(Their first time)
"I want to make love to you all day Ava. I want to taste you and feel you cuming beneath me. I want to smell you on my skin and hear you moaning my name over and over again. I have months, years worth of fantasies all staring you naked and sweaty any and everywhere I can have you" Ava had the stretched big eyes again but Ashlee plowed on "I'm not scared about wanting you Ava. I I'm just scared I won't be enough for you."
In two days Ashlee would be leaving Springfield and Ava didn't know how she was going to deal with waiting three more months until June before they were together permanently. Yes she was going to be in California for a week next month to finish up her move from the apartment and Ashlee would be in Springfield for spring break but would it be enough? Their relationship was still new and now it was going to be over and even longer distance. Distance had always been a factor but until now they at least had the weekends. Now they would not even have that consolation. Would Ashlee really want to continue this once she saw all the things she was missing because Ava was two time zones away? The younger woman had her entire life before her was it even fair to ask her to limit herself simply because Ava lived in Springfield. When she moved her arm from across her eyes Ava looked up into the most beautiful blue eyes she'd ever seen. The thought of Ashlee not loving her was more than she could handle in this vulnerable state.
"Were you even listening to me?" Ashlee laughed and rubbed her stomach underneath the hospital dressing gown.
"Umm what do you think?" Ava asked and batted her lashes hoping that her obvious flirting would distract the blond.
Ashlee narrowed her eyes before responding "I think that you're trying real hard to get into trouble" and then leaned low to whisper in Ava's ear before adding "and it might be working." When Ava turned to make trademarked snark her breath caught looking at the sun from the window sparkling in the golden hair. Time stood still and both openly gazed at the other in wonder and awe. Two months ago Ava had floundered from coming between two relationships. Everyone commented how devoted Jake was to his family before she arrived and Doris was Olivia's best and dearest friend in years. She had gone from being a pariah to the love of Ashlee Wolf's life and the fortune of it left her gasping in wonder. So of course just as they leaned towards each other to kiss the doctor would come in holding charts, files, and ex-rays.
Ava was pronounced healed and Ashlee could in good conscious return to school. There was still a huge ugly scar that Ashlee mistakenly thought sexy and she was facing several months of physical therapy to regain the muscle mass and flexibility but she was healthy and safe. They both were trying their best to remain focused once the orthopedist made his diagnosis but both their minds were on getting back to the Beacon as soon as possible. Ava knew that she was better and had been trying to seduce Ashlee for the past week but the younger woman refused to compromise Ava's health.
To say that it had been a trying two weeks was an understatement. They were back at the Beacon after watching Emma at the farmhouse while Natalia and Francesca were still at the hospital. It had not been so bad for the few days they were there. Neither of them wanted to start something that Emma might burst through the door and interrupt but the suite was only so big. They usually showered, ate, and spend all day with each other. Instead of only making them more irritable and short tempered it spiked their already obvious physical attraction to each other. Not only were they both in less than perfect health they there was no weekday reprieve as in California. If something did not happen soon someone was going to combust.
"Do you want to do something while we are out or do you want to go back to the hotel?" Ashlee asked in what she hoped was a smooth and calm voice. Oh please if there is a God in heaven don't let her want to do something other than me Ashlee silently prayed. The week before the mugging Ashlee had spent most of her free time researching online every possible position to bring Ava the most pleasure while they made love. If that idiot hadn't attempted to mug them they would already be lovers. She would already know what Ava tasted like and how she smelled and the way she sounded when she… "Sweet lord" Ashlee groaned as she let down the window.
"What did you say?"
Shaking her foggy head Ashlee quickly said "Nothing" and tried her best to figure out what Ava had just said.
"You okay Ash?"
"Yes, of course. So did you want to see a movie or go to the mall?"
"You know that I would do anything to make you happy right?"
Laughing Ashlee looked over to the other woman sensing that she had to fight against dark looming thoughts. "Does that mean that you're going to let me hold your credit card?"
