Ooof, 10 pages, 3 days, can you guys believe it? to be a little more clear: Longest chapter of this story so far ^^ Now, I hope dearly that you guys will like this chapter, I myself am satisfied with how the whole thing turned out.
There's PruLiecht fluff, there's Poland, and there's Russia.
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The only sound in the room was the soft sobbing of a young lady.
Liechtenstein's head rested on Prussia's slowly rising and falling chest; she had calmed down a little with the feeling of his heartbeat underneath her.
They now lay on the bed in Lili's room, Gilbert holding his precious girl in his arms as she lay on him.
She had released all her feelings when he had wrapped his protecting arms around her and the negative energy, the fear and anger had flown out of her body slowly at the sound of his soothing, loving whispers.
"You're so brave, Lilichen, you're so strong and smart. Du bist meine Dame, now you have shown your true strenght and power, and you are the only Dame that can rule over me. I entrust myself with you, I know you are amazing, great, intelligent, and awesome. You have a great personality, and you're so caring and sweet."
She listened to every word carefully as he whispered slightly smothered, feeling his lips brushing against her golden locks.
His words were soft and adoring, calming and slowly spoken.
"Meine Dame, you are the best person in my life, you are the person I love the most and I will protect you the most, Liebling. I love you. You're a beautiful lady, a powerful mademoiselle; I love you because you're able to do anything. You show to be so much more then you look like, meine Dame. You're my everything."
Lili started crying harder and grabbed his shoulders to press her face into his neck as she chocked on her tears.
"Lilichen, are you okay?" he said and his tone was a bit louder, pain broke through his voice as he tenderly stroked her blonde hair.
"I'm so sorry, Lilichen, that I put you through this, I'm so sorry", he whispered and regret and self-hatred tortured him; how could he have allowed his girl to be mistreated so badly?
Liechtenstein lifted her head and looked in his eyes, her mint green eyes were swollen and her pretty little face soaked in tears, "Gilbert."
Her breath hit his face and his heart send a painful feeling through his body with every beat; in his eyes shimmered a glance of fear.
"Ich liebe dich", she said, "Gilbert, you are the greatest, the best, the most awesome knight. You're so kind, so gentle, you mean so much to me. Gilbert, ich liebe dich für immer."
They stared at each other and a tiny, nearly invisible tear escaped in the corner of Prussia's eye.
She was crying because his words had touched her heart; she loved him.
Liechtenstein loved it when she heard him saying her name, whether in a soft whisper or with a charming smirk, whether with surprise or with tears in his eyes, she loved it.
"Gilbert", she whispered, tasting his name on her lips.
And his lips met hers, in a butterfly kiss, and she tasted him in person, she felt his face close and his body heat warming her; she felt his energy through the tips of her fingers and his heartbeat near.
"I love hearing you say my name", Prussia muttered as he broke their kiss, their faces merely and inch apart.
He blushed furiously and she smiled warmly, "Ich liebe dich, Gilbert."
They stared in each other's eyes, stroking each others body lovingly; the time slowly crawled by, but right now time was a minor detail.
A shiver tiptoed over Lili's spine; they had both not changed clothing but had just entered the room and they had dropped themselves on the bed.
"Lilichen, you're so beautiful", he said and his eyes were so warm and loving, but she swallowed with a soar throat as she looked with disgust at herself.
"How can you say such thing, Gilbert? Don't lie to me, that is an order", she said and tears burned in her eyes.
But her knight chuckled softly, "Ja meine Dame, if that's your wish then I'll fulfil it. You are truly the most beautiful woman on the world."
"Prussia!" she hissed and tears filled her eyes; she straightened up and sat on his belly.
"Look at this!" she tried to keep her tears from falling as her fingers slid over her body, "scars, burns, bruises, fractures and more! I'm a wreck!"
Thick tears rolled down her cheeks, "Tell me the truth, Prussia! My body is ruined and so is my dignity, there is nothing beautiful about me!"
She chocked on her tears as she spoke and her hands trembled as they stroked over the many cuts, wounds, bruises, burns and others.
The arm that Russia had first grabbed in the hallways had been broken, luckily it didn't seem too bad and it even seemes like her body could handle it by itself.
