5 Hours Before
7.30 a.m.
Kensi's house
Kensi wakes up with the sound of her alarm clock. She stops it as quickly as possible and opens her eyes. The sunlight is coming in through the open curtains of her bedroom, making her squint. She's still sleepy and starts thinking that going out with the team last night might have been a mistake.
And, as soon as she feels the warm body pressed against her back, she knows for sure that going out with the team last night was a mistake.
She gets up as fast as she can and covers herself with the nearest towel she can find. "I can't believe this!"
Deeks is awake now, squinting against the light and slightly annoyed. "Good morning to you too…"
Kensi throws a shirt his way and can't help the frustration in her voice. He doesn't get to be that calm while she's freaking out. "Deeks, we had sex last night!"
Deeks puts the shirt and his boxers on before getting up. Still, he looks to calm for her liking. "Listen, last time I checked, we were both adults. The sexual tension was starting to reach a dangerous level, anyway."
She starts pacing, too stressed out with this to do anything else. "No, you can't be that calm. We're partners. This qualifies as crossing the line. We shouldn't have done that."
Deeks sits on the bed and manages to grab her hand to make her stop the pacing. "Kensi, I like you. You know that. I know you know because you can read me like an open book. That means you know how I feel about you."
Despite her nerves, she offers him a very small smile and stands in front of him. "You said there was no thing."
He smiles at her and shakes his head. "Come on, we both know that's not true. Kensi, I want to be with you."
She pulls her hand away from his and takes two steps back before shaking her head and answering him, her voice small. "We can't."
Deeks gets up and stakes two steps forward, until he's standing right in front of her. "Yes, we can. The only thing holding us back is you."
Kensi seems offended with that and doesn't dare to move. He's too close and she's not entirely comfortable with her current state of undress. "What's that supposed to mean?"
He tries to reason with her, tries to explain her what he means. "Come on, Kensi. You know exactly what that means. It means I want to be with you but I can't do it because you won't let me in."
She shakes her head and gets away from him, putting some distance between them. "You need to get out."
That only serves to annoy Deeks who answers her with a certain amount of anger in his voice. He's never been one to respond well to her habit of avoiding things. "That's exactly my point. I'm trying to have a serious conversation with you and you avoid it like the plague."
She shakes her head once again. "There's nothing to talk about. Last night was a mistake and it can't happen again."
Deeks tries to get closer to her but she keeps getting away, not allowing him to get close enough to make her regret her choice. "You know as well as I do that you don't mean that."
Kensi shrugs, acting as if she doesn't care. "Maybe you just don't know me that well."
Deeks knows this is a lost battle and that the best thing he can do is give her some space. But he's having a hard time walking away right now. "It seems like you're trying to convince yourself of that…"
She stubbornly shakes her head once again and avoid eye-contact with him. "Deeks, we're not going to talk about this."
Once again, he can't help the hint of anger in his voice when he answers her. "Fine, we'll handle this your way. But I want to be with you and, when you finally get over your fear and your issues, all you have to do is tell me. I'll wait just don't make me wait too long. We can have something wonderful as long as you trust me enough to let me in."
Kensi nods and keeps her eyes trained on the wall. "I'll see you at work."
Deeks nods. "I'll see you there, princess."
And with that, he walks out of the bedroom and out of the house, leaving a confused sad Kensi behind.
For some reason, he knows she will come around, eventually. He just needs to give her some space and help her trust him as much as he trusts her. She just needs to let him in.
That's all he wants to hear. He just wants to hear her say she will let him in. He can wait…
She's worth it.
AN: Here's Kensi and Deeks chapter. Keep the amazing reviews coming, please. And I will reveal who got shot on the next chapter. Don't miss it.
Love,
Sarah