Sorry 4 the long wait. I've got so much crap going on, but I repaid you all with LEMONS! lolz. I'm sleepy :( so at the beginning if your confuzed and don't read ahaed then I'll tell you this is Light's POV writing in a journal. URGH! SO SHORT . but I've got more in store 4 Christmas hee-hee...
It's Christmas Eve... It's really funny how time flies. My first Christmas. It seems really weird and foreign. I wonder how me and my family celebrated Christmas?
Oh yeah! I haven't explained myself fully yet, have I? I'm sorry. I haven't really done this before... or at least I don't think I have.
Anyway, Ryuzaki gave me a journal. It's an early Christmas present. He says it's to write down my thoughts and feelings about everything I'm feeling. I have a feeling he's going to read it when I'm asleep. He's been really worried about me and Kira (My evil half) especially after what happened to Kira (Cat).
We found the cat torn to shreds. There were still patches of brown fur still clinging to the small chunks of muscles. A few of the bones were broken in the legs. I could hear that laughing in my ears ringing loudly. I fainted.
I think that's the part that scared Ryuzaki the most. I'm not sure what's going on in his head. He's been pretty distant since it happened. Kira died (or was found) about three weeks ago. It really sucks.
My scar completely healed after about two weeks. Well, according to Ryuzaki. In my opinion it healed in less than a week, but I just listen to Ryuzaki. I've got a pink scar that'll be there for the rest of my life. It makes me laugh every time I think about it. He finally touched me!
Well, Ryuzaki says it's not sex, but it's close. We've been giving each other hand jobs, which makes me wonder what sex really is. It must feel really good if it's better than that. It's funny when Ryuzaki touches me my heart starts pounding. I always end up wanting more... but I'm not sure what to do. I guess I'll just have to wait for Ryuzaki.
Okay let's get off this subject. Like I wrote before, it's Christmas Eve! Ryuzaki and I kind of had an argument which is why I'm writing when I am. I'll get to that later.
Ryuzaki took me to the park that wasn't far from the house. The ducks weren't there this time, but the pond was frozen solid! It was beautiful. Everything was white because of the snow. This is the first time, that I remember, seeing snow. I'm not sure if I like it or not. It's cold and wet but soft. I could never get enough of the scenery.
There were people walking on the iced pond. They went so fast they looked like they were flying! I was about to tell Ryuzaki when he pulled out these weird shoes. They looked just like regular shoes, but these had a long piece of metal that looked like a large razor blade that trailed along the middle of the shoes soles and heel.
The next thing I knew, Ryuzaki, and I, had put the weird shoes on, against my will, and we were stepping onto the ice. It was impossible to stand in the shoes. They were stiff and made my legs shake. When we were on the ice it just made everything worse. The ice was slick and within my first step I fell. Well I didn't really fall. Ryuzaki caught me. He showed the basic footwork of 'skating' and how to keep my balance, but it was really hard. After a while I was able to stand on my own two feet and Ryuzaki left my side to skate at his own pace for a while.
Ryuzaki was amazing! He glided over the ice like it was nothing. I half expected wings to emerge from him and he would begin to take off. He looked so peaceful. I couldn't help but watch him. So much so that I forgot to turn on the ice and ran into the snowy bank. It didn't hurt, but it wasn't the best feeling in the world. I felt the ice slip under my pants. It left me with an uncomfortable feeling.
I was freezing. I don't know but my heart skipped a beat when Ryuzaki make a small chuckle when I shook the snow out of my hair. We skated for hours. I have no idea how long we were outside. My face felt numb and my lips started chapping.
We walked home and L surprised me by taking a different route home. I was about to ask Ryuzaki where we were until he pushed me against a wall on a deserted street and kissed me. My skin was instantly heated. It felt so good, but it was over way too fast. We walked back home hand-in-hand.
Everything's so quiet now. I snuck into the living room. I doubt Ryuzaki even knows I know about this place. It's beyond the door under the staircase. Nobody really recognizes it, but I come here to get my thought's in order and now to write.
I don't understand why we fight so much. I think Ryuzaki misses the old Light. I wish there was some way I could be more like him. I wish I could remember... maybe I'll pick up a few things when I meet Sayu.
