"Ya' know, it's hard to sleep with you talking," Light whispered.

"Excuse me for waking the lovesick puppy after screwing his master."

Light cocked one of his eyebrows, "What?"

Kira rolled his eyes, "If you don't understand I'm not explaining."

Light sat up slowly, "What do you want?"

Kira was sitting at Light's desk. Light couldn't make out his features only his eyes. They were bent into slits. "I just wanted to ask you something. Of course you have to get out of bed."

Light sighed scooting out of the bed so that he wouldn't wake L. When he stood on his feet he fell to his knees and hissed rubbing his lower back.

"I thought you'd gotten used to the pain," Kira smirked. He threw Light his pants and waited for him to put them on.

"I'm glad you learned some compassion," Light growled as he stepped into his pants.

"I have a favor I'd like you to do for me."

Light used the headstand for support, "And why would I do that? You're trying to kill Ryuzaki."

"Light, I promise I will not harm him if you do this for me."

Light froze he looked into the red eyes, "W-what is it."

Kira's eyes darted to the right, "The drawer, open it." Light looked at the drawer Kira's eyes led to. A key was stationed in the lock.

Lightwalked silently across his room to the drawer. He turned the key in the lock slowly and opened it. There was a thick book with the word "DIARY" printed over the cover. Light picked it up and studied it.

"It will do you no good to read it. It's a fake you created a long time ago." Kira took the book away and pulled out a ball point pen. He took it apart so that nothing but the ink well remained. "Stick this in the hole under the drawer."

Light nodded taking the pen and finding the hole under his drawer. He pushed it up and as he did so the bottom of the drawer raised itself as well. There was a piece of paper underneath the drawer. He reached out and grabbed it.

Kira was smirking as Light looked across the notebook paper with wide eyes.

L Lolliay

L Lawlié

Elle lawliette

L Lawliette

Ele Lawliet

L Lawliet

"W-What is this?" Light asked clutching the paper tightly.

"A page from the Death Note," Kira smiled revealing his pearly white teeth.

"W-why is Ryuzaki's name on the page?"

"Isn't it obvious?" Kira sighed looking at Light's sad expression, "You really don't have any memory of that day?"

Light squeezed the paper hard. "Rem?"

Kira nodded, "She died when her notebook was burned."

Light thought for another moment feeling a memory pour into him.

"Ryuzaki, what are you doing out here?" Light opened the door to his house and saw the detective dripping wet.

"Excuse me," He looked down sorrowfully. "I was out walking and it started raining."

Light stared at him critically, "You just happen to be walking in the direction of my house?" He was skeptical about L not having a motive for anything.

"I actually wanted to talk to you…" L hung his head letting the drops of water hit the floor.

Light motioned for L to come into his house and shut the door behind him. His mother and father were upstairs watching the news as Sayu was chatting with her friends on her cell phone. "What's the meaning of this Ryuzaki?"

L scanned the walls, "I would like to discuss this matter in private."

"Okay…" Light motioned for L to come upstairs. L followed behind him silently. "Dad, Ryuzaki came over. We'll be in my room if you need anything," Light called making L flinch.

Light motioned for L to come into his room. L entered and Light locked the door behind him. Light sat in the chair by his desk. "What is it Ryuzaki?"

"Given the fact that you're Kira—"

"How many times do I have to tell you Ryuzaki? I'm not Kira!" Light looked annoyed as he sat back in his chair.

"Excuse me," L said rolling his eyes. "Given the chance that you are Kira I need to tell you something."

Light tilted his head to the side. It seemed L was nervous. L never got nervous, so why is he now?

"I feel that if by any chance that you are Kira. Then I don't know if I can put you to death…" L's head was still bent over hiding his expression.

"What are you talking about Ryuzaki? Kira needs to be put to death. You know that better than I do." Light was smiling on the inside at his lie.

"If it's someone else I can handle it, but… if it's you than I don't think I'll be able to. Light, I knew that it was impossible for me to ever meet the person to spend the rest of my life with. I thought if that were to happen I didn't know what I would do, so I figured it would be impossible because I'm so… unsociable."