"Meine Dame, you are deceived, not by your eyes but by your mind. Because you and I see the same, but we look differently. Where you, Lilichen, see blood, scars, failure, pain, humiliation and loss, I see something completely different. Meine Dame, in my eyes, you have stood up against a monster, you have spoken and defended yourself and others. You have risked more then only wounds and you have not given the beast what he wanted."
He looked in her eyes with awe, and she didn't dare to move as her ears and mind were caressed by his words.
"Lilichen, you have taken these injuries for others, you should carry them with pride! Liebling, you have been so brave, you have done that what so many would never have dared to do. I have so much respect for you know, my dear. These injuries show how great you are, they show that you have fought; but you must remember that while the scars show your battle, it is the smile and the vividness in your eyes that shows you have won."
They stared in each others eyes and she had stopped crying; the awe, the respect and love in his eyes made her heart skip a beat.
"I would never lie to meine tapfere Dame, ja?"
Lili was temporary not able to move; her mind raced through thoughts but the only thing she could clearly hear in her head were the words that had been spoken over Gilberts lips.
His hands tenderly caressed her damaged skin, "You are truly, the most beautiful, most awesome woman."
A smile cracked over her lips and tears spilled over her cheeks again, "Gilbert, I love you so much, Ich liebe dich!"
She sobbed loudly as she threw herself back in his arms; she couldn't understand how she could feel so disgusted with herself and just by listening to what he said, she would feel flattered, she would feel beautiful and great, because of what he said.
She listened to him, she believed what he said, he deserved to be listened to, and he deserved so much more.
But the thought of those cold hands on her chest send a streak of pain through her body.
Lili knew that Russia's touch was meaningless and that he had only meant to make her feel dirty; make her feel worthless and make her feel like she had lost her dignity and everything.
But that was also exactly how it had made her feel; and she felt the cold touch again on her breasts.
Defensively she held her hands against her chest to make the haunting feeling disappear; Prussia noticed and he felt a sick feeling over him as he thought back about that moment.
"I'm sorry", he whispered with suppressed his anger, "That should've never happened to you, meine Dame."
"You couldn't do anything back then, Liebling. But you can do something for me now", she looked at him with her lovely green eyes.
"Anything", he said seriously, and he played gently with strands of her hair while his crimson orbs stared deep into her forest green ones.
"Touch me", she muttered her fingers danced over his hand, "I want to feel the warmth of your hands to erase the feeling of coldness."
He blinked and slowly raised his hand to her chin; Prussia drew her face closer and they kissed passionately but still gentle.
His hands wandered over her body and she shivered at his touch, but not in fear; he was so warm, so tender.
The skin underneath Prussia's hands was cold and he took her in a warm hug; he wanted to be there for his lady.
He wanted to be her source of warmth amidst the cold, her shape of light in her darkest nightmares; he wanted to be her love, even when they were surrounded by death, pain and hate.
"Lilichen", he whispered softly, "We'll get out of here, maybe not together, maybe with new scars, with fresh wounds and maybe with blood on our hands. But dearest Liebling, I promise that some day, somewhere, we'll be free, and we can love without limits."
She stared in his soft burgundy eyes, "You promise to withstand further pain, to keep on fighting every day, you promise to one day break free, and you want to promise to love me up to long after this, is that correct?"
He nodded firmly, "Ja, meine Dame."
"Then keep your promise", she whispered as she bended forwards, closer to him; her lips gently touched his lips, "Meine Ritter."
The next morning, they were woken by a familiar voice.
"Like get up!" a pissed blonde said and he pulled the blanket of the both of them; though Lili and Prussia only cuddled further into each others arms, ignoring the annoyed Pole.
"That's it", he hissed and suddenly jumped on top of them; the sudden weight on them startled them enough to wake them and they looked up with slightly shocked expressions.
Prussia smirked then and looked into Poland's bottle green eyes, "Hey Polski, I didn't knew you were into doing a trio!"
"Eww! You rat!" Feliks snapped and started slapping Gilbert like a little bitch, not too hard but certainly not soft.
Gilbert snickered and started slapping him back.
