As sheridens character is currently too drunk to help tell the events of what happened next, i have delved in to a few of the thoughts kendall had to help the story progress. it was difficult writing as him. i dont usually like doing it, but i needed to get some facts out in the telling of the story... so here it is.

KENDALLS STORY

"Bro I'm gonna sort James out before he kills 'los" Logan said as he ran in and left me with the sobbing sheriden.

I honestly think I've seen her cry more than smile in the years I've known her.

"Shoo where are you going?" I called as Sheriden stumbled out of Carlos' garden.

"Home" she cried back at me.

"Your going the wrong way, James' house is that way" I mocked her. I've never seen her this drunk before.

"I'm going to my home to get my passport and then going back to England"

I laughed at the drunken plans that sheriden now had in her head.

"Are you now?" I caught up with her and guided her to the side of the little track road so she couldn't get run down by any passing traffic."shoo your pissed you don't know what your doing, come back to Carlos'" I tried to reason.

"He doesn't want me" she slurred

"And when have you taken any notice of Carlos" I argued.

"Once" sheriden smiled through her tears.

"And how did that work out for you?" I asked

"He told me to stay away from James and I ended up with you" she said with a giggle.

"Fantastic... it wasn't all bad shoo, we had a laugh when it was good"

"Your a very attenta.. atenat..attentative lover... Mr Schmidt" she smiled at one of the many memories we had shared as a couple.

"Well if you wasn't so drunk I would prob try and re live some of those memories now" I confessed. I would take her back in the blink of an eye.

"Well its going to have to be a long distance relationship kendall... England wants me... you lot don't"

We walked on further down the small road.
"So your just gonna leave James here while you magically find your way back to England" I chuckled at her.

She stopped and looked at me
"He will be better off with out me" and she started walking again with a fresh batch of tears howling out.

"Sheriden cmon, I'm fucked if I'm gonna follow you about... your not even wearing any shoes"

"I don't care, I can buy shoes in England" she sobbed.

"Do you actually have keys to your house?" I asked

She tapped the little bag that was swinging by her hip.

"Shoo please its cold, I don't have a shirt on..." but she kept stumbling on.

Fuck sake. She never used to be like this. The sheriden I knew and loved was so ... well I dont know but this isn't the same girl, drunk or not.

"You think they will let you on a plane in that state?... I don't think so sheriden... this is fucking ridiculous" I was getting pissed off now.

"Go back kendall... I don't need you... I dont need anyone" she declared, then fell down a small gulley that run along the track road.

I ran up to check she was okay
"Shoo you alrite... ya back okay?" I asked looking down at her, she was covered in mud.

"Yeah...think so" she simply replied as I helped her up.

She then started crying... again
"I want my mum" she announced sounding very British. I gave her a hug with some sympathetic words.

"Well no one can get you your mom shoo, but you can call Carlos' mom, or James' mom... prob best not to call James' mom just yet though..."

"Why didn't your mum like me kendall?" She wailed "I tried so hard but she was so nasty all the time"

It amused me that a drunk sheriden had almost forgot her American accent, I wondered if it was kind of made up, and this was the true sheriden Lloyd.

"She told me that we just wernt suited shoo... she just wanted to protect me... that's all"

"I'm a nice girl once you get to know me though aren't I ?"

I laughed as I looked in to her big blue teary eyes "sheriden Lloyd you are the most nicest, beautiful girl I know"

She gave me a hug and sobbed on my shoulder, if it wasn't so dark I would expect to see the make up imprint of her pretty face left on me.

We carried on walking down the trackroad. We were now nearer her house than Carlos'.

"Kendall... we had fun didn't we" she slurred out.

"Yeah it was... different" I laughed "let's not talk about all that now though"

"I did love you .. I did" she said.

"Yep I know" I replied. Really not wanting to get dragged down by her misery, I had, had a pretty good night despite all this shit. I hoped paisley had too.

Sheriden then propped her self up against a fence and puked everywhere.

"Shit shoo..." I rubbed her back but she waved me away, it made her throw up more.

