SWISS CHEESE
She could not take it, her heart was Swiss cheese. She just felt so empty. The school day seemed to drag on, on and on. She wanted him. She would imagine that he was in class as she waited for him at their special place. She sat on the carpeted floor, her laptop on her lap, her headphones plugged right on her newly pierced ears as she let Taylor swift songs blast and only hitting repeat when the song had ended. Other than that she would, motionless.
She just had finished her math class, her heart dropped to her stomach and she had the urge to vomit. She carefully made her way towards the door, hopelessly hoping that he would be there. But she was faced with the usual student waiting for the class to start and her smile fell, and she felt lonely. Guilt was a close second, (for you see last time she had math on Tuesday they had a huge agreement and he still stood, back to the wall, his green eyes showed remorse, sadness, his usual smirk adored his face but his lips said otherwise, She had at that moment knew how truly lucky she was) she let her eyes gloss a simmer but decided to wrap her arms around her books and once again go to their place.
Sitting on the floor she managed to close her blue eyes and pictured that her lover was sitting next to her, she could smell his boyish scent fill her nostrils, she felt his arms around her stomach, she felt his right hand rub her back, a shiver went down her spine, a blush crippled upon her face, as she pictured him whispering in her ear, kidding that he needed to practice some French with her. Automatically she felt, better but yet couldn't shake off the feeling of longing.
Feeling something wet across her face she reached her fingertips and wiped the single tear that had slipped through her tough exterior, she felt the roughness of her finger, getting mad at her because it didn't feel quite like he did it. He was gentle with her as he would wipe her tears away, forcing her blue orbs to meet his as he would curse himself for making her unintentionally cry, he wanted to turn back time at that moment and stop himself from letting such sorrow touch his beautiful angel. Frustration grew as she thought to herself "stop it! You don't want him to see you cry. He would be so hurt. It's a big opportunity, don't be selfish!" so she would rub both running eyes in attempt to stop them from forming, she wanted to dissolve them and it frustrated her because the more she rubbed the more selfish she felt. How could she be so selfish? Her boyfriend was elected to go to New York for a playwright competition, he would be gone for 4 days at the most and here she was- crying like she would never see him again. But that's what she felt, she felt like her heart was full of holes, she felt so alone, she felt like everything was wrong, it was incorrect, it was…just broken.
She remembered the last few days how excited he was, he was practically beaming once he saw her, kissed her with so much passion that she got a bit dizzy that she almost failed to hear "I got elected! I'm going to new York!" almost. She was frozen as he kept kissing her, she let her mind rewind and she felt her heart tear a smidge, but the boy was too excited to notice as his best friend came over and a congratulations was heard followed by a high five, she bit down her lip, and masked her feelings as she agreed to go to the dot and celebrate the news, what kind of girlfriend would she be if she didn't go?
Glancing at her phone for what felt like the million time she saw that he did text her a good morning text like usual her stupid phone just got off the network and delayed her getting the text, she felt happy for what seemed the first time that day, letting a quick but meaningful text back to him she felt a smile form as she saw the green check sign appear, placing her phone down she felt a weight lifted off her shoulders knowing that he hasn't completely forgotten about her.
One hour later…..she received a text, a simple "I miss you too" and she felt that new found happiness erase completely, turning off her phone, she packed up her laptop, she packed up all her belongs walked down the stairs from their place, out the doors, with a face free of tears, but a heart smashed into multiple pieces.
Author's note: it's been far TOO long! Sorry with college and work I haven't completely lost my mind yet! I felt extremely sad so I came up with this, sort of similar to my current situation. I hope you don't mind I didn't really have a pov this time! xP I hope this makes up for my absence!