"Oh you little! Calling me a rat! I'll show you!" Prussia said with a smirk and pushed Poland off the bed; but the latter dug his nails into Prussia's white skin through this clothes and pulled the white haired man with him down.
Sadly enough for Feliks, Gilbert landed right on top of him; they started rolling over the floor, slapping each other not too violently and throwing around insults.
Liechtenstein first wanted to jump up and stop the both nations, but when she looked again, she noted that their fight was just a play.
They ended up in laughter about their failed attempts to insult each other and their sluttish slapping.
Lili couldn't help but to smile brightly; she also noted that she was wearing a nightgown, Prussia had probably woken and dressed her at night.
She had once heard Vash vaguely say something about a battle between the two nations before her, long ago, between the Teutonic knights and the Polish-Lithuanian Commonwealth.
It had apparently been a quite humiliating lose for Prussia; yet here they were, together, laughing.
They were like brothers, living in the same house, having little quarrels but eventually they could laugh together about these.
This house brought nations a bit closer together, in some wicked way; it made some of them grow together more.
"Lets eat something for breakfast, I'm totally famished!" Poland said and he got up, swept his hair over his shoulder and suggested them to follow him.
The three strolled lazily through the hallways; passing the many paintings and other decorations as if they weren't even there, only Lili seemed to still be intrigued by the things.
"Hey, Feliks, did you hear something more of Russia yesterday?" Prussia asked as they walked down the stairs carefully.
The Pole pursed his and cocked his head a little to the left, "Um, nah, I don't think so. After he went of to totally suck the life out of you guys I didn't hear anything anymore. Seems you two made it out pretty well actually."
It didn't seem like he would ask more about it, even though Lili feared it for a moment; it had seemed like not talking about punishment was an unspoken rule.
"How was Ukraine?" Liechtenstein quietly asked with a sad tone in her voice.
Poland threw his head to the other side, where she walked, and looked in her eyes that had a slightly lighter colour then his had; he looked sincerely serious and piteous.
"She was like, a wreck. She cried all night and of course she believed the crap Ivan said to Lithuania. I comforted here through the night but she was so sad. Then she started talking about something but I could barely understand her. I believe she mentioned you guys and stuff, but I'm not totally sure."
Lili thought that Ukraine had probably started telling about her and Prussia's relation, and the little female was glad Poland hadn't understood everything.
"Anyway, what made the monster so angry at you? I swear he looked like he was ready to scratch some eyeballs out or something", Feliks asked while they entered the empty living room.
Prussia turned to him and said with a smirk, "Don't say that too loud, we don't want to give the beast ideas."
Gilbert seemed to have distracted the Pole about the subject of why Lili had provoked such anger, and they were talking about Ivan.
Both nations chuckled, but Lili felt bad because they constantly refer to Russia with nicknames as 'monster' or 'beast'.
"Good morning Po, Prussia, Lili", Toris greeted them weakly as he was already busy with cleaning the kitchen, "You're late. There's not much bread left."
Prussia huffed in annoyance when he saw that there were only a few thin slices of bread left.
"Verdammt", he muttered and took the three slices and handed them to Lili.
Poland didn't even come to the table but went to Lithuania and they whispered a bit before they both left.
Liechtenstein followed them from the corner of her eye, "Gilbert, why doesn't Poland take some bread? He's already so skinny."
"Liebling, no one in this house looks healthy; we're all hungry. Our body is, but our people are as well. So even with all the food of the world on our plate, there's always the hunger of our people that we feel. Oh and don't worry about Poland; he's gone through a crapload of terrible things but he's as good as indestructible. And his old friendship with Lithuania is useful, because the smart guy keeps some of the better bread for him when he's late."
She nodded slowly and nibbled from the bread; it was old and tasteless, but tasted good enough for someone that was hungry.
Liechtenstein could not expect any good treatment anymore now that her identity had been discovered by Russia and she sighed.
She ate two sliced and insisted that Prussia should have the last one, telling him that his body needed it very much and that she didn't want a famished knight.
Prussia said it was his turn to wash the clothing; Lili, who had done such a chore a few timesbefore, offered her help and he gladly accepted it.
So they both ended up outside, in front of the house, the cold wind blowing over them and there bare arms as they scrubbed the dirty clothes in the cold water.
