A/N: Hey… So I feel like a complete dick for not updating, and I have no excuse. Honestly, I've just been lazy. I couldn't figure out where to go with this story, and I was too lazy to try to figure it out, so I didn't try at all. Again, I am really sorry. I will try to keep up with it, now, though. I hope you enjoy this chapter

I morphed the second I left Bella's house and entered the woods.

I ran as fast as I could through the woods, no idea where I was heading. I didn't care. I just didn't want anyone near me, but I knew I'd have company.

Sure enough, only a few minutes later I hear Jacob yelling at me in my mind. It only makes me run faster.

I don't want to fight you. I think, directly to him

Bullshit! I can hear all your thoughts, or did you forget?

Of course, Jacob was right. I wanted to fight him. I wanted to beat the shit out of him. But not just him, I wanted to beat up anyone, anything. I was pissed, so pissed I could beat up my friends.

I growled as I felt Jacob getting closer. I stopped running and skidded to a stop, flipping around to wait for Jacob to catch up. A second later he appeared through the trees. I took my toughest stance and tried to stare him down.

Come at me. Jacob growled at me.

Do you really want to get your ass kicked?

I'm stronger then you.

And I love her more then you do.

That stopped us both. Was that even true? How much did I love Bella?

Fuck you Paul.

Back at ya Jake.

STOP!

We both freeze as Sam suddenly emerges from the trees. I hadn't even noticed him coming I'd been so wrapped up in my own and Jacob's thoughts.

Sam stared as down, something he was very good as, even better then me. We both back down, but I don't feel anymore relaxed.

Paul, calm down. Sam thinks, directly to me. His eyes lock with mine and I look away.

I can't do that. I think.

Then leave.

I left, though I had nowhere to go, so I just ran. I ran off all my feelings, all my anger, all of it. I ran until my legs felt like they would fall off, I ran until I morphed back into human form, and even a little after. I ran until I collapsed onto the forest floor. I didn't know where I was, could be in Canada by now. But honestly, I didn't care.

I rolled onto my back and stared up at the treetops. It was almost dark out now, and a few stars were starting to show. I could see my breath but of course I wasn't cold at all. In fact, I was sweating.

I took a few deep breaths before sitting back up. I looked around at the grass and tree trunks. I didn't know these woods, which meant I didn't know how to get back, which was fine with me. I didn't want to go back, not yet.

I didn't want to go anywhere, for that matter. I just wanted to sit here in these woods I don't know, I don't know for how long, but I was going to do it.

I was just going to sit.

She didn't seem bothered. She seemed like she was fine.

That pissed me off, and I'd only just calmed down.

I wanted to confront her, and I usually do the things I want without too much thinking, but something was stopping me this time,

This situation was obviously like none I'd ever been in before.

Love made everything different.

I turned away from the Bella's kitchen window. I couldn't watch her sit there smiling with Charlie any longer.

It was stupid to think she'd be upset at all. It was stupid to have come here.

I have a small urge to turn and run away again, but I brush the feeling away. I need to go talk to Sam.

I go around to the front of the house and start towards the forest across the road when I hear the front door open.

"Paul."

I stop walking and let my name echo in my mind for a moment before turning around to face her.

"Hi Bella." I say, sounding like an awkward teenage boy on his first date. I'd rather be that then here right now.

"Why are you creeping outside my house?"

Shit, she saw me.

"Sorry." I say, turning to leave.

"Paul."

Second time she's said my name. I'm eating it up.

"Yes?"

She stares at me for a moment. I don't think I've ever seen her so focused in her life.

"Nothing." She steps back into her house and shuts the door.

My heart pounds in my chest as I stand in the road, frozen.

Nothing.

The word repeats and repeats in my mind.

Nothing.

"UGH!" I exclaim, throwing my arms in the hair, my hands landing on my head. I take a few deep, jagged breathes before dropping my arms to my side and kicking the ground.

I take one last look at Bella's house before turning and spiriting into the woods, morphing as I go.