SHERIDENS STORY

i had only been asleep for a short time since i got home from my disturbing sight of kendall and paisley but i woke up to the sound of my door chime ring.
hopefully its james making a surprise overnight stay. i usually stay at his house for the sake of the dogs he has. but i would welcome a midnite snuggle with my handsome boyfriend right now. he always knows whats to say... and do, to bring me out from under a dark cloud.

i wrapped my self in my dressing robe and descended my winding stair case to the front door. the silhouette didnt look like james.

"who is it?" i called through the large frosted glass panal.

"sheriden its kendall, i need to talk to you"

i opened up the door just enough to poke my head out.

"can i come in" he asked.

"no. you can talk here" i replied matter of factly

"ok... look... well i dont really know where to start..." he stumbled through his sentance

"how about you start with why you fucked paisley petrelli. when i said to give the girls a good time, i meant fun and dancing. not slipping your cock inside one of them!"

"that was a mistake it was..." he tried to argue his case.

"you bet it was a mistake. are you trying to ruin this project before it even gets started. do you have any idea how much time james has put in to it?"

"fucks sake there you go on about james again. cant we have a discussion ever that doesn't involve amazing james!" kendalls voice grew steadily louder.

"oh i see! its kendall has lost the plot time again is it? its been well over a year that we broke up, why are you doing this now?" my voice also grew louder

"look can i just come in?" he placed his hand on the door.

"no you can stay here where the cctv can see you" i glanced up to the camera on the side of my property, so did he.

"you think im going to hurt you?" he laughed.

"no. i think your going to try and cause me and james problems. thats why you looked so god damn happy looking at me in between paisleys legs... honestly kendall what was going on in your head?"

"yeah well that was a mistake" he confessed

"so what? you thought me seeing you fuck someone will make me feel something for you, or you just wanted to hurt me... its one of the two kendall. least have the decency to let me know"

kendall took his hand off the door
"to hurt you" he almost whispered.

"well it wasnt great to see my ex boyfriend fucking some one else, so i hope your happy" i tried to shut the door, but again kendalls hand rose up to hold it open.

"im sorry. my head is messed up sheriden... im sorry"

"from now on i dont want you in ten feet of paisley petrelli. i will not have you ruin this for james"

"what? how the fuck is that going to work with me helping her make an album?" kendall argued

"thats something you should of thought about before you abused your position" i retorted

"look this isnt what i came to talk to you about sheriden. i need to talk about us and the..." i cut kendall off again.

"there is no us! and you have got 10 seconds to get out of here before i phone james and tell him your here, coz im pretty damn sure he doesn't know about this?"

"please sheriden!" his voice was desperate

"no! ten, nine, eight.."

"im outta here" he mumbled.

kendall walked back to his car. he had the ordasity to phone someone and chit chat before driving off, i shut and locked the door on the bolt.

what if he was phoning james, and going to cause trouble that way?

my heart was pounding. why is he dragging all this up now. he swore he was fine with everything. it was even him that had visited james and said he is okay with him seeing me.

i walked over to my telephone and dialled james' number.

it rang

"hi sheriden, i thought you be sleeping by now?" james answered.

hmmm, obviously kendall hadnt rung james then

"yeah i was but... james i really need you tonight, can you come round? i cant wait til tomorrow to see you baby"

"yeah course i can. tonight was a total wash out, kendall left as soon as he arrived, so its just me and logan with the girls.

"how come logan showed up?"

"he was already here with shawn"

"oh right. i see"

"i will be round soon as i can okay sheri"

"james..." i hesitated

"ya"

"i love you so much, you know that yeah" i tried to make my voice sound casual.

"course i do. your my world sheriden lloyd"

i smiled.

"get your sexy ass back here soon okay" i twisted the telephone cord in my fingers.

"love you sheri', see you in a bit"

"bye babe"

"bye"

a wave of relief washed over me. soon my gorgeous james would be here in my arms. i was still unclear on wether to tell him about all the antics that had happened over the course of this evening.

keeping things from james was a new thing for me, and i didnt like it. i told him everything, every part of my life he knew about, he never judged and he never critisised on any of it, only ever offered a shoulder to cry on or advise me as best he could.

from the first time i ever spoke to james we connected. he is my other half, and im only ever going to be complete with him in my life.

im not stupid enough to risk that by keeping things from him.

he said im his life. i know he is mine.

i made a hot drink in the kitchen when i heard the sound of moving gravel out side my home, car doors open and close and the bark of a dog.

the door chime rang. and i opened the door to my beautiful american smile.

