Sheridens story

As I watched James running after the dogs in his garden I tried to sort out some things for the charity gala.
Most of it was taken care of music, auction, dinner etc... but a few items had to be addressed by me, I also needed to book another artist in to replace kandy teaze.

James hadn't given me the I told you speach yet about how he knew kacey was a huge risk.
But I knew once he knew I was completly better he would be piling it on me thick.

He came and sat next to me on the patio table.
He was laughing at fox his little puppy.
"Any luck yet?" He questioned my band finding.

"No not yet. I'm waiting for a couple of calls back" I rested my head on his shoulder.

James nudged me and pointed his head towards fox, I looked up. Fox was now covered in green slime from the pond.

I laughed "he is your baby, you can hose him down"

"Yeah he is" James smiled "...sheriden... you know what you said about a million kids the other day?" He added.

I looked at him from my resting point on his shoulder."yes... what about it?"

"Well do you think we actually will... I mean we know what's coming now dont we, with your back. You really want to go through all that pain again?"

I sat up properly and looked James in the eye.
"I do want children... I do. I'm not prepared to let my stupid back take that away from me"

James kissed me.

"Are you wanting to go through it all with me?" I asked James.

"For you sheriden, I would do anything. Even if it meant running you hot baths every hour for 9 months" I laughed at James.

"I love you maslow" I whispered.

"Hey one day you will be maslow" he smirked at his words.

"not marrying you James!" I joked.

I was getting cold, I ran my hands across my arms. i had goose bumps.

"You want a sweater Sheri?" James asked.

"No I'm gonna go in, my head feels a bit light... who says fresh air is good for you huh?" I rolled my eyes.

James smiled and gave me another kiss.
"Okay baby, I'm going to wash the incredible hulk clean, and be inside in a bit"

I got up but just as I was on my feet James grabbed my arm and pulled me down on to his lap.
"I will make you mine Lloyd" he said with a smile.
He made my heart ache so much.

We kissed slowly. James' arms wrapped around me. He kept me warmer than any jumper in the world.
I love him so much.

I heard the door bell sing from inside.
"Eurgh, bad timing" James said pulling his lips from mine.

I smiled, feeling James' hardness digging in to me.

"Its probably Logan, you clean the hulk, I'll get the door"

I climbed off of James' lap and walked through the house to the front door.
I opened it up to see kendall stood before me.

"Oh. sheriden!?... hi. I didn't think you would be here?"

"Where the hell have you been! Everyone has been trying to get hold of you"

Kendall looked past me and ignored my moans.

"Um... is James about? I need to talk to him"

"Come in" I opened up the door further to allow kendall in to James lounge.
"He is washing fox down... kendall I had a letter from my lawyer this morning asking to jump on board of this case with you" as I spoke kendall wondered around the room pretending to be interested in the art on the walls

"Uh huh" he replied to me.

"Well did you want me to?" I snapped now.

"Do what you want sheriden"

"Have I done something to annoy you kendall?"

He ignored me and walked through to the kitchen.

"Kendall?"

Again he ignored me.
"Kendall you can't come inside my house and treat me like shit" James walked in the kitchen from the garden but kendall didn't see him.

"It's not your house though, I came to talk to James. Kendall hissed at me.

"Sheriden lives here now"

kendall turned around to see James.

"We have moved in together kendall" James carried on "sheriden still isn't 100% so if you have come here to make life difficult then I would like you to leave"

"I didn't come here to make anything difficult, I didn't know she was going to be here" kendall spoke to James.

"Kendall why am I she now?" His petty attitude was pissing me off. I walked right up to him so he could address me instead of going through James as a third party.

Kendall looked me straight in the eye.
"Personally sheriden I've had enough of your shit, and your face.

I slapped kendall hard round the face.
"Jesus!" He cried out as he held a hand to his already bruised cheek.

James stood in the same spot at the door looking at the floor with what looked like a smile on his face.

"I'm sorry okay. I just need some space from you shoo"

"Why what have I done? last time I saw you ,you told me you loved me, now this?" My voice was raised now. And my cold and shivers had returned with avengance. I wrapped my arms around my self and sat at the breakfast bar.

"I just ... blame myself. If I wasn't in your life then this shit wouldn't keep happening to you" he pulled up a stool.

"Is she okay?" Kendall asked James.

"Yeh, she has trouble controlling her body temperature, it will wear off" James replied and sat down on a stool himself.

"Can't you get her a sweater or something?" Kendall didn't like seeing me how I was.

"It will wear off" James simply said with a shrug.