"That's a little bit hard on yourself, don't you think? Yeah you may not be very social, but you've got a great mind and body," Light flinched. Did he actually say that L's body looked good? "You'd be loyal to that person and you'd try to make them happy. Then once they see how skilled with your hands you are…" Light gave out a nervous chuckle. He'd started rambling. He hated that. He'd actually told him that he had skilled hands? Well he had seen him working on cake and sugar cubes before, so maybe that wasn't far from the truth.

L looked slightly surprised by this. "That's just it Light. You're the first person whose ever know the real me. I feel that if either of us were to die we'd be lost without the other."

"I don't like how you're talking about dying Ryuzaki."

"I know," L shrugged him away. "What I mean is we complete one another and… I think I might love you," L winced slightly for whatever was to come.

Light stared at him wide eyed. He never would've expected L to come out right here and now. He felt good, but most of those feelings were blocked by his own bloodlust to see L dead. "You think you might?"

"Yes. I've never felt like this, so it's very new to me."

"I don't know Ryuzaki. It's bad enough that we're both guys. We can't exactly form a relationship on half assed feelings." Light turned around in his chair so that his back was to L. Why didn't he turn L down? It wasn't like he had feelings for him, right?

"You're not turning me down?"

"N-not entirely," Light blushed, but it was hidden from L. His heart was pounding. "I just don't want to enter a relationship when the other person isn't fully aware of his feelings."

"My real name is L Lawliet. How's that for half assed?" L stated bluntly. Light whipped around and saw L was now in touching distance from him. "You're the only person- besides Watari- who knows my name." One of his hands came up and caressed Light's cheek.

Light gulped as his heart started beating rapidly when L touched him. "Wha-what are you doing?"

L whispered, "Making my feelings known." He kissed Light gently before nibbling on his lips requesting entrance. Light fought for a moment then allowed the detective to search the interior of his mouth. Light gasped for air thus breaking the kiss.

He didn't understand what he was feeling. His body was shaking, but not in fear. He felt fire when L kissed him. He couldn't seem to calm down. Once side of him wanted to tackle Ryuzaki and make out with him some more, the other wanted to watch him slowly and painfully die.

"I should go," L said suddenly. "I'd hate for your parents to walk in on us and it seems we both need to think on these matters…"

Light had half the nerve to pull L back to him, but he remained silent. When he left Light was frozen in his seat.

"Well that was unexpected," A raspy voice said. "So what are you going to do now, Light?"

Light's eyes lowered letting his thoughts swirl around in his mind. "Tell me, Ryuk, how would you spell L Lawliet?"

"Like I'd tell you," The voice scoffed.

"Worth a shot," Light chuckled. He pulled out the Death Note and opened it to a blank page, "L Lawliet?"

"Ryuk…" Light muttered trying to remember the familiar name. "I've heard his name before."

"Ryuk was our Shinigami," Kira muttered leaning back in the chair. "He came to Earth to follow who ever picked up his Death Note."

"A Shinigami?" Light gave him a questioning look. "But Ryuzaki said that—"

"Ryuzaki lied," Kira growled almost mocking Light. "He didn't want you to remember Ryuk so he made up a lie."

Light stared blankly at the ground. "Then when I wrote this he told me he loved me…"

"Yes and you tried to kill him. I know how the story goes. I still have memories. I still know everything." Kira was yelling at him.

Light fell to his knees, "But why? Why do you know everything? And why would I try to kill Ryuzaki if I love him?"

Kira laughed, "You wanted him dead. I'm pretty sure you even know that."

Light shook his head slightly, "No, my emotions were mixed. I wasn't sure what I wanted…"

Kira sighed "You're as stubborn as ever." He crouched down next to Light holding a new pen in his hand. "Now for that favor…" He twirled the pen around between his fingers.

"I'm not killing Ryuzaki," Light yelled.

