paisleys story
amberleigh still wasnt back in the hotel. i picked up the remainders of my phone. hopefully the sim would be okay, it looked unscathed.
i wrote a note to amberleigh just incase. i said ive gone home and i will be in touch
i grabbed my things and went out to kendalls car.
to start off with the atmosphere inside the car could be cut with a knife. kendalls troubles still seemed to out weigh my own.
"we have done everything in our power to make things right. everything else is in gods hands now kendall" more words of wisdom came from me in the hope i could snap kendall out of his depression.
"i know pais... i know" he gave me in return.
i flicked through some of his cd's he had in the disc changer, i came across the red hot chilli peppers. and sang my heart out. eventually kendall joined in. we had fun doing that. often we would end up in giggles for not knowing the correct lyric to the song.
"you are an amazing singer pais" kendall complimented me
"not so bad yourself" i gave him a nudge and a smile.
"so why dont you get on with your mom?" he asked
"boyfriends and drinking come first to her" i looked out my window at the scenery as i spoke.
"sorry to hear that!" kendall gave me a side ways glance.
"ah it happenes huh" i shrugged my shoulders.
"yeah i guess it does. what are you going to do when you get home then, any ideas?" kendall tried to lift the mood.
"well i used to life guard at my local pool. used to coach the kids in swimming too, i will probably go and visit my agent. try something different to kandi teaze" i smiled at the memorys of my easier life i had left behind.
"swimming huh? thats cool" kendall returned my smile
"what about you, what will you do?" i asked him.
"i have no idea... im under contract with big time rush for another 5 months. i cant really see it going any further than that now. too much water under the bridge" he raised his eyebrows as he decided the fate of his beloved band.
"well when one door closes another opens, isnt that what they say?" i tried to cheer him up.
"yup thats what im told. its been fun though, i love all those guys... even james" he laughed at himself.
"he is hot though right" i laughed at my own joke and kendall nudged me in the ribs with a smile on his face.
"you know what pais... i feel ive known you forever. i think your the best mistake ive made in the last few days. you make it all worthwhile" he glanced at me again and gave a smile as he drove.
"everything happens for a reason remember" i replied.
i could feel kendalls eyes on me again even though i wasnt looking at him.
we hadnt talked about our random sex session since the night it had happened.
"i am sorry for... " he couldnt think of a polite word
"seducing me" i offered with a smile.
"seducing, yes. well i am sorry for that" his faced flushed a little.
"its okay... it was... good" i laughed then looked out the window with a silly grin on my face in the hope he couldnt see it.
"good huh? ... well thats better than nothing" he laughed this time.
"do you think ryan will forgive you" kendalls tone changed back to serious.
"i doubt it" i rolled my eyes at the thought of seeing ryan again.
"what did he mean by i wasnt the first to end up being hit?" kendall slowed the car for a red light.
"he... thinks i mess him about. but i dont. you were the third guy ive ever... you know, done it with" i blushed at my confession.
"was ryan not the father of your baby then?" kendall looked at me as we waited for the green light.
"no... i used to see this guy from school. but after the abortion it kind of scared me to have sex. it took me a while to get it on with ryan" as i spoke i looked kendall in the eye. it was really easy to talk to him.
"what about you" i added "you must be in the hundreds or thousands by now?" i joked
"what notches on my bed post?" he grinned.
"yeah?" i smiled back, the light turned green and kendall put the car in motion.
"hardly" he laughed "i do believe you are number 4"
"4? your lying kendall"
kendall laughed. "honestly! i had my first proper girlfriend when i was 17, i was with her til i was 20. then of course sheriden, i wouldnt really count the girl in vancouver but it happened so i guess i have to, then you" he made his case clear.
"so how come you dont want to count the canadian girl but you count me?" i asked puzzled.
kendall thought for a minute.
"i wasnt drunk when we did it. i wanted to" was his reply
"just to annoy sheriden? like the canadian one though?" i retorted, my voice semi comical.
"no. your hot pais... check you out!" he laughed "even in the restaurant that night i thought about what you might... be like" kendalls face went bright red.
so did mine.
"so you do like me... did like me?" i asked.
"course" he smiled.
"so you have any decent cheesy songs in here we can sing along too?" i changed the subject.
"here you go" he handed me his phone. " the usb is in the glove box... all the cheese your heart desires on that" he laughed again.
i plugged his iphone in to the car stereo. some of his music he had on here was awful. i came across some eminem, we rapped out the bits we knew. it was funny. nice to relax in a good environment for a change. the last few days had been so shit.
"kendall?"
"yup?" he replied nodding his head along to the beat of the music.
"do you feel relieved in a way that all your baby news came out? i mean you can talk about it til your blue in the face now" i looked out my passenger window.
"yeah. i had an awkward chat with my mom the other day though. she was fuming that i hadnt told her" kendall smiled as he said it.
"why so funny?" i asked.
