"Rose, I don't know what to say." Dr. Oledzski said.

I felt my heart drop. It meant bad right?

"Just said it doc. I can handle it. I'm a big girl right?" I said while joking. She smiled at my joke and just shaken her head.

"Oh Rose…" she whispered. "I love your humor." She said smiling.

"Well, no body can't not love me." I grinned.

"If that's what you want. Your cancer, it seems like the spreading process is faster than we predict... if it's continue like this I don't know how much time you'll have." She said sadly.

"Just tell me doc. what's your prediction?"

"Less than a year." She stated.

Oh well, I'm numb. But my mind, it was going into paralyzed mode.