Okayyy... I DO NOT OWN DEATH NOTE OR BLOOD+. Dude the man who wrote the song was Hanz Zimmer. it's really pretty, if you haven't heard 'Diva's Song' ("Diva Awaken") you should definately listen to it. "Diva Awaken" Is originally in Latin...

Sorry I cut this chapter kind of short because I was on word and I had already written 13 pages. I think that's a definate stopping point... K, so I guess I'll post part 2 up soon? lol. I might just make that chapter 5. I know the disclaimer at the top is a little confusing if you're one of the people who atually read these 1rst (or at all). If you read you'll understand. Other than that... ENJOY!

L woke up still hearing Light's shallow breaths. His eyes were sore. He hadn't cried like that in a very long time.

Light's eyes slowly opened as light filled the room. Watari let himself inside. Light stretched out forgetting about his hold on L.

"Good morning, Watari," Light rubbed his eyes sleepily. "Did you bring my meds today?"

Watari held up a small paper bag. "Did you enjoy yourselves last night?"

Light clumsily got out of bed with closed eyes. Watari noticed they were both fully dressed. He could've let out a sigh of relief, but remained calm. Light took the bag from Watari, "Thank you." He left the room.

L sat up against the head board. "Good morning, Watari. Thank you for helping last night."

"I'm glad you enjoyed it."

"Light seems to be warming up to you."

"He is trying to please you," Watari said sitting on the bed ruffling L's hair. "He talks of nothing but you when we're alone, and asks me all kinds of questions about you."

L chuckled, lying back down on his pillow. "Yeah, he's been doing that a lot lately." He closed his eyes dazed.

"He's in love with you."

L's eyes flashed open, "Not you too, Watari!"

He smiled at the boy he considered his son. "He told me. He said that was the reason he wanted to please you. His only wish in life is to make you happy."

"He said all that?"

Watari nodded, "He seems deeply infatuated with you, Ryuzaki."

Ryuzaki gave Watari a pleading look. "What should I do?"

"Do what your heart tells you. I'm not going to stop you two. If you love him, you love him. I'm not going to get in the way of your happiness."

"I thought you would say that." He rolled onto his side and gave Watari a hug. He hadn't done it in a while. He smiled at the warmth.

Light walked back into the room. He jumped back, "What are you two doing!" He shouted in his kid voice. Light fell to his knees hiding his face in his hands, "Watari, you double-crosser! I pour all my secrets out to you, and you betray me!"

L rolled his eyes, but smiled seeing the new Light getting jealous. "Light…"

"No, Ryuzaki, I don't want to hear it!" Light huddled closer into the wall.

Watari roared with laughter. He hardly ever laughed. Needless to say, it surprised L. Watari jumped up and walked to Light. He turned away, "No way, Watari. I trusted you and you go off and betrayed me."

"Light, you should worry less about me and more about him," Watari whispered so L couldn't hear. "He's my son of course I love him, but I did not betray you."

Light's moisten eyes glistened as they stared at Watari. He flashed his attention to L. "Ryuzaki…"

"Is waiting for you," Watari said extending his hand.

Light jumped up and bowed quickly to Watari before jumping back into bed. "GOOD MORNING, RYUZAKI!" Light screamed as Watari exited the room.

L stared blankly at Light. He's so adorable... I suppose... it wouldn't be too much trouble to fall in love… However, I did say I would retire if I ever did. I don't think I'm ready for that yet. Maybe until Light regains his memories? As if that was ever going to happen…

Light snuggled against L. "Light, what are you doing?"

Light dug down deeper into L's chest, "Mmm… Cuddling."

L ran his fingers through Light's hair. Light smiled up at him. "May I watch my videos today?"

"Of course," L hadn't noticed he was smiling as well. He brought Light's mouth to his for a quick kiss.

Light looked surprised as he touched his lips. He thought the one he got last night was from the champagne, so he didn't take that into consideration. "So, it's really okay?"

L nodded. Light laughed hugging L's neck tightly. "You're so childish today, Light."

"Well, I'm happy and I just took my meds. " He stuck out his tongue out playfully. "Ryuzaki has been so tired lately."