"how come my key didnt work?" was the first question i got from james.

"it does work, i had dead bolted the door thats all, i forgot to take it off"

fox and falco the dogs came running in. james took them in to my utility room. they didnt get treated like babies in my house. they got treated like pets, which meant they had a dog bed and a blanket in my wash room next to the washing machine.

i walked back in to the kitchen to finish my drink, james followed me in and sat at my dark wood table.

"so what did kacey have to say then?" james enquired.

" oh my god, that girl was so drunk, she is a total liability. she said she was going to say sorry to you, but basically she hates you because you want to rule the world and she dislikes me for being your side kick"

"hmmm not all bad then" he laughed.

"no, nothing i cant control... something else did happen this evening though."

"ya whats that?"

"oh... i'll tell you later. i just want my james fix right now" i sat down next to him, but he pulled his chair out and sat me on his lap.
i wrapped my arms around his neck. he smelled amazing still, even after being in a hot club.

i gave him a small kiss on the lips.

"i love you maslow" i whispered.

he smiled and kissed me back, but longer, more seductively than i had.

"hows your back now?" he questioned

"long story baby, i'll tell you later"
i moved my hands from around his neck to his waist line and slipped them up his shirt to feel the warmth of his torso.

"oh i see its like that tonite is it?" he smiled back at me

"it might be" i grinned back and gave him another small kiss.

with that james lifted me up and sat me on the edge of my dark wood table. he stood up and undid his trousers.
i played with him in my hands. he was already very hard.

he kissed the side of my face, and ran his hands across the out side of my thighs, before pulling at the belt on my dressing robe and removing it all together.

he tugged at my night shirt to access himself in me. one hand tipped my chin upwards so he could kiss me fully on the lips and the other hand freed me from my hold i had on his erection. he then pulled me in closer towards him. i cold feel him go inside me.

his rhythm was slow and careful. i unbuttoned his shirt and kissed james on the chest as he rocked his body against mine.

the pleasure was full on, i leaned back on the table to steady my self. he carressed his tongue against my neck and showered tiny kisses as he went further up to meet my lips.

feeling him so hard inside me took my breath away. sounds of pleasure escaped my mouth. james pulled my body in towards him even closer. holding me so tight against his movement.

james then moved one of his hands to gently stroke my breasts. the feeling of him all over my body sent waves of pleasure through me that i couldnt control. my orgasm ebbed away at me. pleasure taking control of every nerve of my body. i felt him harden even further in me and then heard james' noise of climax escape from his mouth.

we showered together and went to bed. james fell to sleep pretty quick i however had a mind full of problems. how was i going to tell james about kendall and paisley?
i wondered what paisley thought was happening? was she the kind of girl that just slept about. as far as i was aware she said she had a boyfriend back home in reno.

i finally drifted off in to sleep but a pair of electric green eyes appeared from no where in my head and jolted me back to conciousness.

"james...james... wake up" i gently nudged james awake.

"whassup sheri?" james voice sounded gruff and un broken. i liked it

"i need to talk to you" i nudged him again before his eyes could shut.

james wiped a hand over his face, and swept his brown hair out of his eyes. he sat up slightly and looked at me as i sat crossed legged on top of the bed next to him.

"whats up babe... your back bad?" his voice still hoarse

"no its fine... i lied about my back im sorry, its perfectly fine"

james now sat up further and turned his bedside light on, he rubbed his eyes to wake himself up properly.

"whats going on?" he finally said "what did kacey say to you tonight, i swear im gonna kill tha..."

"no baby its not kacey. its not her...its... well ...its kendall"

again james ran his hand over his face but he didnt say anything. he waited for me to talk.

"when i took kacey back to her hotel room, we kind of walked in on paisley and kendall doing it..."

"what? whats that all about?" james frowned his eyebrows trying to work out what i was trying to get at.