I went to grab my phone to call James, I draw the line at looking after the puking girl that decided to run off with my best friend.
"Fuck!" I patted my pockets down "Sheriden give me your phone, I left mine back there"
I helped myself to Sheridens shoulder bag trying to find her phone to call James. She was still heaving her guts up.

"Where is it?" I asked as she finally finished yakking.

"It's in there" she said now chucking the contents of the bag out herself.

It wasn't in there.

"Oh my god... I've lost it" she got on all fours trying to find the lost phone.
In happier circumstances this would have been an amusing sight. I doubt sheriden had been this drunk since she had left England.

"Shoo get up, you had it at the house its still there I expect"

"It's got everything on it... I need it... if someone reads some of the things James texts me... you know he wants to get married!"

I rolled my eyes, the thought of maslow and sheriden getting married made my stomach reach.

"Great" I replied."cmon let's get to your house and use the phone... paisley will be pissed off that I've just left her"

i pcked up crap she had chucked out her bag and shoved it back in. We turned down another street. I looked at my watch it was gone 3am now.

"Do I smell of sick" sheriden asked me.

"I can't smell anything sheriden. I'm sure your fine" I replied.

She seemed to have gone from being very sad to now acting like a happy child, she was attempting to walk along the curb like a tight rope walker.

"Sheriden be careful, if you fall your gonna fuck ya back up"

"Why are you so boring kendall, you never used to be like that"

"I actually think that has something to do with you" I replied.

"What I made you boring?" She said with a hand on her hip trying to keep her balance on the curb.

"You made me cautious... I find it hard to trust my instincts, especially with girls"

She looked at me." It never would of lasted... even with our baby" she said, still smiling.

"Really?... still would of been nice to give it a try without all the shit that happened" I said, now dragged in to the conversation. "was it my baby sheriden... honestly?" Hopefull to get a truthfull answer now she was so pissed.

Sheriden stopped being in the circus and walked up to me...

this was it. The truth... finally.

I recieved a full on slap across the face.

"Fuck!.. what are you doing?... you crazy fucking bitch" I shouted at her.

"Yes it was yours. I loved you so fucking much... you... Dick head"

She pushed me but she was the only one that moved, she stumbled back, I had to grab her so she wouldn't fall.

As I held her against me I looked in to her blue eyes. She was very almost the same height as me. And only smelt of...I dunno just nice things. Her hair smelt great.
It would be so easy to kiss her right now...

I let go... but she pulled me in by my neck that she now grabbed and went to kiss me but instead head butted me square in the nose.

"Fuck!" I said as I stumbled about in pain.

Sheriden had the giggles..."oh my god... I'm so sorry" she laughed.

"Why are you trying to kiss me?" I asked stumbling around with my face in my hands. My eyes watered.

"I really have no idea... I'm sorry... your bleeding... a lot" she said looking at my torso as blood poured from my face to my chest.

I laughed " fuck sake woman, your mental!"

She smiled, her face looked awful, makeup smeared all round her eyes and covered in mud. But still the most beautiful girl in the world.

I sat down on the curb with my head inbetween my knees trying to stop my nose pouring with blood.

Sheriden sat next to me.

"Your not content with trying to kill yourself all the time you thought you would hunt me down" I said sarcastically as I rolled my eyes.

"What do you mean all the time? I haven't ever tried to kill myself" she said.

"Well your very accidental then. Falling down ski slopes and crashing cars... taking drugs" I replied.

Sheriden gave a small smile, I think she had sobered up enough to realise the sillyness that tonight had become.

"It hurts you know... watching you with paisley all evening" she said quietly.

"Your having a laugh aren't you. You and James don't exactly hide anything...I remember that day you came on the bus on the way up to Chicago, you gave some bull shit excuse you felt sick and had sex with James in logans bed...any idea how that felt?"

"Sorry kendall... that was stupid... I also thought we was pretty quiet...but, let me finish... it hurts but I'm glad you have her kendall, she is really nice... a lot more... sensible, you need someone like that. Me and you are too similar"

"So what's amazing James then? I always thought his cock ruled his head. He isn't exactly Mr sensible is he" I moaned.

