PAISLEYS STORY

amberleigh seemed in high spirits she introduced me to logan in the club. i was still miffed that kendall had just upped and left without even so much as a goodbye

"paisley petrelli, this is logan henderson". amberleigh gushed

"hi" was all i could manage but logan bent in with a kiss on the cheek.

"hi paisley, ive heard a lot about you, amberleigh likes to ... chat " he laughed

i looked at amberleigh again and realised she was almost as drunk as kacey, but in good spirits.

"can i get you a drink" james asked, he had just come in from seeing kendall off home.

"um yeah just a soda thanks"

"so paisley where you from? logan asked while james left for the bar.

"reno"

"reno? bit of a drive down then?"

"well i was in detroit with kandy teaze, much to the moans of my boyfriend" i rolled my eyes at remembering ryan go on at me about it being a waste of time

"ah im sure he will enjoy having a famous girlfriend when it all kicks off?"

"yeh maybe. i think he just likes to be in control of me... sorry im going on a bit huh" i felt my face redden.

logan laughed

"no your fine. in LA everything is a drama"

i laughed this time

"your telling me" i replied

logan looked puzzled,

"you will get used to it" logan laughed.

amberleigh grabbed me, and dragged me away to dance.

"are you coming?" i shouted to logan still determined to make something of this shitty night.

logan smiled and followed amberleigh and i to the dance floor. it seemed that amberleigh had taken a shining to shawn. i had never seen him before but amberleigh told me he was in the big time rush band.
he was very funny and had amberleigh cackling away with her awful laugh. it became a bit of a joke in the end. shawn would make her laugh and then the rest of us would be in hysterics just listening to her.

we went back over to james, he handed me my drink.

"sorry about tonight its a bit of a mess up" he confessed

"its fine" i lied. it couldnt of been more a mess if i tried. but none of it was to do with james.

my phone began to ring in my purse

"excuse me" i said to james as i pulled the phone out and walked out the club to answer it.

"hello?"

"paisley its kendall. i tried talking to her but she wont let me. im going out my mind. i didnt know what to do, so im calling you... im sorry!"

surprise and shock swam over me. i wasnt expecting he would call at all let alone this soon.

"hi... kendall. um... what did you wanna do? you wanna meet up for a coffee and chat? i meant what i said if you need someone to listen?"

"really? i just need to... well i dont even know what i need"

"kendall its fine! did you want me to meet you somewhere?"

"no i will pick you up in a minute. out side the club?"

"yeh sure but what about james?... i mean you just said your ill, what if he..."

"I dont care about james. i couldnt care less what he thinks any more"

" ok. take it easy okay. see you in a..."

the line went dead.

well who says chivalry is dead? bloody kendall, why do i always pick the demented guys?

i went to go inside to tell every one i was leaving, i passed james on my way back in. he was on the phone too. logan offered me a lift back to the hotel i just told him i was meeting a friend. then i went back to the entrance of the club, dreading bumping in to james and trying to explain things if he saw me get in to kendalls car but he had disapeard.

i waited out side for kendall to pull up, he only took a few minutes to arrive. he must of drove like lightening to get here so fast

i got in, and he drove off before i could even buckle my belt, we didnt talk inside the car, he drove to some modern looking town house, i presumed it was his. he got out the car and i followed him.
Kendall opened the door to his home and I followed him in. From the lights on in his house I could see he had been crying.

He slumped down on to one of his sofas. He beckoned an arm out for me to take a seat. I perched on the edge of one next to him.

After a few moments of silence, I decided I would speak.
He didn't look like he was going to do anything. He just sat there slouched in his seat.

"Kendall honey, what's going through your head?" I reached a hand out to offer as kindness but he moved his away from me.

He didn't say anything.

"Kendall, are you okay?" I hardly knew the guy but I'm pretty sure he wasn't normally like this.

In the restaurant he seemed bubbly and bright and he made me feel special.

Still he didn't say anything.

"kendall if you want me to leave?"
Still no response, not even a blink. He just sat there.

I got up and went in to the kitchen, I filled a glass that I found on the drainer up with water then walked it back out to kendall and put it on the glass coffee table that was in front of him.

I walked to the front door.

"Please... don't go" kendall finally said.

I sat back down on the edge of the sofa.

"Kendall what's happened tonight?"

"I tried to talk to her. Just to explain the things in my head... but all she cares about is him" he took a sip from the water.

"Well why don't you try explaining things to me?" I asked.
"Kendall are you still in love with sheriden?" He seemed so Hung up on her.

"No... I hate her. I want to make her life a misery for making mine one" he started crying.

"Kendall its good to get it all out. Why do you hate her. I don't really know what went on. I only know what was in the papers, that's all anyone knows" I tried his hand again. This time he let me squeeze it.

"What is it that you know? What do the public know?" He looked at me with his piercing green eyes that were now blood shot from crying.

