ago, I had a beautiful girlfriend, so beautiful, I was only around 15 or 16 but I loved her, I made love to her and I got her pregnant and one day, I walked in to find her cheating on me with one of my best friends, I was broken, angry-"
"wait, you didn't kill her did you?"
"No!" he looked up at me "I was hurt by it of course, but I acted like it never happened, she continued fucking him anyway, I felt worse and worse by the day, I did things I regret now…anyway, when it came to a couple days before having the child, we had a fight, she said she wanted to break up, have the baby for her own and marry my best friend, I wasn't going to give up hope for the woman I loved, no matter how much she started to hate me for no reason and my baby, a precious child I made with her that was so innocent." He sighed again.
"She seems like quite the whore…what did you do that you regret?" I asked curiously, He looked at me, biting his lip then pulled his sleeved up, light horizontal and vertical lines covered his arms, I didn't know what happened, I looked at him slightly shocked, slightly curious.
"w-what did you do?"
"I had a knife and I cut my skin till I bled, I let all the pain out. I don't know why I did it, but during it all I just wanted to hurt myself, to take the pain it my heart away…"
"oh…Shaun" I've never heard of this self-harm before, I'm shocked, I never knew it existed, then again, I did spend my whole life in a foster home. "And…what happened after the fight?"
"She walked out, I never saw her. I sat in my bed and just thought what to do next, then I heard a crash, a scream, a cry, I ran out, she got stabbed, in the womb…I don't know who did it, I think it was the man she cheated with, because he disappeared since that moment. I-I lifted her in my arms and took her to hospital, but they couldn't do anything. My child and the woman I loved died" He had tears starting to fall as he finished the sentence. I wiped his cheeks and pulled him closer, hugging him.
"It's okay Shaun, let it all out" I patted his back, he sobbed the slightest then breathed deeply, pulling away.
"I've spent the past 5 years crying about it, I-I really should stop now. I-I'm sorry you had to see that" he sniffed and wiped his eyes. I played with his little wave-curls in his hair softly to comfort him.
"now…what made you want to kill people for a living?"
"I-I uh…I decided to stop taking it out on myself, because I could've killed myself, I was getting deeper every time I hurt myself…So, I took it out on others. Especially prostitutes, sometimes innocent people, I don't know why. But I killed prostitutes because they never respected their bodies, they'd rather sleep with men to earn money. I killed innocent people when they were onto me, like they knew I was Jack the Ripper, I'd slit their throats the way I slit my wrist, but harder. I also had a course in medical/surgical area before because I was training to be a surgeon, so it came in handy when it came to ripping out woman's heart, lips, ears, eyes, even the uterus an-"
"stop" I said, cringing at the sight of Tracey's body popping in my head
"sorry…" he bit his lip.
"I already know what you've done, I did my research about you and…I was afraid, now I'm wondering why you chose me" I said softly, he looked me in the eyes then looked down.
"You were new around here, I had never seen anyone like you before, I saw you in the bar, I over-heard you talking about me, I ended up being afraid and since you're a man, I didn't know what to do, but for some reason, after I held you against that wall and you looked in my eyes, my mind was blank, I had a happy feeling I have never had before, it was like I had finally found light through the darkness, I ended up afraid of you. Afraid you'll tell because I didn't really want to kill you"
I blushed only the slightest "what…about…the, kissing, me thing?" I said, slightly awkward, the smile popped onto his face again.
"I know being gay is a sin to many people, but I don't care. I'm already going to hell, I saw your sweet face and I thought 'wow, this man is the best man I've ever seen walk the earth"
"there isn't an issue with being in love with another man, you're as precious as any other human, inside, and out." I placed my hand over his heart, he smiled at me.
"You're amazing Andy, never has someone made my heart warm by a touch" he looked into my eyes, those blue eyes made my heart pound, I leaned in closer to Shaun, kissing his cheek lightly.
"you are beautiful " I whispered
"only on the outside…" he whispered back
"Shaun, you are one of the sweetest guys I've ever met, you just have a bad obsession with killing whores."
"I'm going to stop now, if you help me through it baby?" he held my hand, I felt like my spirit floated out of my body when he called me baby.
"of course I will" I smiled
"now, tell me your story? Then we can get to know each other better" he smiled.
"my life is pretty average really. Got dumped at the foster home when I was born, I was raised there and when I turned 19, I had to leave and I moved here and found you"
"wow…sorry to hear about your mum, well, my parents died when I was eleven so I guess we're on the same page?"
"maybe…hey, Shaun, do you mind if I like, moved in with you? I don't have the money or a job to pay for this place every night"
"I'd be happy to let you stay with me" he smiled, I wrapped my arms around him, hugging him tight.
"thank you so much…"
"it's okay, beautiful…"