Before sheriden, James would fuck anything that moved, him and Logan would get in to all sorts of situations with shagging girls everynight.

"James is the most sensible person I know kendall. I don't know how he puts up with me most the time... he must be really worried about me now"

I looked at the time 3:30.
"Cmon then let's back to yours"

It took about ten more minutes to get to Sheridens. The electronic gates that fenced off her house were now shut, I punched the number in and they opened.

Sheriden placed her hand in mine as we entered the drive.

"You alrite?" I asked.

She shook her head " I've not been back here since... you know"

I slipped my hand away from hers and slung my arm over her shoulder, giving her a squeeze.
"It's alrite shoo... cmon" I guided her up to the front door.

As I unlocked the door for her I tried to make her terrified looking face smile "so you still boarding a plane to buy shoes in England or just phoning amazing James?"

She did smile "amazing James" she whispered.

I nodded, as we walked in I flipped the lights. the mansion still looked as awesome as it always did, white winding stairs greeted us.
A pile of post had been placed on the side table next to the ornate looking telephone

I dialled James number.

"Sheriden!?" James answered after only half a ring.

"No man its me, she is fine. Pissed as a fart, we are at her house... just got here" I replied.

"Fucksake why did you just fuck off? paisleys gone home, she is seriously fucked off with you" James moaned.

"No... sheriden fucked off. What was I meant to do, just leave her to it to get run over. She was trying to go to fly England" I laughed at the ridiculous plan again.

"What?... oh fuck sake. I will be there in a bit. Don't move okay" James ordered then the phone went dead.

"he is on his way but paisleys gone" I sat on the winding steps where sheriden had planted herself.

"I'm sorry... call her" sheriden said waggling a drunken unsteady hand towards the phone.

"I don't know her number off by heart" I said.

"But you know James'?" Sheriden burst out laughing.

"Fuck sake" I stood up." You want a coffee" I asked as I headed in to the kitchen flipping light switches as I went.

"No..." came her reply. I made myself one... black of course. It looked like someone had cleared the fridge of all its contents.

"So when are you moving to bel air?" I called out to the direction of the hallway entrance.
no reply...

"Sheriden...when are you moving to bel air?" I stirred my coffee then walked back out to the stairs, she had gone... great!

The lights had turned on upstairs so I walked up to find her.

She was sat on the bathroom floor crying. The scenario gave me memorys I didnt want to have.
I sat down with her.
"Here have this" I said to her as I passed her my coffee. She took it, least if she was drinking she couldn't cry.

"It's still just a bathroom shoo... its not the end of the world. It has more memories than what your thinking of now" I looked around the large en suite.
Mostly white and chrome, with a large bath and separate shower.

"I've had sex more times in this room than you've had overdoses" I said in an attempt to cheer her up.

She did a bit "funny really seeing as the bed is just through there" she added cracking a grin to a beautiful smile.

"You were on the pill weren't you?" I asked. Never actually understanding how we bacame to almost be parents.

"Yeah I was... just one of those things, I must of messed up somewhere" she confessed.

"I think we all mess up sometimes" I whispered.

"James said something tonight that made me think... he said that you always hug people, you know coz Jess moaned about you being all over Antonio. He was right you do always do that, you have always done that. You did that with James when I was with you, and you rested your head on my lap last week when we was watching friends... I just wish I hadnt of seen it differently when we was together"

"You wouldn't have paisley now though... she is so in love with you kendall"

"yeah I know she is" i thought of paisley, her gorgeous tanned skin, and her long black hair, her awesome tits. she was really cool, very easy going...sensible.

"Do you love her?" Sheriden asked just as James walked in the room.

"Jesus Sheri" he said as he looked at the state of her.
"Are you okay?"

Sheriden started crying again at the familiar sight of her amazing James. I stood up then with James' help lifted sheriden off the floor.

"Bed time for you shoo" I said as we walked back through to the bedroom.

"No I don't want to stay here, I want to go back to James'" she argued.

"Sheri its gone 4 now, we might aswell just stay here" James reasoned "cmon I'll sit with you on the sofa" and with that I got handed her coffee cup and James picked her up and carried her down stairs.