"Christ!" Kendall took his jacket off and placed it over my shoulders.
Again I noticed James smile at his feet.

"So what did you want" James asked kendall.

"Um yeah... well, kandy teaze. we need to replace kacey. It can just carry on"

"Kendall kandy teaze is finished..." he cut me off.

"No its not, if we just got another member it can still work" his voice begged.

I had a feeling this had something to do with him and paisley.
"Kendall its not just kacey. Amberleigh has gone now too. James had lunch with her today and she decided that she wants to be more in a studio than on stage"

Kendall looked from me to James. In the hope that my words were lies.

"But she can't of left?" Kendall slumped in his seat.

"Kendall is this about paisley petrelli" James asked.

"She said she loved me... when I drove off. She just said it"
James and I looked at each other.

"Well... do you feel the same?" James asked him.

"How am I meant to know that. I'm still in love with your girlfriend" kendalls eyes pierced in to James.

James looked away.

"Kendall? sorry what's been happening between you two" I asked .

"We are seeing each other... sort of, its all bad timing shoo, my head is all over the fucking place"

"Kendall do you like her?" I asked.

"Yeah she is amazing, I do really like her" kendall looked to his hands." I need to get her back here... in LA"

"There isn't a band for her anymore bud'" James got up from his seat and walked out to the lounge returning with a blanket which he wrapped around me replacing kendalls jacket, then sat me on his lap with his arms around me on the bar stool that was next door to me.

Kendall hardly noticed all these goings on.

"You should see where she has to stay, its all my fault you know. And her mother... Jesus!" kendall put his head In his hands.

I gave James a squeeze. I didn't know what to say to kendall.

"... Well she is still only 19 kendall, she is a good singer, she will get her break" James reassured kendall.

"No she is giving up" kendall said."her voice is amazing, you should hear her... I mean really hear her".

"Kendall she is really good, I have heard her. But the band has gone" I patted kendalls shoulder.

James squeezed me this time. I looked up." Can I have a word" he whispered.

"'Scuse us for a sec'" James said as he popped me off if his lap and ushered me through the lounge and in to our bedroom.

"What?" I hushed

"Ask paisley to sing for your charity" James asked.

"What?, how will that Get people to donate money. She is a no one James. I don't mean to be harsh but this charity means the world to me" my whispers bit back at James.

"Sheri, trust me. You owe me big time for the kandy teaze fuck up. I will make it work. I've got an idea"

"What idea?" I hissed at him.

"That would be telling... do you trust me?"

"Of course I do babe but... Jesus . why is kendall doing this?"

"Maybe him and paisley have got something good?" James smiled.

"Yeah and maybe Logan was right, and kendall is rushing in to things again"

"... well so what if he is" James smiled.

I shook my head."James please don't fuck up my charity. I put a lot of work in to help peoples lives with that"

"Sheri i won't fuck it up. I promise" he pulled me back out to the kitchen.

Kendall was still sat at the breakfast bar.

I stayed standing but James sat next to kendall
"Right this is what we will try... get petrelli back here. If she is as good as you say she can be on her own, and if your wanting to risk it, so are Sheri and I on making paisley solo". James smiled at kendall " she will need to be here on Friday to sing for her life at Sheridens charity bash on saturday"

"You would both do this for her?" Kendall replied in astonishment.

"No I'm doing it because I've been told to, and James is doing it for you" I pulled the blanket tighter around me.

"Call her and see what she thinks" James nudged kendall.

"Yeah... yeah okay!" kendall pulled his phone out of his pocket.

Silence succombed the room as kendall waited for paisley to answer her phone.

"Pais', hey. Listen I've got some news. How does going solo sound? We are gonna sign you pais!..."

"What do you mean?"

"Course you can paisley. I told you. Your amazing" I looked at James. Hearing the one sided conversation from kendall it sounded like paisley had some confidence issues.
James just cocked his head and shrugged.

"No it will be fine" kendall continued."you need to get back here by Friday"

"Well I will pay for it?" Kendall was really agitated.

"What? Why?..."

"Well what does that mean?"

"Okay... yeah I know, but..."

Kendall looked up and took the phone from his ear.
"She Hung up... she was just about to talk to her... Ryan"

"kendall stop dicking about, go get the girl, and bring her back" James said flatly.

"I can't, I've got to see my solicitor... this kacey shit."

"Well I will drive down and get her" James concluded.

"What? No you won't James!" I argued.

James ignored me and walked with kendall towards the garden.

