So guys, I'll be starting school soon so I will not be updating as frequently as I am now. I will be lucky to update every two to three days, but I will try to update every Saturday.
Have faith in me, okay?
Disclaimer:
I do not own any characters of Maximum Ride, those belong to James Patterson (is anyone else interested in his new book "Zoo"). I also do not own songs used in this chapter or any chapter or the brand Converse.
Please enjoy this installment of "I Miss You"
Wait For You
Fang's P.O.V
I, being the person I am, didn't do a single thing until 5:30 today, except grab an apple and used the bathroom. I was hoping Max would come so I could formally apologize about what I've done and explain to her why I did it. Just thinking of the chance, even though a slim one, that Max would go to the park made me happy. Even that slightest chance can blossom into something different, something possibly life-changing.
I looked at the clock and saw it was fifteen minutes to six so I got up and grabbed my guitar that was within its hard plastic case. Putting on my black converse I stepped out into the cold October air.
Walking to the park took no longer then ten minutes. I sat by the swings, hand in my black hoodie. It's been a few minutes but Max still hasn't shown up. I started worrying that she wouldn't come. Or maybe Ms. Martinez didn't send her the message. At first anger built up in my stomach, but the thought of Max made all those bad feelings go away.
I waited a few more minutes and Max was still not in sight. I stood up and took a walk around the playground, thinking of what Max and I did around it. But, my fondest memory of the park was how I got my nickname, Fang.
Flashback
I sat on the swings while my mom and dad talked to a pair of grown-ups. We were new in town, meaning I didn't have any friends. I didn't exactly want any friends but my parents thought it strange that an eight year old kid didn't want a playmate. It's not that I didn't want one; it's just that whenever I did, they would stop talking to me. Then make new friends, and then make fun of how long my hair was, especially for a boy.
"Nick come over here" my dad said while using his hand to indicate I should go over. I sighed a little and got off the swings. My long black hair was in my eyes as I walked slowly over to the grown-ups. Behind the mysterious man was a little girl with long hair, longer than mine.
My mom looked at me with a smile "Nick, meet Maximum" the little girl's eyes narrowed at my mom.
"It's Max" she mumbled. No one else heard this except me. The girl's father, Mr. Martinez, urged Max to say hi. Her eyes turned towards me and said coldly "Hi".
I didn't say anything in return so my dad urged me to say hi. I looked at him with pleading eyes as to say 'please don't make me do this'. He put a reassuring hand on my shoulder. I sighed and said "Hi, my name is Nick". I faked a smile and she chuckled. The adults left after this.
Getting mad, I yelled "Why are you laughing?!"
She pointed a finger and said, "You don't look like a 'Nick'"
Infuriated, I did what I knew best, I bit her pointing finger. But, it was ineffective considering I was missing my two front teeth, and barely grazed her with my other teeth. She laughed out loud when I "let go" of her finger. She ran to her dad and pulled his pants. He picked her up and said "What's wrong honey?"
"Nothing daddy", she said, "I like him" pointing at me with a smile. The adults chuckled as I crossed my arms.
"I don't" I muttered to myself.
Max's dad put her down and she ran to the swings. My dad told me to play with Max; I didn't want to make him mad so I went to the swings.
When I got there, I found out she liked two things, toys and cookies! I started thinking of keeping her as a friend. She was a funny person, even if she was a girl. We played on the monkey bars, slide, and our favorite, The Slide. It was large, at least bigger than me and Max together.
Our parents called us to say goodbye. We caught up to our parents.
"Bye Max" I said with a small smile
"Bye Nick" Max said, not returning the smile. She just stared at me with an odd expression. She tilted her head, and I did the same. I looked at her strange now when she smiled wide and her eyes brightened.
"What!" I said, irritated.
"You still don't look like a Nick." I was going to jump on her but she said, "You look like a…Fang!" I stood there confused, "Because when we saw each other, you bit my finger. Also because your hair is long" she said pointing at my hair.
I smiled, "I like it". We said our goodbyes again and we both left.
Flashback End
I was thrown out of my trance by some guy honking his horn at a lady in front of him to go, because the light was green.
I looked around and saw that Max still wasn't here. I moved around on the park bench a little. I grabbed my guitar, and dug in my pants for my lucky pic. I closed my eyes and strummed to the beat of a song. Humming along to the lyrics, I changed the chord I needed it to be. I started singing the lyrics:
I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you and I'm wishing you would come back through my door
Oooooo
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone,
Girl you could have stayed but you wouldn't give me a chance
With you not around it's a little bit more than I can stand
Oooooo
And all my tears they
Keep running down my face
Why did you turn away?
