JPOV

"Bye Bella," I whispered. I stood there as still as a statue until even I couldn't hear the roaring engine of Bella's truck. When the noise finally died away I sat down heavily and put my head in my hands, self hatred running rampant through me.

When I came back to Forks, running into Bella was something I had not factored in. But then, when I came back I was solely focused on my pain and the fact that Alice left me that nothing else mattered.

I was so out of it at the time that I did not even hear her truck rumbling closer and closer. I did not even recognize her when she came in, but the Major sure noticed her. To us, she was a foolish lamb that came to the slaughter.

'You are an idiot Jasper!'

How could I not recognize her the second she came in? I almost killed the human girl that Alice loved again. Emotionally wrung out, I let my mask fall. Even through my self-hatred, shame, and anguish, her touch comforted me. Her hands, so soft and gentle, her scent unhindered by manufactured perfumes, and her emotions calm, anchored me in a way she could never realize.

My mind, unbidden, remembered the scent of her blood.

'Mine' the Major purred. 'No, shut up!'

I sat there unmoving, for another hour and a half trying to gain control before I went out to hunt. I wasn't thirsty, no, but I was emotionally drained. The darker part of me needed violence in order to bring back balance. Yes, a hunt was definitely in order. Except this, time, I chose to hunt in Seattle. Hunting in Port Angeles with the memory of Bella's visit still fresh in my mind seemed wrong.

It only took me about ten minutes for me to get to Seattle. Unlike the Cullens, I chose my natural mode of transportation: running.

When I was human riding my horse at breakneck speeds around my parents' land and around our camps during the Civil War was always soothing to me and that hasn't changed. I may not be as fast as Doucheward, but I'm fast enough.

When I finally entered Seattle I slowed down to a human pace and as I walking I was about to pass a payphone when it started ringing. I looked at it and hesitated.

'Should I answer?'

Payphones are hardly used these days, for almost all of America has cell phones and if they don't they can easily get a disposable one or a free one from the government. I stood there and waited for it to stop ringing, but it never did. Answer it it is.

I picked up the mouth piece, "Hello?"

The voice on the other end gave me a surprise, because it was a voice that I had not heard in twenty years.

"Major, I know why you are in Seattle and I must implore you not to go through with it."

"Peter?" his words finally clicked in my brain and I growled, "you bastard what did you see?"

I heard him chuckle on the other end. Peter Whitlock, my second in command, my brother, my son, my best friend, and my honorary pain in the ass.

When I turned him, I had been with Maria for about ten years. I was walking through Dallas, Texas, my home town when I stumbled on a stinkin' lump on the ground in the middle of the road. With my vampiric memory, it felt as if it were yesterday.

(Falshback)

Maria had sent me to the town for prospects, and so far I had been unsuccessful. I was walking at a human pace and basking in the lust of the local whores. Maybe Maria would let me pick one so I could feed and fuck. However, if I wanted to feed and fuck for the next couple of months, I would need to give her at least one prospect.

Being a vampire, I had strong instincts and awareness of my surroundings and natural grace so I was surprised when I actually stumbled on a lump in the middle of the road. The stench this lump emanated made me want to gag and I stepped back, ready to just return to base. I had found nothin' so far, so it was likely that I would not find anything at all.

The lump moved and I saw that it was a human man. I was gettin' ready to kill him but I stopped and took a good look at him. Even though he was dirty, smelly, and basically unkempt looking, I could tell that if he were cleaned up and made presentable he would be the perfect candidate to be made an addition to the Army. His fate decided, I sent him strong waves of lethargy that promptly knocked him out and I picked him up and ran with him back to base.

(End of FB)

I had him cleaned up and presented him to Maria and she really liked him. I turned him the moment she said yes, and needless to say, the Major and I got to 'feed and fuck' for the duration of our stay in Dallas.

"Major, you know me, I don't see things...if I did then I'd be compared to your ex-wife and I really hate that."

I growled into the phone.

"Peter..."

Peter gave another chuckle and finally got to his main point.

"You should be in Forks in a house that has a delectable human female and talking to her and not in Seattle. Thanks for listening Major, adios!"

The line went dead and I just sighed and hung up the phone. I gave up trying to understand and change Peter a long time ago.

The more I thought about his words, the more I could see that he was right. Even though that Bella and I have spoken a bit and will see each other again, we still needed to talk before we could have 'fun'. At the thought of having fun without Alice, guilt crashed into me but I pushed it back. There was nothing wrong with connecting with Bella again, the Cullens be damned! They're no longer my family anyway.

My darker urges suppressed for the time being, I ran out of Seattle and back to Forks with a new task in mind.

A/N: SO WHAT DID YOU THINK? TO BE HONEST, I'M NOT THAT HAPPY ON HOW I HAVE WRITTEN PETER IN THIS CHAPTER AND THAT'S BECAUSE HE ONLY HAS A FEW LINES AT MOST :/ SO A FEW KEY THINGS I WANT TO POINT OUT:

-JASPER IS NO WHERE NEAR OVER ALICE AT THE MOMENT.

-BELLA AND JASPER WILL NOT GET TOGETHER SOON. THEY HAVE SOME ISSUES TO WORK THROUGH BEFORE THEY CAN CONSIDER GETTING TOGETHER :P

-JASPER'S 'DARK URGES' ARE WHEN THE MAJOR BASICALLY NEEDS TO BE LET OUT. THE MAJOR IS THE BASIC, PRIMAL AND DARK PART OF JASPER THAT STEMS FROM JASPER'S DAYS IN BOTH THE CIVIL WAR AND MARIA'S ARMY (THINK OF IT AS DISSOCIATIVE IDENTITY DISORDER). HIS DARK URGES WILL COME OUT TO PLAY THROUGHOUT THE STORY AND THEY WILL 'PLAY' IN DIFFERENT WAYS. YOU'LL SEE ;P

FIC RECS:

Fate's Savior by Rosalynn- This is a vampire Jasper and human Bella story and has Jasper as the sexy cowboy :D It's very awesome.

Take This Heart by BookwormBaby2580- vampire Carlisle/human Bella. This story is so unique and amazing and very well written :D it deals with sensitive subject matter (abuse, rape, etc.) and it's tastefully done (and that's because those subjects are never tasteful). My whole point is is that this story is amazing, go check it out! You will not be disappointed :)

Thanks for taking the time to read thi!

-AKEMI