Together it only took them a half hour to do all the clothes; all nations had maximum about 3 or 4 outfits, and they were saving them as much as they could.
After they did that, they hung up the clothes outside so they could dry.
"Meine Dame, it's a rather good weather, and I don't have much to do today. Lunch will only be served within a few hours, so would you mind taking a walk with me?"
Lili smiled and nodded, they cleaned up after the washing and dressed up in another shirt because theirs had become wet.
They left, into the woods, she trusted him to know the way; they held each others hand and walked closely against each other.
"It's a pretty nice forest, isn't it?" Prussia said as they slowly strolled through the flora and fauna.
She nodded with a little smile, "Yes, very nice indeed."
They came at a part of the forest where a little river flew, Liechtenstein's eyes widened and she stood still; their hands lost each other.
"It's so beautiful here", she whispered and stared at the landscape of the edge of a forest.
Endless nature and trees on one side, a half-frozen river, and a few trees that tried to hide the view of the meadows behind them.
On a few places still lay some snow; contrasting with the brown and green of the plants, and here and there was a little more colour from flowers that already were blooming in these temperatures.
"Lilichen, are you coming?" Prussia had already walked on and turned around to her, standing quite a bit further.
"Ja, ja", she said while slowly moving her feet to continue walking, but her eyes kept wandering over the wonderful sight she was enjoying.
Prussia sighed with a little smile, his girl was so beautiful, but he turned around and strolled on, his girl would soon get to him.
He thought about her, about her beautiful eyes, her soft but strong body; he realised that he had been wrong at the beginning.
Prussia had thought that Liechtenstein was a little, tiny, cute, incredibly breakable, fragile, pretty girl.
But she was strong, intelligent, tough, and had a form of beauty he had never seen before, yes, never before had he seen someone so beautiful like her.
His girl was unique, and the magic feeling she gave him, not just at her touch, but even when he only saw her, when he thought about her.
She seemed to have him underneath her spell; he felt so happy, carefree and joyful when he was with her.
It was a different feeling, not just happiness, not just peace within himself, it was a unique feeling she brought him that he had never experienced before.
Not Hungary, not old Fritz, not even winning a battle could bring him this great feeling; though he of course also loved those other things.
If he had to stick a name on his little girl, and what she made him feel like, he would call it Awesome.
Not just cool or nice, but it worthy of awe.
Talking about his girl, he turned around when after a while he hadn't felt her clinging at his arm anymore.
He stopped slowly and turned around with a frown; his eyes wandered over the forest and he looked for a glimpse of blonde, the shimmering of two green eyes.
Gilbert felt a little worried when he saw nothing, "Lilichen?"
His voice was loud, but not as loud that he was yelling.
"Lilichen?" he shouted this time and a very vague echo of his voice was the only response that was audible next to the leaves softly scraping against each other and the howling of the wind.
He gulped, and a sick feeling started to twist in his stomach; his heartbeat became a bit faster and his mouth was dry.
"Lili?" he asked, but it was a mere whisper.
He forced his body to step back, to go back to where he had last seen her; but his body felt cold and his steps were small.
Though his steps became a little bit bigger and faster every second his eyes missed his little princess in the picture.
"Lili?" he yelled loudly and he walked at a steady pace around, looked carefully around.
Sadly enough there were no paths through the woods and he just followed on his instinct of where he had passed, and this also meant that Liechtenstein had no clear way she could follow.
Lili had long stopped looking at where she was going; her feet just dragged her though the woods, her eyes only looking at the jewels that shimmered in the wet grass underneath the soft sun that very gently stroked the earth and the wind that tickled the leaves of the trees.
It was only when she walked into a tree and fell back on her buttocks that she noticed that she couldn't hear the voice of her knight calling for her to come to him.
She didn't hear his soothing words that asked her whether she was okay; when she looked around, all she saw was the forest.
Lili was alone, because of her dreamy wandering she had of course lost her dearest Prussian, and the forest was suddenly a lot less nice.
It seemed more threatening now, loneliness gave her a haunted feeling that caused a little shivering to tiptoe over her spine.
"Gilbert?" she whispered, "Prussia?"