Kira rolled his eye, "If you wait for me to ask you'd know that it wasn't Ryuzaki I was talking about. It wouldn't even matter since the Death Note can't kill him now… Now, there are two women that I thought about killing that I never managed to.

"Misa Amane was the second Kira and an upcoming model and actress. I wanted her dead, but her shinigami, Rem, said that she would kill me if she didn't. After Rem died she proved even more useful because she had the shinigami eyes. I'm not explaining those to you.

"Sayu is our little sister, but when she was kidnapped I knew she would only be trouble. I was trying hard to fight Light into killing her, but I guess family out rules justice."

"You call that justice? Just tell me what you want."

He smiled sinisterly, "Misa is currently dead, so there is nothing to worry about as far as she goes. However, Sayu can prove to be an even bigger nuisance in the future."

"What do you mean? It's not like I'm going to start killing criminals again. How would Sayu cause trouble?"

"She's a civilian who knows about Kira."

"So? We know a lot of people who know about Kira."

"Light, when you get back your memories back I'm sure it'll be like old times. We just have to get rid of a few people in our way. Who knows maybe Ryuzaki would help us." He leaned in closer till Light could feel his hot breath in his ear. "I want you to kill Sayu."

Light jumped back away from Kira, "You're evil! How can you even think about killing her? She's our sister! And furthermore, what makes you think Ryuzaki would follow along with it. Ryuzaki would never give up his sense of justice for my sake."

"He said he wouldn't kill you if you were Kira, and he didn't. I'm sure he'd give up a lot of things for you, Light."

"Not what he believes in. I could never make Ryuzaki do something he wasn't fully acceptant of."

"Like you're relationship?"

"What are you talking about?"

Kira smiled, "Face it. Ryuzaki's not completely sure of his feelings."

"T-that's not true," Light's eyes looked petrified.

"If it's not true, then why does he lie?"

"He doesn't lie," Light shuttered.

"Light, I'm only asking you to do this for me." Kira placed both hands on Light's shoulders, "Please?"

"No. No matter how much you beg me I can't kill Sayu," Light said crossing his arms and turning away from Kira.

Kira reached down uncrossing Light's arms and placed the pen in his right hand. "Here I'll help you." He gripped the hand that held the pen. He pulled Light's arm over to the paper. "Now close your eyes and think of nothing but Sayu," Kira whispered into Light's ears. Light found himself doing exactly that as Kira moved his hand across the paper. "S…A…Y…U. See? You've got the first name down. Y-A-G-A—"

"Please stop," Light muttered gritting his teeth as he did so. He tried to pull his arm back, but Kira kept it into place. "Stop it, Kira!"

"Why? It's only two more letters to go." Kira tugged at his hand.

"I said stop! I'm not going to kill Sayu," Light balled up the paper and threw it into his drawer.

"What's wrong, Light?" Kira asked tilting his head slightly. "You would've gotten your memories back if you did that…"

Light remained silent as he continued staring at the drawer. He turned around and crawled back into bed and closing his eyes.

Light woke up rubbing his eyes angrily. He scowled at the sunlight that was now pouring into his bedroom. He stretched turning over to an empty bed. Where's Ryuzaki?

"Where indeed? Maybe he left you for someone else?" Kira chuckled in the back of his mind.

"You better keep quiet for the rest of the day. I don't want to hear another word out of you today," Light snarled getting out of bed.

He rose up rubbing his eyes slowly looking outside window that was beside his bed. He never got over how different this place was. It was really beautiful, but it was quiet.

Light put on his shirt from last night and walked out of his room. He heard laughing coming from downstairs. He walked in the direction of the staircase and found a piece of paper lying in front of them.

Dear Light,

I managed to convince Sayu into thinking that yesterday was a dream. We're down stairs now if you haven't already figured that out. I'm sorry for not being there when you woke up. Please come down when you're ready.

L

Light rolled his eyes, "He's so formal even when writing small letters like this." He stuffed the letter in his pants pocket and walked back into his room.

