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".." Talking
'..' Thoughts
".." Inner Voice
'..' Reading
*..* Action/Place
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This is the worst day of my life.
What did I do to deserve this?
Why I am going through this suffering?
Why I am being abadoned like this?
Why I am being treated bad when I make them feel special?
Why my friends who I trusted the most make feel the worst?
Is this the payback of what I have done?
Why? What did I do? To make them do this to me?
I'll sacrifice everything for them even mean to my death.
Why?Why!Why!Why!Why!Why!Why!Why!Why!Why!Why!
/Flashback/
After defeating and sealing the dragon of the apocalypse(666) we now attain the long wanted peace in the human & supernatural world.
I am Hyoudou Issei the current holder of the Red Dragon(Y Draig Goch) or Welsh Dragon. I'm current studying to our mansion library after the confrotation against trihexa(666) We now can live normally to pursue our goals in both society, Human & Supernatural. Now I am studying to improve my understanding and knowledge to become more mature and best version of myself although sometimes I remember what did I do in the past and It'll just make me cringe. 'But focusing on present to improve yourself is the best way to avoid memory' that's is what I always said when I am remembering my embrassing action in the past therefore now I have geniunely grilfriends who understand me and it gave me goal that after I graduated from highschool I will marry each one of them, that's why I am working part-time in resturant to saved money enough to buy 8 Rings(Asia, Xenovia, Irina, Akeno, Kuroka, Koneko, Rossweisse, and Rias).
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Coming from home after long day, I can't wait to see them the one who make me feel geniunely loved and cared. I notice that's no one is home? "Hello" I midly screamed but only answered I get is my the echo of my voice.
'Hmm..Looks like I am the first one here to arrive, I wonder where are they?'
Knowing that I am the first one to arrive, I plan what dishes I will make while waiting for them to come home. First checking the refrigerator and see if all ingredients I will need to prepare is here.
After finishing cooking and preparing the dishes in the table and waiting girls to come home.
6:00PM
'Hmm.. where are they? It's already 6 o'clock but they not here, and the food is beginning to get cold.'
'Maybe something happened?'
'If there something happened should they inform me via calling me.'
'I'll just go to school and see if I can sse them there or try to contact sirzechs and asked if he know something.'
Arriving at the college university at kuoh where my first and second girlfriend study, since I have limited information about what course they are, I just asked people if they know Rias Gremory or Akeno Himejima.
After asking people, I now know that they also representative of the university, not surprisingly because of their grades, looks and attitude.
Walking towards the student council while wondering my eyes in the environment, I suddenly feel that there are also someone who are like me but what stopped me from my movement is the voice and the image of two girls talking while walking towards the door.
"Do you finish every task I gave to you, Akeno" Rias said with tone of authority
"Yess, I've Finish them buccho" Akeno said with a playful tone
Then they stopped at the front door before knocking before opening and entering. I find myself relieve because of what I see that they are fine but they are so busy with their schoolworks.
" Looks like it."
"Draig, for you to be silent for a long time this is the time you seriously choose to speak."
"Don't blame me, after battling with a apocalypse that gods are afraid of, left me exhausting and to add there's no need for me to intervene at your battle. You are now strong enough to protect yourself from potential danger." Draig said
*Sigh*"Why do you appear distant nowadays?" I confront
"...I am not distancing myself from you or others."
"I am just feeling it but, is there something wrong you know that i don't know?" I asked
"...No, there's none." Draig said firmly
But before I can reply there's woman voice interrupting me.
"Pleassseee, Reiji is there anything I can do to make you do me a favour?" Akeno said
"GET OFF OF HIM AKENO!! HE'S MINE" Rias angrily screamed at akeno
What?
"Draig, did I hear right?" I'll stupidly asked
"Issei, leave this place immediately"
"Draig I want to know the truth, is this why you become distant to us after battle?" I'll pleaded to him
"Issei leave this place immediately, this is no place for you to hear the truth"
"Hahahahaha" Laugh without emotion surely scary
"Draig" *Sigh* "Alright"
"Thank you for being a understanding person in this situation"
"But I won't leave till I see what they doing behind my back" I angrily said
"Issei Don't-
Before draig can speak I cut off the connection between me and him.
Walking towards the door and opening it slightly for me to see what's going on inside. I see a man sitting on a chair with table in his front while two women are hugging his side while flirting with him.
"Akeno, for the last time I say this, get off of him In this instance" Rias angrily threaten
"Nope~" Akeno said
"Why you!!"
