JPOV

The smell of human blood wafted through the open automatic doors and taunted my senses. The emotions in this place were haywire. Lust, anger, deceit, jealousy, hate, anticipation, giddiness, contentment, and curiosity. A growl was building in my chest.

'Kill. Destroy. Dominate. Slaughter. Blood. Delicious blood. Power. Blood.'

The delicious smell of human blood and strong emotions had the Major clamoring to get out. It took every painful effort not to go on a rampage. The last time he almost slipped free, he hurt Alice. Not physically, I'd never let him do that, but emotionally. We made her leave her best friend.

'Bella..'

Bella was precious to everyone. However, it was Alice and Edward that loved her the most. Then I had to fuck up my control and tried attack her over a stupid fucking paper cut. A paper cut that smelled so fucking good. One moment we were watching her open presents, the next, we were all watching a single drop of blood fall to the floor. A luscious, sweet, fragrant, drop of mother fucking blood. Not only was my bloodlust raging, but everyone else's as well and being an empath, I felt the whole shitload of it. As the drop descended, the Major was halfway out screaming 'mine!' It was as if Bella was my singer and not Edward's. Needless to say, I was almost in front of her before Edward pushed me away and I ended up on the remains of his beloved piano. I was dragged outside. While Alice was outside with me later on, Bella was inside getting her arm stitched up. Yeah, her arm. Turns out that right before Edward sent me flying into his piano, he pushed her out of the way into the glass table that had breakable ceramic plates on it.

The whole family, except Edward of course, seems to have forgotten that I was not the only one who fucked up that day. The feelings of guilt Edward was constantly projecting could rival my own.

After he dropped her off that night, the fucker came back and went on a spiel how we were too dangerous and that she needed a clean break. And of course, like little minions, everyone started packing up while he went to 'say goodbye'. At first, there was the initial protestation, but then he said "What are you going to do when Jasper tries to attack her again?". Cue the effort to conceal their disappointment. I looked to Alice expecting her to defend me. I know I'm lacking and not good enough ninety-nine percent of the time, but I'm her husband and she knows I work real hard on my control. I really thought that she would say something, but she didn't. However, after analyzing her emotions carefully, I realized that she was hurting. A lot. And why shouldn't she be hurt? If I hadn't attacked, Edward wouldn't feel the need to leave and Alice wouldn't have to leave her only friend. Her best friend.

I must have been projecting because my thoughts on Bella were interrupted.

"Sweetie, you know I have already forgiven you," she reached up to the tips of her toes and gave my cheek a kiss, "now come on! We need to go get the present! Oh and get you a new tie!"

A small wave of lust from her reached me and I quirked an eyebrow before sending her a wave of my own lust. Her eyes darkened. I went up to her and gave the most passionate kiss up to date, not caring about our surroundings. My sweet wife whimpered.

"A new tie huh?" I whispered huskily.

"Yes," she whispered back.

"Well then let's go get that present and new tie."

The present was for Doucheward. Edward has been reduced to a douche in my eyes. In the beginning of their separation, Edward's emotions were so negative and melancholy that I had to leave with Alice for days at a time into the Alaskan wilderness. Then, his emotions started changing gradually and new ones emerged. Romantic ones. For Tanya Denali. I tried speaking of Bella when he was around and his only feelings would be nostalgic with a bit of romantic affection.

The prick was good at hiding his romance with the Denali coven leader for none of the family noticed, of course, save for Alice and I. Why we never told the rest of family or tried to stop it is still a mystery to me. One day, we all went hunting (Edward excluded of course, he had chosen to stay behind) and when we came back, Edward came outside of the house with Tanya, his arm around her waist and a ring on her finger. Even Alice was surprised with that one. At first, she felt anger, hurt, and betrayal towards him, and then she got that 'vision look' in her eyes and her emotions towards him changed to giddiness. Whatever she saw convinced her that the marriage should happen. She, Tanya, and Esme planned the wedding, which was tonight. I know traditionally the wedding gifts are given at the Bridal Shower but Alice insisted that the gift should be saved for the day of the wedding. I guess I know why now.

As I watched my pixie wife skip and twirl her way to an antique shop, I couldn't help but marvel how she was mine.

When I first saw her in the diner all those decades ago, I knew she must be an angel. An angel sent to drag me to hell. Instead, she took me up and with her light she pierced my darkness. After all, I am the dark, vulgar, hardened soldier and she's, well, Alice. I must be doing something right in order for her to continue to put up with my shit constantly.

I vow this to you, Alice, I will continue trying my hardest to be the man you deserve, no matter how much I'm not. Never again will you even get a glimpse of the darkness within me.

When we got back to the house, I make sweet, gentle love to my wife while her wrists were tied up with the new tie. It was something new for us, for she never liked any sort of kink. Needless to say, we both were very satisfied afterward. We both got up and got ready for the wedding. As usual, it took me a shorter time to get ready for I was already half dressed. Alice and I never made love with me being fully naked. I have never felt comfortable showing my scars and she has never pushed because my scars upset her and she can't bear to see them. It's a strange arrangement, but it works for us.

FIC REC'S:

The Blessing and The Curse by The Black Arrow-This story is her first fic and let me tell you, it's amazing. It has a decent amount of angst and just is totally awesome! The best part? It's complete so you won't have to wait for any updates :D

Dead on My Feet by Cesca Marie-This is a Cancerward fic. This story is...there are no words for it. It's just amazing. In this fic, Edward is a cancer patient in remission when he meets the new student Bella Swan who happens to be his Bio partner. It's hate at first sight. Or is it? Read for yourself. It's pure awesomeness. There's a lot of awesome stuff in it.

Insecurites by JamesRamsey-If you haven't heard of or read this fic, then you're not from earth. This is an amazing fic and it is also completed so no anxious waiting for an update! :D