After I went home and got into warm dry clothes, I made my way toward the hospital. I can't believe Shaun tried to kill himself, he means so much to me. I'm so glad he's alive though, if he wasn't, I'd either be dying or dead right now. I stopped at the florists and grabbed a bunch of red roses in a bouquet, they were so beautiful though, a dark deep velvet red. Tom smiled at me as I walked passed him, I waved and continued walking, I bit my lip as I entered the hospital and going to Shaun's room. He had a bandage around his head and still looked so weak from drowning. I smiled sympathetically at him. His face brightened up when I walked in, I closed the door and kissed his head softly, resting the bouquet on his lap.
"for you, my love" I smiled
"thank you so much baby" he smiled and picked them up, smelling them.
"they're beautiful" he said, putting them on the bedside table.
"Not as beautiful as you" I laughed slightly, smiling.
"hm.." his mood dropped. Oh no, here we go.
"Shaun?-"
"I'm sorry I tried to kill myself Andy, I really am. I just…I didn't feel you wanted me here and everyone wanted Jack the Ripper dead and I-I-"
"I know, I understand Shaun, it's okay. But I'd never, ever leave you. You and me forever, remember that?" I said, putting my hand on his cheek.
"Y-You're amazing, Andy" he breathed shakily.
"baby, don't cry, everything's going to be okay" I smiled and kissed him softly, He kissed me back, I heard the door creak, I pulled away instantly. I didn't want to be caught out. Being gay is apparently a sin.
"Sorry Andy, we need to check up on Shaun" the nurse said, checking his temperature and heartbeat. I just stood up and leaned against the wall, looking at the man I loved in bed half awake, maybe even half alive.
"all done" she smiled at me and grabbed the stuff, walking out and closing the door.
"that was close" I sighed, going back over to him.
"I hope that one day, our kids and grandkids and so on can live in a word where it's okay to be gay." Shaun looked down, wait, did he just say kids?
"K-Kids? Shaun, you know we wouldn't be able t-"
"I know, I'm not stupid, I mean, adopt…you know, you me and a child. I just want to marry you and have a family with you but the fucking queen don't give a damn and everyone sees us as demonic soulless sex users" he sounded like he was about to cry.
"baby, calm down, we can figure this out. I promise. We'll find our way" I said softly.
"We won't even be able to adopt, we have no wife to be able to adopt."
"I grew up in a foster home Shaun, I know how it works...I just" I sighed and bit my lip "I think we can do it, I'll go back and ask, they know me, they should allow it"
"y-you think we can do this?" a smile appeared on his beautiful face, I looked deeply into his blue eyes.
"I believe we can do anything" I smiled.
"I love you so much" Shaun said, sniffing.
"I love you too baby, I really, really do…" He leaned up and pecked my lips lightly, I closed my eyes and kissed him back slowly, breathing deeply. His lips were perfection against mine. I heard a knock on the door. Fuck, not again. I sighed and pulled away, Shaun frowned as I stood up.
"yes?" Shaun said, the nurse walked in.
"Andy, it's beyond visiting hours now, you have to go. But in a week he can be let out"
"Well, I better go, thank you" I said, smiling as I made my way to the door, I turned back at Shaun as we both waved at each other, I smiled slightly and walked out of the hospital, making my way back down the street. People were looking at me strangely, usually I was never noticed. Mark walked up to me.
"Urr, Andy…"
"yeah?" I said, slightly confused.
"are the newspapers true? Are you and Shaun devil worshipers and are like…you know, fucking"
I stared at him and scoffed slightly "Where the fuck did you hear this?" I asked, slightly angered.
"In the newspaper, the reporter apparently saw you kissing a man in a dark alley, and then you were kissing his head and stuff when you saved his life"
"WHAT! NO! I'M NOT GAY WITH SHAUN, OKAY!" I said, trying to keep our relationships identity hidden.
"Sorry…" Mark bit his lip, I sighed and looked around at everyone, they all stared at me and folded up their newspapers, walking away.
