"Andrew, did Shaun tell you about your mum?" officer Black asked. I stiffened up.
"yes, sadly I'll never meet her, the depression was pretty tough aye?" Andy said saddened, more disappointed at the fact he'd never meet his mother.
"Oh yes, the depression, Jack acted out on your mother during that sad time, It's terrible, all the best for the future anyway aye" he smiled, trying to cheer Andy up, he looked at me, a tear fell down the side of his face, my eyes started to blur from my own tears, I looked down as Andy turned to the officer.
"W-What?" Andy said, shocked.
"didn't Shaun tell you? She was a prostitute, she gave you up because she had no money and made it by sleeping with men, sadly she lured Jack and Jack the Ripper killed her"
"W-What an asshole, I'm s-sorry, I need to go" Andy was about to breakdown, I could hear it in his tone, he stormed off quickly, I started going after him, my heart was starting to feel pain again. It was like I had to rip off the Band-Aid holding my heart together.
"A-Andy wait!" I said, he ran faster, I heard his sobbing get heavier as he reached the house, he tumbled up the first couple steps then ran into the house, slamming the door, I reached the door and banged on it, bursting into tears.
"A-Andy please, I can explain everything…let me in, please" I hit my heat on the door and sobbed, I fucked up so bad. I wish I never did it. I wish I never hurt him.
The door opened suddenly, Andy's face was red and tear tracks ran down his beautiful skin. I choked on my own words as I tried to speak to him like that.
"y-you killed my mother…you lied to me, h-how can I trust you now? Knowing you hurt my own mother, you're the reason she isn't here." He cried and that hurt me deeply, it's like he wants nothing to do with me.
"I-I can explain, please. Just let me in and tell you the story" I rested my arm on the door frame, leaning my head on my arm and breathing in and out deeply, restraining back my own tears.
"f-fine" he walked away, I followed him in and closed the door. He turned to me.
"n-now tell me, start to finish, how you knew my mum and why you did this" he whispered, his voice was so croaky, I don't know how he could ever forgive me.
"M-My mother and your mother were best friends, they were both pregnant together, your dad died 6 months before you were born and when you were born, your mum was afraid of being alone, a single mum, because it'd give her a bad name having a child out of wedlock, so she gave you up, thinking it was best for you, and through the depression, they'd treat you better, I was born after you though, but I grew up with my mum bad mouthing about what your mother had become, she'd sleep with men for money, use the money for some food and alcohol. I was taught since I was a kid how wrong it was, and then my parents passed, your mother offered up but I didn't want to be around her so called 'filthy blood' so I lived with the girl who became my girlfriend and I had enough money to live on my own once she died. But as I said, I was feeling so much pain. I wasn't even p-planning to kill that night, your mum was making moves on me, trying to get me, for 3 pennies. So I…I killed her" I bursted into tears again "I-I still hadn't had a moment where I haven't regretted it. I took her money and left. I-I'm a selfish fool. You'll never want me now. I-I'm a monster. I really am" I looked into his sad eyes, they were overwhelmed with tears.
"I-I don't even know what to say to you right now" he said softly.
"A-Andy…baby" I walked over to him and placed my hand on his cheek, he pushed me away.
"n-no, I can't, not now, just leave. Please"
"o-okay…I love you, r-remember that" I whispered to him softly, wiping my eyes and breathing deeply, making my way out the door and closing it behind me, I looked up at the cloudy sky. I didn't want to kill to get rid of the pain this time. I wanted to murder, but murder myself instead, end everyone's pain. They want Jack dead, that's what they're going to get.

I walked into the police station slowly, I was soaking wet, the sheriff was sleeping. I bit my lip and breathed shakily, walking to his desk and quickly grabbing his gun from the table and slipping it in my pocket, I started to walk away.
"h-huh…Shaun… is that you?"
"u-uh, yeah" I turned around and smiled the best smile I could manage. I was just asking Mr. Black if he knew anything about something, I'm just going to go now…see you" I sighed and walked out before he could reply, I walked through the pouring rain till I got to London Bridge, no one was in sight. It was too cold and wet to worry about suicide today, I climbed up the bridge, looking down at the water moving faster than usual due to the pouring rain. I have dumped bodies in here before, maybe it's time to dump my own body. I pulled the gun from my pocket, shaking from the cold and the adrenaline in my body telling me I'm ready to do this. I pulled my jacket off and felt warm tears stream down my face, I looked at the gun. I can't do anything right.
"I love you Andrew Clemmensen…" I slowly raised the gun to my head, closing my eyes.