But her whispers remained unanswered, only silence wrapped its arms around her.
She panicked a bit and her breathing became faster; she was completely lost in this forest.
Lili had not the slightest clue where she was or how to get back.
Because of the carelessly wandering and the collision with the tree she had even lost where she had come from.
While trying to push the panic out of her head, she slowly got to her feet and looked around, hoping to spot his red eyes, flashing with concern, somewhere.
"Gilbert?" she shouted, but there was no one to answer her; her legs started moving and she started walking around, hoping dearly that she would bump into him soon.
An hour passed, Prussia's body trembled, but more with frustration then from the cold; he hadn't found her.
What kind of a knight was he?! He just lost his lady!
His body was protesting against looking for another hour, and a thought popped up in his head.
What if his girl had somehow found her way too Russia's home?
And even if she hadn't, if he took more nations with him to look for her, there was more chance he would find her.
He turned around quickly, still knowing exactly where he was, and started running towards the big Soviet estate in the middle of this doomed place.
He was panting and sweating when he entered the house, and as usually he called the person he thought would be the most useful.
"Lithuania!" he shouted at the top of his lungs.
"Yes! Yes! I'm right here! What's wrong East-Germany?" Toris asked as he came from a nearby room, Poland trotting after him.
He gulped, how would he tell them what had happened?
But he couldn't waste time and despair crossed his eyes, "I lost Lili in the forest, has she found her way home?"
Lithuania blinked and sighed, "No, I haven't seen her so far. Should we come and help?"
Poland wanted to protest but Lithuania nudged him and Prussia nodded eagerly.
Liechtenstein's body was trembling from the cold, and she was on the verge of tears.
Time was passing by and she knew for sure that she wouldn't survive a night in the forest.
She hadn't seen anything familiar anywhere and was just slowly wandering around, keeping her body moving so it wouldn't lose all warmth.
Lili was so scared, panic whooshing through her head together with a lot of questions that didn't help her any further.
But she kept being so scared, she was so afraid of what would happen if no one would find her.
As if the losing Prussia and thus ending up all alone, being in the middle of nowhere and starting to recognize symptoms of hypothermia wasn't bad enough, she had also heard that in the forests of Russia many wild animals like bears, wolves and boars lived.
And even though she was a nation, she was unprotected against any of these, and she probably looked like an easy snack for them.
"Prussia", she cried softly and tears started rolling over her face.
Lili just wished so badly that someone would find her soon; she would be so graceful if she could come out of this forest alive.
Liechtenstein started running; she was strong and brave, because Prussia told her she was, and she had believed him.
She wasn't a little snack, nor supposed to be lost and helpless; she wanted to find someone, something recognizable.
How fiery she wished Gilbert would appear suddenly, get her in his arms and tell her everything would be fine.
She came at a place where the forest was interrupted by a few fields, but they looked deserted and destroyed by the winter that had passed.
Liechtenstein stopped running, her legs were starting to slowly give in and her movements became more sluggish.
The last thing she wanted was dying all alone in the middle of nowhere because of hypothermia; which had almost happened a while ago as well.
She started crying more, and the tears got cold and sticky on her cheeks as she forced her body to stagger forwards.
Every movement was abruptly put to a stop when she saw some movement a little further.
She watched intensively, and her heart skipped a beat when she really believed to see something being there.
Lili hoped with all her might that it wasn't a bear, and if it was a complete stranger, he would help her, right?
She ran towards the figure, and when coming closer she saw it was a human, sitting in front of a destroyed field.
Judging from the tall body built, she guessed it was a man; he was wearing a grey, long coat and she rushed forwards to him.
When she was almost there it looked like his shoulders shocked softly, but it was probably her imagination, or the cold that made him shiver.
Right next to the man, her legs gave in and she crashed on the cold, hard ground next to him.
His head turned to her and both figures gasped softly.
Russia.
The first thing that happened with her, was a wave of fear and pain rolling over her whole body, a shiver that wasn't from the cold ran over her spine.
But then she noted the tears in his eyes, the tears on his cheeks, and she blinked a few times to be sure she wasn't imagining things.
He quickly recovered and harshly wiped the tears from his face, but it seemed like he couldn't stop the tears from welling up in his pained violet eyes.
