Story #3: Unthinkable

Moment of honesty
Someone's gotta take the lead tonight
Whose it gonna be?
I'm gonna sit right here
And tell you all that comes to me
If you have something to say
You should say it right now
(You should say it right now)
You ready?

"Talk is cheap, Jason. And your actions speak louder than your words. If you forgave me, like you said, then why didn't I get my second chance? Or rather my first real chance?"

"Carly, you were in love with Sonny," he sighed sadly, grasping for the only defense he could think of.

"Bullshit! I begged you to take me and Michael away, but you just kept pushing until I was convinced you wanted me with Sonny." She looked into his eyes steadily and they were suddenly more sober than only seconds before. "Why could you never forgive me?"

"Because you hurt me! So I closed off the part of me that you could touch," he finally whispered. "I thought if I kept you away, you'd never hurt me again. Because no one has ever hurt me like you."

"Because no can make you feel more. Because no one can love you more." She laughed tearily as she pulled her knees into her chest. "You know what's funny? You were always afraid of me wrecking you, but you were always more responsible for wrecking me than anyone. You made me trust you only to betray me, and then abandoned me with that psycho Sonny. And don't ever defend him to me again. I lied about his part in my breakdown. You know it was you. I could feel you slipping away, then you looked into my eyes as if I were a stranger and abandoned me all over again."

"I never betrayed you, Carly. I—"

"Oh, please. You betrayed me the second my back was turned. You always asked me when I started losing faith in you. Well, I'm done trying to spare your feelings. It was that day in the Port Charles Grille when you nonchalantly admitted that Robin knew. Then, later, you admitted that Sonny knew. Two people who hated me more than anything and you trusted them with my son… the child that was supposed to be ours, but even he wasn't more important than your allegiances to Sonny and Robin. This was the woman who had already proven that she could not be trusted because she had already betrayed you by asking Sonny to fire you."

"I'm sorry," he whispered.

"Then she turns around and puts our child in danger not once, but twice over Tony. First, by trying to 'talk sense' into Tony, and getting herself kidnapped. Then, by testifying on his behalf at his trial."

"Carly," he rasped tears filling his throat as he began to finally see where they had gone wrong years ago.

Carly continued as if she couldn't hear him, "None of that was enough for you to see because even after all that, you brought her into my home and let her play replacement mommy in my absence. You moved me out of my home and tried to make me accept your rules at her Martha Stewart knockoff cottage. All I ever dreamed about was us together and in love and finally a family. Why could you never give me that?"

You give me a feeling that I never felt before
And I deserve it, I think I deserve it
It's becoming something that's impossible to ignore
And I can't take it

Jason pulled her into his arms as she cried out all of her pain and confusion. He felt something on his face, and reached up to find it was his own tears.

"I didn't know, Carly, and I'm so sorry I never realized," he whispered beginning to feel whole as he just sat there holding her through the worst of her sobs. "I never meant to hurt you. Never."

As her sobs subsided, the hands that clung to his shirt became stronger and more sure. He looked down at her tear-streaked face and brushed the moisture away. He began kissing her eyes, her cheeks, her nose, and the corners of her mouth. Carly remained still under his tender onslaught as if in fear of frightening him away.

When his mouth reached hers, his lips brushed the gentlest kiss over her mouth. Her lips tingled from the feel of his mouth touching hers, but she was shocked when he brushed another slightly more firm kiss.

I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable would it make us look crazy
If you ask me I'm ready
([Echo:] I'm ready, I'm ready)
If you ask me I'm ready
([Echo:] I'm ready, I'm ready)

Carly had been waiting for this moment since she realized she was in love with him. Jason was kissing her. HE was kissing HER! And the kiss that had started so tender and sweet was steadily deepening and growing in passion until she almost lost all sense of time and place.

"Jason, wait," Carly gasped pulling away. "I—"

"Let me love you, Carly," he begged breathing heavily. "Let me love you the way you always deserved. Can't you feel it?"

I know you once said to me
"This is exactly how it should feel when it's meant to be."
Time is only wasting so why wait for eventually?
If we gon' do something 'bout it,
We should do it right now.
(We should do it right now.)
Baby, uh

With every kiss, Jason felt more alive than he had in years. And each new sensation was like a new part of him being unleashed. Jason finally understood what Carly had been saying to him all these years. He had let himself overthink his whole life and now he was feeling everything. Not just the bare minimums he'd allowed himself with Carly over the years, but everything. Every thought, feeling, and emotion he'd held locked away, all of the love and passion and tenderness, he was giving to her.

You give me a feeling that I never felt before
And I deserve it, I know I deserve it.
It's becoming something that's impossible to ignore.
It's what we make it.

He'd tried to have this with other women, but they were never her. They emotions were never this strong. The highs were never as high, just like the lows were never so low. He could feel her under his skin. Her moans were like the sweetest music. Her flavors were as addictive as ever. Her every touch perfect in every way. It was like she knew when to be gentle and when he needed more. She knew his body, his mind, and his heart better than anyone, and they were finally making love and it was more than he'd ever hoped

I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby?
If we do the unthinkable, would it make us look crazy?
Or would it be so beautiful? Either way I'm sayin'.
If you ask me, I'm ready.
([Echo:] I'm ready I'm ready)
If you ask me, I'm ready.
([Echo:] I'm ready)

Why give up before we try
Feel the lows before the highs
Clip our wings before we fly away
I can't say I came prepared
I'm suspended in the air
Won't you come be in the sky with me

She had never felt like this with anyone, except Jason, but even now, it was more. The feel of his hand and mouth on her body took her to new heights. But with every second that passed, fear grew with a sense of elation. What if he stopped? What if he rejected her yet again? How would she ever be okay again?

When she couldn't stand the wait any longer, he seemed to know. His head rose from her body and his gaze locked with hers, as he hovered just outside of her.

"I'm ready," she whispered reading the question in his eyes, which darkened upon hearing her response.

He plunged deeply, his gaze never releasing hers. Together they drove themselves to a peak neither had ever experienced. When they reached completion and their bodies lay sated, Carly turned to Jason and whispered something that stopped his heart.

I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable would it make us look crazy
Or would it be so beautiful either way I'm sayin'
If you ask me I'm ready
([Echo:] I'm ready, I'm ready)
If you ask me I'm ready
([Echo:] I'm ready, I'm ready)
~Un-Thinkable (I'm Ready), Alicia Keyes

Thank you for letting me come home, Jase.

The words echoed through his mind as he held her in her sleep. Had that been what that was? Coming home? It had certainly been the most powerful lovemaking of his entire life, but was he really ready throw away everything he'd built with Sam for a chance with Carly? He knew the answer to the question immediately as looked at Carly. The real question was if he was truly ready to lose a woman he had loved for so long to do it.