"I'm sorry. I've had a lot on my mind, but I think I've just made my decision." L looked at his clothes. He groaned, "How can someone sleep in a suit?"

Light looked at him curiously, "How can you sleep in jeans?"

"Touché." L mumbled still holding Light. "Light, I have to get up."

"Awww," Light wined lifting himself off of L and making his way towards the door. "I'm going to get one of my videos."

"Okay I'll come after I get dressed." L lifted himself out of bed after Light left. He slipped on his regular jeans and a T-shirt, and walked out of the room. Light would more than likely be in L's office, or the only room with a computer in it. L walked slowly to the door and opened it. There he is.

Light slowly was putting a tape into a small VHS player. Light scanned all the buttons before he came to the large red one that had 'PLAY' written on it. He pushed it and sat in front of the television. The television was pushed in a small corner away from L's work.

Light sat on the floor running through his emotions. He hardly noticed L coming into the room.

"Happy," A female voice replied from the video. There was a childlike drawing of a smiling boy… or girl? Light responded by pulling up the corners of his mouth.

"Sad." Another picture flashed across the screen as Light pulled down his lips into a steady frown.

L sat in his chair letting Light continue to get lost in his videos. L turned on the monitor. He put his thumb to his lips as he searched for some type of criminal activity. Well Light, at least you'd be happy to know that Kira's managed to prevail for this long.

L was feeling less lethargic. This just brought back painful memories and just made him feel lifeless. Nothing. What happened? Had Light seriously killed every living psychopath on the face of the planet? It just seemed illogical.

Hey, there was a drug smuggling in Japan... No, too easy. There were just minor crimes that L could probably solve in less than a week. It just seemed like wasted effort.

L casually bit down on his thumb nail. He scanned through some files only to be left in the dark, yet again. He leaned back against his chair letting out a deep sigh. He turned his attention to Light.

Instead of sitting, Light was now standing. He didn't remove his gaze from the television. He was holding his arms in a strange position. His right arm was in the air slightly bent at the elbow. His left was across his chest. His arm was not touching his chest, it just floated in the air as Light stared turning and stepping in strange familiar patterns.

"What are you doing?" L asked arching one of his eyebrows that was hidden by his hair.

Light turned around almost jumping out of his skin. Had Ryuzaki been watching him the whole time? "I-um... They were talking about dancing and I thought it looked interesting..."

L looked at the television. People were classical ball room dancing. If that was a way to describe it. They were just doing the basics. Light was trying to perform a solo box step. "You know that's a partner dance?"

"Of course," Light motioned towards the screen, "they are dancing with partners. I didn't want to disturb you, so I decided to do this by myself."

L smiled, "At least we know how we're going to spend our evening."

Light looked curiously, "We're going to dance?"

"If you want."

"Are we going to leave," Light seemed to flinch when he said this.

"No." L knew Light all too well, "You don't have to worry about what happened last time. It's not like it'll happen directly as you walk outside. You can't help that you have headaches."

"I know I'm just a little nervous... I'm going to go take a shower." Light turned off the television and walked to the bathroom. He hated talking about his health issues. Thankfully he had nothing physically wrong with him, just mentally.

Light removed his clothes, realizing he didn't change out of the ones from last night. He got a towel out from the cabinet that was underneath the sink. He placed the towel outside the bathtub. He turned a dial letting the water start pouring out rapidly from the showerhead.

Light quickly stepped in closing the shower curtain behind him. It felt good when the hot water hit his skin. He needed to be clean.

He felt weird since Ryuzaki had accepted their love. Light could still feel Ryuzaki's soft lips against his. He just wondered what it was that was making himself doubt everything. Something was lingering in Light's mind. His memories? No, it felt different.

Light started to work some shampoo in his hair. He dug in his fingers burying the soap deep in his scalp. Afterwards he rinsed out his hair and continued to let his mind wander.

He wanted to remember. He felt defenseless not knowing. It has gotten better, though. He used to be afraid of everything. He hated the feeling when he first came to England. A knot formed in his throat. He cast that image away. He needed to think of something else…

I wonder what Ryuzaki plans for tonight? Have I even danced before? Damn it! I hate not remembering! It's so frustrating re-learning everything.

