A/N: So thank you for all that reviewed. I know that this story is actually not all that interesting yet, but wait until next chapter or possibly the chapter after that. There is a lot of shit that goes down that you aren't going to want to miss. I am also sorry about not updating my other stories; I just haven't gotten to that yet. I am in sort of a blah phase that I can't get out of at the moment so just bear with me. Anyways, go read!

Chapter Four: A Final Goodbye

Kendall and I had talked over even a few more months before he was getting ready to leave for the military. I was really sad to see him go, but then again I was happy. I was happy because yet again Jett and Kendall were back together. He was talking about prom and how he hated how Kendall was leaving so he wouldn't have a date. Me, however, I didn't really care about prom. Yes I wanted to go, but my mind was worried about other things. Only some of them being about Kendall.

Recently Carlos had come to me about a little something he started up.

"I did something bad last night." Carlos told me as he approached me. His head was hanging a little low which meant that he felt guilty about it. I also knew that Carlos was slightly terrified to tell me things especially when he knew that they would upset me. When he told me that Jett and Kendall were together yet again he made sure to quickly leave afterwards afraid of what I was going to do. It had been known that in the Mitchell family temper was an easy thing to lose.

"Oh, and what's that." Carlos and I have a very different version of bad so I was quite curious on what he had to say.

Instead of answering me, Carlos pulled up his sleeve a little bit and I gasped at what I saw. There in his left wrist were about ten to fifteen cuts. "Are you mad at me?" How could he even ask that? Of course I was mad!

"Yes. Why would you even do this to yourself?" My voice was a bit louder than it should've been. I was just lucky that it was lunch time so everybody was loud.

"I don't know, I just wanted to know what it felt like."

"Are you serious? You really cut yourself because you wanted to know what it felt like. Don't' you know that it can become an addiction?" Carlos just nodded his head. "Hold out your arm."

"Why?"

"Just do it," It was a harsher tone then I ever wanted to use with Carlos but I couldn't help but be mad. Hell I was beyond mad, how could he be so reckless? Carlos rolled up his sleeve again and held out his arm. I quickly slapped the area that had the cuts. I knew that it would hurt but that's what he needed to feel. He needed to know that there was a lot of pain that involved cutting himself.

"That hurt." He said pulling his arm away.

"It was meant to. Now think about the pain that I just caused you if you ever think about doing it again. Every time you do it I will slap even harder. Understand?" I hated it but a lot of people knew that I became a parent around the people I care most. Most of the time when I am talking to Kendall I am telling him not to do something and why it is a bad idea. That happens more times than not in our recent conversations.

"Don't give him a hard time. A lot of people cut." I turned around seeing the blond himself. I've known for months now that Kendall cut himself but I did the exact same thing to him that I did to Carlos. Cutting wasn't supposed to cause people to feel good, that's why I wanted to bring pain to them to remind them that it wasn't ok. I know that it wasn't the best method but it got Kendall to stop cutting for a couple of days because I sure as hell knew how to hit the right spot hard enough.

"Yeah, but it's not a good thing."

"Well duh." He smirked and it caused me to smile a little. I didn't know why I was smiling, cutting was such an awful topic to be smiling about.

"So what brings you back to high school?" I knew that he was probably here visiting Lizzy. It was the end of March so he was probably telling her goodbye. He probably forgot to say goodbye to me and just ran into me by luck.

"I came to say goodbye. I told you I would." I nodded my head.

"I can't believe that you will be gone for eight years." Kendall laughed at this.

"We both know that I am going to get kicked out way before then. You'll probably see me in like three years." There was a high probability of Kendall being kicked out of the army. Hell, he would probably desert if it sucked that badly. I just really hoped that he pulled through it so it would make him a better person. That was the goal at least.

"That's still a long time." Kendall moved closer to me so that he was now staring down at me.

"I will be back and I will make sure to come visit you. You're such a good friend Logan I couldn't lose you." There was that word, friend. I was in the friend zone and it sucked. But hey I've been in the friend zone with him for over a year now, what's a few more? Kendall then pulled me into a hug. He knew that I loved hugs, especially his hugs. I don't know what it was about everybody else but there was something about Kendall that made his hugs better then everybody else's. I was about to say something but Kendall pulled away. "So, have you seen my wonderful boyfriend?"

With that words escaped me. Of course he was here to see Jett. He would just say goodbye and leave; apparently that's what he's good at. No Logan, stop it. Don't be mean. You are his friend and its better than not being in his life at all. Never in my life had I ever disagreed with that statement until now. I don't know why but that right there had broken my heart yet again.

I had pointed to where Jett was and he just smiled. "Thank you Logan. Hey, now I can drink whenever the hell I want."

"Don't you already do that?" Kendall laughed.

"Well, yeah. Now I don't have to worry about getting caught."

"Your liver hates you, just so you know."

"My liver loves me." Yeah right. Kendall has been drinking more than Lindsey Lohan, Paris Hilton and a bunch of other drunken celebrities combined. Kendall even made his own vodka that would knock hiss ass out after three shots. That's why Kendall's liver hated him.

"Keep telling yourself that but it's going to be me telling you I told you so when you call me from the hospital with liver failure." Kendall just laughed. He didn't really understand how serious I was being. Kendall was going to die before he turned the age of 27. That's how sad it was and yet here I was pining after a guy I knew who isn't going to live long.

"If that happens, I'll allow you to tell me I told you so."

"I like that answer. Now, go talk to Jett." And with that Kendall was off leaving me feel like crap like after every other time I talk to him. I feel guilty whenever I talk to Kendall anymore especially when he talks about Jett. I didn't know why but I just hated that he had him and yet there I was slightly flirting with Kendall and he was slightly flirting back. That might just be me though because in our relationship it was all one side and that was all me.

A/N: So there was chapter four. I know that it isn't much but there will be soon. So why don't you all click that fancy new(ish) review button and tell me what you guys thought about the chapter. Can't wait to hear what you guys have to say.