"I need to go…see you around" I patted his shoulder then walked through streets, I have to be more careful, our relationship was going to be a secret, our illegal marriage, everything will remain a secret. But to get a baby, how was this going to work. I stopped by the local Goldsmiths, approaching the big bulked up man.
"hello lad, how may I help you today?" He asked me in a strong, thick voice.
"I want two rings please, made of pure gold or silver"
"alrighty boy, when do you want them done by?"
"as soon as possible if you can"
"give me an hour" he smiled, I felt so happy, I cracked the slightest smile so I didn't look like a loser.
"thank you so much! How much would they be?"
"around 110 pounds"
oh wow, that's a lot. I pulled out my wallet and passed him the money, he put it in his leather apron and smiled.
"see you in an hour!"
"see you then" I smiled and walked out, hopefully he wouldn't be suspicious asking for two rings.
I continued to walk till I was out of town, but only a few metres away, was the place I grew up in. All the memories raced back into my thoughts. The bullying, the fun times. It was a great childhood, in a way. I approached the foster home and opened the door, walking to the head office, where Mary was. She smiled at me.
"ANDREW! My darling, how has your life been?"
"Great, I love it" I smiled, she smiled at me.
"you've grown a lot, you look so much more mature"
"you really think so?"
"really, really. Anyway, what can I do to help you today?" She asked, I took a deep breath.
"My friend, Shaun…has been wanting to adopt…but here's the thing, the secret that you can't tell anyone, He wants me to be parent number two for the child"
"And-"
"look, I know it's illegal but I honestly don't think I'm going to find love, Shaun doesn't have anyone. We both want a child. I know it sounds stupid, but you are like my mother and all I want is to bring up a child" I cut in.
"alright, I'll try my best Andy, but only for you, because you're a sweet soul. Make Shaun happy, as he deserves. It was sad to hear that he tried to commit suicide the other day"
"yeah, I know. But I'm sticking by him no matter what now, because that's what he needs"
"good on you Andy" she smiled.
"Hey, is Harry and Nathan still here?"
"Nathan isn't and Harry is"
"oh…well tell Harry I said hi" I smiled.
"sure will do"
"thank you so much Mary, I'll see you soon"
"absolutely, bye-bye Andy"
"bye" I said, walking out the door, this was step one to forever.

The next week Shaun was released, I have had the rings in my pocket this whole time. We took a horse and carriage home. After we got inside, my heart was pounding.
"baby, why do you seem so nervous?" Shaun questioned, I turned to him.
"well, uhm…" I bit my lip then walked over to him, getting down on one knee, he looked at me strangely, I put my hand in my pocket and pulled out the two golden rings, His face literally brightened up.
"Shaun, I know I can't give you a marriage most people have. But I just want to be there with you, for better and for worse. These rings will symbolize our love, just forever you and me, as promised. I love you so much Shaun, will you marry me right now, for better and for worse?"
"y-yes, of course Andy! I do, I will, all of it, I love you so much" he sniffed, a tear trickling down his soft cheek, I stood up and grabbed his left hand, sliding the ring on, Shaun then grabbed the other ring and slid it on my finger, we hugged each other tight, I breathed deeply as a few tears fell. I was so content and happy with this man. He looked at me and wiped my cheek, laughing at how much we were crying. I smiled and kissed him. We kissed slowly and tenderly, pulling away slowly but keeping our heads together, looking in each-other's eyes.
"I-I'm so happy, Andy" Shaun sniffed, I smiled.
"I'm happy too baby, now come on, I have another surprise" I pulled away from him but grabbed his hand, walking out the door.
"W-What is it?" he questioned, our hands slowly lost grip before people would see us.
"you're just going to have to wait" I smiled and saw a carriage coming, I whistled and stuck my arm out, the man pulled over.
"how may I help you two lads today?" he asked. I got on the carriage and whispered in his ear to go to the foster home. He smiled and nodded.
"will do" he said, Shaun got on and sat next to me as we started to move on the carriage.
