I Miss You Chapter 6: Won't Even Start, a maximum ride fanfic

Hey Guys! Like I promised, here is chapter six of "I Miss You".

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I do not own any characters from Maximum Ride, nor do I own rights to any song used in this chapter.

Thank You for reading this FanFiction of mine. I hope you enjoy reading it just as much as I enjoyed writing (or typing) it.

So thanks again and her is chapter 6.

"Won't Even Start"

Max's P.O.V.

What did it mean? Those small gestures that make me nervous. That wave, am I falling for him? No I can't be. I promised myself that I wouldn't go back down that road. After the incident, he would just hurt me again.

'But what if he's changed, Max' my inner voice told me.

"People can't just change like that. There has to be like... like a paradigm shift for him to change!" I yelled aloud. My 'Inner Voice' said nothing after that. I lied done on my bed as I heard footsteps run up the stairs.

Without looking up, I heard someone ask "Max, are you okay?" Angel poked her head through the door before I could answer. She asked again, "Max, are you okay?" This time with concern rising in in her voice.

"I'm fine sweetie" I managed to breath out. I sat up a little and motioned Angel to come sit with me. She obeyed and sat down on the messy bed with me.

"Are you sure? It's sad when I see you hurt Max" She said burying her head in my arms.

"I'm fine Angel. You don't have to worry about me. I'm fine." I said holding her tighter to my body.

"No you're not Max" Angel said looking into my eyes. "Max you got even sadder when Fang stopped coming here." Well if you put it that way…

"You're right Angel. I did get sadder, but I want life to be better for me. And Fang didn't make it better. He made it harder to wake up every day. He made me want to stop going out of bed, and not go outside for the rest of my life. He made me want to hide under my bed forever." I tried putting up a brave face for my little sister, but tears started sliding down my cheeks. 'He made it so easy to hate life" I managed to whisper, "but also so easy to love life." I didn't know what I was doing. Ranting about my love life with my little sister that still thinks that boys have cooties.

"Max, I can't say exactly how you feel, but if you ever want to talk I'm right here." She whispered in my ear. Angel kissed my forehead, which was sweet, but strange at the same time. It was as though she was older than me. Angel took it so maturely. She was listening to me rant on and on about Fang and my emotions. I nodded my head and she gave me one last hug before going downstairs to probably play with her toys.

I smiled at how lucky I was to be gifted with a little sister like her, even if we were years apart. I lied there for a few seconds before I decided I would bring the kids to the park. We got bundled up since it was pretty windy outside. I smiled at Gazzy and Angel as they had trouble tying their shoes. I bent down to help them and we were all set to go.

The park was about ten minutes from my house, but that was fine considering we needed to get some fresh air. Once the park reached our sight, the kids ran towards the see-saw and played on it. I smiled to myself, remembering the good times I used to spend in the park. Even meeting Fang, for the first time, made me smile.

I sat on the end of the slide when I started hearing a guitar playing smoothly, almost silk-like. There was a slight hum behind the smooth guitar sounds. I tried navigating the source to where this beautiful noise was coming from. I reached the swings and looked upon to the small meadow-like area of the park. I saw a head of black hair playing the guitar, while words left his mouth, with so much power, so much emotion. A voice that was so distinctive to listeners that they just had to stop and listen to the beautiful music.

I poked my head from behind the swing set and saw him play. His words now shallow, now slightly quieter.

Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine it just ain't true
I really need you in my life
No matter what I have to do, I'll wait for you

I'll Be Waiting.

I choked up the tears but swallowed them back down when he slowly lifted his head. I ran and grabbed the kids by their coats, and ran to the sidewalk where there were several cars and hid behind them.

"Max! What are we doi-"Gazzy yelled at me before I interrupted him.

"Shh! be quiet or he'll notice us" I whisper-yelled at him. He quieted down right away. After about two minutes we stood up and he had left.

"Max" Gazzy said pulling on my dark blue hoodie sleeve, "Who was that?"

"It was no one" I said while patting his head with a smile. "Let's go home and get something to eat" His face brightened up and we were home-bound. I held Angel and Gazzy's hand as we crossed the road, thinking of Fang.

'Was he singing that song for me? Or was that the first song he thought of? Oh wait, I was supposed to meet him there at six! That song was definitely for me then. But, why, why would he sing a song alone like that?' We got home and the kids got some leftovers, since my mom was called in late, and I would not be going into the kitchen anytime soon.