"You're not going to see them?" Kira asked with a smile in his voice.

"I'm not in the mood to see either of them right now. Not after what happened last night… And I told you not to talk to me!" Light laid down on his bed closing his eyes as he did so.

Light felt a cold hand press against his cheek. "Is Light mad at me?"

Light turned over on his side, "Leave me alone. How is it that you can suddenly manifest yourself suddenly now? It's not like you're real."

"Your mind wants you to remember and so do I. Together we create a fully functioning Kira that can be seen and heard only by you. And we were so close last night." Kira stretched out beside Light.

"There's no way I can kill Sayu," Light kept his eyes closed keeping his back to Kira.

"We only had two letters left and it would've been too late. You have perfect timing." Kira frowned teasing him.

"And what would I gain if Sayu were to die?"

"We can go back to being Kira…"

"It's not like Sayu is the only person who knows Kira's true identity."

"True, but you know everyone else's names. We can kill them too, or they might actually join us if Ryuzaki does. If he refuses well we can just kill him too. With our own hands if we must just like you said when we first met him." Kira let out sinister laughter after this making Light flinch.

"How many times do I have to tell you I'm not killing anyone? Especially not people I care about."

Kira sighed, "Yes that is our dilemma right now, isn't it?" Kira sighed turning on his stomach and stroking Light's hair. "That was a pretty pathetic bath. He didn't even wash your hair."

"I'm not objecting," Light muttered sleepily.

"You wouldn't… What are we going to do? I want things to go back to the way they should be and you want to stay like this."

"Seeing as my body belongs to me I get to make the decisions."

"Oh that's fair," Kira muttered sarcastically.

Light opened his eyes at Kira who was scowling at Light's desk. "I'm going down stairs." Light got out of bed and walked to the door.

"I thought you didn't want to see them right now."

"I'm sure it's better than seeing you," Light said closing his bedroom door.

The house was actually kind of quiet now. There wasn't anyone talking or people conversing just silence. He walked down stairs and saw Sayu's back to him as she sat on the love seat watching some TV show. Light wasn't really interested with it, so he sat on the couch. There was a bunch of girls screaming about some guy.

Sayu turned the volume down when she saw Light and smiled, "Good afternoon. I'm sorry for falling asleep last night. I had some crazy dream, but I'm sorry if it made you bored or anything."

Light was confused about the whole apology, but smiled and said, "It's fine. I'm just happy that my little sister is okay."

She sighed, "Yeah… Ryuzaki told me about the accident. I'm so sorry I wasn't there for you, Light."

Light held up his hands and chuckled nervously, "It's okay. I'm fine, really." He looked around the room, "Where is Ryuzaki?"

"He's in the kitchen making tea."

Light nodded lying down and letting his head rest on the arm of the couch. He sighed watching some of the squealing girls jump excitedly as they started talking to this random guy with dark mahogany, brown hair. Light slowly started to close his eyes until he started hearing talking again.

"I don't know why he's so tired," Sayu said as L handed her a cup of tea.

Light slowly opened his eyes and saw L standing in front of him. He was muttering something to Sayu about Light's sleeping habits. Light tugged on L's pants leg and sat up so that L would sit next to him. L actually sat normally so that Light could lay his head back down. He pet Light's hair making Light make some sort of purring noise.

"Did you sleep well?" L had been sure he'd gotten both himself and Light to bed at a decent hour. Even though they had had sex, he would always make sure that they went to bed after their "bath" and not anything else.

Light rubbed his eyes looking up at L who was sipping his tea. "Yeah, I just had a headache that gave me a lot of trouble."

"Are you alright," Sayu asked.

He gave her a half smile, "Yeah, I'm fine."

Sayu sat back on the couch slowly, "Well I thought we could do something today, but if you're tired then—"

Light bolted up and jumped in the seat next to Sayu. He squeezed her shoulder gently. "Really I'm fine. I want to spend as much time with you as possible."

Sayu was a little surprised, but laughed. "All right where do you want to go?"