"Light…"

Light's ears cocked. Someone was outside the shower curtain. "Ryuzaki?" Light asked. The voice sounded familiar, but it wasn't Ryuzaki.

"Honestly Light, you don't remember me?"

Light didn't understand why, but he felt scared. He turned off the shower and poked his head through the curtain. No one was there.

"Light…" The voice was laughing as he teased Light with his own name.

Light scanned the walls looking for the voice. "Great, now I'm hearing voices…" He muttered grabbing his towel. Light dried his hair then wrapped the towel around his waist before stepping out of the ivory tub. He walked to the sink and wiped the mirror with his hand. He closed his eyes and began brushing his hair.

When Light opened his eyes he was startled to see a figure with red eyes and hair smile back at him through the glass. The thing that scared him the most was that it was him he was looking at, but he seemed… different. Light felt his hair pulling one of the auburn colored locks in front of his eyes.

The Light in the mirror laughed at him. "It's been a while Light. You've changed."

Light's eyes widened as the mirror image started to talk. "Who are you?"

His crimson eyes lowered as his smile widened. "I am Kira."

Light arched an eyebrow. "But Kira is a…"

"You named the cat as your memories tried to remind you of who you are."

"...I am Kira?" Light's head started spinning. He rubbed his temple trying to escape what was happening. "…So I am you?"

"You're much more than that, Light. However, L is trying to hide it from you."

"L?" He'd heard the name before. Where had he heard it?

"Ryuzaki," The image clarified. "He's been lying to you."

Light stared in horror at the evil eyes. "Y-you're lying! R- Ryuzaki loves me. He wouldn't—"

"—Wouldn't he? Let's be logical here. Why do you think he made you leave Japan?"

"So I could live here with him."

"Hardly… It was so he could get you away from your familiar area. It was to help suppress your memories. He didn't want you killing more people."

Light couldn't believe what was happening. This was impossible. "I-I've never killed anyone."

"How do you know? You can't remember. You were being tracked by Ryuzaki so he could put you in jail. He pledged his life to putting you to death."

Light dropped his hands clenching the sink. He felt terrible. His heart ached at thought. "No… I don't believe you."

The image's smile widened revealing perfectly white sharpened teeth. "You both were hunting each other down trying to kill each other. You wanted him dead."

"No!" Light yelled throwing the brush that was still in his hand at the mirror. It shattered into tiny pieces and shards. Light panted still clutching the sink. He felt tears streaming down his face. "Shut up! I don't believe anything you say." Light could hear the incessant laughter echo off the walls. He clutched his ears.

He felt arms come over him. Light automatically pushed away. "I said leave me alone! Just go away." The arms were insistent and Light couldn't take it. He reached out and scratched whatever was in front of him. He heard a gasp.

Light could get satisfaction out of that, but something picked him up. He refused to open his eyes. He didn't want to see the eyes again. He was afraid, so he was trying to get out of his hold by moving. He kicked his legs, waved his arms, anything. Light felt something cold around his wrists. He jerked failing at the attempt to separate his arms.

He soon felt alone. He was whimpering as he opened his eyes and saw nothing. Darkness. He could've sighed in relief, but then he realized who must've put him in here.

"Ryuzaki? Are you okay? I'm so sorry. I had no idea that was you."

"Are you kidding? It was obvious that he'd be the one to take away. It's not like you can pick yourself up in midair."

Great the voice was going to stay. Perfect, Light thought rolling his eyes.

"You know, I know what you're thinking. I'm you remember?"

"Great that just makes it even better," Light said rolling on his back. He had handcuffs on his wrists and his arms were stretched over his head. "So why'd you decide to show up out of nowhere? You say you're me and yet I've never heard of you."

"Because Ryuzaki made his decision and now I can proceed with my plans."

"Sorry, but I'm not exactly following you here." Light scanned the darkness, "and furthermore how are you going to go about doing your plans?"

"What are you talking about? You're me, I'm you."

Light rested his head against the soft carpet. "Sorry, I happily decline."

