Chapter 4
Julia sits next to Kensi, a few minutes after Callen leaves the house. She's not used to see her daughter like this and it's not something that is easy for her to deal with.
And it has nothing to do with the fact that she wasn't around that much while she was growing up. She doesn't know what to do or say in this situation and Kensi seems to want to shut everyone out of her feelings.
It's frustrating for her because she should be the one to comfort her daughter. Sure, Callen tried to help.
But he's not a woman and he doesn't know what this feels like for a woman. Granted, Julia never went through something like this but she can imagine her daughter's pain, especially seeing as Deeks is not around to help her.
Kensi doesn't even look at her and it scares her because it only means she's shielding herself once again, after opening up to Callen. Still, Julia breaks the silence. "Kensi, you can talk to me."
She looks up and meets her mother's eyes. "I know I can, mom. But I don't want to. It's nothing personal…it's just not who I am. I don't open up."
Julia shakes her head. "You seemed to open up with Callen a few minutes ago, though."
Kensi sighs and leans back on the couch, still a bit sore after what happened yesterday. "It's more complicated than that, mom. Callen, as hard as it might be for you to hear this, knows me better than you. He's seen me at my best and at my worst. And I know him too. I'm not saying I like to open up to anyone, not even him, but it's easier. Besides, he always knows what to say and what to do to make me talk."
Julia disguises the sadness she feels upon hearing those words. She can't blame Kensi because the truth is that they don't have the typical mother-daughter relationship. For years, they didn't even talk. This is better. Yesterday, she cried in her arms. So she can deal with this today. "You consider talking to Marty too, Kensi."
Kensi shakes her head immediately. "I can't do that. He hates me and he has the right to."
Julia frowns, having no idea of what her daughter's talking about. "Honey, what makes you think he hates you?"
Julia sees Kensi's eyes tearing up and sees her daughter's effort to keep the tears at bay. "I lost our baby. He has the right to hate me for that. I can't blame him for it."
Finally understanding her daughter's pain, Julia tries to comfort her. "Kensi, he doesn't hate you for that. In fact, I'm sure he doesn't hate you at all. You need to talk to him as soon as possible."
Kensi shakes her head once again. "I can't do that, mom."
Julia nods. "Then let me talk to him. I'll explain him what's going on and he'll come around."
Kensi gets up and looks at her mother pleadingly. "Please, promise me you won't do that. You have to promise me you won't talk to Deeks. Promise me that, mom."
Julia gives in and nods. "I promise you, Kensi."
Kensi seems satisfied with that answer and leaves the living room, walking to her bedroom to lie down for a little while.
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Hetty knocks on the door and waits patiently. She knows Deeks is home because his car and surfboard are there. And he opens the door two minutes later, a look she can't quite read on his face. Still, he lets her in without a word.
Hetty sits on the couch across from his and notices the bruise formed on his nose and eye. "I see you met Mr. Renko."
Deeks shrugs. "I have no idea if who I met. A couple walked up to me and the man punched me. He didn't even say his name and I didn't ask. Who's that guy?"
Hetty sighs. "Let's just say Mike Renko is an even more protective version of Mr. Callen. I made Callen promise me he wouldn't come after you so I'm guessing he called Renko to do that."
"And the woman? She was rather scary…"
Hetty nods with a small smile on her face. "I have no idea but my best guess is probably Abby. She works with another NCIS division."
Deeks takes a deep breath, something that hurts quite a lot given the condition of his nose. "So they already know everything."
Though it's more a statement than a question, Hetty confirms it. "I had to tell them. They had the right to know."
Deeks nods but doesn't say another word. Understanding that he's not in the mood to talk, Hetty ends up leaving, praying those two can solve things between them.
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When Julia hears the knock on the door, she almost hopes that it's Marty on the other side of it. But she opens it and sees the face of a man and a woman she never met before. The frown on her face makes them smile and the woman breaks the silence.
"You must be Kensi's mother. I'm Abby Sciuto and this is Mike Renko. We're her friends and Callen told us what happened. Is it okay if we come in?"
Julia hesitates for a minute but ends up stepping outside and closing the door behind her, making them frown this time. "Kensi's sleeping and there's something I need to know. I promised her I wouldn't talk to Deeks but he needs to know a few things. She didn't even know she was pregnant and is blaming herself for losing the baby. I want to go talk to him."
Renko nods, a bit confused with Julia's words. "What's your question, exactly?"
Julia blurts it out, making him smile because he finally understands where Kensi got that from. "Can you stay here while I go talk to Deeks and make an excuse if she wakes up?"
Abby lets out a small laugh and nods, knowing that she's breaking a promise but also knowing she means well. Besides, she's not entirely convinced that Deeks is a bad guy. Julia motions for them to walk inside the house. She grabs her bag and leaves, hoping that this will solve things between her daughter and the man who loves her.
Abby and Renko just sit and wait, not wanting to wake up Kensi.
I'm sorry it took this long to update my stories but I started college this year and my doctor told me I could surf again two weeks ago. I've been busy with surf, parties, study and family. I'm sorry. But it's starting to get easier and I've learned how to work with only 5 hours of sleep. With that said, updates will become regular once again or so I hope.
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