"well listen... basically he knew i was coming up there and he seduced paisley so that i would see them...doing it. and he had this...this... disgusting smirk on his face. i ran out and came home, then kendall showed up here wanting to talk and..."

"woah hang on. you mean tonite kendall came here?"

"yeah he must of dumped paisley on you and come over here. i didnt let him in but he just seemed really fucked up you know. i dont know whats going on in his head. i mean what was he thinking sleeping with paisley anyway... he is gonna end up screwing up all the work we have done for this record label.."

" right sheriden hang on a sec'. your rambling now. you caught kendall having sex with paisley petrelli because he knew you would walk in on him?"

"well yeah, i mean he didnt know i was gonna go up there but he obviously took the risk and it worked." i agreed.

"then kendall told me he was ill and going home but instead he came here?" james had a look on his face that i had only seen once. when he was getting dragged about by an insane kacey delta at the KVA awards and he just stared at me in disbelief. wishing it away.
the last time i saw that look, it scared the hell out of me, and it scared the hell out of me still.

"so what happened when he was here?"

"nothing happened... he said he wanted to talk but i moaned at him about jeperdising our signing by sleeping with paisley. he said he wanted to talk about me and him. i said there is nothing to talk about and threatened to call you. then he left".

james stayed silent for several minutes.

"james you know i would never... you know... i would never risk losing you. i love you so much. i never would."

"sheriden i trust you. i know you wouldnt baby..."
"thats why you locked the door on the dead bolt?" his head was ticking away.

"did he try and hurt you?" his voice a whisper.

"no he wanted to come in but i said no. he tried to push the door open but then i said i was going to call you and he left"

"so what did he want to talk about with you then?"

"i dont know james. and i dont want to know. as far as im concerned its over, it was over the minute he cheated on me"

silence fell on us again.

"so when you walked in and saw them together. what did that feel like?" james asked

"well it was shit, of course it was. im not gona lie. it was more his face than anything. it was full of hate. but its always hard to see any ex with someone new. i guess maybe we rub it in kendalls face a bit."

"what are you gonna do james?"

"nothing" he replied

"what?" i said kind of shocked.

"well its easier if i dont do anything, you've told me, and thats all i need to know. maybe you should talk to him. he hasn't been kendall for a while."

"what do you mean? he was the one that said it was fine for us to go for it"

"sheriden i was there when he cheated on you, i was the one that held you untill you couldnt cry anymore, i was the one that you begged to take the pain from your broken heart away. that was me, i listened to it all, i will never forget one word. hearing the heartache from the girl i loved is something i never will forget. and here you are now, at 3am telling me kendall slept with a girl to hurt you and then came round to talk to you and you dont even want to hear what he has to say"

"i dont understand why you want me to" i whispered

"you both had a very... whats the word... intense relationship. you both fell for each other so quick and then the baby and the crash and kendall fucked it all up in vancouver. but what if he hadnt? surely there is a part of you in there that wants to know what he has to say?"

"your sounding like you wish kendall and i never split up" i said full of emotion

"no im not, im sounding like your boyfriend and kendalls friend"

"i dont want to talk to him about it." i declared

"it?" james enquired.

"yeah it!, us, what we had. it was the icing on the cake to a shit couple of years, and i had to drag myself out of despair yet again. i dont want to get sucked down again, i cant james..."
i started crying.

"come here" james held me in his arms

"sheriden, you once loved him...a lot. now i dont really know what went on, but obviously kendall does and there is nothing i can talk to him about that is gonna help him"

"i cant help him either james"
i paused before continuing with things i had not spoken for a long time
"the baby would be 11 months old now you know?"

"yeah i know. not a day goes by i dont think about that crash and what may have been" james sighed out

"really?" i asked

"course, i think about it all the time, i go to bed thinking about it when im on my own" james rubbed his face again

"do you think if he was born we would still be together?" i whispered to james

me and you? i would like to think so. but maybe kendall would have put up more of a fight for you if thats how it was" james wiped my tears away with his hand and kissed me on the head.

"look get some sleep and we will sort it out in the morning okay. i love you sheriden, nothing will ever change that. i'm never ever going to hurt you. so what ever kendall may or may not say to you. it cant hurt us okay"

"thanks james. i love you so much"

i snuggled in his arms and stayed there till i fell in to a deep sleep.