"my mom hated sheriden. she said she would ruin me. always listen to your mother huh!" he laughed
"why did she hate her?"
"she said she was too famous, too old, and too... damaged. i think is the polite way to put it" kendall still had the odd grin on his face.
"do you think it will be easy to not see her anymore?" i asked cautiously.
kendall smiled "yeah shouldnt be too bad, after all, the trips to reno will keep me busy" he winked at me.
i shook my head and smiled.
"i wanna get back to how i used to be you know pais'... i used to be so carefree, but then life grabs you by the balls and sucks you in" the smile on his face faded.
"yeah i know what you mean" i agreed.
i searched for more songs through the iphone.
"really?" i mocked as the spice girls came on.
kendall burst out laughing.
"so you still want pizza?" he asked.
"yeh i sure do" i rubbed my hungry tummy
"and what about the sleazy motel and booze?" kendall smiled
i laughed out loud
"whats so funny?" kendall mused.
"kendall i didnt say sleazy motel, i said shitty motel" i smiled at him as his face flushed red at his mistake.
"you know what i meant" he chuckled.
"and its a good job i do" i giggled
he laughed to himself.
"pais?" kendall drew my name out
"yeh?" i turned to look at him, he had a smile on his face still.
"you wont go to the papers and tell them i bought you booze will you?" he chuckled
"your an idiot" i smiled back at him.
we came across a ton of sleazy motels much to kendalls amusement but we finally settled on one that was mid range. it was still awful, i would think kendall had never been in such a terrible room, even before he found fame.
the room had two grotty looking beds that had been pushed together, the ceiling looked like once it may have been white, but it definatly wasnt now. the curtains where yellowed and torn.
we looked at each other and laughed.
"what do you want on the pizza" kendall asked
"everything. im sooo hungry" i replied.
"okay cool, a girl after my own heart" he smiled "you still want drinks pais?" he squinted his eyes at me.
"yeh i do" i smiled at him.
"okay cool, well i will be back in a while. you er... " he looked around the horrid room again "make yourself at home" he winked at me and left the room.
i lay on the bed and looked up to the stained ceiling. well pais your definately back in reality i thought to myself.
the drive up here had been great though. i really did like kendall. maybe if things had of been different then we may of got together somewhere down the line.
kendall was right. life did suck you in. i didnt think i would be crawling out of what i had been sucked in to anytime soon.
i was determined to enjoy my last night of the celebrity life with my famous roomy.
its such a shame he is so broken.
kendall was amazing. and gorgeous, even with his bruised face.
i decided to have a shower and get in my pyjamas to avoid any awkwardness later.
the shower was... well, shit, it was more of a dribble than a shower. never the less i still had a good sing along and lathered my self up.
"pais?" i heard kendall call.
"yeah? im in the shower"
"okay. well pizza and ... refreshments are back" i heard him have a little chuckle.
"okay il be right out" i called.
as i stepped out the shower i must of tripped over the ledge, but i ended up as a heap on the floor.
kendall opened the door
"shit! you okay?" he asked trying not to look at my nakedness
"erm yeah i think so. i tripped" i blushed, and kendall offered me my towel.
"your head is bleeding pais" kendall pointed to where he could see a small cut.
i wrapped myself up in the towel and looked at my head in the mirror
"fuck sake" i scorned myself.
"come here, ill do it" kendall pulled me out of the bathroom and sat me on the bed.
he went out side our room, i heard his car open and close then he came back in brandishing a first aid kit.
"here you go" he said with a smile.
kendall cleaned the cut with a sterile wipe. it stang and i winced at him.
"sorry" he said "its only tiny, i think you will survive" he gave me a smile.
"thanks" i said
sitting next to kendall on that bed like that with his face so close to mine, only one natural action occured to me.
i really wanted to kiss him.
but only one natural action occured to kendall too.
"pizza time" he announced
he smiled. the look on my face must of given me away.
"come on pais get dressed" he winked again at me,
i went back in to the bathroom where my pyjamas were and changed in to them.
"well i got a huge pizza with pretty much everything on it, and i got some vodka and a bottle of coke" i could hear the grin in his voice all the way from the bathroom.
i walked back in to where he had laid the food out. kendall was pouring us both what looked like a triple vodka and coke.
"you did well on your shopping spree then" i mocked him "are you trying to get me drunk on the first drink?"
"why would i want to do that?" he asked with a grin i had seen before.
i sat next to him on the bed
"kendall... ive got a problem..." my voice serious now.
"whats up?" kendalls tone now matched my own
"if i drink that then there is a very high possibility i will try and fuck you tonight" my eyes squinted at my vulgar phrasing.
"and if you dont drink it?" kendall replied, a small smile danced on his lips.
"i think, then that i will try... and make love to you" i just sat there and wished the world to swallow me whole again.
kendall stared at me, all traces of the smile had vanished. had i overstepped the mark of honesty? i should of just kept my mouth shut.
