Hey, finally got a chance to update. i know i haven't been able to do it for a while, cos of no internet, but know i have the internet back, so i can update yaay.
I'll leave you alone and let you read this, and then you can let me know what you think. Talk to you at the bottom.
Bella's POV
For the next few hours, Jasper and I stayed in our room with the babies. We now had to go out and buy one more of all the baby stuff that we had. A new cot, changing table, clothes, nappies, toys ect. For the next few days, we would be able to make due with what we had, but I knew that sooner than later we would need more baby stuff. It would be ok in this house, but my house wasn't as big as this one. No where near this big. It was going to be an extremely tight squeeze getting everything into my place.
"Hey, you ok? You look like you're thinking about something" Jasper asked from behind me.
He was currently leaning against the headboard behind me, while I was sitting between his legs and leaning against his chest.
"Just wondering how we are going to get 2 sets of baby stuff into my tiny little house. The spare room upstairs is only big enough for one cot and changing table, where else are we going to put everything else that we need for 2 babies?" I asked him.
"We will find somewhere. Don't stress out about it. Esme and Carlisle said we could stay here for a few days just so that you can gain back your strength and recover, and we can sort everything else out when we get home." Jasper said before he kissed the back of my head.
For now, we had put both of he babies into one cot, which we had in our room. They had only been asleep for about a hour, but I knew that they would be waking up soon to be fed again. They both seemed to be quite content to drink blood from their bottles, which was a good thing. The only thing that I was worried about was that, we drink blood to sustain us. We don't change. We don't grow. Babies do. They are going to need something more than blood as they get older for vitamins, nutrients, everything that they are going to need to stay healthy and grow up.
"They aren't going to be able to stay on just blood forever." I said to Jasper, saying my thoughts out loud
"That is a random statement to make." Jasper said.
"No it isn't! I know that they are full vampire babies, but they aren't going to stay the size they are forever. They are going to grow and develop, and I just don't think that they will be able to do that when they are on a diet solely of blood" I said.
"I guess, that makes sense. And again, something we don't have to worry about at this exact moment. What we do need to think about though, is you. Do you need to hunt?" he asked me.
"Yeah, I'm really do, having two kids really takes it out of you." I said, as I went to move out of Jaspers lap.
"Do you think someone will mind watching the babies while we go hunting?" I asked him.
Jasper laughed.
"Bella, you wont need to ask anyone to watch them. I know for a fact that Alice is bouncing around in the hallway, waiting for us to go." Jasper said.
I got up and walked over to the bedroom door and opened it. Jasper was right, Alice was standing there grinning.
"Are you sure you don't mind?" I asked her.
"Of course I don't mind. You need to hunt, and everyone down stairs needs to spoil the babies with attention." She said.
"Thanks, you are a life saver. I'm just going to have a quick shower and then I will bring them down ok." I told her.
"Actually, would you like me to take them now. They are going to be awake in a few minutes, so we can feed them while you two go hunting." She asked.
"Um, yeah sure. As long as you don't mind." I said to her.
"Bella, will you stop saying that. Of course we don't mind. We wouldn't be offering if we minded that much." She said, as she came in and picked up Jackson from the cot.
"I love their names by the way. So cute. Do you mind bringing Lexi with you. I'm not comfortable carrying both of them together yet." She said as she walked out of the room.
Lexi whimpered as I picked her up, but was soon snuggling back into my chest and went back to sleep.
I carried my daughter down stairs and into the living room where everyone was waiting.
Alice sat down on the sofa next to Rose and they both looked at Jackson with smiles on their faces.
"Do you two want to share the other one?" I asked Edward and Emmett, who were sitting on the other sofa.
Edward held his arms out so that I could hand him Alexis. He moved up the sofa so that he would lean against the arm rest, and brought his legs up so that he could rest Alexis against his legs.
"Dude, she said share." Emmett complained.
"You can have her when she wakes up. It shouldn't be too long." Edward answered back.
"Please be carful with them. I don't want to come back to find my children broken." I told them as I went to go back upstairs to take my shower.
"Don't worry, I'll be watching them." Charlotte said as she skipped into the living room from the kitchen.
This would give her a nice chance to spend some time with the babies. She was their big sister after all.
