Light was anxious. Not because of the stares he got from the people on their way to the hospital, but because of what he'd have to go through since Mello would be waiting for them. He didn't like feeling afraid. That was rare for him and he hate Mello for making him feel this way. If he had the Death Note… no, if he even knew where it was. If he knew L, he hid it in a box, or something. However, L still knew about the Death Note so he must have it on him somewhere. Then again, L did remember everything when Light had lost his memories…

Anyway, they walked into the hospital receiving the familiar curious looks from the other nurses and doctors. They ignored them as they walked into Matt's room. Matt was still asleep, but he didn't look as bad as he did last night. Mello was leaning onto Matt's bed sleeping. He shot up when he heard footsteps behind him, "Is he alr—L, what are you doing here?"

"We're going to come until Matt's better," L said. "Uh, Mello, may I talk to you for a second? In private…"

Mello cocked one of his eyebrows, "Shouldn't you and L be celebrating or something?"

"Why would we be doing that?"

"It's Light's birthday…" Mello stared hard at them. Light seemed different. His expression was sterner and he held himself with more arrogant confidence. He noticed L and Light's stance and realized there were handcuffs attaching the two males together. "Are you guys playing a penalty game or something?"

L stared at the handcuff and sighed. He unlocked his wrist and attached Light to the rod that hung about a foot from Matt that was to hide anyone from seeing him changing or operating. Light glared at L as he tugged on his arm. "I'll be right back," L said.

"Like it matters," Light muttered. He wasn't going to be pulled into L's game. Something had to be going on in his head. L motioned for Mello to follow him and He left with L. Light looked up at his arm then at Matt. His thoughts began to roam…

He DID oppose me. Shouldn't I at least try to kill him?

No! Uncle Matt didn't do anything. He doesn't deserve to be treated like this. It's wrong.

Uncle? Where'd that come from? It doesn't matter whether it's wrong or not. Matt opposed me. Therefore, he should be punished.

Matt opposed KIRA. I was nothing to him.

Idiot. Kira and Light are one in the same. Go for it. L's not going to let Mello hurt you and Matt's going to be gone before you can do anything about it…

Light smirked. His eyes flickered with a dark, red color. He looked at the iron pole that held him in place. He saw how loose it was in the wall. He tugged hard on the pole trying to keep himself from laughing as he pulled.

"What's up with him? You two fight or something?" Mello asked as they stepped out of the room.

"Has anyone else been here today?" L asked avoiding the question.

"Huh? Oh, Aizawa was here and Matsuda…Oh yeah, and so was Mogi. They all came after they heard about what happened. Ide would've come also, but he had some type of business trip." Mello shrugged, "They just came to offer condolences nothing big. What happened, L? You're avoiding my questions?"

L sat in a chair in one of the waiting rooms that was surprisingly empty. "Light got his memory back last night." He rested his head back on the wall feeling both relief and fear in his words.

"Really? So he didn't take to kindly to the fact that you two have been fucking each other?" Mello asked sitting in a chair beside L.

L growled at the use of Mello's language, "I don't think that's a very appropriate way of saying it, but yes. He wasn't too thrilled about that part, but there's more."

Mello leaned forward giving L a curious look, "What is it?"

L was reluctant to reveal this to Mello of all people, but he had to. Better now than regret it later. "Light wrote Sayu's name in the Death Note and got his memories back."

"What possessed him to write Sayu's name in the Death Note?"

L shook his head, "I don't know, but I think Kira was involved. Something about Light's memories re-emerging or something."

Mello nodded, "Sorry, that's gotta be tough. I hope everything works out for the better." Mello got up and started walking out of the waiting room.

L grit his teeth as Mello started walking. Did he really have to tell him EVERTHING? "Mello," Of course, "There's more."

Mello stopped dead in his tracks, "What do you mean 'there's more'?"

L gave him a solemn look, "I found the notebook when I got home… Near's death was staged," L tried to find something nicer than saying "Light killed Near and Gevanni, and is basically responsible for Matt being in the hospital."

"What are you saying, L? Are… you trying to tell me that that whole fight between them was fake?" Mello's eyes were a striking, evil, sapphire blue as he seemed to growl out the words.

L shrugged, "I'm not sure it's possible. However, Gevanni pulling out his gun was a manipulation brought upon by the Death Note."

