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I OWN NOTHING.
LETTY'S POV
"Out of all the places to come"
"It was the last place in hell they would check" I said unpacking my stuff
"What makes you think I won't call your father up myself"
I looked back at her "We both know that if you did, you would lose every chance of even
being remotely close to a mother figure to me"
"You need help? Unpacking I mean" she asked
"I'm good"
She picked up one of my shirts and started folding it. I grabbed it from her. "Don't you got
something you needa inject yourself with"
"Letty!"
"Give it up, I saw the used needles you tried to discard in the umbrella holder"
The word 'busted' plastered on her face "Start fresh?"
"So you can fuck that up too?"
I offended her, she got up and said "I'm going for a walk" as she stormed off
Once I heard the door slam I took at deep breath, sat on the bed and cried. "What am I
doing here"
I pulled myself together, packed away all my stuff and cleaned up the house a bit.
My stomach growled. I hadn't eaten anything all day. It was 4 in the afternoon and I was
starving but there was nothing in the pantry that was up to date. I checked the fridge. It
mostly had juice and liquor, I checked the freezer, ice cream. "I guess I could work with
that" I said to myself
I sat on the kitchen counter and turned on the radio it played Don't Leave Me by Blackstreet
I cried some more then kicked the radio off the counter. It fell on the floor and broke.
The door opened, a white jacket shook "White flag. Ceased fire, please!" my mother said
opening the door fully with a takeout bad in her hand "I bought chinese"
I smiled. Hopped off the counter, walked over to her and took the bag.
I sat on the couch
"House looks clean" she sat next to me
"Your welcome" I said rummaging threw the bag
She leaned back as I handed her food, I took mine and leaned back.
"We're such a fucked up family" she said
"Who you telling"
"You never really told me what happened"
"What's there to tell, she's dead. It's all my fault"
"Natural causes Letty! Don't blame yourself"
"You sound like Dom"
"Tony's kid right?"
I nodded
"You like this Dom guy?"
"What?" I walked into the kitchen
"I mean from everything you told me, he got a motel for you. Waited by the door. Not
every girl is lucky enough to have a Dom around"
"I have a boyfriend"
"Oh yea. Where was he?"
Good point, I haven't seen him in a good minute
"One thing I know, men."
"Yea I remember"
"Letty, I'm sorry"
"I'm so sick of apologies. From you, Dom. Everybody. Your apology doesn't mean shit to
me!" I headed for the door
"Where are you going?" she got up and stood in front of me
"Out"
"No" she stopped me
"No?"
"I might not be the best person in the world but your my daughter. Your hurting and I'm
not about to let you leave like this"
I sat down. In my mind, I couldn't help but smile, look who was finally growing up and
acting like a parent.
"So what happens when you go home?" she asked
"With?"
"Us"
"There's no us"
"Letty!"
"You can't expect me to forgive you overnight"
"Wasn't"
"I'm going to bed" I left
"Night"
The next day I woke up to an empty house with a note on the fridge saying went to work,
food in fridge. Be back at 3.
I looked at the clock it was 2:15
She was going to be back soon so I took a shower and washed my hair
I walked out drying my hair and saw her sitting on the bed.
"So how did you get to all of this?"
"What?"
"Paco, Selena and Raul. I mean your still in the whole drugs thing but..." I motioned for
her to turn around so I could get dressed
She did so and said "I don't know, after Sel and Raul, I was depressed. I lost everything. I
was never like this, I never wanted to be like this. I hate myself."
"You never really told me how you and dad came about"
She smiled "Believe it or not, there was a time when I was innocent"
"Oh yea? Birth?" I joked
"Funny, but no. Before I met Miguel. After I got pregnant we moved around. I had you
and he was in and outta jail. Your father was locked up and after three kids, no job, no
nothing..."
"You started hoeing out"
"No. I started living. Or at least that's what I thought at the time"
I laid down next to her. I began to question myself. Who was I more like, my mom or my
dad. My dad was strong, smart, powerful. My mother, daring, assertive and persistent.
Next two days went by fast. It was Sunday morning and my door swung right open.
A black dress was thrown on me.
"Get dressed" she ordered
"What?"
"Come on your not gunna sit here moping around. Suzie's funeral start in a couple of
hours"
"Wait how do you know that?"
"I called your dad last night"
"You did what?"
"Relax, I got Tony instead. Told him I wanted to pay my respects, he gave the address so
lets go. Chop chop!"
I showered, got dressed and made a quick phone call. As I brushed my hair Maria walked
in dressed up and caring a pair of heels "For you"
"Me? Your broke, how did you even get the money to pay for that?"
"Wasn't all that expense. Just wear it. Pack your bags, I'm taking you home."
"Your kicking me out?"
"No, I'm just not gunna let you run from your problems. I did that and look at me now"
She helped me pack and then we left.
We arrived at the church 20 minutes later, everyone was outside.
"I can't go in there" I panicked
"Letty! Come on. It wasn't your fault no one blames you"
I took a deep breath and opened the door.
OKAY SO YOU GUYS MIGHT BE LIKE "WHY IS LETTY WITH HER MOM? I THOUGHT SHE HATED HER." THAT IS CORRECT BUT LETTY LOST HER GRANDMOTHER, THE CLOSEST THING SHE EVER HAD TO A MOM. SHE'S SAD AND REALIZES THAT LIFE IS TOO SHORT. WITH THAT BEING SAID, SHE WENT TO THE ONLY PLACE THEY WOULDN'T CHECK FOR HER. THE ONLY PERSON WHO SHE HAD THROWN OUT OF HER LIFE, HER MOM. AFTER HEARING ALL THESE STORIES/EXPLANATIONS FOR HOW MARIA CAME TO BE THE WOMAN SHE IS TODAY, LETTY IS NOT COMPELETY AT PEACE WITH HER, BUT SHE MORE UNDERSTANDING.
HOPE THAT CLEARS UP A FEW THINGS AND ALSO ANYTHING ELSE THAT YOU GUYS WANT TO KNOW LIKE HOW SHE LEFT THE MOTEL, ETC WILL BE ANSWERED IN FUTURE CHAPTERS. IF THERE IS STILL QUESTIONS YOU NEED ANSWERED DON'T FORGET TO REVIEW OR MESSAGE ME =]
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