17

Light yawned stretching as he turned over, or at least tried to turn over. He looked up at the head board tugging at his arms. There were steel handcuffs holding him in place on the bed. What the hell? Light thought to himself as he continued to pull at his arms.

Ryuk laughed as he watched Light struggling. "Finally awake?"

Light scowled at the amused shinigami, "Ryuk, what's going on? Did you do this?"

"Hardly," He chuckled biting into an apple he seemed to pull out of nowhere.

"Where'd you get apples? I thought you ate them all last night."

Ryuk hummed to himself ignoring Light. Light growled at him, "You are so dead when I get out of these!" He made an effort to sit up, but failed. He violently pulled at the handcuffs.

"You can't kill a shinigami that easily, Light," Ryuk laugh swallowing the apple.

Light fell back on the headboard,"Damn Shinigami."

There were two knocks at the door and L entered the room. "You shouldn't pull on those," He said noticing Light's struggle. "You could hurt yourself."

"W-what are you doing here Ryuzaki?" Light's eyes grew wide when he saw the detective. "You can't come into my house like this. It's illegal!"

"It's not illegal when Sayu gave me the spare key," L said taking it out of his pocket and showing it to Light. "That being said, I think you don't have the right to call someone evil, Kira. "

Light smiled sinisterly, "Touché… So what now? I know you're not going to kill me since you didn't when you had the chance. Are you going to burn that Death Note as well and make me forget again? "

L sighed pulling out the notebook that was stuffed in the front of his jeans. "If I burn the notebook we'll both loose our memories and I retain mine if I'm constantly touching the notebook. You should know that much."

Light arched one of his eyebrows, "What do you mean 'that much'?"

L sat on the edge of Light's bed, "You know Gevanni shot Matt? Mello is really upset right now… I don't believe I've ever seen him cry like that…"

Light gave L a confused look. The names and some of the faces were familiar, but he really didn't care that Matt was dying.

"When you lost your memory, Mello and you were the best of friends and—"

"I don't care about what happened back then. It doesn't matter. It's stupid to rely on the past when I couldn't remember anything." Light didn't meet L's eyes that were staring intently at him.

"Are you afraid?"

"Of what? I don't anything to be scared of. I just think it's pointless to rely on something that's nothing but a lie."

"That's ironic. Seeing as how you lie all the time."

"Don't give me that! You could tell the truth if your life depended on it." Light felt strange. There was a familiar tension between them, but it wasn't hostile. It was more like friendly or a joke.

"I tell the truth to you," L said starting straight into Light's eyes.

Light blushed slightly, "W-what are you doing here, Ryuzaki? Are you the one who put me in these handcuffs? Why did you—"

"You still talk way too much," L said shaking his head slowly.

Light immediately shut up. He studied L who seemed to be more sad than usual. "Is something wrong, Ryuzaki?"

L thought for a moment looking down at his lap, "No… I'm fine. You should get some sleep."

"Ryuzaki—" Light started to protest.

"Good afternoon," L bowed leaving the room.

"RYUZAKI," Light yelled at the top of his lungs. He pulled hard on the handcuffs. He fell back hard against his mattress. He was already sweating and panting heavily. He angrily slammed his eyes shut. He wasn't tired. He just knew if he had to do something sleeping would pass time.

Why am I so scared? I don't understand what's going on. Ryuzaki is pulling me in a direction, but I'm not sure what he's going to do? Where are we going?

Ryuzaki turns to face me. I stay where I am feeling my nervousness overwhelm me. What's going on?

Ryuzaki brushes my cheeks softly placing a kiss on my forehead. He places his forehead where he kissed me so he could stare into my eyes. "So is Light saying he is homosexual?"

What? I'm not—"O-only if it's Ryuzaki," I stammered out. What?

Ryuzaki tilted his head to the side, "Only me? You say you'll only be happy with me?"

Like hell I will! I nodded nervously. What the hell? Why am I not doing what I'm thinking?

Ryuzaki raised a corner of his mouth slightly so that it didn't look like a gesture of any kind. He pressed his lips softly against Light's ever so slowly. He stepped back and whispered, "Me too…"

No. No. No. Oh hell no! I'm not doing this. I can't be having a freaking wet dream and with Ryuzaki? When did—How did this happen? It's not like THAT much could've changed during the past year. For one thing I'm not—What's he doing?

Ryuzaki brushed his hands slowly against my pants tugging at the buttons. I didn't move away. Why am I not moving away? His hands are actually inside my pants now and they're… Oh God that feels good. No! I can't believe I'm doing this! I need to wake up!