"Why can't you share him with me? Of course I know the reason though" Akeno said while giggling
Rias blush blushed of what she hear from Akeno because that's all true
"He is Gentleman, Smart, Goodlooking, Rich, Have a good physique and most of all he's respected by everyone and have manners towards opposite sex not like HIM"
"Ahh, Why do you have to remind me of HIM" Rias said with angry disgust tone
"Girls? Can I asked you a question?" The man speak
"Hmmm what is it?" Akeno said
"Who's HIM?" The man asked
"Of course I anticipated that you will asked this question near future" Rias said
"He's our ex-boyfriend and he known because of the dragon inside of him, all should be good but that's all, he's no special and to make it worst he's a pervert" Rias said with a genuinely disgust
"That being said, his nothing compared to you Reiji so don't be jealous of him because we are all yours~" seductively said by Akeno
"Well if that's what you think, I can't help but to fall in love with the two of you everytime" The man named Reiji said while smirking
Everything flash in my eyes, the sacrifices, the blood and sweat I give to save them, helped them, to become someone who can they rely on and expecting they also helped me from my trauma.
Before I knew it I already running without knowing where my feet will deliver me but I kept on running till I found fountain reminiscing the past event in this place
"Will you die for me?"
"Ahhhhhh" I screamed when I see the image of Raynare coming towards me with a spear
"Did you say you love me?"
"No don't come to me, GO AWAY" I screamed at her
"HAHAHAHAHAH" Her laugh make me freeze because of how dull her laugh was
"Even having a strong sacred gear you are useless aren't you"
"No wonder they abandoned you, in their eyes they only see is the human who became a vessel for a dragon to be born but that human is a full of disappointment"
"Do you even know what pride is? Or etiquette ? Or Intelligence? No you are not only make a disgusting reputation in the demon's world but you use the power of dragon who fight against god to make that absorb reputation"
"Stop please stop" I pleaded to her
"No I will not stop until you learn in a worst way" She said
"...You're already dead" I whispered while bowing my head
"Do you know that Bitch devil, knows that I am going to kill you?"
My mind became blank for a second before thinking the possibility
Before our meet up of raynare, kiba give me a weird paper with a weird drawing in it that looked like a summoning spell at that time I have no knowledge of supernatural world and after stabbing my stomach and bleed to death I have no recollection of what happen but the reincarnation of me being a devil.
"Why?"
"Looks like you got caught of it, hmmm you getting smarter aren't you?"
"And for your information that's not a compliment that's a insult because your stupidity leads to what situation you are now"
"..." Keeping my silenced to think every that happens is now a lie
The silence keep going until I hear a group of girls talking on the other side of the fountain
"Hmmm~~"
"Looks like you have a good time Asia" Irina said
"Heh, of course who wouldn't happy when you have a 'friend' giving you a beautiful adornments" Xenovia said
"But Ryutaro is better since his sweet, nice, caring and good looking" Erina beamed
"You should not be jealous of what my boyfriend give me Erina-san, Xenovia-san You also have respectively boyfriends that you can be proud of" Asia said with a calm demeanour
After the battle, the shy demeanour of asia gradually disappeared And suspecting she grow up her own weakness and change it but I guess this is the reason
"Hmm you are right Asia, but there's a rumour going around about you two"Xenovia said
"What is it?"
"They said that you and ken are being lovey-dovey at your clubroom and they always see you holding hands with him and suspecting kissing him" Xenovia teased
This time Asia is now blushing because of what she heard
"That rumour is nonsense" Asia said while forcing herself to calm down
"I didn't think that you are so bold Asia-senpai" Koneko said with emotionless tone
Asia learn to shut her mouth and blush because of what little girl said to her
"Hmm, but koneko I found that you have also love interest don't you?"Xenovia point out
"Wha-"Koneko try to speak but cut off by Irina
"Righht, and the one you like is the little brother of Souji and Ryutaro Our boyfriend"
"I think his name is Hijima?"
"wha-whatever" Koneko said wanting to stopped the conversation about her and her love interest
"But I hear another rumour that Ravel is also like him? Is that true?"
"Well that's true but we already talked about it that we will never destroyed our friendship because of our love interest no hard feelings whoever will win" Koneko said
"That's okay as long you get along"Xenovia said
"Talking about like, what do you like about him koneko-chan?" Irina asked
"He's athletic, romantic, caring and kind and he is not a pervert like pervert senpai"
"Ohh speaking of pervert what all of you thought of issei" Irina said
"Well I think his pervertness will never leave his personality" Xenovia said
"He's a pervert in other words, He's worst and I hate him" Koneko said firmly
"Well you are on being harsh like that but all you said is true" Irina said
"What I hate about him is he's pervertness and his selfishness because of his tendencies to touch boobs he never feel the my uneasiness when he do that to me" Asia said
"Hahahahah we are all have same opinions of him being worst of worst" Irina said
"It's getting late now we should all go home"
"I agree" Koneko approval
"Then, Let's go" Asia said
After they left, I've felt numb all over my body this is no ordinary pain but I endure so much pain that can kill me but this is different. I felt like I have lost all of my chances in life.
"Blame the one who put you a sacred gear"
If I didn't have sacred gear then this will be never happen the suffering, the sacifices, the blood and tears will never wasted on this fucked up situation.
