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I froze. I couldn't move. I have been secretly waiting for him to come back and he was here and I couldn't handle it. I fell off that edge I was standing on the minute I heard his voice. "Welcome home Nick" Diana said softly walking over to him and giving him a hug. I saw her smile at me from over his shoulder like she knew my secret. I saw everyone start to crowd around him and I took advantage of it and just ran. I ran up the beach toward Number Twelve. Burning tears pouring out of my eyes like a vicious rainstorm. When I finally got through my front door I slumped over my back against the door and I was sobbing and panting. I let myself cry it out. I hadn't cried like this ever. I went upstairs still crying, and drew myself a bath. I got into the tub, let the warm, floral scented water engulf my frail body and I continued to cry. I released the feeling of loss over my mother, the guilt over not knowing my grandmother as well as I wanted to, the deaths of my father and my sister which affected in a way I was even shocked by and I cried over Nick. I cried out of regret, of loss, of pain, of longing for his return, of not being able to face him even though I wanted to run to him, I cried over how I thought he felt about me and I cried because I loved him so much it hurt. I sat in that tub for so long my skin was wrinkly and puckered. I wrapped a fluffy towel around myself and went into my room. I threw on a pair sweats and an old t-shirt and climbed into bed. My window was open and I could feel the breeze making its way through the screen carrying the voices of the sea to me. Go to him the sea whispered. Go to him it urged. I got up and looked out the window and listened intently and I heard the words of my grandmother there's nothing frightening in the dark if you just face it. I needed to face him. Everything inside of me and even the elements were telling me I needed to go to him, to face whatever was going to come my way. If he couldn't forgive me I could handle that, if he hated me I could handle that too at least I would know where I stood with him.
I headed downstairs and went outside. The night air was crisp and invigorating. The moon was so bright and the light it cast made the sea sparkle. I looked up admiring Mother Moon and it looked like she was smiling at me. I smiled back and she shone a moon beam down. I followed the stream of light down onto the beach and watch the light engulf a dark figure sitting on the rocks at the shoreline, just below my house at Number Twelve. I didn't need a good look to know that was Nick, the glow of his cigarette gave him away. I didn't call out to him like I had in my dreams. I just headed down the path and down to the beach.
When I got to him I could tell he heard my footsteps by the tension that came to his shoulders and the deep breath I heard him take but he didn't turn toward me. He just kept staring out onto the ocean. I watched him for a little while admiring the way the moonlight made his hair shine a metallic black, the broadness of his shoulders and the strength of his hands. I turned around my back to him. I couldn't watch him anymore and I couldn't leave. I was torn. Now that I had him here the years of practicing what I was going to say to him was gone. The enigma of the reunion I had hoped for was gone. Usually things with Nick were easy, well once he had agreed to go that Halloween dance with me junior year they were. I couldn't believe how this was. Four years of emotions, four years off loss, four years of missing him, needing him and loving him though he didn't know any of those things. I was about to walk away when I felt him come up behind me "hey don't go" he said softly. I turned around and gasped I wasn't expecting him to be so close to me. "hi" was all I could get out. "hi" he said standing nervously with his hands in his pockets his mahogany eyes had a look of caution in them and I didn't understand why. "I'm glad you are OK" I said. He shrugged "I wouldn't say I'm ok but I'm managing" he admitted looking down at his feet. "I know what you mean" I agreed quietly. "I talked to Diana" nick said softly and I looked down "she told me that you haven't had it easy the past four years especially the last few weeks". I felt the tears start to trickle down slowly and I looked up at him "that's an understatement" I choked out. "I'm so sorry Cassie" he said taking me in his arms and the waterworks came. I cried in his arms for I don't know how long and he just held me stroking my back letting me get it out. I felt like I did the night my grandmother passed away. I had needed someone to hold on for so long and to have him here after all this time I was relieved. I finally calmed down and pulled away. "It's going to be ok Cassie" he said and I wanted to believe him but I didn't know if I could. I sat down on the rocks and he sat down next to me "why did you leave?" I asked softly. He looked down and rubbed his forehead "too much loss here I had to leave it all behind and start over" he said honestly. I had nothing to say to that because where Nick concerned his life had been nothing but loss. "how did that work out for you?" I asked really wanting to know "I'm back here aren't i?" he smiled a wry smile "good point" I smiled. "so why did you come back? Why now?" I asked seriously "for you" he said simply. I was shocked. "what do you mean for me?" I asked trying to swallow the lump that was forming in my throat. "well the night I left four years ago I spelled my favorite piece of calcite and left it on your pillow so that if you were ever holding it and needed me I would be able to sense it and come to you if I needed to" he admitted. "you what?" I was astonished Nick hated magic. "I promised you I would always be here when you needed someone so I did that spell so I could keep my word" he said and I could tell he was remembering the night he asked me to be with him. I stood up and faced him "then where have you been the past four years?" I said angrily he was about to say something but I wasn't finished "dealing with what we did to my father and sister, breaking up with Adam, losing my mother. I needed you and you weren't here." I was crying and I calmed myself quickly "I'm sorry I shouldn't be putting that on you. After things ended with us I have no right expecting things like that of you" I said. "I want to be here for you" Nick said softly. "that's why I'm here. I sensed something from the stone a few weeks ago and finally called Deborah yesterday to see what was up and she told me about your mom and I had to come to you. To make sure you are ok. To let you know I never forgot about my promise." He took my hand and I let my fingers intertwine with his and it felt incredible. The electric current was stronger than ever and that longing I had for him was pulsating through my entire body "I thought about you constantly over the past four years. I missed you incredibly" I admitted looking down too scared to see his reaction. "cassie" he whispered and I looked up those mahogany eyes had softened along with the rest of his face "not a day went by that I didn't think of you". I sucked in a breath and I started to feel the wetness come to my eyes "then what took you so long" I said in barely a whisper. "When I heard that you and Conant broke up I knew I needed to give you time to heal. To find out for yourself how strong you really are" he answered quietly "I needed to give myself time too to sort some things out on my own" . I fought back tears that were still trying to escape "how long are you staying?" I asked quietly. "as long as you want me" he replied in barely a whisper. "nick" I gasped softly. He hadn't said need he had said want. There was never a part of me that didn't want Nick. I lifted my hand to his cheek and he nuzzled into my touch. He put his arm around my waist pulling me close to him and dropped his head so our foreheads were touching. I knew what was about to happen but I wasn't prepared. He titled his head to the side and kissed me. It was soft and warm and backed with so much more electricity then I remembered. Our lips moved together, not skipping a beat was the most sensual thing I ever experienced. When the kiss finally broke I was flushed and he was smiling. No coldness was left on his face. "I've been waiting four years for that" I admitted with a shy smile on my face. His eyes widened and for Nick that meant he was surprised "yeah?" he smiled. I nodded. "me too" he whispered pulling me in for another kiss. This kiss was different. I lost all abandoned with this kiss. I let four years of wanting him here. Of needing him here, of missing him into this kiss. I entangled my fingers in his hair, I couldn't get enough of his mouth being on mine then something inside me snapped. I pushed him off of me, angry tears streaming out of my already sore eyes and started walking away.