Mello winced letting out his next sentence, "So you're telling me that Matt's in the hospital because of Light?"

There was an awkward silence in the waiting area as L contemplated his words. "…Yes…"

Mello clenched his fists looking back at Matt's room, which was across the hall, but the nurse's office stood in their way. Matt was in the hospital because of Light. Matt could've died because of Light. Mello started shaking angrily as he darted towards Matt's room.

L jumped out of his seat chasing after him, "Mello wait!"

Of course, Mello was an ex-mafia boss. You don't just become a mafia boss. You train and kill and work your way up to earn the right to be called "Boss". Mello was ten times faster than L and was filled with anger, a thing that fueled him.

The nurses gave the males an awkward look. Mello ran around the administrative desk while L just planned to run through it. He almost ran into a nurse, but dodged her and jumped over the desk so he could cut Mello off. He pushed Mello against a wall that was almost beside Matt's door.

"Mello, I know you're angry, but you can't just do things without thinking," L pretty much grunted everything he said since Mello was struggling to get away from him. "Listen to me Mello—" Mello elbowed L in the ribs making him stumble to the ground. Mello, not bothering to apologize, ran to Matt's room and ran into the room. He froze.

The iron pole that was once there to hold up that small curtain was now on the floor. Light was staring at Matt with some unknown expression on his face with his hands around Matt's neck. Light's red eyes sparkled with a foggy haze over them. Tears spilled out of his eyes as he continued to stay where he was. He tried to tighten his hands, but they stayed still. Light winced forcing himself to tighten his grip and failing.

He stared madly at his hands, removing them from Matt's neck. "I… can't do it," Light said incredulously. "Why can't I—"

"Light," L asked walking into the room holding his side.

Light's gaze flashed from his hands to L. His eyes filled with horror, "Why can't I kill him? I've done it so many times before, so why not now?" Light looked up at L and shouted, "What did you do to me?" Light fell to his knees staring at his hands. Mello rushed over to Matt who was breathing normally and unharmed. L started walking to Light who noticed this. "No! S-stay away from me," Light shifted trying to get away from L.

L caught Light by the shoulders, "What did you do?"

"Nothing!" Light started crying, "That's why I'm asking; what did you do? I've never been afraid to kill someone, so why now?"

L was slightly surprised by Light's outburst, but he was happy. He didn't want Matt to die and he certainly didn't want Light to be a killer again. He sighed and cradled Light who only struggled in his arms. "The more you struggled the tighter I'll hold you," L warned making Light calm down.

Mello sat by Matt's bed staring at L and Light. It was weird how Light was so opposed about being with him when it was obvious that he still had feelings for him. He reclined back in his chair, "So what are we gonna do, L?"

L shook his head pulling away from Light and just sat by the door. "I don't know," He replied honestly. He didn't plan for Light to try and kill Matt physically. He wasn't feeling very good about his new love. It's not like he'd have Light all to himself. What's more he'd have to face the power of the Death Note. It was obvious that he wasn't going to put Light in prison. If anything constant surveillance was his best option.

Mello was thinking up more gruesome things to do to him. He wanted him to pay for what he did to Matt. However, something held him back. He didn't know what it was, but he just felt like Light still had some innocence left.

"Oh my," A petite nurse came in examining the small room. "What happened here?"

Mello rolled his eyes. NOW someone seems to care. He sighed, "Maybe it was wrong to bring Light here. You should go home."

L felt terrible. He wanted to stay, but he knew Mello was right. L clasped his wrist back to Light's. Light felt alarmed by the fact that he couldn't kill Matt. Why? He could kill Near but not Matt? Why? Why? Why!

Everyone's mind was riddled with the same questions. L and Mello wanted to know what happened. Why was Light acting like this? Is he going to battle with Kira and suppress him (for more reasons unknown to them)? And if Light had any compassion or emotions towards L, what would happen if the time came that Kira told Light to kill L?

XD This chapter sucked... I kind of blanked out and one night I was feeling like Mello and was like "IM GONNA FUCKING KILL YOU!" Then it's like in the middle of that I was like "huh, I'm not mad at you any more? No? Ok i'm just gonna sit down and forget about everything that just happened."

Yeah. Feel free to give me some ideas b/c I know how I'm going to end it, but I'm trying to lead up to it. IDK give me some inspiration, or don't. Thanks 4 reading and reviewing. BYE!

TBC