"Kendall Knight?" I looked up from my desk and saw my math teacher staring down at me. "Can you come up front please?" I felt every single student stared at me as I walked down the four rows to the front. Mrs. Schmidt smiled big at me and handed me a couple of papers. "Don't worry. It's just the work you missed." I let out a sigh and she laughed. I think Carlos has the notes you'll need." I nodded and turned. Most of the people had gone back to their own work and I quickly climbed up the steps, and took my seat Carlos jumped in his seat like he had been sleeping. He rubbed his left eye and yawned.
"You missed all of today's lecture." I slid my notebook over to him and he sighed. "Did you get any sleep last night?" He picked up his pen and started copying the notes.
"Not really. Do you need the notes form the past two classes?" I nodded and he dug through his messenger bag grabbing a black notebook. He flipped through the pages looking at the dates in the corner and put it in front of me.
"Is something going on with you and James?" I peered over and watched him stop writing. He looked up and his eyes were huge and glossy. "What's wrong?" He looked around and finally flipped the page an furiously started writing. I sat back and waited. He ripped out the page and folded it up three times before tossing it in front of me. I quickly opened it, and tried to hold back laughter.
"I'm a virgin." I looked over at him and his cheeks were beat red. I cracked a smile and his mouth flew open and he threw his head down, hitting it hard on the table. I laughed and some people turned around, but said nothing.
"That's it? That's the problem?" He looked up yanking the paper form my hands and ripping it in half.
"It's embarrassing Kendall. Especially with James. I mean…he's clearly way more experienced. All I've ever done is jack off watching porn! I have no idea what I'm doing with him and he's being really sweet about it, but I can tell he's getting impatient." I sighed and nodded. "Do you think it's a mistake to be getting married already?"
"No." He sat back. "Do you love him?" He nodded. "And from what James has told Logan, who then of course told me, he loves you too. Like a lot." He looked up at me with eyebrows raised. "That should tell you its not a mistake Carlos. And the sex thing…" I turned away and remember my first time. It was amazing…but painful. "Sex isn't the only thing in a relationship. There has to be more, and if there's not then its not worth it. So you should feel good that you guys haven't yet. He means he loves you enough to wait. And make him wait. At least tell your wedding night. And for the love of God Carlos use protection." He nodded but still looked sad. "And maybe you should be having this discussion with him, and not his ex boyfriends new boyfriend." He shook his head opening his mouth to talk but was cut off.
"Alright guys if you have everything written down, and don't have any questions your dismissed." Both of us stood up, shoving all of our papers, books, and random pencils in out bags. We walked out, not saying anything, not wanting anyone to hear our conversations. When we were alone walking out to the parking lot he sighed.
"So did you get all your stuff moved in last night? Sorry we had to bail on you." I shrugged my shoulders and smiled.
"Don't worry. We took care of it." He nodded and stared at the ground, kicking at rocks. I looked out in front of us and stopped in my tracks. He noticed and looked back.
"What are you doing?" I pointed right in front of us and he turned. He dropped his bag in snow and took a sharp breath in. "James?"
James was leaning against a limo, talking on his phone. When he heard Carlos say his name, he hung up and put the phone in his pocket.
"Hi!" He started walking towards us and I picked up Carlos's bag. "You like?" He was grinning and Carlos looked at pushing him aside.
"Why is there a limo here? You know I have a car right?" He laughed and nodded pulling him in for a kiss. I turned away feeling awkward and like a third wheel.
"Yes I do…" I looked back and James was cradling Carlos's face in his hands. "But…today is a very special day. We're getting fitted for our tuxes fro the wedding today." Carlos smiled wide and threw himself in James's arms. James picked him and turned back to the limo. Again…third wheel.
I was about to say something when I saw Carlos whisper in James ear who turned around.
"Aren't you coming?" I looked around and shrugged my shoulders.
"I didn't know I was invited." James dropped Carlos quick and looked down at him sternly.
"You haven't asked him yet have you?" Carlos sighed and turned walking towards me. "Unbelievable…" James put his hand son his hips and I scrunched my eyebrows.
"Ask me what?" Carlos let out a loud breath and looked up at the sky, which was grey and really depressing.
"Well…my parents and my brother…well my whole family don't agree with me getting married so young and to a guy so…I don't have any family coming, and since you were the first person to even say hi to me here, I consider you a good friend and was wondering if you'd be…mybestman." The last part he said fast and low. James sighed and I laughed.
"I'm sorry you were wondering if I'd be your what?" He looked at me and crossed his arms over his chest.
"Best man! Jesus do I have to spell it out for you?" I smiled and quickly pulled him in hugging him tight.
"Oh course." He sighed out, in reliefe and hugged.
"Awe how cute…now we have an appointment and I don't like being late so let's go." James clapped loud and Carlos turned quick, tanking his bag out of my hand and walking into him. I followed by and watched James wrap an arm around his shoulders and lean into his ear.
The drive to the tux place was just like that, except with them making out and more ridiculous cute lovey dovey banter. When we parked I jumped out quick, grateful for the fresh air no matter how cold it was. I held the door open for the happy couple and automatically hated this.
James is a pretty boy. He's a perfectionist but it pays off for him…because he's hot but never again, will I ever go out shopping with him again. I just won't and cannot do it. They looked through the selection, James picking out ugly suites and putting them back after being shot down for Carlos, which I was happy for.
An hour after listening and watching them being sickingly cute on what they wanted Logan came in, looking cold and irritated. I walked over to him as he took off his jacket and handed it to one of the workers. I pulled him in and hugged him.
"Thank you for saving me!" He pushed me away and gave me a weird look. I pointed behind me and he looked sighing.
"James?" I shook my head and he grabbed my hand walking me back towards them.
"No it's both of them…their worse than girls Logan!" He laughed and leaned in kissing my cheek. "Why are you so cold?' He groaned and took a seat. I sat next to him and he put his head back breathing out hard.
"My God damn heater isn't working. I had to fucking driven all the way here in the fucking cold." I grabbed both of his hands and put them to my mouth breathing hard onto them. "And if that wasn't a nice enough ending for my shitty day I got pulled over for a busted tail light, which was busted in the parking lot."
"At Yale?" He nodded and lifted his head back up watching James and Carlos decided between a white and off white shirt. "I'm sorry you had a bad day." He turned to me and smiled.
"It's alright, because when were done here…"
"Which will be never." I sat back glaring at James and Carlos and he squeezed my leg.
"I can go home, take a nice hot bath, have a glass or two of red wine and cuddle on the couch with my boyfriend watching reruns of Friends." I smiled and pulled him into me kissing the top of his head. "How was your day?" He puled away and frowned. "I didn't even ask you. I just unloaded all of my shit on you." I laughed and shook my head.
"It was pretty uneventful. No one really bothered me, and luckily, I had almost every class with Carlos so I wasn't really alone." He nodded and put his head back on my shoulder, yawning. "I had to give out some advice today too." He looked eyebrows raised. I nodded and pointed to Carlos's turned back. I leaned in and kissed Logan's ear. "They haven't had sex yet, and Carlos is a virgin." I puled away and his eyes were wide.
"That sounds unheard of with James Diamond."
"What sounds unheard of with James Diamond?" We both looked up and James was standing in front of us hands on his hips.
"Nothing…have something picked out?" James gave Logan a weird look but sighed shaking his head.
"No…were calling it a night. Well come back tomorrow if you guys can."
"I have class until 7." James turned to me hopeful. Carlos came up behind him and laced his left and with James's right. I saw the ring James gave him and smiled. I either could lie and say im busy, or suck it up for my friends and be the third wheel.
"I'll be here."