After we ate, Gazzy went to watch TV and Angel went to play with her dollies. I went back up in my room and just sat there. A few minutes later, Angel came in with an angel teddy bear with white wings, white dress, and a halo. I remembered that bear, Fang and I couldn't think of anything to get Angel last year for her birthday, until we came upon this little bear, Celeste. Thinking of Fang hurt my head, or was it my heart?

"Hey sweetie" I said, faking a smile

"Max…that was Fang, right? At the park" She said looking down at Celeste. For a tenyear old, she was pretty smart.

"Yes, yes it was" I breathed out

"What did you feel when you heard him playing that song?"

What? I first thought, but realized that Angel really wanted to help me, and I was grateful of that. It took me a few seconds to think of a reply. "I felt like I was wanted. Like he actually felt sorry for what he did. He was singing with so much emotion that it was hard not to think of it. I felt like HE wanted me. Like he wanted me back, of all the other people he's dated, he wanted me back." I was ranting to Angel, again. Twice in a day. I didn't want her to worry about me but it was nice that she cared enough to talk to me about it.

"Max. If you felt that way today, then what's keeping you from feeling that way all the time? Fang really cares about you. If you look in his eyes, you can see that too. He wants you back just as much as you wanted him back."

Wow. That hit me hard. I didn't know I had wanted Fang back until Angel, my TEN year old sister, even mentioned it. We hadn't said a word for a few seconds, which felt like hours.

"But how do I know he's changed, Angel. How do I know he is someone different from a few months ago? How can I trust that he won't hurt me again? How can I be assured I won't ever be hurt again?" I pleaded to her

"Max. If he loves you, then why would he leave? He stayed because he loves you and will try until his last breathe to get you back. No matter what, he will always be there." Angel said, she looked me right I in the eyes and said this "He stayed because he loves you. Not because he had to." Wow. A girl, ten years of age, was talking like she was a professor of love, or at least a powerful author. "Max, I know this has been a hard time for you, but Fang is going through an even tougher time. Be with him to ease his pain"

When did my little sister become my therapist? I should stop letting her watch those chic flicks with Nudge.

"Fine Angel, but I'm not doing it tonight maybe tomorrow." I looked over at my night stand. 11:28. "Besides, you need to go get some sleep." She obeyed with tired eyes and dragged Celeste as I followed behind her to tuck her in. Gazzy had already gone to sleep, when we passed his room, I said goodnight quietly.

We got to Angel's room and tucked her in.

"Max, please go talk to Fang. I want you too, and I know you want to yourself." She said after finishing her tuck-in.

Tired myself, I said, "I'll sleep on it. K, Ange?" She smiled at me before she drifted into her slumber.

'Oh man what do I do' I thought to myself.

I slide under my sheets after I plugged in my iPod to its charger and played my playlist. I was hoping the music wouldn't keep me up thinking, but knowing my luck "Won't Even Start" by David Choi (AN: He is an amazing artist. If you haven't heard of him yet, go check him out on YouTube )

What happened after last summer
When we broke up in september
I haven't seen you feels like a long time
Sometimes it still hurts but I always get by

I still got a piece of you under my skin
Its always there no matter where I've been

So if ever see you on the street
I'll pretend that I didn't see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways
Cause if I look into your eyes
Then I'll have to say goodbye
And that'll break my heart
So I won't even start
No I won't even start

I wish you love I wish it true
That's the best I can do for you
Cause you'll probably find love in someone new
I have to let go yea it's hard to do

So if I run into you with your arm by his side
Just know it'll come in like the night

So if I ever see you on the street
I'll pretend that I didn't see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways
Cause if I look into your eyes
Then I'll have to say goodbye
And that'll break my heart
So I won't even start
No I won't even start

I'll be ok
I'll be ok
O that's what I'll say

Do I want to start it? Yes I have to start it, if not for me, for Angel. I want to, but I also don't want to say goodbye. Something in my heart is pulling me towards you, Fang. I really do miss you Fang.

But…I'm dating Dylan.

Who do I love more?

Fang, my childhood friend. My right-hand man. My best friend. The only person to care for me the way he does, except my mom. The one person I trusted before the incident.

Dylan, a stranger to me before I recognized him in class. The person I barely know, even after two dates. The one I said yes to, to try to forget about Fang. The person who treated me to the best night in the past few months. A person so nice to me, the person who's heart I would have to break…

I fell asleep as my music played and my mind content in what I will be choosing.

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Quote-a-Day

"It sucks that we miss people like that. You think you've accepted that someone is out of your life, that you've grieved and it's over, and then bam. One little thing, and you feel like you've lost that person all over again."

― Rachel Hawkins, Demonglass

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