I walked into Shaun's place in Whitechapel, London later that week with my suitcase and box of things I owned, most people would be afraid to live with a serial killer, I trust him and really didn't mind. I was in love with a killer, a killer who was heartbroken. Shaun's place was really nice, I don't know where he managed to get all his money from, he said I don't even need a job. After I had packed all my things away, Shaun walked in with a newspaper, I looked at him weirdly.
"what's wrong honey?" I walked over to him, he threw the newspaper on the table.
"Everyone thinks Jack's dead since he hasn't acted out in a couple days."
"that's not bad baby"
"no, it's not, but the conspiracies of my death are horrible! I never sexually touched the woman, they're saying I got syphilis, I don't have syphilis!"
I put my hands on his shoulders "Calm down…you and I both know it's not true and if Jack is dead, then good, because then they can focus on other crimes"
"This is so weird for me though"
I leaned up and pecked his lips softly. "Darling, I'll be here forever so don't fret, okay?"
"okay" he smiled and went to the bathroom, I walked into the bedroom and sat on his bed, pulling open his drawer, I saw a notebook, I smiled and grabbed it, opening it to the last page he had written on.
"I met someone today, a man, dark blonde, blue eyes and did I fall? I did, very hard. He called me vile for the messes I've made, but then it ended with a kiss, the kiss turned my black eyes bright again, I finally found the light I had been searching for the past 5 years. His name is Andy Clemmensen, he has the sweetest heart, sweetest smile, but I could taste the fear in the air. I knew I could trust him. He knows my secret. I had only known him for an hour, and my heart was his. Sandra never needed me, I see that now, but Andy, he's an angel from heaven, I shall never drag him to hell, he shall help me go to heaven. Where after a life of living, we can live forever…" I mumbled under my breath, smiling, he was perfect, I have never felt this way before. I heard footsteps and jolted, looking up to see Shaun.
"found my diary have we?" he sat next to me and grabbed the book from my hand.
"yes, it was sweet what you said, you make me so very happy" I said, kissing his cheek softly.
"and you make me happy" he looked at me and smiled, I rested my head on his shoulder and pulled the book back, pulling out a lose piece of paper. I read it.

'I suck at poems so what am I meant to say,
all these time of searching for the light have finally come my way,
I've searched for years for a light so true,
but I never had imagined it'd be you,
hair golden and eyes so blue,
I looked at you and instantly knew,
you'd be the one to break me through this too,
loves the power the magic in the light,
I never want to see again if the day turns to night,
I stutter and dropped that knife to the floor,
the person you saw yesterday is never the boy you knew.'

"so, uh, yeah, I wrote that" Shaun said embarrassed, pulling it out of my grip.
"you might suck at writing but you're so good with your words…" I said, biting my lip, he laid me down slowly and got on top, kissing me lightly. I leaned up, putting my hands on his neck, kissing him back slowly. Our lips motioned slowly got more tender, I ran my fingers through the back of Shaun's hair, he put his hand on my cheek as I continued to kiss him. He kissed me once more and pulled away, kissing the tip of my nose lightly, I smiled.
"why'd you stop kissing me…I've been wanting you to kiss me like that for a while" I said softly, he leaned down and kissed my neck softly, I bit my lip.
"I'm scared of hurting you, we can't do it the way women and men do" he whispered in my ear, grabbing my hand and entwining our fingers.
"I love you, Shaun" I bit my lip, he looked down at me again, smiling that beautiful smile.
"I love you too Andy…but I'm not hurting you like that, not until we're both ready." He stroked my check softly with the back of his hand, I blushed.
"I just want to be close to you, no matter the pain, I want to feel the passion love desires, and feel your breath on mine, maybe I know nothing about sex, but I want it anyway…I want to lose it to you" I whispered, kissing him softly, he kissed back then pulled away.
"Andy, I'm not ready yet, but baby as soon as I'm ready, you'll know, I promise" he kissed my forehead.
"okay…" I sighed contently and snuggled up into his chest, closing my eyes. He held me and hummed a soft lullaby as he rocked me.