"What's around here?" Light smiled brightly at her, his eyes flickering in excitement.

"Well there's the museum and the aquarium… We have a zoo."

Light tilted his heard to the side, "A zoo?"

"A place where people watch animals in cages," L muttered taking slight interest in the television.

"Can we go?" Light asked intrigued by the idea.

Sayu smiled standing up, "Of course we can. I just need to get ready." Sayu ran upstairs to change clothes and put on here make up.

"Is that alright, Ryuzaki," Light asked turning to L when Sayu was gone.

"It's fine," L said sounding uninterested and pulling his knees back to his chest.

"You don't like zoos?" Light asked crawling closer to L.

"They're not my favorite. Quite frankly I don't find it appealing to see creatures being looked up and used for the enjoyment of others."

"Should I tell Sayu to go somewhere else?"

L sighed, "No. You should at least enjoy yourself while you're here. Besides you'll get to be with Sayu."

Light smiled, "Yeah."

"Well, I guess we better go," Sayu chimed running down the stairs. She grabbed her keys as L and Light rose off the couch.

Sayu locked the door to the house and let everyone get into her car. L sat in the back while Light sat up front beside Sayu. Light could feel L watching him which only made him nervous.

"I'm really glad we get to see each other again like this. I haven't been to the zoo in years!" Sayu smiled starting her car and pulling out into the street.

They got the zoo faster than expected. Light got out of the car staring curiously at the inside of its gates. Sayu paid for them and Light dragged L towards a gate where a large black and white bear was eating long stocks of bamboo in its pen.

"Ryuzaki look!" Light pointed running up to the Panda's pen leaning over the rail. "Wow, so that's what a real one looks like!"

L walked over to Light staring amusingly at him. "Why are you getting so excited about this?"

Light smiled happily at the bear, "Because it reminds me of Ryuzaki."

Ryuzaki blushed slightly as some families gave them sharp glares and others smiled at them. Sayu came in between them smiling at the panda. "Aw. He's so cute," She didn't say it in a prissy, girly voice. She spoke almost like a happy mother, or at least a mature woman.

They spent the entire day there. L was becoming more amused by Light's different reactions to the animals. Sayu was having fun with her older brother. Light felt like he was in some type of wonderland filled with all the animals. He didn't want it to end, but at the same time it felt… wrong. Not being with Sayu and L, but there was something else. He shoved the negativity away for that afternoon. He didn't want to worry anyone.

"How about we go for ice cream?" Sayu asked as she started up her car.

Light nodded not thinking his smile could get any wider, "Yeah!"

Sayu drove from the zoo to the ice cream shop in less than two minutes. She got a vanilla cane, Light got a strawberry scoop cone and L got pistachio. Light smiled brightly licking his ice cream then giving the rest to L when he was finished.

Sayu started playing some upbeat music on the radio. She smiled singing along and bobbing her head to the beat of the song. She smiled looking at Light then turning her attention back to the street and slammed on breaks.

Two cars collided with each other in front of them. Sayu's heart was pounding as she got pale staring at the wreck. She sighed in relief rubbing her temples together. "Are you two alright?" She asked after she felt her heart stop pounding as hard as it was.

L's arm was holding Light back in his chair. He was shaking slightly, but not as bad as Light. Light was holding L's arm as he trembled from the terrible exhilaration. L searched Light's face as he stared blankly out the window.

Light saw him. He always saw him. He was the only one who did. He was smirking as he stood leading against the street light post on the side of the road. His scarlet eyes glistened with blood lust as his gaze darted to Light as he laughed disappearing into thin air after Light blinked.

Light grit his teeth snarling under his breath, "Damn bastard."

TBC

Okay... Kira's basically a poltergeist now. lolz. I hope to write somemore soon. THANK YOU!

Oh yeah. Kira doesn't write names his self b/c if Light were to write names he'd get his memories back ;)

cute moments I shortened them cuz I went past 10 pages. srry. enjoy.