Lili shook her head a bit to get her thoughts straight, but it was a little difficult because of the hypothermia.
Ivan stopped the attempt to wipe the tears away and glared at his hands as if it was their fault, then he looked up to the girl.
He stood up, and for a moment Liechtenstein fear he would just leave her alone here.
Russia started taking his coat off; his face was a mixture between emotionless and sadness, and his tears had stopped coming but his eyes were still swollen.
"Here", he laid the warm coat over her trembling shoulders, "You'll die of hypothermia if you hang around here too long."
She looked up at him, surprised that he was so, at first it sounded like he was calm, but when she had listened closer she noted that there was more of a melancholic tone in his voice.
He sat back down, looked at the destroyed field and tears started welling up in his eyes again; now Lili noted that it were sunflowers, frozen, broken, lifeless sunflowers.
She warmed up a bit and then crawled a little closer to him, she wrapped her thin arms around him and nuzzled her face into his shoulders while sharing warmth.
For a few seconds he stiffened, and didn't move, but then he relaxed a bit.
"Why are you here?" she whispered; Lili knew that he had every possibility to get mad at her and kill her, right here and now if he wanted to.
But she also knew that right now he was fine enough to talk to, and if she had to choose between acting now or just waiting, Liechtenstein rather would hope and try then do nothing and wait.
"This is my forest. I'd rather want to know what you are doing here. Your lips are blue, if you have a death wish, you should've just said so."
His voice was hard, but there was no energy behind it, there was no anger or frustration, just dull speaking.
Lili felt her body slowly warming up, but she knew she was indeed very cold and the temperature had dropped over time.
"I was on a walk with Prussia, but we lost each other. I've been wandering around here for over an hour amready, but I have no death wish."
Her voice was rather weak, but she spoke clear so he could hear everything she said.
Now she looked up at him; having told everything honestly, she hoped he'd tell something as well, though she didn't expect anything, "You?"
There was a silence between them; Russia's eyes fixed on the withered flowers while he pondered over what to say and what shouldn't be.
But he couldn't find the words; it was as if his head had thrown over everything in his mind and he could figure the things out anymore.
"I didn't want to be home", he eventually whispered, his voice was dull, a crack of pain behind it.
Lili looked up to him with an emotion Russia couldn't figure out, first he thought it was pity, which he hated, but it seemed to be something deeper, something else.
"Ivan", she said softly, "I'm sorry."
He blinked and confusion filled his thoughts; it was as if the apology wasn't allowed to enter his thoughts.
"I'm sorry I lied, and I'm sorry that I unintentionally made you feel bad."
Russia was surprised, wasn't this the first time that someone actually apologised?
He had wished for some nicer moments in his life, like this, where someone would apologize to him, but he couldn't remember someone saying it every before.
But now that it was here, he had no clue of how to react.
"You didn't want to bring your country in danger, da? You're a smart girl", he said with a sigh and his big hand gently pat her head.
A feeling of relief washed over her; she was so happy that the man wasn't mad at her and that he didn't plan on holding a grudge over it.
"But why are you here?" he asked, and Liechtenstein had the feeling that she shouldn't lie anymore.
She cradled a little closer to him, trying to warm up more, and he liked the feeling of sharing warmth with a person that was with him out of its free will.
"Honestly, I came here because, well, there's this, person, I missed him", Lili found it surprisingly hard to just tell that she came all the way to this madhouse for her lover.
"It's Prussia, da?" he smiled softly, "I'm not stupid."
She smiled kindly and he sighed softly, "You two look nice together."
He said that while thinking back at the special expression, the different emotions he had seen between them; something intense, warm and yet very tender and fragile, something he had never seen before.
Aww.. How cute.. Lili was dying but she's okay now (unless Ivan gets mad). I hope Russia isn't too OOC, next chapter continue with the talk the two of them have, and will reveal a little more about why Russia felt so depressive now. And worried Prussia keeps on looking for his awesomely lost girl.
I hope it was a nice chapter for you :3 I've a terrible headache and other pains, plus my mom says that I have a terrible mood during the months September, October and November, so be prepared XD I hope I can change that though.. o.o
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