"No, I'm sorry. This plan has no exceptions…"

"If you're me than shouldn't I have the right to make decisions for myself? I refuse to do anything to hurt Ryuzaki."

A sigh let out, "This was so much easier when you wanted him dead."

"I've already told you I could never want Ryuzaki dead. That's how I know I'm hallucinating, or something."

"Fine. I'm leaving for a few days to get my thoughts in order. It's not going to be easy explaining what happened for all those years."

"I don't get why I'm hearing you. If you're me, then shouldn't I be able to block you out? We seem like two completely different people."

There was a very long silence before the voice answered himself. "I'm the part of you that died along with your memories. However, it's going to take a lot more than burning the Death Note to get rid of me…"

Light felt the sting in his arms as his arms begged to be released from the cuffs. Wow has it really been that long since I've been in handcuffs? Or is it just because my arms can't move? Light was alone. He was left with so many unanswered questions. He didn't know if what the mirror image of himself said was true or not, but something about this guy…

Light pulled himself to a sitting position. He let his hands fall to the front of him in his lap. He seriously wanted his memories back. He wanted to know who was telling the truth. He'd stick with Ryuzaki until he found out. After all, Ryuzaki wouldn't lie to him, would he?

Light slowly made his way into a standing position. He walked to the door and found the knob. He slowly turned it and to his surprise the door opened. Ryuzaki didn't lock the door? That's strange…

Light made his was down the hall to the bathroom. The mirror was broken and shards lay on the floor and sink, but it was empty. He turned and walked to Ryuzaki's office. Nothing.

"Ryuzaki," Light called walking down the hall. Light stopped in the middle of the hall. He felt something leave him as crashed on to his knees. His eyes stared widely at nothing as his mouth was open. He turned, "Ryuzaki, what happened?"

Light stood up he was in the hallway? How'd he get here? Why was he wearing handcuffs?

"Light?"

Light turned as Ryuzaki was at the end of the hallway. He stood normally, but there was a small cut under his left eye where Light scratched him earlier. "Ryuzaki, what happened?" Light yelled running down the hallway.

L stared blankly at him. "You scratched me."

"Ryuzaki, I'm sorry! I had no clue that—"

"It's all right, Light. It's not like I haven't gotten hurt before."

L got used to Light's strange behavior. After he'd have certain out bursts or "episodes" he'd usually forget everything that happened up to that time. L had no clue what made Light angry, but no he'd have to clean the bathroom.

After L removed the hand cuffs on Light, he walked down the hall to the bathroom. Light's eyes widened as he saw the broken shards.

"How did… Ryuzaki, who did this?"

"You broke the mirror, Light. However, I have no idea why."

"Sorry… Do you have to buy a new one?"

L nodded slowly taking in the damage. He sighed. He didn't want to clean it at the moment. "Light, do you remember what made you do this?"

"Ryuzaki, I wouldn't be asking you if I did."

"True. I just wanted to confirm it."

Light looked both directions down the hall way. "Are you going to call Watari to clean it?"

L put his thumb to his lips, "Not yet. I just want to keep it here for a while. I'm curious."

Light rolled his eyes, "You're always curious."

"So are you. Besides there's no harm in it. This is not the only bathroom in this house."

Light nodded looking sadly at the ground. He seriously couldn't remember anything.

L turned and saw Light's gaze on the floor. He knew Light's sad absentminded stare. "Light, it's alright. I'm not mad." L brushed Light's hair out of his eyes.

Light kissed the scar on L's cheek that had already started to scab up. "I'm sorry."

"I forgive you… Are you alright?"

Light chewed his bottom lip for a moment. "Yeah…"

"Come with me," L grabbed Light's hand and pulled him to their room. L motioned to the closet.

Light didn't know what L was doing. He looked down and realized he was completely naked. He blushed feeling Ryuzaki's eyes on him. "I…um—"

"Please put some clothes on, Light." L said. He wasn't going to stop looking at Light's body. Sure he'd seen it many times under surveillance and when they were handcuffed together, but L always couldn't help looking at Light.

Light placed his hands on L's shoulder and gave him a small peck on the lips, "Thank you."