"well pais i guess theres only one thing to do then huh" kendall said seriously.
"whats that?" i whispered
"not to drink it" he replied then leaned in to kiss me.
i welcomed his lips on mine, i had forgotton how soft they felt. i folded my arms around his neck, he felt strong. i layed down and pulled him with me. we kissed for ages. it was beautiful.
he was so different to the time he ravished me in my hotel room. this kendall that was kissing me now was caring, and good.
"pais?" kendall pulled away from our kiss "i really like you okay, im not doing this for any other reason" his honesty was welcomed just as much as his kiss.
"i know" i replied then pulled him down for another kiss.
i freed myself from kendalls kisses briefly enough to undress. i was kneeling on the bed beside him. he liked what he saw. his large soft hands carressed my breasts. it felt nice. he wasnt rushing me. i was so glad i told him my fears over sex on the way up here.
i pulled at the belt on his jeans and then slid it out before undoing his fly and releasing his erection in to the room. i kissed his chest, remembering the last time how he had pleasured me with his tongue.
i worked my kisses down lower. i teased him with my tongue, running it down his length. i felt my insides moisten. kendall gave out a small moan of pleasure. i loved his noises that he made, they were raw and from deep inside him.
kendall swept his fingers across my thigh as i pleasured him, i could feel his fingers run across my clitorous. my heart pounded.
kendall pulled me away gently from him and laid me down on the bed, my damp hair gave off the smell of my floral shampoo i had just used. kendall swept my hair back from my face and kissed me before taking his shirt off and freeing himself of his jeans.
his hands cupped one of my breasts as he guided it in to his mouth.
it felt so good, shivers ran down my spine.
i pulled him nearer to me, i wanted him now. right this minute. he entered me with ease. the feel of him penetrating me was even more delicious than the last time, slow and seductive was definately for me. i could feel every inch of him move inside me.
i could feel my orgasm building up. kendall smiled then pulled himself from me. my body was so close to releasing the pleasure he was inflicting on me, but kendall hadnt finished yet. he kissed my neck, and ran his fingers down my spine. being very careful not to put his tip near me. the thought of it turned me on even more.
his kisses travelled down my side. he carefully turned me over, i was now on my knees. and he was behind me, kendall ran his fingers over my cliterous again, he slipped a finger inside me, gently massaging me with more pleasure.
he loved the way i felt, he loved touching me. he felt my breasts with his other hand before removing his fingers from inside me. he then entered me again from behind. this time the feeling was more intense. feeling his body move against mine, and hearing his noises filled with pleasure almost sent me to seventh heaven but kendall still wasnt done.
there was no way i was believing him on being his number 4. he was a sex god, i had decided that for certain.
kendall turned me again on my back. he smiled at me. never before had i felt so much love and care come out from someone when i had slept with them.
his soul goal was to pleasure me, he loved it. he enjoyed exploring my body and hearing my pleasure escape from my mouth.
he was on top of me again and was inside me moving slowly. he was close now, i could tell. i let my body relax in the knowledge that soon kendall would send me away to bliss. and soon enough it came.
kendall had a shower and i got in to bed, picking at the pizza while i waited for him. i hoped to god that he would still be in the same mood when he came out and not change like he did in my hotel room just a few nights ago.
he came in to the room donning just a pair of boxers. he looked hot.
he crawled on to the bed and settled down under the covers with me.
i looked at him. trying to fathom out his mood.
"pais, this is no good" he finally said
i looked at him. eyes wide and fear began to sink in.
"the pizza is cold" he finished with a smile.
i shook my head then gave him a hard nudge in the ribs.
"dont do that" i moaned "i thought you had gone all odd again then"
he laughed and we ate pizza in bed til we couldnt move.
"im never eating again" i joked
"thats good saves me money on oversized pizzas in the future then!" kendall chuckled.
"kendall is this just a one off?" my voice whispered the words out.
he looked at me and pulled me in to his arms then kissed my forehead.
"i dont want it to be pais" he answered.
"reno is a long way away" he added.
"yup" i agreed.
"i will sort something out pais" .
"what do you mean?" i asked
he sighed. "im not sure yet but i will, i promise you"
"pais can i ask you something a bit personal?" he smiled again.
"course, anything?" i replied.
"there not real are they?" his grin widened.
i guessed he was talking about my boobs. "no they are not real. but they are big" i confessed. "you not like fakes?"
"i like them" he laughed.
i shook my head at his now caveman like conversation.
"you wanna drink this vodka with me then?" i asked him
"sure why not?" he smiled.
the evening mostly consisted of me and kendall doing karioke to the songs on his iphone. i enjoyed every second. it was fun. he was fun. i hoped that this was the kendall he used to be, and i was helping him to be it again. i fell to sleep in his arms. trying my hardest to stay awake to make the night last longer.