I walked back up stairs and into my room. Jasper was no longer in bed. I couldn't hear him anywhere. I decided to ignore that my husband had wondered off. I wanted a shower more than I wanted him at the moment.
As I walked past the bathroom, the door opened and Jasper pulled me inside. The room was all steamed up because the bath was running.
"What are you doing?" I asked Jasper as I wrapped his arms around me and held me to him.
"I am spoiling you. I thought you would like long, hot bath rather than a shower." Jasper said as he reached behind him to turn the taps off.
"Well the bath was a very lovely idea, but you would only really be spoiling me, if you actually got in there with me." I said, as I ran my hands up and down his arms.
"Then you are going to be extremely spoiled. Because there was no way that I was going to let you get into this bath alone." He said, as he leaned down to kiss me. He kissed me hard and passionately, I wrapped my arms around his neck and held myself to him. Jasper put both his hands on my hips and began tracing small circles with his fingers. Slowly our kiss deepened, as I felt Jasper run his tongue over my lips. I moaned into his mouth, but forced myself to move away from him before anything else happened.
I knew that nothing could happen tonight. Vampire or not, I had just had two children, and my body was hurting and aching. It was a good ache, but it was still a very real reminder of what I had just put myself though, and I had no desire to do that again.
"We have to stop this now before it goes any further." I told Jasper as I moved away from him.
"What makes you think it would have gone further? I was only kissing my extremely beautiful, sexy…" before he could say any more, I put a finger to his lips to quieten him.
"That is exactly why I thought it would go further. Besides, you were kissing me with your seduction kiss." I told him, as I started to undress to get into the bath.
"Seduction kiss? I have no idea what you are talking about. He said as he watched me.
"You have different ways of kissing me when we are together. You have sweet and loving kisses, that you give me whenever you want to just kiss me. You have your seduction kiss, which you have just demonstrated very well, that shows me how much you want to make love to me and tell me how much you love me. You can tell me how much you love me all you want tonight, but I'm not up to having sex." I said as I went over and kissed him lightly on the lips.
"I wasn't kissing you like that to get you into bed. I kissed you like that because I needed a way to show you how much I love. Because words don't even come close to describing how I feel about you at this moment." Jasper said as he wrapped his arms around me.
"Good. As long we are on the same page when it comes to the whole sex thing. Can I get into my bath now?" I asked him, pouting.
"Of course." He said as he let go of me and helped me into the bath.
"Are you planning on joining me?" I asked him.
He smiled at me and began undressing. The bath was full of bubbles that smelled of lavender, and Jasper had also placed about 10 small candles around the edge of the bath.
I moved forward in the bath so that Jasper could get in behind me, in hindsight, it would have been easier for him to get in before me. I felt him move back in the bath so that he was reclining against the back. I moved back so that my back was against his chest, which allowed Jasper to wrap his arms around me.
Me ran one of his hands over my almost flat stomach. The best thing about being a vampire was the rate that you healed. Even pregnancy was no match for my vampire healing skills. I had no doubt that my body would be back to pre-pregnancy within a few days.
"How do you feel?" Jasper asked me from behind me.
"I'm ecstatic. I am so happy that they are finally here, and that we are here with everyone so that they have the chance to be around their family now. But, I am also quite sore, and very hungry. So I am going to need to go hunt very soon." I said as I held onto his hands.
"Not too soon I hope." Jasper said as he kissed the side of my neck.
"What did we talk about before we got in here?" I asked him, as I felt his hand running up and down my leg. I couldn't help but arch my back, as his hands moved up from my legs, to my hips and then on my waist.
"This isn't sex my love, this is simple me showing appreciation of my beautiful wife, the only way that I am able to at the moment." He said, while continuing to kiss me.
I didn't stop him, because for one, I knew that he wouldn't take it any further than touching, and second, I was enjoying it to much.
We stayed in the bath for about half hour before we decided that we really should get out and go hunting. I was still feeling a bit sore from the labour, but not so bad that I couldn't run, at least fast enough to catch something.
When we got out of the bath we got dressed, and then jumped out of the window into the forest outside.
"And why couldn't we have used the door?" I asked him, as I landed.