"You and sheriden dated for a few weeks. You had a one night stand in Canada and she left you. Then she had the crash with James and the rest is history"

Kendall laughed bitterly.

"Paisley if I tell you something do you promise to not tell anyone!"

"Sure. you can trust me kendall... Promise me something though?"

"What's that?"

"You wont tell my boyfriend about us... you know. He is coming to visit me soon"

"I promise. It's a deal"

"So what is it that's on your mind?"

"I loved sheriden for months... you know before we got together. I was so happy when it happened. We were so full on. I loved it all."

"The start of a relationship is always amazing" I smiled at him.
He continued.
"James was always about you know. I got worried and started seeing things that she still swears to this day didn't happen. But i thought they were doing it, and I just snapped you know. I wanted to hurt her"

"Is that why you had that fling with the blonde in the paper?"

"I didn't mean to have sex. I just wanted her to see what it felt like to see me all over someone else, and say we just friends"

My mind flashed back to the nights events of kendall and I having sex and the look on his face as sheriden saw him.

"Kendall its okay. It was just a mistake in life. You will move on."

"It gets worse... But please keep your promise" I nodded that i would.

" when I got back from Canada she told me its over but she was having my baby"

Oh god. I didn't see this coming.

"Kendall if she got rid of it just despite you then..."
He interrupted me.

" .. We kind of called it a truce but she went on this stupid break with James and when she got back i said I didn't want either of them. Her or the baby. I went home to Kansas then next thing I know, I see them getting cut out of a car on the news and she's lost the baby and i realise that I had lost her to James."

"Oh kendall. I'm so sorry, I had no idea"

"No one does apart from me, her, James and Carlos. But I can't talk to them. She is never away from James, and Carlos is all team sheriden"

"Kendall what your feeling is natural. It's just a coping mechanism in your head. You will get over this. I promise."

Kendall got up and pulled me to my feet. He held my hand and led me upstairs to his room.
My mind boggled. Surely he knows I'm not doing this again.
He opened the draw on his bedside cabinet and pulled out a picture.
It was a baby from an ultra sound scan.

"He was a boy. Should be around 11 months now." he handed me the picture

I sat on the bed and looked at the little baby that lay in my hands.

"Kendall can I tell you a secret?" i stared at the picture as i spoke.

"Sure"

"When I was 15 I got pregnant. I wanted to keep it but my mother talked me in to having an abortion. Its my biggest regret. I would of made a great mom"

Kendall sat on the bed next to me. We sat in silence til I took it upon my self to put the picture safely back away.

"Paisley how did you cope?"

"I didn't... i went off track you know. I met Ryan a year later and moved in with him. I put my mind on singing and making it big to make myself forget."

"So im gonna feel what I feel forever? kendall looked at the floor as he spoke

"Kendall what do you feel?"

"Guilt" he replied

"Kendall I believe everything happens for a reason, and its that reason that makes us better people. It might take a while to feel that way but it will come... it came for sheriden."

"What do you mean?" his face looked annoyed that i had made sheriden out to be a good guy.

"Well she breaks her back, had a boyfriend die, lost you, lost a baby but she came out the other end fighting and has found true love." i paused to look at him and gave his hand another light squeeze.
"Kendall you have an entire life ahead of you. It doesn't end at Sheriden Lloyd"

Kendall smiled.
"how do you know so much about her?" kendall asked

"kacey... and google" i laughed.

he nodded in response.

"Your right. It's just hard to think everything will be okay when I feel this shit inside, you know." kendall put his head in his hands as he spoke.

"I do know. Yeah, but it will be. You just need to move on"

I rubbed my eyes. It had been a long day.

"Cmon il take you back to the hotel" kendall stood up. and ushered me out of his room.

The drive back was silent again. I think we both had a lot to think about.

Kendall walked me back up to the 5th floor. I think he realised that i too now wanted to make some pain go away.

I opened my room door up.
Kacey was zonked out where I left her. Fully clothed on her bed.

"Thanks for walking me up" I said.

" thanks for being a good listener... and talker" he replied

I gave him a hug. eyed kacey up to make sure she was fully unconcious.

"... Kendall have you ever thought that sheriden is hurting just as bad as you about your baby?"

"I used to. But now i just think she is glad so she could end up with amazing James. Sometimes I even wonder if James planned it all so he could make sure he ended up with her"

i shook my head to disagree.
"Maybe you should arrange a couple of counselling sessions. Thinking like that is not great is it?"

"yeah I know its not true but..."

Kacey moved around on her bed cutting our conversation short.

"Look I best get going. Thanks for this evening and I'm sorry about earlier" kendall gave me an embarrassed look at the thought of our steamy sex session.

"It's cool"

I gave kendall another hug and he left.

I was so tired. I just did a kacey and crawled in to bed still dressed.