Go away! Run away! Run far away! Ryuzaki stared at me with his usual panda eyes. How had I not recognized how big his eyes are? That's probably from all the sugar he eats. I wonder how he—Ryuzaki gripped my cock tightly and twisted slightly making me moan. I have to get away from here. This has gone way too far…

Light's eyes shot open. He was panting rapidly and sweating. Ryuk was across the room staring humorously at Light. Light's arms felt heavy and burned. They felt limp from being held over his head. He felt back sighing in relief. "…Ryuk, I don't think I'll like what I'll find when I look back on the past year."

"Does that mean you're actually going to remember everything?"

"I guess I have to. Something came up that I can't ignore…"

"I thought that was an inconvenience," Ryuk chuckled.

"Oh believe me, it is. I just feel like something happened and if I neglect to look back on everything that happened this time it might hurt me later."

Ryuk laughed heartily, "I hope you like what you're looking for."

Light fought the urge to growl, but he knew Ryuk meant well. He sat back on his bed and stared at the ceiling remembering back to the day he lost his memories.

"… You and your family were out for a drive and a car ran a stop sign. He slammed right into you. You suffered with some head injuries, but your family didn't make it. I'm Ryuzaki, your friend…"

"Ryuzaki, look! It's raining. It's so beautiful!"

"What are they doing?"

"Why not? We love each other don't we?"

"I love you, Ryuzaki!"

Light cursed under his breath. "This is going to be difficult, Ryuk."

"What is, Light-Kun?" L asked making Light jump.

Light sighed making his heart slow. He stared back at L who was sitting beside his bed in a chair. His eyes looked somewhat swollen. "Have you been crying Ryuzaki?"

L seemed hesitant to answer Light's question. He coughed a little, "What I do in private is none of your concern."

Light gave him a small concerned smile then shook it off remembering his dream. "You came back here?"

"It's not like I'm going to leave you here by yourself," L muttered stabbing his cake with his fork.

"That's not very nice," Ryuk replied sarcastically. "I'll be here."

"You'd leave in about ten minutes considering you don't have any apples," L shot back not looking at the shinigami.

Ryuk nodded, "True…"

"Oh so you're going to let me go?" Light inquired already knowing the answer.

"No, but I do have important reasons for being here." L looked square into Light's eyes then pulled up his lips into a creepy grin stretched across his face. "Otanjou-bi Omedetou Gozaimasu. Happy birthday, Light."

Light arched one of his eyebrows. "You stayed to tell me that?"

"That's one of the reasons," L said licking his cake. He turned around extending one of his arms to Light's dresser. He picked up another plate with a fork and set it on Light's stomach. "I brought you a piece as well."

"Um… thank you? Why did you—"

"You can't have a birthday without cake," L noted stabbing at his own cake again and raising it to his mouth. "…Besides you must be hungry. Just eat it. I made it myself."

Light was feeling hungry, but not exactly starving. He had eaten the day before. It wasn't like he'd been this way for days or weeks. "How do you expect me to eat it?" Light asked noting his bound hands.

L stabbed Light's cake with his fork and held it in front of Light's lips. Light focused hard on the sugar mass giving it a look of disgust. "I was just kidding, Ryuzaki. You know I don't like sweets."

L didn't move. Light rolled his eyes and forced the cake into his mouth. Light chewed trying not to- and failing- make a face. He swallowed the sugary mass and coughed. "That's too sweet!" He continued coughing until he settled back against the headboard.

"This is hardly anything, Light," L said eating more of his cake.

"Easy for you to say. You eat like this all the time. How is it that you don't have diabetes or something?"

"What if I told you I was a boarder-line diabetic?" L asked arching his eyebrows at Light.

"I'd say that's complete bullshit."

L frowned at Light's language. "You don't gain or lose anything if you use your brain."

Light rolled his eyes frowning in silence. He closed his eyes and listened to only L's chewing and breathing.

"So Light," L said pulling Light out of his thoughts, "have you remembered anything?"

Light sighed, "I know about everything that happened, I just… don't know if I want to believe it or not."

"What parts are you having trouble believing?" L placed his empty plate on the floor then took the cake that was on Light's stomach.

Light blushed slightly not meeting L's eyes, "L-like I'd tell you!"

Ryuk chuckled while realizing Light's insecurity. His eyes danced amongst the two males as he watched the scene intently. He really wasn't interested in the lovey dovey moments between them, but he was curious to see what L would do. L definitely wasn't as submissive as he was without memories, so what now?

"That's strange since you used to tell me a lot of things…"

Light actually got angry at this comment. "That wasn't me."

"Really? Then who was it?" Light's repeated response was making L angry too. He didn't mean to make his question as smug as it sounded.

