BPOV
'This isn't good, this isn't good at all.'
I was in my bedroom pacing back and forth while Angela sat cross-legged on my bed, watching me. She needed to be helping me, not staring at me! I turned to her.
"Well, say something!"
Angela raised an eyebrow.
"What am I supposed to say? I don't even know what you're talking about, or what has you so worked up."
'Oh. Right.'
"Ang, I think I'm fucking falling for Jasper."
"Oh, yeah, I already knew that."
She had me confused. I thought she didn't know what I was talking about?
"What do mean by that? Am I that transparent? Shit! So you think he knows? He hasn't been acting weird around me, so maybe he doesn't know, but then he has a gift that basically allows him to read people well, so maybe he does know! No, he can't know, it'd ruin our friendship!"
I didn't know what to do. The feelings I was having for him didn't go away like I thought they would. After Jasper rode home on his new bike, he took me out to eat at the diner and dropped me off home afterwards. That was the first night I dreamt of Jasper, and it was in a not so innocent way. Now, there I was two weeks later, still having dreams about him and having to hide my feelings as much as I could. When I was with Edward, Jasper and I hardly interacted, and really, I was always distracted with thoughts of Edward and how surreal my life had become. But now that my days were filled with being around him, getting to know and spend time with him, I was drawn in. Literally. I was constantly fighting the urge to touch him in some way. My hands didn't want to leave him, it seemed.
"Well what's wrong with having feelings for him? I think you guys would be great together."
I shook my head.
"No, Ang, I'm not good enough for him. Remember Alice? How could I compete with her?"
Angela stood up and pulled me towards my full-length mirror that was mounted on the inside of my closet door.
"Look in the mirror Bella, you're just as pretty as she was, maybe even more."
I scoffed an pulled myself away from my reflection.
"I don't think so," I laughed wryly, "trust me, I really can't compete with her."
Angela just rolled her eyes. She didn't understand, she didn't see him when Alice left him. He basically had the vampire version of a mental break. Not to mention, I could never meet his standards, after all, compared to Alice, I was just plain, human, Bella.
The next day at school, Jasper dropped me off on his bike. He called me around one in the morning offering a ride, and of course, I accepted.
The ride to school was interesting. Even though it was a five minute ride, it was sexual torture. The feeling of myself wrapped around his body, smelling his scent, and the vibrations of the bike against an intimate place was true torture. I tried so hard to keep what I was feeling from Jasper.
I was the object of stares and whispers all day, but I didn't care. Not anymore. Let them stare. I have the perfect specimen of a man as mine, so let them stare and weep!
The day passed and Jasper picked me up. Once again, torture, but I gladly endured it.
'Even though I can't have him, I can at least enjoy stuff like this.
Jasper drove me to and from school the rest of the week.
APOV
Drats, I still see them together! At least I'm very close to finding my mate, so at least that's one thing that's going right.
I don't want them together. He's mine. I'm the one that's made Jasper into what he is. He's mine. And when I get him back, that ugly green contraption will be the first thing to go.
Time to put my new plan into action. They won't know what hit them.
A/N: I'M VERY VERY VERY SORRY FOR THE LACK OF UPDATES! I'M SAD TO SAY THAT I'VE HAD TO PUT FANFICTION ON THE BACK BURNER AND CONCENTRATE COMPLETELY ON REAL LIFE. I'M BACK THOUGH, READY FOR MY PLACE OF ESCAPE ONCE AGAIN :)
I'M SORRY FOR THE SHORT CHAPTER, BUT THAT REALLY SEEMED LIKE A VERY GOOD SPOT TO END.
THANK YOU FOR YOUR PATIENCE,
AKEMI