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"Sometimes I wish I never was Kira!"

That statement hurt L deeply. Not because of what Kira was doing to Light. He wasn't as hateful towards Kira as Light was. They met while he was Kira, and while he does hate him. There was just something that made it impossible for him to fully hate him. Now he knew what it was.

It was Light.

He couldn't fully hate Kira because Kira was still apart of Light in some way…

L got up and let Light and Ryuk talk. Though Light called for him, L started walking down stairs.

Matt was sitting up on Mello's lap straddling his hips in the process. "You need to lighten up Mells… Oh hey L!" Matt waved at L who simply nodded. "Is Light up?" L nodded. "Why do you seem so sad then?" L shook his head and walked into the kitchen.

Matt and Mello exchanged worried looks and ran into the kitchen. "What's wrong, L?" Mello asked as L got out a few cooking utensils.

"It's nothing that should concern you," L said quickly to avoid the two boys.

"C'mon. What kind of BS answer is that?"

L scowled at Mello then sighed knowing he wouldn't win this battle. "It's Light…"

"Well we kind of figured that…"

L sighed yet again, "I don't know what to do."

"That's a first." Matt said helping L crack a few eggs. "What happened?"

"Kira's kind of… annoying him."

"Oh so that's what the night mare was?"

L nodded.

"Well what's the problem?" Mello asked. "Light's always been annoyed by Kira."

"… It seems that Light wants Kira gone."

"What do you mean? So He wants Kira to die. Big deal! Don't we all?"

"Mello," Matt scolded shaking his head.

"I want to help him but… I don't know how."

"We'll help you L," Matt said placing a hand on L's shoulder, "right Mello?"

"Course," Mello smiled. "What are you doing anyway?"

L looked down "… I was making breakfast…"

"What are you making?"

"Pancakes."

"Since when did pancakes have celery in them… or flowers?" Mello gave him a look of disgust. "It's a sad day when L himself doesn't know how to make cake properly."

"It might not be that bad," Matt looked at the mixture, "as long as there's no dirt in it." Green stalks stuck out of the top of the bowl and little specks of purple were scattered through the batter. "…Where'd you get flowers from anyway?"

L shrugged before he threw the batter in the trash. "Can I do anything right?"

"Stop being so hard on yourself," Mello comforted. "I'm sure the flowers would have been wonderful."

"It's not about the flowers…" L muttered sadly before throwing the bowl into the sink and walking out of the room.

Matt frowned at Mello who ran out of the room to see L sit on the couch. "I've never seen you this upset, L…" Matt sat beside him shaking his shoulder slightly. "You can talk to us. We should at least plan something."

"It's not that simple Mello. We're messing with the laws of God."

Mello froze clutching his rosary. "Wh-why would this mess with any l-laws?"

"Because we're cheating death if we do anything and if we don't Light might kill himself…"

"L!" Matt stomped over to him, "What would make—how can you say something so terrible?"

"Because it's true," L said emotionlessly. "I don't think you should involve yourself because if I miscalculate in any way… I could die."

Mello wasn't going to take this, "B-but you can't die! Y-you just can't!" Mello was attached to L in so many ways. In some way L could be like his father or older brother. He looked up to L.

L turned and said formally, "We can't live forever, Mello."

Mello sank back on the couch. He knew this was true, but something inside of him wanted to scream "LIAR!" at him. Matt ran over to Mello and wrapped his arms around him. He knew what Mello was going through. That statement was like a good slap in the face. Fast and to the point.

"But… but…" Mello whispered staring dumbfounded at L.

Matt scowled both of them, "We're not gonna get anything done if we just make each other feel bad. Now stop acting like children. L, you shouldn't be putting Mello down. He's only trying to help. Mello, you should try to act respectful to L. He's your elder, after all. I don't want to hear you two fight anymore. We've got enough drama going on!"

L settled back looking bored. Mello scowled slightly and crossed his arms.

"L… you know we'll help you with anything you need to do. Even at the risk of our very lives." Matt gave L a half smile.

L nodded, but didn't say anything.

"Ryuzaki…" Everyone turned and saw Light limping down the stairs rubbing his eyes. Only L saw Ryuk behind him. "Ryuzaki why'd you leave like that? I was trying to tell you tha—" Light paused taking the whole scene in.

There was Matt and Mello sitting on the couch beside L. Light scanned himself. He knew he looked pretty rough. His hair was messy and matted and his eyes sagged sleepily. On top of all that, he was naked… well not completely naked, but he was wrapped in a blanket without clothes on. He was too lazy and sore to think about getting dressed. However, seeing Matt and Mello there made him feel uneasy. Especially since Ryuk started chuckling behind him.

