Elena

They came outside to where I was waiting for them Stefan walked over to her and held my hand squeezing it gently. Caroline came to my other side looked at me and nodded. It bothered me that Bonnie wasn't here to support me but I didn't have time to worry about it. I was about to make the transition. Jeremy walked over to me slowly holding a glass of fresh blood. His blood.

"Are you ready?" He asked extending the glass out to me. I couldn't believe that he was being so brave for me.

"Yea" I whispered extending my hand to take the glass of Blood. I slowly brought the glass to my lips and I could smell its wonderful aroma. Then I Elena Gilbert took one big gulp of my brother's blood.

It was euphoric, Rebekah was right the feeling of power was incredible. I felt like I could do anything. I finished the cup quickly and closed my eyes. I felt my veins darken and my fangs grow. When I opened my eyes, Jeremy backed away from me slowly. I tilted my head to the side looked at Jeremy and flashed over to him. I growled and bit his neck. I heard Caroline and Stefan yelling at me to stop and Jeremy screaming in pain but I didn't care. He tasted so good. I only stopped when Stefan came and pulled me away. I struggled but his I was no match for his iron arms. Caroline flashed over to Jeremy and held him biting into her arm feeding him her blood to heal him. It's only when I saw what I had done to my brother that my face turned back to normal. I looked from Stefan, to Caroline, to my brother Jeremy lying on the floor and I kneeled down putting my face in my hands crying. I almost killed my brother. I was a monster, a bloodthirsty, monster. Stefan kneeled down with me and held me in his arms.

"Elena" Jeremy whispered, I didn't look at him and just looked at the floor.

"Jeremy just go inside" Caroline said to my brother.

"But… Elena…" he said again.

"Just go" Caroline said again and he obeyed I heard the door open and close, and then Jeremy was gone. I continued to cry feeling like I should just die right then and there. I hurt the person I never wanted to hurt. Why were Caroline and Stefan being so compassionate? They kept repeating that it was going to be okay, that I was going to be fine. I wanted to rip my own heart out. We sat there for a while until Stefan picked me up and put me in the back seat of my car and Caroline sat with me. I put my head in her lap, she rubbed my arm and I just cried. When we got to the boarding house, Stefan carried me inside and lied me on the couch the he pulled a small box from his pocket.

"I have something for you" he said handing the box to me. I opened the box and I recognized the daylight necklace.

"This was Isobel's," I said looking at him wondering why he was giving it to me.

"I know that Isobel was a manipulative bitch," he said taking the necklace out of the box. "But she really cared about you. I know she would have wanted you to have this if you ever turned. That's why she left it for you" he said handing it to me. I nodded. I hated Isobel but in some way I knew she cared about me. I took the necklace and but it around my neck and I held it in my hands. Stefan stood up and kissed me on the head.

"Stefan" I said and he looked at me, "Thank you". He nodded and I stood up. "Can I sleep in your room tonight?" I asked him.

"Of course" he said walking over to me and grabbing my hand. We walked upstairs into his room he undid his bed and walked over to his closet. "Here" he said handing me one of my nightgowns that I had left here a while ago. "Ill leave you alone to change" he said walking out I went to the bathroom and took a shower then I brushed my teeth trying to get the taste of my brother's blood from my mouth. I changed into my nightgown and lied down covering myself with the covers. I closed my eyes trying to fall asleep suddenly I heard the door open and I opened my eyes slightly. I saw Stefan walk in walk to his closet and take off his shirt. He went to the chair and sat down. He looked over at me and I smiled.

"Sleep with me?" I asked and he smiled gently crawling into the bed getting under the covers and hugging me. I leaned into him and he petted my hair. I started to cry. "I'm a monster" I said, "I hurt Jeremy… and Bonnie won't talk to me"

"Your not a monster" he said to me

"Yes I am," I said crying into his shoulder. He sat up and held my face in his hands and forced me to look at him.

"Listen to me" he said wiping the tears from my face, "You are not a monster… you are beautiful, strong, brave and has been able to get through everything. Including this." I nodded and buried myself into his chest. I felt so lucky to have Stefan in my life. I fell asleep in his chest waiting for the next day to come.

My sleep was restless.

"Jeremy" I said running to my brother giving him a hug.

"Elena" he said embracing him. "What are you doing here? I thought Stefan and Caroline wouldn't let you out"

"I snuck out" I said smiling sadly looking at him then I remembered what I did the other day "I am so sorry" I said crying backing away from him and turning around "for what I did to you" I waited for him to yell at me to tell me he hated me.

"Its okay" he said walking to me turning me around and holding my face, "I forgive you"

"How?" I asked

"Because you're my sister and I will always love you," he said smiling embracing me again. I hugged him fiercely. My face was near his neck and I could feel the pulsing of blood. It smelled so sweet so wonderful. I felt my veins darken my fangs grow. I tried to restrain it but I couldn't. It was too compelling. I growled softly and bit my brother again. This time there was no one to stop me. It felt great I sucked him dry loving every minuet of it. Then he fell to the floor. Stefan found me then.

"Elena" he screamed. I looked from him to my brother. I kneeled down realizing what I had just down. I looked at his hand and saw the ring and I cried. I was definitely a monster. A couple hours later Jeremy woke up he looked at Stefan, at Caroline, at me. His expression turned from confusion to hate.

"YOU MURDERING BITCH!" he screamed at me. "YOU KILLED ME: HOW DARE YOU!" He stood up threw a wooden stake at me luckily I caught it but I got the message. I killed him so now he was going to kill me. "NEVER SPEEK TO ME AGAIN" and he walked away.

"Jeremy!" I cried falling on the floor, "I'm sorry please come back!"

"I'm sorry," Caroline said coming to me with something behind her back. Stefan turned away from me. Caroline raised a wooden stake and said with tears in her eyes, "It has to be done," I screamed and she plunged the stake into my heart.

I woke up screaming. I was drenched in sweat. Stefan ran in the room and I stood up running to hug him. I cried into his shoulder. "Elena what's wrong?" he said holding my face.

"I kk…killed Jeremy," I whispered through the tears.

"What?" he said l said looking confused

"I ss…sucked his blood dry and when he woke up he hh…hated me" I said breaking down. Stefan picked me up and took me to his bed and laid me down on the bed tucked me in and lied down, "Don't leave me again" I said softly

"I will never leave you again," he said holding my hand. I leaned into him and let myself fall into a more peaceful sleep.

I really like this chapter. it shows elena struggling which is going to be the first of many hardships. Anyway i hoped you enjoyed this chapter. Check out Dark Love if you haven't done so and don't forget to review. THANKS LOVE YOU!