For fuck sake.
I shivered and walked through to the bedroom.
I got undressed and changed in to my night shirt and got in to bed.

I could hear voices in the next room. Kendall must be leaving.

James walked in. He took his shirt off and layed on top if the covers next to me.

"I'm not talking to you" I mumbled.

"Sheriden it will take one day to get her back here. It's not worth you getting upset over"

"James... why are you doing this, to force kendall in to a relationship?"

James laughed at me "no sheriden. I'm doing this because I wanted to start a record label. I listened to you, and I've listened to kendall. Now I want to listen to my self"

I turned to look at James.

"You can stay here and make sure that kacey gets what she deserves"

"I didn't think you wanted me to get involved?"

"I don't...really. but its the right thing to do. I'm going to drive up tomorrow. Kendall says she is meeting with her ex now, he thinks she will go back to him. Apparently her mum has a load of problems"

I snuggled in to James too tired and cold to argue. How I ever survived doing coke for all those years before I will never fathom out.

I fell to sleep in James arms but woke up just after Midnite. I layed there thinking about kendall and his latest problems.
Was I jelous he had found someone he was willing to risk so much on?

I got out of bed carefully so as not to wake up James and picked my lap top up from the sofa and sat in a stool at the breakfast bar.

I clicked on my personal photos and scrolled down to some I hadn't looked at in a long while.
One in paticular made me smile.

It was of me and kendall. It was taken at the beginning of our relationship. Kendall had his arm draped over me.
And I was as close to him as i physically could get.
Both of us smiling up at the camera. Kendall looked so... complete.
My heart ached away.

"Is there something I should be worrying about" James said from behind me.
I slammed the lap top shut.

"Shit, you scared me" I said, flustered.

James took the stool next to me and re opened the lap top.

"I'm sorry... I was just looking through them all..." I was rambling.

James looked at the photo of kendall and I.
"It's a good picture" he smiled at it.

"I'm sorry James" I felt ashamed.

"Hey Cmon" he put his arm round me."I was there remember, you two was all about each other... I can't expect you to not feel... anything"

"James its not that, its just... well I don't know what to feel"

"Sheriden I love you. So much I doubt you will ever even know. But I stand by what I said the day after you two got together. It was a mistake. You look happy in that" he pointed to the picture."but you look happy in these too" James scrolled the curser to some pictures of him and I before we dated and some after.

I smiled at the memories before james returned it back to kendall and i.

"Don't be guilty of your past sheriden. It made you and me who we are today"

" what the hell did i do right to get you James" James laughed at my honesty.

"I think its more what you did wrong Sheri"
i smiled and a few tears escaped my eyes.

He chuckled again.
"Come here soppy" and he pulled me in for a hug.
"I couldn't sleep myself actually" James confessed.

"Why not?" I asked wiping my face.

"I want to ask you something" James' voice was almost a whisper.

"It's not will you marry me before you go off on one" I shut my mouth.
"But would you consider buying a house together? This place really doesn't suit you Sheri"

"James I love this place. There is nothing wrong with it" I defended the gorgeous bungalow.

"My princess deserves a palace to live in. A fresh start for both of us. would you want to buy a home with me?" James held my hand on the breakfast table.

"Yes I definately would like that" I whispered through a few more escaped tears.

James kissed me.
"Cmon let's get back to bed" he ordered.

James left before 6am the next morning. The plan was to pick paisley up and hopefully get back before dark.
Kendall was under instruction that under no circumstances should I be left on my own for over a few hours.

I kissed James goodbye. I so needed him right now, not kendall.
Then he was off to reno. I felt lost.

After I got the ball rolling with my own solicitor on kaceys back I had kendall left over as my house guest.

It had been a long while since we had been alone together like this.
I felt uncomfortable.

"You can go you know, I don't need a baby sitter" I said to kendall as we both sat on the large L shaped sofa.

"I promised James I would stay til he got back" kendall insisted.

Silence filled the lounge.
"Did you want to watch a movie" I asked him.

He thought for a minute before replying to me.
"... shoo why did you do it?"

I looked at him for several seconds then shrugged.
"Jus' wanted the pain to go"

He nodded.
"You really moving in with James then?" Another question.

"Yeah... we are thinking about buying a place together, somewhere bigger... a family home. You know?" I wished I hadn't of said the last part of my sentance.

"Oh right... are you... now?" Kendall stumbled through his sentance lacking any grace.

"No. No I'm not ready for that yet... just getting set for the future... you know?"

Kendall nodded " so you and James are the real thing you think then?"

"I believe so, yes".

"Sheriden..." kendall lingered.

