Ok so here you go lemee know what you think because truth be told I havent liked the last three chapters very much.
Oh and I do intend to write a semi-continuation of the last cahpter I just hafta write it. Oh! And i could really use a beat so if anyones's interested leeme know. I'd prefer someone with some experience or who knows the system really well becasue, you know, I'm a newbie, however beggars can't be choosers so PM me if you want to or if you can refer me to someone.
She felt tired and grouchy and none to cheerful. There was just something about today that was more depressing than anyother day. Perhaps it was just her mind, turning itself inside out as it was prone to now. Her friends barely noticed, but that was probably because they were dealing eith their own psychological problems now to. After the war, hell after everything she wondered if it was worth it.
Danzou was dead, but so was Tsunade,
The village was safe, and yet it was also in rumbles,
A new young shinobi was Hokage and yet it wasn't Naruto.
Everything seemed so fucked up, so terribly wrond, and she knew it. The truth, the hurt the look of utter betrayl on Naruto's face stung her worse than the shocked half-assed applause and wide eyes, and skeptical muttering she recieved when the council appointed her Hokage, based on Tsunade's will.
Fuck them.
Fuck them all, she thought vehmently, as she took a long drink of sake.
She body ached and trembled and she caught her reflection in a window. She looked at herself and gave a cynical grin.
Just like you eh shisou?
Now I know why you drank so much.
Liking her lips she swallowed back her sob and roughly wiped her mouth roughly. A knock sounded and though she was half tempted to ignore it, she answered and moments later the door creaked open lazily.
"Hokage-sama, I was wondering if I many have a word with you." So formal, she thought, so formal and cold and yet so familiar.
"Yes Kakashi? Well what is it, I don't have all day." she growled the alcohol still settled on her tounge. "With all due respect Hokage-sama I'd prefer it if you faced me."
His nonchalance sickened her, it set her blood on fire made her angry but she forced herself to stay calm as she turned around to face him. She loved him, so much and yet here he was to look at her with those accusing eyes, as though she stole her title and destroyed her best friends/borther's dreams. It made her want to scream, made her want to fight and cry and lash out. It made her hurt so bad, and yet like an addict she held on, tightly like a leech, desperatly trying to dispell the whirlwind her life had become. If only she could make it all stop, to make the hurt, and the love, and everything just fade away. Her eyes fell on the hall empty sake jar, and she reached forward.
"Damnit Sakura!" Kakashi ground out, and in a blurr the sake bottle flew across the room shattering, and spilling across the carpet. "Are you even listening to me? We're worried about you, egverybody is worried about you."
Kakashi's dark eyes fixed on hers. "I'm worried about you." His voice was low, and deep.
Sakura laughed, dark and cynical. "Why scared that I can't handle the pressure? That I'm not good enough? Not strong enough?" She stood her breathing harsh and slightly inebriated, she gazed at him coldly, angrily.
"Well I'm sorry that I'm not fucking Naruto or Sasuke. I'm sorry I'm not some stupid prodigy that I'm not good-" Kakashi's growled, and cut her off, pinning her against the window, his lips stealing hers. Sakura stuggled and jerk and yet for all her training and super strength she found her too bony, starved body easily held and enveloped by Kakashi's large frame.
He broke the kissed and breathed slowly, "You are good enough Sakura, we all know it, everybody does. Yes people were skeptical, but you proved them wrong, you proved who you are, you showed them true strength Sakura you are theit hope."
"Hope?" She was sobbing now helpless, and still hurting so bad. "Talk to Naruto about that stuff. This was supposed to be his, I betrayed him-"
"No, never Sakura. You did nothing Tsunade wrote three peopl in her will to succed her You Naruto and me. It was just that the council choose you, besides Naruto was shocked yes but he got over it, you were the best choice, practically Tsunade's right hand, we all knew it."
Sakura shook her head desperately tears falling down her cheeks, Kakashi began to hold her.
"Sakura, believe it or not, but people love you, Naruto loves you the rookie nine, and team Gai and nearly every citizen out there loves you. You've healed and saved lives, you're a hero. Pleease Sakura please, I cant... I can't watch you waste away not like this, please."
And then he kissed her again, despite the tear and obnoxious crying he kissed her, desperatly trying to reawaked the woman hed loved and married, because as dark as the world wsa he'd killed the sun to make her smile again. Times were hard people had died but now it was time to heal.
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