I opened my eyes to realize Shaun wasn't holding me anymore, I was in bed with the covers over me, I looked out my window and it was pitch black. Oh wow I am confused.
"Shaun…?" I said, hoping for an answer, Shaun walked in, I smiled in relief.
"Have a nice sleep darling?" He smiled and sat next to me, I looked up at him.
"It was the best I had in a while…I can't believe I fell asleep on you, I'm sorry"
"You were tired baby, it's okay…haven't you been sleeping well lately?"
"I've had a few dreams and they've woken me up for a while, it's nothing bad"
"what were they about?"
"Just, my mother, I just wonder about her, you know? And now she's consuming my dreams, just a beautiful blonde woman, but instead of blue eyes, she has hazel, I know it's weird but I've been dreaming of her as my mother since I can remember"
"it's good to dream though, even of the things you can't see in real life, things that you may never find"
"I want to find out who my mum is, I don't care if she's dead or alive, I feel that I have the right to know."
"and you do baby" Shaun placed a soft kiss on my head. I smiled as he got up.
"What's the time?"
"six, dinner is almost ready, freshen up and join me?" he laughed slightly and walked away. He was so precious and wonderful.
I made my way out to the kitchen were Shaun had placed the dinner on the table. Roast chicken, vegetables and gravy, my mouth started to water immediately.
"wow, Shaun, you didn't need to fix all this up" I said, sitting at the table.
"It wasn't too hard, I felt you deserved this meal after being in a foster home for 19 years" Shaun said, sitting across from me. I smiled, looking at him.
"I've never really had a meal like this, only on Christmas we've have a sliver on ham, carrots, peas, potato, pumpkin and gravy. This is so much better. Thank you Shaun" I smiled and picked up my fork.
"it's okay beautiful" we smiled at each other and began to eat.
I got half way through my meal and already felt full, I had never had a meal so satisfying before. I kept eating until I heard a knock at the door, Shaun started to get up.
"no, baby stay, I'll go get it. Finish you food" I got up and smiled as he sat back down.
"okay" Shaun continued to eat. I walked over to the door, opening it slowly, a guy taller than me with brown hair stared at me.
"I hope I haven't interrupted your dinner"
"no, it's okay, we were just…washing up" I smiled, lying.
"that's good well, is Andy Clemmensen in the house?"
"I'm right here" I smiled
"oh, right, well I'm Frank from the police station and I've been told to warn everyone in the are-"
"what's up b- up?" Shaun said coming up behind me, I felt him stiffen up behind me, I knew he was going to say baby.
"are you mister Diviney?"
"why yes, yes I am"
"it's awfully nice of you to let Andrew move in with you, it'd probably a good time to let that happen too, for safety"
"safety from what?" I said
"oh yes, I forgot. I've been told by the sheriff to warn everyone around the area and especially you, Andrew about Jack the Ripper"
I heard Shaun laugh slightly under his breath, I smirked slightly, not trying to laugh.
"And why would you need to do that?" I asked
"well, he hasn't acted out for a week, and there is no way that he could have died so suddenly, so he might act out again, better than ever and since you know a lot about him, he might lash out on you" he said concerned
"well I'll try stay safe, thank you for warning us" I smiled
"it's okay, have a pleasant night" he nodded and walked away, I closed the door slowly, turning to Shaun, we both laughed.
"no mister officer, Jack isn't dead and nor is he going to lash out again, Jack is in love" he said in a funny voice, I smiled and laughed again, wrapping my arms around his neck.
"and I'm in love with Jack" I said, playing with the back of his hair softly.
"I love you" Shaun whispered, putting his hand on my cheek. God darn butterflies in my stomach.
"I love you too" I smiled.
"Baby, I promise I'd never hurt anyone again, unless they hurt you. If someone hurt them I'll go all 'Jack the Ripper' on them" Shaun said, I laughed at the Jack the Ripper part.
"I wouldn't let anyone hurt me and I know you would, mister Jack the Ripper" we both laughed.
"alright, that's enough, I think it's time for bed"
"but, I just had a nap and we haven't cleaned the dishes"
"alright, help me then" Shaun said, walking back toward the kitchen, I followed. We both grabbed our plates and glasses, putting them in the sink. Shaun washed them as I dried and put it away. We both made sure all the candles and lights were out, making our way to the bedroom. I got into my pyjamas and got in bed, snuggling up in the cold sheets, Shaun later joined and pulled me close, his warmth and arms around me made my muscles ease and relax, and the scent of him, made my heart melt.
"you tired Shaun?" I asked, looking up at him, he smiled down at me.
"not really, I like the thought of sitting up and talking to you for a while though" he bit his lip, I stared into his blue eyes.
"well, I'm enjoying being in your arms and getting warm"
"you feel really warm in my arms Andy" he laughed
"well…my lips are still cold" I said, using the oldest pick up line in the book.
"would you like me to warm them up my sweetheart?" he said so innocently, I smiled as he stared to lean in, I leaned up and kissed his lips slowly and he kissed me back, I breathed deeply as I held him close, he kissed me more tender, I ran my hand up him chest and through his hair, sliding my tongue in curiously, Shaun obliged at first than slowly slid his tongue around mine, I battled his tongue slowly, playing with his hair. After a few minutes of making out, Shaun pulled away. I frowned, his kisses were so addictive.
"I think that's enough entertainment for you tonight" he smirked.
"aw damn" I frowned.
"it's pretty late, I have to go to work tomorrow"
"work?"
"I'm a doctor, remember? I would happily take the day off but it's my first day back in well, a long-time"
"well, what am I supposed to do?" I said nervous.
"go hang out with Tom, it'd be good for you. I'm only working tomorrow, I'm only a fill in doctor"
"okay baby" I said cutely, but frowning.
"aw, c'mere" Shaun cuddled me tight, I giggled.
"ah! Dying" I laughed, he pulled away and smiled.
"we can sleep now" I smiled big.
"yay!" Shaun looked so exhausted. I laughed and snuggled into him, closing my eyes. He wrapped his arms around me, closing his eyes.
"goodnight beautiful" Shaun whispered, falling asleep.
"goodnight." I smiled, slowly drifting off to the place of dreams.