"Yeh?"

"James... and you are perfect. He is just the person you need" kendall gave a weak smile.

"Thank you" I returned with a weak smile of my own.

"So what has been going on with you and paisley" I grinned.

Kendall cracked a beautiful smile. The excitement in his eyes at the chance to talk about her.
"Well we agreed to take things slow. But she is... a lot of fun"

"And she told you she loves you?" I asked.

"Um... well yeah, I think so. She kind of mouthed it to me when I dropped her off"

I smiled " did you say it back?"

"No it shocked me to be honest. The thought hadn't even crossed my mind"

Kendall seemed very Hung up on paisley. It was nice to see.
Just before 1pm I recieved a call from James.
Reno wasn't going to plan.
He didn't go in to great detail. I got the impression some words had been said between James and the ex boyfriend.

James said there may be a slight problem but phone again shortly to let. me know.
I didn't tell kendall this yet. No point in making him upset.

Kendall made him and I some lunch. It was a beautiful day so we ate in the garden. It was gone 3 when I received the next call from James.

"Sheriden there is a small problem" James said down the phone.

I left kendall sat in the garden and walked in to the house.

"Oh James, if paisley doesn't want to come then sod ..." James cut in.

"No she is here. I've got her. It's the car... I'm fine. Don't worry about anything like that but the windscreen is... cracked. I can't drive with it like this, I found someplace to repair it but the screen won't get here til tomorrow. I won't be home tonight Sheri"

"What? James... you have to come back..."

"I'm sorry baby, I promise I will be home by this time tomorrow"

"How did it crack... the windscreen?" I asked.

"Um ... paisleys boyfriend took a dislike to me"

"What? Did he hit you?"

James laughed down the phone.
"Sheriden please" he chuckled again "I'm fine baby. Listen Logan is gonna be with you later tonight. Kendall can go home"

I've never seen James even slightly violent. I wondered what had happened between him and this Ryan person.
James worked out a lot, he was definetely capable of looking after him self.

"Ok... what time for Logan?"

"Bout 9, he is out of town til later"

"James I will be in bed by 9, I'm almost ready for bed now. Fucking comedown of this shit is a killer"

"Sheri shooting it up in the first place is a killer. Keep your phone on loud and Logan will call you when he is there. So you can still go to bed early" I could almost hear the smile in James' voice.

"Love you James. Call me later baby yeah?"

"Love you too Sheri. I will"

Great. Now I was doomed to spending the rest of the day with my ex, while my boyfriend spent the night with paisley petrelli somewhere in reno.
I knew that maserati would make problems. And here it is.

I walked back out to the garden.
"So they are staying in reno for the night" I sighed as I sat back down next to kendall.

"Really? Why?" Kendall asked.

"I think the masarati got a similar treatment as your face"

Kendall laughed "no fucking way"

"It's not funny. James could of got hurt"

Kendall pulled his phone out

"What are you doing now?" I asked him.

"Texting James, I want a picture of it"

I rolled my eyes. But felt fairly happy.
Finally witnessing kendall talking about James in a fun way.

kendalls cell vibrated and a big grin came over his face.

"how bad is it?" i asked

"im not sure yet he said look at twitter"

"i'll get my lap top.." i walked in to the kitchen to get my lap top. it opened up to the picture of kendall and i from last night.

"thats...weird" kendall added.

i blushed. "i was just looking through them last night thats all"

kendall didnt say a word.

i signed in to twitter and there it was

"jesus christ" i whispered. the windscreen was not just cracked. it was mostly shattered with a hole in it. paisley was sat on the bonnet of the masarati. she looked every inch a little rock star. the caption james had put with his photo simply read "watch out world paisley prince has arrived"

"prince? why prince?" i asked kendall.

"petrelli was like a stage name she was given, her surname is prince... i guess james is allready on the ball of making her a someone" kendall smiled at the picture.

"james is okay with this girl isnt he?" i eyed kendall

"you mean is paisley a slut?" kendall said flatly

i shrugged at kendall.

"sheriden, paisley has a few issues relationship wise, so im pretty safe in the knowledge that not even amazing james could crack that one"

"you did... after an hour!" i reminded him.

"yeah that was different" he protested.

"i wonder what james has got up his sleeve for this girl? did he say?"

"i think he wants her to do a small set with some big ballads too show off her voice and he toyed with the idea of a colabiration with us"

"thats a good idea, sounds like a you tube frenzy if its got you guys in it"

"yeah... she is amazing." kendall smiled away at the picture of paisley on the car.