ANDY P.O.V

I sat on the couch, breaking down at what Shaun had told me, why, how, my own mum, why. This isn't fair. All I could hear was my sobbing and the rain starting to pour. All I ever wanted was to meet my mum and now I never will. I love Shaun, but that killed me. I hyperventilated as my heart started to ache more, I sobbed and clenched my shirt where my heart was. I heard a large thumping knock at the door. I jumped at it and stopped crying, wiping my eyes quickly as I opened the door. It was Tom. He looked worried
"T-Tom?"
"I-It's Shaun, I saw him walking out of the police station with a gun in his pocket, he looked like a mess, H-He was heading for London Bridge…I think…I think he's trying to kill himself." He stared at me concerned, my heart sunk as my gut dropped. I felt an instant pain.
"n-no" I held back my own tears and ran out into the rain.
"ANDY?" Tom yelled far from behind.
"GET THE POLICE, HELP, PLEASE, I NEED TO SAVE HIM." I ran faster and faster through the rain, it was pelting me like a million rocks. I started to breathe heavy as tears streamed down my face. I approached London Bridge to see Shaun looking at a gun, no. My heart started to ache more. I panted for air as I got closer, he held it to his head, I screamed.
'NO SHAUN DON'T! I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOU, I LO-"
I don't think he could hear, I saw him start to pull the trigger. I panicked and ran to him, jumping up and grabbing him, falling off the bridge and into the water. The water was freezing, below zero, my teeth were chattering, my tear tracks were starting to freeze, but where's Shaun? I looked around and tried to hold balance as the rain continued to belt down with force. I just wanted Shaun now. I saw a floating body a couple metres away. I can't even swim properly. Fuck, please no. I started to break down again in panic. "SHAUN! Please baby…" I drew to a whisper, I held my nose closed and took a deep breath, diving under the water and looking around, it was so musky, I could barely see, I kept swimming and saw Shaun in front of me, beautiful and graceful, there was a red flow around him. My heart cried on the inside, I grabbed him and pushed up to the top of the water, I started to sob with my arm holding onto Shaun's cold body, I kissed his head softly.
"baby please…please don't leave me" I sobbed softly.
"please…" I whispered.
"ANDY SWIM TO MY VOICE" I heard Mark's voice, I looked his way and started to swim, it was so hard with Shaun's unconscious body on my arm, I reached the edge and held my arm up, Mark grabbed it and pulled me up with Shaun. I laid Shaun down and cried heavily, my tears couldn't stop. He looked so cold, his head was bleeding, I opened his mouth and started to give cpr.
"c-come on Shaun" I sobbed softly, pounding his chest.
"fuck sake come on" I breathed into his mouth again. I continued through all my tears, officer Black came up behind me and pulled me away from his body.
"A-Andrew…I think he's gone" he said to me sadly, those words were the words I never wanted to hear. I closed my eyes and breathed deeply as more tears flowed. I looked at Shaun's dead body, sobbing and crying as I ran my fingers through his wet hair as the rain continued to belt down.
"S-Shaun, baby, I know you're still alive, I-I know you can hear me, wake up baby. Please. You're all I have. I need you" I cried in a whisper, pushing my face into his chest, my sobs getting louder as it started to hit me, the pain in my heart. I lost him, the one I loved.
"please don't leave me" I sobbed quietly, closing my eyes, I could hear sniffs and cries from people who were a couple metres away. Shaun meant so much to me, this isn't fair. I grabbed onto him and shook him a bit.
"Shaun please…please, I can't live without you. F-Forever you and me, remember?" I looked up at his straight face, grabbing his hand as I cried, kissing the cold hand, I rested my head on his chest and cried I didn't care what people thought of me, I was in love with him. I closed my eyes as I hyperventilated quietly and sobbed when suddenly I heard a choke, a spit, I felt his body breathe beneath me. I smiled and sat up.
"SHAUN?" I cried, now in happiness, he opened his eyes slowly.
"A-…Andy" he coughed, I stroked his cheek softly with the back of my hand.
"I'm here baby i-it'll be okay. I'm here. I'm not going anywhere" I smiled, tears slowly tracing down my face, he weakly wiped my tear away.
"I-I thought I lost you…"He said softly.
"Y-You'll never lose me, ever."
"G-Good, because w-without you I'm nothing at all"
"neither, I-I love you so much Shaun…" I sniffed, he smiled weakly.
"I-I love you too, Andy…"
"OH MY GOD, IT'S A MIRACLE, SHAUN'S ALIVE!" Tom cried in delight, I got up and smiled at him as the local doctors and nurses carried him away, the rain was still falling down on London Bridge, but as long as I have my one and only, then that's all I need.