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Chapter Nine
I mean that can't be right, right? I can't be pregnant. I can't be a mother. I'm not ready for that shit yet. I love taking care of kids but it's nice when I get to leave at the end of the day. Remember my list. I had a list and I can't be pregnant because I'm not even dating anyone.
God! What was Edward going to think of me? He is sure to be furious. How could I have forgotten about my birth control pills running out. I guess I wasn't as smart as I thought when I drank. Would he want to keep it? Did I want to keep it? FUCK!
"Bella? Are you going to be alright?" Dr. James asked.
"Oh. Uh…Yeah." I felt like this had to be a bad dream. " Um….do you have any references for a midwives or OB's in the area? I don't really know any, ya know."
"Yes. Of course I do Bella. Did you still want to do the PDD test today? Or you could come back in a day or two after you process. I can tell by your facial expression that this pregnancy wasn't planned so I understand if you need some time." Dr. James replied.
"Um, Yeah. Okay that would be better. Can I just get the references when I come back in?" I asked.
"Sure. That would be fine. I will tell the receptionist that I want to see you in two days. Would that be okay?"
"Yeah. Thank you Dr. James. I really appreciate it."
"No problem Bella. I'll see you in two days." She said as she walked out the door.
-WoS-
I must have been in shock because before I even realized what was happening I was back at my apartment. I couldn't comprehend how much I had just royally fucked my life over. Sure kids aren't the end of the world but I didn't want them yet. Was I even responsible enough to be a parent if I got knocked up because I forgot I didn't take my birth control?
What was I going to tell Edward? I went to the kitchen to grab some ice cream and sit on my couch. I figured ice cream usually cured all problems. Although I doubted it would fix this shit storm.
I also grabbed my phone so I could call Alice. I needed to talk to someone other than my own brain because I didn't think that was too healthy. When I finally hit the call button on my phone, it just rang. Alice's voicemail picked up about six rings later.
"Hi Allie. Um I really need to talk to you. I'm guessing you're probably at work or something. I don't know. Could you just call me or come over when you can. Alright…Well bye."
Well fuck. I desperately needed someone to chat with or else I might go nuts. Calling mom or dad was out of the question. One would think at I would call Edward but until I decided if I was going to move forward with this pregnancy I was going to avoid him.
I decided to call my only other best friend, Jake. He was usually pretty insightful. And he shouldn't be too busy right now. Once I called I wanted to hang up but I knew he would just keep calling back if I did so that would be pointless.
"Hey Bells!" He answered.
"Hey Jake. How are you?" I asked.
"I'm good. Just started dating this new guy so we'll see how that goes. How are you pretty girl?"
"I'm not so good." I said with a sigh. "I really needed someone to talk to and you're the only person who can handle it besides Alice."
"Okay Bells. Well hit me with it."
"I'm pregnant Jake. I don't know what to do. Do I keep it? Do I tell the dad? What do I do? How did I let this happen. What is wrong with me!" By the end of this word vomit I was bawling my eyes out. I didn't think it would hit me emotionally but I guess I was wrong.
"Calm down Bella. Lets take one question at a time." Jake replied. "The dad is Tyler right?"
I dawned on me that I hadn't talked to Jake in a lot longer than I thought. "Um…No. We broke up about five weeks ago and I sort of had a one nighter the night it happened." Admitting that that one night had been the whole reason my world was currently upside down was really hard. I knew Jake must have been shocked judging by his silence. I mean I had only been with three men in my entire life. It wasn't like I was having one night stands often, well ever really I guess.
"Are you still there Jake?" I asked
"Yeah Bella. I was just trying to process honey. I'm sorry. Okay well do you know the guy you were with? Did you get a name or number or anything?"
"Um…yeah. We were just hanging out last night."
"Okay well what do you want Bells?" Jake asked. "Can you see yourself having an abortion? Or giving the baby up for adoption once you have it?"
I sat there for a couple minutes silently. I didn't think I could go through with an abortion. Don't get me wrong, I'm a pro-choice kind of woman but I didn't think I could go through with it. And adoption, Could I go through 9, well more like 8 now, months of pregnancy and give up the baby. I never thought that I would be in this predicament but I really only had myself to blame.
I knew then that I would be keeping this baby. I would offer Edward an out though. If he wanted to stick around then awesome and if not I understood. Sure we should have used a condom as well but I was the one who forgot I ran out of my pills. He shouldn't be saddled with the responsibility if he didn't want it.
"I'm keeping it Jake. I'm going to keep the baby. But don't say anything to Charlie. I wanted to fly back soon anyway to visit. I miss you guys." I finally replied.
"No problem Bells. And I hope you know that I support whatever you choose."
"I know. And thank you for allowing me to talk it through. Alice was at work and I figured I should tell Edward in person."
"Edward?"
"Oh um…the baby's dad."
"Oh. Okay. Well babe, I have to get back to work. But seriously if you need anything call me alright?"
"I will Jake. Thank you again. Bye!"
"Bye Bells"
With that I hung up. Now that I knew what I was going to do about the little one in my belly, I decided to call Edward and ask him over.
Unfortunately he didn't answer and I got his voice mail.
"Hi. You've reached Edward. I can't take your call so leave me a message and I'll get back to you."
God. Even his voice mail, though plain, sounded sexy. Ahh! Bella knock it off and leave a fucking message!
"Hi Edward. It's me. Um, I was curious if you could come over. I needed to talk to you. Oh duh. It's Bella. I totally said me like you would know. Shit now this is long. Ugh. Anyway just could you call me and come over? Sorry I'm a fucking moron who can't leave a proper message. Okay Talk to you later. Bye!"
Great, I'm sure he'll be thrilled that I plan on raising his kid.
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