Chapter 3

"The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch with, never saying a word, and walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had."

Callen tries to stay away for as long as he can but, as it turns out, that's not very long. Kensi is like a little sister to him and just the thought of her going through all this alone makes him sick. That's why he asks Hetty to go visit Kensi. And, after making him promise he wasn't going to pay Deeks a visit, she lets him go. He parks outside her house and sits inside the car for a few minutes.

He's never been in this situation before. He doesn't know what to do or what to say to her. It's new territory and a very scary one. Callen is not completely emotionally detached. He knows something like this takes a tool on people. It's hard for him to imagine she lost a baby. He can't even begin to know what it must feel like for her, the person who was carrying said baby.

Deciding that enough is enough, Callen gets out of the car and walks to her door. After knocking, he only has to wait a few seconds for her to open the door. And nothing could have prepared him to the image he sees. Kensi is absolutely normal. He doesn't know what he was expecting but a smiling Kensi wasn't in his list.

She opens the door wider for him and what he sees keeps surprising him. The house that usually looks like a hurricane went through it is actually very clean today. It's so clean that he can sit on the couch without moving anything away, something he's never been able to do before. Kensi sits across from him and breaks the silence.

"I have ice cold beers in the fridge. Do you want one?"

Callen shakes his head and looks into her eyes, trying to read her. But Kensi is good and her walls are up, shielding anyone that tries to understand what's going through her mind. Just as he's about to say something, Julia walks in with a small smile on her face. Callen can tell by the look on her face that she's worried with her daughter. "Honey, I'm going to start dinner. I'll be in the kitchen, if you need anything."

Kensi nods and Julia disappears into the kitchen. "I keep telling her to go home but she seems ignore me."

Callen nods. "That's because she's worries about you. We all do, Kensi."

Sadness so strong that she can't hide takes over her features as she speaks. "Not everyone does…"

And he doesn't know what to tell her about that. Seeing her so broken, even for a few seconds, makes him want to break the promise he made to Hetty and rip Deeks a new one. But, for some reason, he still has the feeling Deeks might have a good explanation for all this. After all, he's still someone who cares a lot about Kensi. Still, Kensi shakes her head as if to get rid of those thoughts and turns to him once again.

"I'm fine, Callen. You didn't need to come here."

He shakes his head. "Kensi, don't say you're fine because you can't be fine. What happened to you was awful but you can't shut everyone out. You can talk to me."

She takes a deep breath and he sees some unshed tears on her eyes, tears she doesn't allow to escape. "I lost a baby. I lost a baby I didn't even know that existed. And I keep wondering what would be like if I'd noticed earlier. This is my fault, Callen. So it's my burden to bear."

Those words shock him and he scoots closer to her. "Kensi, this is not your fault. And it's not something you have to deal with alone. We're all here for you. Just don't blame yourself for this…"

And, just like that, she breaks down in his arms.

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Deeks surfs until the cold water starts turning him into a shivering mess. So he gets out of the water and starts trying to dry himself off with the towel.

His mind is somewhere far away as he tries to think about anything but Kensi and what happened. It's not working because nothing can take his mind off of her. However, when a strange couple walks to him with a somewhat scary look on their faces, he has the feeling he's about to meet some friends of hers.

And his suspicions are confirmed when the man stops in front of him and starts talking. "Callen and Sam trusted you. We never met but Callen and Sam assured me you were trustworthy and I believed them. I've always trusted their judgment when it comes to that because I know they care about Kensi as much as I do. But it seems like you fooled everyone. You're not half the man she deserves."

That angers him because he doesn't even know this man. "You don't know me and I don't know you. As far as I'm concerned, you have no business talking to me like that."

The man delivers a well-aimed punch to his nose before he has time to react and he's on the floor in seconds. The woman chooses this moment to give a step forward and speak. "Let's put it this way, detective: I'm going to talk to Kensi and if she tells me you're as good as dead to her, you're as good as dead to the world. I don't think I need to be any clearer than that, do I? Let's just say I'm one of the only people in this world who can kill you and leave no forensic evidences behind. Have a good day, Detective."

With that much said, they walk away. And the strangest thing is that Deeks can't blame for this. He got it coming, even though he doesn't know who the hell just punched him or who the hell just threatened him.

AN: I'm cleared to surf! I'm just warning you because that means I'm going to start surfing to make up for the lost time. That means I'm not sure of when I'll be able to update. Between college, friends, parties, boyfriend, family and surf, I don't have much free time on my hands. However, I will do my best to make sure you continue to receive your weekly updates.
Love,
Sarah