He layed sheriden down on the sofa, she was pretty much already passed out. I sat in the chair opposite. James covered her with a blanket then lifted her feet up and sat down then rested her feet back on his lap.

James let out a laugh..."what the hell did you two do, get in a fight?" He asked looking at my bruised face from a slap and blood drenched body.

I shook my head and laughed."no she fell down a ditch, slapped me coz I asked if the baby was mine... and she accidently head butted me in the nose... she is a charm James".

James laughed looking at sheriden covered in mud and make up.

"Paisley was really upset mate. She had it in her head you two had run off together... I think it may take more than a bunch of flowers to fix"

I let out a long sigh "great! Sheriden went off to catch a plane to England to get away from us all. Do you think pais will believe that?"

James laughed "Christ... that girl ay... I don't think England would have her back"
James looked at sheriden. She was completly out of it now, I doubt a nuclear blast would wake her up.

"Kendall... I've been meaning to talk to you..when Sheri and I are properly moved in to the new place, we are planning to have a party of our own..." he said.

"Oh right cool... don't let her drink!" I took the piss looking at sheriden.

James looked at her also and smiled.

"Well what I wanted to talk to you about is... well I'm gonna ask her to marry me. Infront of everyone, I wanted to let you know so you can come up with an excuse to not come... if you didn't wanna come that is. She will probably say no, she usually does, I've asked her a bunch of times..."

I sat there taking in the news that James was planning to marry the girl I thought would somehow... some way come back to me.
I looked at sheriden, her beautiful face now looking so peaceful now she was asleep.
I looked at James. He was looking at me... giving me time to think about a polite way of saying fuck you... coz that's what I wanted to say. Why does he always get what he wants. Yet I always get second choice. Paisley... I wondered where she was. She was amazing tonight singing. I could feel a smile stretch out on my face at the memory of it.
Was pais my second choice compared to sheriden?. I looked at sheriden again. She was clearly insane in her own little way. Ever since I first met her she had caused a stir wherever she went, that's what sheriden Lloyd did.
All I ever wanted was to love her... a peaceful life.
Sheriden was right. It never would of lasted with us. I don't think I ever loved her as much as maslow does... but he is clearly insane too, to put up with it.

"You really want to spend the rest of your life with her?" I chuckled as I looked at the mud monster sheriden

"If she let's me, yeah... I know you still love her, but I do to... so much" he said

"I don't think I do love her, I think I'm in love with a memory of her" I said as I gazed at her still.

"So do you think you wanna watch me get turned down in bel air infront of everyone" James said breaking me from my gaze I had on his girlfriend.

"I will be there bro'... just don't ask me to be best man" I smiled

"Sure thing" James said looking at Sheridens dirt black feet.

"Kendall... you guys didn't ... do anything tonight did you?"

I laughed..."oh how the tables turn... no bro, just a hug"

James laughed "you can stay in Carlos' old room if you wanna stay the night"

"Yeah okay cheers... is paisley at her hotel?" I got up and made my way to the door.

"yes she is" he replied as he chucked his phone at me."call her before Henderson does"

I shook my head with a smile. I dialled paisleys number as I walked out of the lounge, she answered

"Kendall fuck off" I got as my greeting.

"Pais I'm going to be with you in ten minutes okay"

"No forget it kendall"

"See you in ten baby. I'm calling a cab now"

"Kenda..." I Hung up before she could argue.

The cab arrived and dropped me off at the hotel.

The lift went up so slow but I finally arrived at her room.

She answered after my second knock.

"Pais listen to me..."

"Jesus what happened to you?" She eyed up the shirtless bloody mess that I was, and placed a hand on my face.

"That doesn't matter... this does... I love you, I really love you, and I think ive been in love with you since reno, I've just been scared thats all... paisley I love you so much... please say it back".

"I think you better come in" she said.

very almost finished this story now. i will have it complete before the week is out. let me know what you think so far...good or bad. its only a bit of fun that keeps me entertained in the evenings... i know its all very far fetched but thats the beauty of fiction writing! thanks for reading xxx treehatsrock xxx