So why does your pride make you run and hide?
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie
What you keep inside
This is not how you want it to be
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you
Been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You gotta be feeling crazy (crazy)
Oooooo
How can you walk away,
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby
What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is and it just ain't like that
Oooooo
Why can't you look at me
You're still in love with me
Don't leave me crying.
Baby why can't we just
Just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance
I can love you right
But you're telling me it won't be enough
So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else I can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do
I'll wait for you
So why does your pride make you run & hide
Are you that afraid of me?
But I know it's a lie
What you're keeping inside
That is not how you want it to be
Baby I will wait for you
Oooooo
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing I do
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do, I'll wait for you
I'll Be Waiting.
"I'll be waiting right here, Max, just for you." I said as a finished the last lyric. I got up and I could've sworn I saw a figure behind the swing set. I walked over to the playground and saw no one, except an old Asian couple watching over a small child running around the see-saw. I smiled at the little girl and went back to the bench to collect my things. I checked the time and it was only 6:45
I took my time to walk home, thinking of everything and anything that life has thrown at me these past few months. I sighed at the thought and approached my home. But when I looked up I saw Jeb's car. I ran in the house thinking of everything that could happen. 'Think the best Fang, maybe he just got home early from work or something'. Skipping three steps at a time, I got my keys out and barged into the door.
There was my dad, looking at old pictures, probably of my mom. He looked up with tears in his eyes. I dropped my guitar and slid down the couch my dad was sitting on. We sat there in silence for a few minutes. I still didn't know what was going on but I wanted to give him time to think of what he wanted to say.
Finally, He said, "Fang, I know life has been rough on you lately, but I want you to know that I will always, forever and always, be here with you." He took a deep breath and said, "Fang I've been diagnosed with cancer, pancreatic cancer to be exact." I was speechless. My dad has always been healthy, except the year my mom died; he had gained some weight and was overweight.
"B-but how" I managed to stutter out after a few minutes of silence.
"I've always had it, but you could call it dormant. It was not physically active in my body, no one could've saw it. It was like something was killing me from the inside out. Fang it has been slowly breaking my body down, piece by piece, my organs will stop working and I will…" He breathed in deeply, holding back his tears, "I will die".
My whole life, my whole family, my everything came crashing down when he said those three words. "I will die". Those three words kept rewinding back over and over in my mind. I wanted to cry, but I had run out of tears. My breathing had gotten heavier, my hands fidgeting. "W-we have to do someth-"I said
"There's nothing we can do, Fang. No amount of radiation can cure my cancer. It's just too serious, too strong. The most severe type of cancer the doctors at the hospital have ever seen. It's taking over my body. Nothing will do." He said trying to hold back his tears.
Without thinking I wrapped an arm around him and hugged him. I hadn't hugged him for years, but it felt so familiar, so right that I should embrace my father. He was shocked when he felt my arms but eventually he wrapped me in an embrace too.
"Fang, I wish I was there whenever you needed me. At your soccer games, at the family picnic, wherever. I'm so sorry for not being there for you. I wish I could've helped you", He paused for a second and added, "I wish your mom was here". I hugged him tighter and said
"I do too dad. I do too. And dad?"
"Hmm" He hummed out as we let go of each other.
"You were always there, for everything important. Thanks dad." I took a breath and breathed out "I love you". It felt weird saying that, but it also felt right.
"I love you too" He said. We just sat there for a few seconds before adding, "Go get some sleep Fang. You need it more than I do" I complied and got up. Walking slowly to my room, I started tearing up. I lied in my bed, because I couldn't sleep. I heard my dad go up the stairs and approach my room. Through the door, he said "Goodnight Fang". He then left for his room.
"Good night dad".
Tossing and turning in bed, I finally got up and kneeled own. I put my hands together and looked up to the ceiling.
'Lord, please help me do this. I know I haven't done this in a while but, please help my father. Help him make his way to Heaven. Help him with the pain. He is a good man, someone with wise words. He is a man of his word, please save his soul, Lord. Please Lord I beg you, please help my father. Amen'
I stood up and slept easily. Even with all these things going on, I know now that God is out there looking after me and my father.
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Wow this is my longest chapter yet! Do you guys want longer chapters?
Quote-a-day
(I know it's been the same day, but I'm breaking the rules)
"Commit to the LORD whatever you do, and your plans will succeed."
Proverbs 16:3
This Bible verse was one of the first verses I have ever read in the bibles and it stuck with me. I just wanted to share it with you.
Once again thanks for reading this chapter. I'll try to update tomorrow, if not I promise an update for Saturday!
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P.S.
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