"Because jumping is more fun, come on." Jasper grabbed m hand and pulled me behind him.
We ran for a few minutes until we found the scent of something. There was a small pack of wolves hunting a herd of deer a few miles away. At this moment in time, the wolves smelt more appealing that the deer.
"What are you going after?" I asked him, as we found the wolves stalking the deer.
"What ever one you don't go after I will. I'm not that thirsty, so go get what you want." He told me. So I did.
It didn't take me long to bring down what I wanted. I knew that I was thirsty, but for some reason, the four wolves that I had taken down weren't helping as much as I thought they would. Jasper had only taken one of the deer's, insisting that he really didn't want anything more. So, I took down the rest of the herd.
"Are you still thirsty?" Jasper asked me.
"No, of course not. I've had more than I should have drank in a fortnight in the last hour. I'm done now." I told him. Lying through my teeth the whole time. I had become very good at hiding my emotions from Jasper. Not that I made a habit of it, I only did it when I knew what I was feeling would hurt, or concern him. Of course, when he found out that I had been hiding my feelings from him he was hurt and concerned anyway, so I don't know why I do it.
Jaspers phone rang from his pocket. As soon as he answered it, I could hear who was talking to him on the other side.
"Hey Jas? Are you going to be much longer?" Edward asked from across the line.
"We shouldn't be to much longer. Why? Is there a problem?" Jasper asked his brother.
"Not a problem really. Lexi is crying for you. She doesn't want to come to any of us." Edward said. I could hear my baby crying in the background, it was very quiet, but she was defiantly crying for something.
"How do you know she is crying for me?" Jasper asked.
"Because, you are the only one she is thinking about. She knows that you and Bella have gone away, and I think she is a bit fed up of us lot." Edward said laughing.
"What about Jackson?" Jasper asked.
"Oh he fell asleep a while ago. I don't even think he knows you have gone anywhere." Edward said.
"Ok, thanks for calling. We'll be home in a little bit." Jasper said before he hung up.
"Are you nearly ready to go?" Jasper asked me.
"Actually, do you mind if I stay out here for a bit. I wont be too long, but I think I still need to hunt." I told him.
"But, I thought you said you wasn't thirsty?" Jasper asked me.
"Yeah, well I still am. I don't know why, but I am. I really shouldn't be long. You go back. Your little girl is looking for you." I told him, knowing that this would make him go back.
"Is this how it is going to be now. You using our children to get your own way?" Jasper asked teasingly.
"Something like that. Yes." I answered.
"Fine, I'll go, but if your not back in a hour, ill be back looking for you." Jasper told me, as he came over to kiss me goodbye.
As I watched Jasper leave, I thought as I only had an hour I may as well get started on finding something else to eat. I started to follow the herd of deer that I had been hunting before, when I caught the scent of something else. Something more…appealing? I don't know what it smelt like, but I knew that I wanted it.
I followed the scent until I heard movement in the forest. I was close.
"Are you sure we're not lost? We lost the path about 20 minutes ago." I heard a voice say from further on.
Oh no! No wonder I had been following. Humans! I knew I could walk away from. I would walk away from this. I caught sight of them through the trees. They were both men, late 20's by the looks of them. I had to think about them both having lives, if they had girlfriends or wives. Children! I turned to walk away from them, even thirstier than I had been in weeks. When the worst thing imaginable happened. One of the men fell on the uneven ground and cut himself. I looked over my shoulder to see one of the men on the ground holding his leg. I smelt the blood before I saw it. That was all it took to push me over the edge.
I blacked out for when felt like 2 seconds, when I came back around it looked like a horror film around me. The two hikers were dead. Necks broken and drained of blood. There was blood all over my hands and my clothes, I then realised that I was no longer thirsty.
I killed them! The realisation that I had done something that I promised myself I would never do dawned on me, and I didn't know what to do. So I cried, and screamed.
What was I going to do? as soon as I calmed down I pulled out my phone and called the only person I could think of who would be able to help me.
So? I've tried to mix up the story a little bit. I know where i want this story to go and i will keep writing it like that. but i need to know what you think about it, so please leave me reviews so i know that i am going in the right direction :) I'll try and update asap :)
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