Ment to get this chapter out yesterday, but I had inspiration on what to write! But I figured it out so...Enjoy!
I wake up and stretch. I'm the first one up. Walking into the kitchen, I'm thinking ill make Gales favorite Bacon and Ch- wait Gale... He cheated on me. He cheated on me! How could I forget! Was it my fault? Was I good enough for him? Did he think I was ugly? Was I nice to him? All of these thoughts come to me at once. It was my fault, wasn't it? I guess it was. I know it was. Why else would he cheated on me for...three years? I feel tears roll down my cheeks. I miss him so much. I miss his strong arms wrapped around me. His soft voice to me in the morning. I just miss him so much. I never thought we would have our last kiss. I never thought it would end like this. I just wish I could hold him in my arms one last time. I'm feel so lonely now. I am so lonely now.
I've been taking what he's given, now I'm thinking I've been living the fantasy of his sweet smile. I'm sad as blue, and blue only. He could cast a color on me, can't he see my fire-red? C'est La Vie here in my lonely without him. His lies are sweet like honey, just as he spills them upon me. Sweet and smooth as they go down. We had a perfect harmony. It was to perfect. Only fairy tales are like that. Now his melody is bringing me down. I need a drink. I kick open the fridge, grab a beer. Take a few gulps. I turn around. Last time I was here I put a picture of us on the coffee table. A perfectly happy, couple. I grab it a throw it across the room. It hits the wall and shatters. Hot tears are streaming down my face. I have an other sip of my beer.
Finnick walks in. "Hey, were supposed to save that for tonight!' he says happily. I turn around and he sees my tear-stained face. "O Katniss, it will be okay." he says and he hugs me. barely audible, I say"But i loved him so much." Finnick says "I know how it feels, I had a girl in high school when I was about your age, We were together for five years. She cheated on me the whole time. The whole five years. I thought my life was over, I couldn't move on with out her. Then, I met Annie. She was the one from the beginning. It's just a sign he wasnt the right one. Trust me, you will find the perfect match." I feel more comforted. Maby, it was a sign. I don't really know, but I feel better. "Thank you." I say.
Finnick and I always had a brother sister relationship. Although he is like seven years older than me. I wipe the tears away, get dressed, brush my teeth and walk out side. Glimmer is sitting on the deck on the back of the house dangling her feet in the water. i sit beside her. She says "So hows Miss Independent?" "Fine I guess, well I still miss. him but-" she cuts me off.
"Have you been drinking?" she asks. "Ya." i say looking into the perfect, glisting water. She lifts my chin up with her fingers and say " you can't hide your feelings with drink, either face the, or rinse them away." I think about this. Do I want to talk to Gale about this? No, it would just hurt too much. And if we did end up just being friends, then I would probably fall for him again. Cant have that. "I'll just let him go." I say.
"Ok, good. Lets do something fun today like a massage, get our nails done, then have a bonfire!" she says. I don't care for getting my nails done but a massage would be nice. "Ok, who will come?" I ask. "Well only if Thresh wants to get his nails done." We both burst out laughing. "Ok so just the ladies. I'll go take a shower and you go tell everyone." I say. "Ok fine." she says.
I use lemon body scrub to get the smell of alcohol off me. It somehow got into my hair. I dry off, braid my hair back, dress in jean shorts, a forest green halter top and a pair of black flip-flops. A bit of mascara. Then brush my teeth until the last-minute. When i walk out side, i see Prim and Rue are both wearing sun dresses. Prim's is light pink giving her a rosy glow. Rue's dress is red and looks good with her dark skin. I pick matching flowers and put them in their hair. They look as fine as the beautiful flowers for wich they were named for blowing in the wind. So young so innocent.
We pile into the car. I see Annie and Finnick running towards the car. Of course Annie made him go. They never leave each others side. Even at work, the have different time shifts so they can be together. No cheating in that relationship.
I sit next to Madge, Prim on my lap. When we get there, we decide to have a massage first. I realize I had knots in my back I never knew were there. When we're done, we get our nails done. We all get fake ones. They paint over them. Finnick says "Wow I never thought I would be doing this, and actually liking it." We all laugh. He always makes jokes like that. My nails are black with flame designs on them. It reminds me of the wood back in our District. Finnick and Annie both get blue with minty green swirls and looks like the ocean. Glimmer gets gold sparkly one. Madge gets hot pink sparkly ones. Clove gets a dark gray, almost black one with some shimmer. Joannah gets red ones. Prim and rue both get the same ones that are light pink with yellow flower on them.
As we are walking down the street to our car, a guys ask Finnick if he is gay. he says "No, just spending quality time with my best lady and the girls, have a problem with that?" Finnick is really strong and well-built from years of swimming. No one ever fights with him. The guys just walks away almost scared. We get into the car and drive home. Today was fun. I don't feels so lonely anymore.
Please review! You will love then next chapter, trust me! And C'est La Vie means is a French meaning for "Thats life." example - An expression used to play down some minor disappointment: "So we lost a softball game by twenty-two runs. What can you do; c'est la vie." From French, meaning "that's life."