Light had his entire body pressed against L. L was having trouble passing this offer up. He lifted his hand a little, but forced himself to calm down. The kiss lasted for a grand total of two seconds, but just the sight of the situation would give anyone ideas.

Light disappeared into the walk-in closet and got some black, cotton pants and a matching long-sleeved shirt. L stood there in silence trying to stop his heart from racing.

He watched as Light nonchalantly bent over to grab some underwear and socks out of a little cubby drawer on the floor. L rolled his eyes. Idiot doesn't know one thing about sex. Light quietly got dressed and smiled at L when he was finished.

"So what are we to do about this evening today, Ryuzaki?"

"It is evening," Ryuzaki muttered pointing to the clock on the night stand. "It's 14:37," (2:37 p.m.). "You were in the bathroom for hours, even after you got out of the shower."

"Strange, I can't remember even getting out of the shower."

L ruffled Light's hair. "So what do you want to do now? I can teach you dancing if you want. I've got all kinds of classical music. If you want to dance to it?"

"Can we?" Light smiled.

"Of course," L returned the sentiment.

L took Light into the kitchen. They moved the table and chairs to one side giving them more room to dance.

"So do you want it with or without music?" L asked as he admired the amount of space.

"Um… could we practice without music and then try it with music?"

L nodded as he pulled Light to him. "I'll be the male since I'm teaching you. The male always leads." Light nodded not bothering to ask L any questions. L put his right hand on Light's shoulder. "Okay, now you put that arm around my waist." L motioned with his free hand. Light happily obliged. L took Light's remaining hand in his and smiled, "There were in position. Now, all you have to do is follow my lead."

L stepped out with his left foot waiting until Light followed with his right. L stepped back with his right then stepped out with his left. Light followed him each time. "Now, when I bring my right foot up this time you step back." Light did as he was told and when he did they were back in the same spot they started.

"Great job. When you dance with this step you usually count off the beats with 1 2 3," L held up Light's arm signaling them to go. Each step they took L counted, "1 2 3," until they returned to the familiar spot. "When you get it down pat, you can do it where you can spin at the same time and still return to the same spot."

Light felt proud for accomplishing the dance, "So is that all there is to it?"

L nodded, "Yes it's a fairly simple dance. However, dance is an expression as well as an art form. You don't really need to know how to dance. All you have to do is move to the beat or emotion of the music."

Light's eyes sparkled, "Get the music."

L left for a few minutes and returned with a small stereo and some CDs. "I put a lot of my old songs on CDs, so they're mixed tapes." L was blushing when he brought them out.

"I want you to choose the song you like best."

L flipped through the CDs picking the one with his favorite songs on them. He put the disc into the stereo. He plugged it in and pressed 'PLAY' quickly. He ran back to Light.

There was an instrumental and as the strings started to play L bowed to Light. Light slowly returned the bow. They returned to their hold on each other as they began to step as a woman started singing. It was opera, but a really pretty song.

'I am the voice that calls your name
I am searching for you, love
I am searching for you...'

Light hugged L pulling him close but kept stepping in rhythm with the song. Light closed his eyes getting lost in the song.

'Where has love gone?
Nothing remains
Only blood
And sadness prevail

My heart bleeds for you, for you
I crawl in...in darkness...'

Light opened his eyes, "She sounds sad."

"I suppose she is..." L replied smiling as he danced with the song.

"It's a really beautiful song."

"Yes," L smiled snuggling into Light's hair.

' I am the voice
Of love that cannot live
Yet it doesn't die
Never!'

When the song ended L let go of Light bowing as he backed away. Light mirrored him.

"Why do you keep blushing?" Light asked as L stopped the CD.

"...It's just it feels weird to dance like this."

"Are there other ways of dancing? I'm up for trying them if you are."

"I'm not a big fan of modern dancing-"

L's phone started ringing. L turned answering his phone. Light stared curiously at L. "No Watari! Please don't-" He paused, "I'm showing Light how to dance."

The door of the kitchen was kicked open as a blonde man in tight, black leather walked inside. He snapped off a piece of chocolate that was in his cleverly gloved hand. He stared at them coldly with his blue eyes. Half of his face, and more of his left side, had been marred by fire.