He looked around curiously as we started to exit the town, and then we stopped at the foster home, I smirked at Shaun as he just stared at me.
"come on now" I said, hopping out and passing the driver the money, Shaun got out and walked beside me.
"what are we doing here?" Shaun asked softly.
"doing what we wanted, we're adopting" I smiled at him, he froze, his eyes started to sparkle.
"r-really?"
"yes, I want the best for us, I want a family with you now come on" I grabbed his hand and walked in slowly, looking left and right and went to the front desk where we stopped holding hands and Shaun stood behind me.
"Hello Andrew" Mary said, I smiled.
"Me and Shaun are here to look at the children, do you mind if we go through?"
"not at all, make yourself at home" She smiled.
"thank you so much" I looked at Shaun and grabbed his arm, pulling him through, he seemed so nervous. He just looked at all the doors in the hall way that had things like 'over 3 years and up boys' and such. I stopped in front of the baby ward, looking at Shaun.
"ready baby?" I smiled, nudging him.
"y-yeah, absolutely" he smiled, I grabbed his hand, linking our fingers and walking in, there was at least 10 babies here, we walked around, looking at the beautiful sleeping children. Shaun let go and walked away, looking at the other children. I walked past this baby in a crib, it was a girl, she wasn't asleep, her name was Amelia, it said she was 8 months old, she has big blue and green eyes and light brown hair. I stroked her soft curls slowly.
"Amelia" I whispered, smiling.
"Hey Shaun…look at this beautiful girl" I whispered, Shaun turned his head and made his way over, looking in the crib.
"She's perfect…" He whispered. She really was a beautiful baby, how could someone give her up…right, my mum did too. I leaned down and picked Amelia up, cradling her in my arms, she stared at me so interested, Shaun looked down at her and smiled, the biggest grin appeared on Amelia's face as she clapped and giggled slightly.
"naww, she's precious" I said softly.
"I like this one" Shaun laughed softly, playing with her hair.
"I like this one too" I laughed with him "come on, let's take her down to Mary"
"alright, can I…can I hold her?" Shaun asked, I looked up into his eyes.
"of course you can, here" I carefully passed her to him, he smiled down at her and kissed her head softly.
"You are the most beautiful girl in the world" I stared at Shaun and what we hoped to be our new daughter, my eyes started to tear up at how beautiful it was, seeing a man who was hurt, lonely and a killer and go to a loving, caring father and husband. I smiled big at my new family and went to the door, opening it, letting Shaun through. We walked back to the front office, Mary saw our selection and smiled at us both.
"You chose baby Amelia I see"
"yes, she is just so beautiful" Shaun smiled
"and perfect" I added
"so we'll take her" Shaun laughed softly, adding on. Mary laughed and sat at her typewriter, I don't know exactly what she was typing, probably just details.
"We need a middle and last name for baby Amelia here." She said to us, we looked at each-other.
"what do you want it to be?" Shaun bit his lip.
"M-My mums name was Rose…Amelia Rose? But then we use your last name. like, Amelia Rose Diviney"
"I's rather it be both our names, like, Amelia Rose Diviney Clemmensen"
"you can only do one last name, the actual father, there may be two care takers but only one can use their name." Mary said, I looked at her and back at Shaun, he looked disappointed then looked down at our baby girl.
"but…" Shaun begun, I leaned over and whispered in his ear.
"make it Diviney, my name is secretly Andy Diviney now, we can all be Diviney baby. All of us, a family." I whispered, pulling away. Shaun smiled then looked at Mary.
"we'll do with Diviney thank you" Shaun said, I smiled and looked down. I can't believe this. We're fathers, to a beautiful baby girl. I don't think life can get any better than this.
"can you both sign this please?" Mary said, placing the paper in front of us, I signed it nicely, Shaun signed his side and then we looked at each other, smiling, his eyes made my heart fly.
"and sign your copy" she said, placing the same paper in front of us, we both signed it and then she folded it, passing it to me. I grabbed it and put it in my coat, looking at Shaun. He was occupied with our new daughter Amelia Rose. I love my family.