Anyway, let's get back to the fact that it's Christmas Eve! I'm excited. I've had my head filled with sugar plums and reindeer and peace and love. I've been told that people exchange gifts on Christmas, so I should probably get him something. I have to get Watari to help me!
L smiled at the page of the frantic Light's thoughts. It made him happy to read over his thoughts after certain days to let him know how Light felt. It was a clever thing for him to do. He couldn't help but stay curious about the childlike friend. I wonder if he got in touch with Watari?
L turned the page to see if there was more to read. He continued...
I got Ryuzaki a Christmas present! Watari is the best. I completely misjudged him. I don't think Ryuzaki will like it, but I trust Watari's judgment. After all, he did raise him.
I wonder if Watari feels as protective of me as Ryuzaki? I feel that way. I feel like he's a father figure. I wonder if that's how he sees it?
Oh yeah! Uncle Near called. He said he, Matt and Mello were coming tomorrow! They're going to surprise Ryuzaki! I love this holiday! I want to run up stairs and kiss Ryuzaki. I bet he's still mad at me.
Ryuzaki got made because I made a comment about his emotions. He doesn't really show any. He tries, but I want get him out of that shell he's built around himself. I love him so mu
There was a long line that cut down to the bottom of the page. L looked up at Light who was now sleeping peacefully on the red couch. L looked around the room searching for something.
The living room was deck out in all kinds of Christmas decorations. There was a giant, decorated tree in the far left corner. Gifts piled underneath it. A fire was burning in the fireplace beside L as he scanned the stockings of the mantel piece. They were stuffed with all kinds of unknown treats that he longed for.
L returned his gaze to Light. He knew he would be tempted by the sweets all night. He was sure there weren't any cameras in the room. He bit his thumb hastily and sighed in defeat. He walked over to the couch placing a hand on Light's cheek. Light moved towards the hand nuzzling it sleepily.
L hovered over light's parted lips before letting his tongue slip into his mouth. Light's eyes shot open as he felt familiar movements of the detectives tongue. L slowly moved his hand down Light's chest unbuttoning his shirt along the way.
Light moaned into the kiss pulling L on top of him. L brushed Light's chest before finding one of his nipples and twisting it into a hardened nub. Light squirmed until he finally broke the kiss.
"What are you doing, L?" Light's cheeks had a hazy pink line across them.
"Just watch," L said licking Light's neck and leaving small marks on his clavicle. Light gripped L's arms pulling at the fabric of his shirt. L continued licking down Light's chest making sure to pause and suck on Light's now hardened nipples. His skin was smooth and tasted salty but also sweet wanted more.
L unzipped Light's pants only revealing his arousal further. L licked the base of Light's hardening erection and led his tongue towards the tip. Light shivered when he felt L's cold breath on his growing arousal.
L took in the tip of Light's cock into his mouth sucking on it. Light gasped arching his back. L took all of Light into his mouth this time making no mistake of running his tongue along every inch of his erection. Light gripped L's hair holding back the moans he desperately tried to conceal.
L hummed sending vibrations through Light. Light's breathing quickened. He started to thrust into L's mouth forcing himself deeper into the engulfing heat of the detectives mouth. L released Light from his mouth panting. He continued to lick Light's erection knowing he was close to his release.
L took all of Light into him on last time in a sudden, fast moment. Light let out a strangled cry shouting L's name. L sucked Light hard now letting Light's release coat the inside of his mouth. He swallowed the last of the salty fluids and fixed Light's clothes back the way they were.
Light's head was buried into the cushions of the couch as he tried to catch his breath. He looked back at L sleepily. "L..." Light ran his fingers through L's hair.
"I'm sorry for getting angry earlier. Forgive me?"
Light nodded closing his eyes, "Always L, always."
L maneuvered himself so that Light was now laying on top of him. Light nuzzled L's neck trailing small tired kisses along his long, slender neck. L rested between the couch cushions and Light. He gently stroked his hair. He kissed the top of Light's head, "Get some sleep. We've got a lot of work to do tomorrow."
Light snuggled closer to L. "I love you L..." He whispered softly before falling asleep.
"I love you too, Light," He smiled at the sleeping teen in his arms. Light looked so innocent. L snuggled deeper into the cushions staring at Light before he, too, fell asleep.