"Uncle Mello," Light said surprised.

"C'mere you little fucker," Mello said hugging Light. Mello hated Light for being Kira, but he knew Light couldn't remember anything. He was a little apprehensive at first, but warmed up to Light soon after they met. He got his kicks out of teaching Light slang and cursing at him which is why Light knows such words in the first place.

"What are you doing here?" Light said not bothering to return the hug. Light loved Mello. Not like he loved Ryuzaki, but there was still family love. He always made him laugh.

L rolled his eyes as he hung up his phone. He stuffed it back in his pocket. He glared at Mello.

"What I can't come visit you? That's real nice, and I even brought company."

A guy with brown hair, it seriously looked red in the light, pushed the door open. He had on a striped black shirt and thick, black gloves that came down to his elbow. He wore striped blue jeans and combat boots. He also had a pair of yellow goggle nestled gently on top on his head. "What the hell, Mello?"

"Uncle Matt?" Light pushed Mello away; they usually got along by rough housing. He walked up to Matt giving him a high five. "I haven't seen you in a while."

"What's up?" Matt said smiling at him. He walked over to Mello taking a bit out of his chocolate.

L's glare turned into a good, hearty scowl.

A boy with white hair was rubbing his eyes as two people stood behind him. He stared expressionlessly at everyone with his deep, black eyes. He was wear cotton, white pajamas. "Light," He replied bowing his head a little. He turned to L, "Ryuzaki."

Everyone was told to call L Ryuzaki. They didn't really think twice about it because they all had alias' of their own.

Behind Near was a woman and a man. The man stood to the right of Near. The man had dark brown hair that outlined his face. He kept to himself, but had the look of intelligence in his pale, blue eyes. He wore a clean, pressed, gray suit. The woman was to the left of Near. The woman had long, blonde hair that stopped just above her waist. She had cold, blue eyes and was very strict. She wore a light gray suit.

"U-Uncle Near," Light was always felt strange around Near. He never showed any emotion, like Ryuzaki except Ryuzaki had emotion. Near just seemed like a... robot. Still, he hugged Near. "And you brought Uncle Gevanni and Aunt Linder..."

Light extended his hand, Gevanni shook it. Linder sneered at him. Light still had no idea what relation they both had to Near. He knew none of them were related, but Light liked to consider all of them like family.

He didn't know why they kept their cheesy alias'. Light knew all their real names. Mello was Mihael Keehl, Matt was Mail Jeevas, Near was Nate River, Gevanni was Stephen Loud, and Linder was Halle Bullook. Light didn't tell them that, though. He came across some file and figured it out when Ryuzaki wasn't looking. The only name that was still a mystery to him was Ryuzaki... unless that was his real name? Light didn't know.

"Why are you here?" L seemed to growl it out.

Mello smiled, "I think we interrupted Ryuzaki tryin' to finally seduce Goldilocks over here."

L and Light both blushed. "C'mon Mells, what makes you say that?" Light tried to conceal his blushing as he spoke. "We haven't spoken to you in months and you just now decided to show up?"

Mello smiled, "It was his birthday yesterday, so we decided to come have a party."

"He just wanted to piss Ryuzaki off," Matt said pulling out his DS.

Mello growled snatching the DS from Matt. Matt growled at him snatching his chocolate from him. He pulled out his lighter from his pocket and held it under the chocolate bar. Mello glared, "You wouldn't."

Matt opened the top smiling brightly, "Wouldn't I?"

"Okay if you're going to burn something go outside!" L was livid.

Mello handed Matt his DS and Matt returned Mello's chocolate. Matt shoved the lighter back in his pocket as he turned on his game.

"Calm down," Mello said. "We weren't going to do anything."

"Matt never jokes when he pulls out his lighter."

"We have these types of fights all the time. It's alright."

"Can you just leave?"

Mello gave L an innocent look, "We really did want to have a party."

"You should respect other peoples wishes," Near muttered.

"Shut up. You know you want to dance with him as much as I do!"

Matt laughed, "Real smooth, Mello."

Mello shot Matt a death glare. He turned back to L. "So whaddya say?" Mello took a bit out of his chocolate. "Please?"