I just cursed but I don't care I am feeling Lost and fucked cause by my precious my ones–
THUMP THUMP
"ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" I screamed in sudden pain in my chest, looking to my chest I am flabbergasted of what I see, I see 7 broken pieces of what looks is obsidian touring my flesh from the inside
"What the hell is happening??"
"Issei Issei Issei ISSEI" Draig keep calling my name to get my attention but I can't because of the pain
"Stop screaming draig, do you have any idea what's happening to me?"
"I'll try analyse that thing inside your body and find out why"
THUMP THUMP
The pieces are keep pulsating and keeps getting hurt by every minute pass by
"Draig are-" *Blargh* ".." Fuck I did not finish speaking because of the blood coming out from my mouth
"Issei!!"
"I am okay draig, for more importantly do you find anything about this?"
"Issei that abomination in your body are the evil pieces that used to resurrect you!"
"Then why is this happening to evil pieces?"
"Looks like they are eating your negative emotion and now you have so much negative emotion that cause to evil pieces react aggressively"
"Shit..What the worst can happen if this pieces don't remove from my body?"
"Worst thing can happen is that, evil pieces will slowly draining your life force while making you suffering every time you had before you die"
"Completely worse. Looks like My suffering is not enough for me to pass on like this haha"
"Issei don't lose your hope to live, there are so many past event that this happen to you, You are no longer anyone's option you are just yourself, I know that you feeling so much pain but take time to grieve and then move on. This is not about them this is about you."
"They are my everything Draig, they are the one who pushed me to attain this accomplishment, they are the one who comfort me when I am at the lowest but now everything changed they don't need me because the danger they feared has disappeared and now they can live happy to do what they want without concern of being attack, they abandoned me, like the title they gave me, A Pawn, When they needed a sacrifice they concern for me but when I am no longer needed or someone appeared much more useful than me, I'll get abandon. " I said to draig
*braghhh*
"I have no time draig, this pieces is draining my life force faster than we anticipated. Is there anything you know to save me from this?"
"There is, but the price is your life. Are you willing to risk it?"
"Hahhah I am now living in the dead's man body no better than risking it"
"By doing your soul will be in so much pain and the body you have will surely destroyed therefore, if the process is succeed then your risk and pain is worth it"
"Can we start now?"
"Yes we can"
THUMP THUMP THUMP THUMP THUMP THUMP THUMP THUMP THUMP
"ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH" I screamed in agony when my body starting to fight the evil pieces. After a felt like a hours of screaming I feel that evil pieces is starting to return to their original form
I thought that's the last but something happen.
After fighting the evil pieces that consume so much life fore then
I feel burning and ripping in my forehead, Feeling worse I quickly moved to mountain to see what is causing of this pain but after seeing my reflection make me scared.
I see myself with a eye in my forehead but it's lack of iris and completely black Then suddenly a white Iris appear.
When I met the white Iris in the eye on my forehead It begun to shake aggressively then I feel the massive pain and memories hit my head.
All trauma i've gotten through my experience has come, crashing down to me like a tsunami in the face of little landform
The first experiencing death, the first betrayal, the first sacrifice and the beginning of the end of my innocent life to bullshit fantasy
'Fuck how long it's going to be? I don't think in my state of mental health can handle this much mental pressure'
'Heh…..Even I've lose everything I treasure the most, I am still a coward behind my powers. No wonder they disappointed at me'
'But their thoughts no longer have a value, because this time I am myself, I have a dream, I have goals, I've come to learned from my mistake and to value myself than others'
'Death can have me, when it's own me until then I will keep moving forward'
'I will change'
'I will be better'
'I will be victorious'
"ARGHHHHHHHH"
'No one can stop me'
'No one can bested me'
'No one can defeat me'
"If you want to attain godhood, then the thing you must do is get rid of your emotion, because being with no emotion can do anything without any concern of what they do."
"ARGHHHHH"
'I am alone'
'I don't care'
'When I am at the bottom, I am alone'
'When I am at the top, I am alone'
'Being alone is the best thing you can get'
'In this world who never listened'
'Peace of mind gives you an ability to think and make a decision logically'
'A touch of madness is the ability to risk it all without worrying about the consequences'
"ARGHHH"
'Control it'
'Control it'
'Control it'
*...* Suddenly a purple pillar of light surrounded me then the bright light swallows my vision
* BOOM*
TO BE CONTINUED~
I'M A FIRST-TIMER BUT I AM NOT NEW OF BEING CRITICISED AND THIS IS MY FIRST-FANFIC. I WROTE THIS BECAUSE I HAVE NOTHING TO DO WITH MY FREE TIME SO I CHOOSE TO CREATE A STORY WHERE SOME STORIES ARE GENERIC BULLSHIT THIS STORY ARE HAVE SOME TOUCH OF REALITY.
THAT'S ALL GOODBYE
LOSE IT ALL.