"Oh… Matt… Mello… what are you doing here?"

Matt and Mello scanned Light critically then gave each other knowing looks. Mello smirked slightly and Matt frowned. They turned to L raising their eyebrows.

L sighed rolling his eyes at the two males. "Go back upstairs, Light. I'll come back in just a moment."

Light chewed on the bottom of his lip but nodded. He turned and quickly left the room. Ryuk stared at them chuckling at L, who was the only one who could see him. "So, how's it been, L?"

L scowled. It seemed like the shinigami knew what he was thinking. Almost as if he knew what his plan was. L took out the note book and motioned it to Matt and Mello. "Touch it."

Matt and Mello looked curiously and touched the black notebook. Matt and Mello's eyes widened ever so slightly. Matt looked appalled by the creature. He was intrigued and slight shocked at the shinigami that was now before him. Mello's eyes danced along Ryuk's body curiously. He wasn't exactly scared just interested. He'd forgotten his workings with the shinigami Sidoh, so this was the first time he'd laid eyes that type of creature.

L placed the notebook that in his lap. "This is just so that if I do happen to talk to you, shinigami, they'll be able to know who I'm speaking to."

Ryuk's smile widened, "I would think you'd have other plans with that type of knowledge." He chuckled sinisterly.

L pondered just how much Ryuk knew about his planning. He'd thought of a plan to stop Light from being Kira and purging the world of all the notebooks. However, he was considering the risks and if Ryuk knew of even one of those risks… He'd be in big trouble.

Ryuk stopped chuckling for only a moment, "You're probably curious as to how I know so much. L, I know you're smart and it's obvious that you want to help Light." L cursed himself, but he knew those were obvious truths. "And I also know that your intellect is on the same level, if not higher, than Light's… So it's pretty simple. I am a God of Death. Therefore, I know all."

L hated the way he strained the word 'god'. He knew that was a term used with Shinigami, but he was certain Shinigami couldn't determine the future. Otherwise, Ryuk would be very bored, so with that last line L knew Ryuk was bluffing.

"I doubt you have to worry about me," L said. "I wouldn't dream of challenging my life in a battle with a shinigami." L knew that was a lie. He'd challenged his life every day. Why should today be any different?

Ryuk chuckled again, "Well I suppose I should leave you to your visitors…" He turned and ascended up the staircase.

When they were certain Ryuk was gone Matt and Mello turned to L. "What was that about?" Mello asked.

L sighed, "I think he knows what I've been planning."

"What have you been planning?" Matt inquired sitting on the edge of the couch.

"It was just something I thought would help Light destroy his Kira half…"

"Well tell us!" Matt chimed.

"Yeah. We'll help you," Mello nodded.

L shook his head, "I don't want to put your lives at jeopardy—"

"Damn it L! Just tell us what to do and we'll help you!" Mello yelled. "You know either one of us is willing to give up our lives for you, so tell us."

Matt nodded, "He has a point you know. We all have been willing to die for you up till this point."

L frowned, sighed then nodded. "Well I want to kelp Light. I know he doesn't want to have anything to do with Kira anymore. He loathes Kira with all his being."

"Well that's kind of obvious," Mello muttered.

"Even when Light lost his memory Kira remained on this earth. Do you know why?" Matt and Mello shook their heads. L held up the Death Note, "Because this was still here."

"The notebook?" Matt questioned, "But even if the notebook was still left in the world. Light relinquished ownership."

L shook his head, "He never relinquished ownership. I forced him to forget when I burned the notebook." L looked at the Death Note. "Now I know how to make things right."

"What are we going to do?" Mello asked finally getting into the conversation.

L ignored the 'we' comment and continued. "There are officially two notebooks in the human world. Those two notebooks have to be destroyed so that Light can be saved and to reassure that no one else gets involved with these notebooks." L gave them a grim look, "We have to destroy those notebooks to achieve this."

Mello and Matt nodded. "Okay so the first notebook is in your lap, correct," Matt asked and L nodded, "so where is the other one?"

"Attached to Ryuk's belt…" L replied emotionlessly.

TBC

GOMEN! (sorry)

I had a complete and total mind block. I'm sorry! lolz so I uploaded today because I remembered what I wanted to do. Yep hope you enjoyed! Thank you for all the reviews and I hoped all of you enjoyed your Christmas... well, if you celebrate Christmas ;) hoping to post soon!