"I didn't know what I was doing at that time, so don't you dare blame me! It's your fault. Y-you could've said something. You could've stopped—"

L jumped on top of Light pinning him down underneath him. He rarely got angry, but he hated how Light was acting. "Light, you know everything that happened wasn't my fault. You were the one who asked me to do everything. I'm not the one to blame here. You are."

Light gave him a terrified look. His eyes darted from every direction searching L's face. "But that's—that can't be right! You were the one who—"

"You asked me, Light. You practically begged me for some kind of physical contact." L tilted his head to one side, "I tried to avoid you, but you're a very curious person Light. Even when I told you the truth and that I lied to you. I thought that'd push you away and that you'd hate me. However, you seemed to hate yourself even more! I didn't want to see you like that! It hurt me, Light… And then when you were put in the hospital I thought, 'Don't make me lose him.' I—you know I've loved you. I told you I did. Before you tried to kill me… I tried to hold back when you lost your memories because it was like you were a different person. I didn't want your memories to return everything go back to the way it was. I didn't want to hurt like that again." L gave Light a pleading look. His heart ached as he tried to steady himself.

Light studied L for about three seconds. "So you want me to apologize?"

L shook his head, "I just want you to know my intentions before you start accusing me of something."

Light chuckled that time, "Now you know how I feel."

L stared at Light somewhat confused then he remembered all the moments with Light being Kira and how L accused him. It almost made him smile. "Yes, I suppose that's true," L muttered before he pressed his lips on Light's. He missed the feeling of Light's warm, soft lips, since they hadn't kissed all morning like they usually did. However, the kiss only lasted for about three seconds.

"What are you doing?" Light said quickly turning away and glaring at L. "I don't care what happened in the past. I'm not gay. I don't want you kissing me and feeling me up every chance you get!" Even though in the back of his mind he thought L's lips felt soft and tasted sweet.

L tried to hide himself from smirking, "You're in no position to talk." He stared up at Light's hands that were secured on the bed post. He kissed Light's again, but not forcibly. He placed soft little kisses along Light jaw as Light tried to move.

Ryuk was chuckling behind them, "Ryuzaki never seemed like the type of person to use force."

L turned his head slightly so that he was looking at Ryuk. "I'm not forcing anything. It's just kissing, and if you don't mind I'd rather not have commentary about everything that Light and I do. There's a small grocery store on the next street, Ryuk. If you want you can eat as much apples as you want," L cursed himself for promoting the shinigami to steal, but he really didn't care at the moment.

Ryuk's eyes sparkled almost like a child's as he ran out the door yelling, "APPLES!"

"No Ryuk," Light called, "He's just bribing you!"

"I'll take any type of bribery if it involves apples," Ryuk yelled continuing down the hall.

"But what about me Ryuk? You have to save me!"

"Screw you. I'm going to go get some apples!"

"RYUK," Light yelled after Ryuk was already gone.

L stared back at Light with an amused expression in his eyes. "I have to wonder Light. Did you miss me?" He laid beside resting his head on Light's chest.

Light blushed wildly, "O-of course, Ryuzaki."

L looked back into Light's eyes, "Then let me do this." L rested his left hand on Light's cheek as he kissed Light's lips again. He nibbled Light's bottom Light making Light squirm, but he soon complied. L searched the Light he knew so well's mouth. This Light was much more aggressive than the old Light. He fought against L's tongue but soon relax at the feeling of L kissing him.

L tasted like strawberries and sugar. Light felt heated sparks in the kiss even when they pulled apart he felt it there. It was different than the dull sparks he had between Misa, which couldn't even be considered as sparks. He pushed the thoughts away staring blankly back at L, who was getting off Light's bed.

"Where are you going?" Light asked suddenly wanting the detective to stay longer.

"I'm not going to do anything too extreme to you, Light. You only just got your memories back, and as you said before; you were confused."

Light gulped slightly contemplating what he should say next. "Where are you going?"

"We're going to the hospital," L said pulling a small, metal key out of his pocket. He unlocked Light's right hand from the bed, and unlocked the left handcuff that was attached to the bed. He left the left handcuff around Light's wrist and attached the other end to his own right wrist. "I'm sorry I don't have a longer pair of handcuffs, but I hope will suffice."

Light nodded, "If you think I need to be dragged around like this then by all means.

L walked to the door pulling the auburn man behind him. "I hope you don't mind walking. Watari isn't around to take me anywhere and I don't feel right taking your sister's car."

"By all means."

"Well… let's go."

TBC

lol. I enjoyed writing this. It felt wierd, since light wasn't innocent as usual. :'( I miss u uke Light but u will return!

Uke Light: Really?

Me: idk maybe.

lolz I hope you enjoyed. next chapter they go to the hospital. you might be able to connect the dots from there. thank you for reading. This chapter was longer than the last ones Yay! ^^