"I'm serious. You're young and just starting off on your own. I don't want you to feel like you have to settle down or give up your freedom for…"
"Stop okay." Ashlee interrupted "we've already been through this. I don't need to sleep with a bunch of different people to know what's right in front of me. I don't want freedom. I want you." The genuineness and purity of the statement left Ava breathless and she could only smile gently towards her love. "So your chariot awaits word my lady." Ashlee said trying to keep her words and tone light. She did not want Ava to feel pressured about them making love although if they didn't now, that only left tonight and tomorrow afternoon. There was little hope out for the mornings because Ava was barely coherent before ten Ashlee realized.
She loved Ava enough to wait forever but the thought of flying all the way to California without once getting off would cause her to drink heavily. It had been two weeks since they checked into the Beacon and she was in considerable pain most of those days but when she felt better she was still unable to relax enough to orgasm. She had tried but Ava was with her all the time and if Ashlee was unaccounted for Ava came looking. Besides she felt guilty for the one or two minutes she was away on actual errands. Ashlee could have just done in front of Ava the older woman was certainly open enough but even the idea of doing that alone got her flustered it would have been a disaster with Ava watching. More importantly it wasn't how she imagined their first coupling. There was supposed to be wine, dancing, and music and they would shout out each other's name as they simultaneously combusted.
"Well?" Ashlee said as she took a deep breath as she felt sweat drip down her back.
"So now whose is ignoring who?"
"I wasn't ignoring you I was just thinking."
"About?" Ava asked but Ashlee could only open her mouth widely several times and attempt to clear her throat. "That good uh?" Ava laughed as Ashlee blushed brightly. "Baby the only place I want be is the Beacon making love with you."
"We don't have to do anything just because of what the doctor said. I don't want you to feel like."
"Ash, do you want to make love to me?" Ava asked unwilling to let her girlfriend's selfless and considerate nature miss let them this opportunity. At the sight of Ashlee's flushed nod Ava continued "Good because I want to make love to you. So why the hell would we waste our time at a movie?" She had always known that Ava was a genius.
As they walked through the lobby Ava excused herself to order their meal from the restaurant and told Ashlee she'd be up soon. Ashlee could not help but feel self-conscious. Had she remembered to shave, should she take a shower just in case, and tried to remember what she'd eaten for breakfast. By this time tomorrow Ava and she would be lovers in every sense of the word and she couldn't help wondering again if she would be enough. She wasn't a virgin and she felt fairly confident that she could please Ava but she could never give Ava the material wealth that Bill and Alan-Michael offered or the respectability that Remy or Coop did.
"The food will be here in an hour. Did you want to take a shower before we eat?" Ava said from the doorway. Neither shy nor reserved were words that could be attributed to Ava but when Ashlee looked up that's exactly how the older woman looked. She was playing with her cuticles and looking down at her feet. Both were habits when Ava felt less than confident. The fact that Ava was just as unsure as she was somehow boosted Ashlee's own certainty. The other woman might have had more experience but she'd also had more heartbreak and disappointment. Every other person Ava ever shared herself with walked away. Whether it was because they grew bored or exhausted from Ava's self-destructive demands they all left her heart more torn and battered than before. Ava was probably thinking of all the previous times that the promised forever was supposed to last. Ashlee was determined to be different. She would never walk away and Ava would never be strong enough to push her away.
"Yeah I'm going to take a bath" Ashlee said softly and made sure to keep her eyes trained on Ava's as she gathered her things. "Are you going to join me?" she asked she dropped her clothing at the door. This was far from their first naked encounter but Ashlee could not help but to feel nervous although she tried her best to keep her limbs from shaking. A thousand images of the upcoming night flew through her mind each more stimulating than the last but she tried her best to focus and stay in the moment. Ashlee was determined that they share at least half a century together but there would never be another first time.
"Our foods getting cold" Ava said as she climbed out of the tub and held a towel open. Never had her senses been so heightened. Everything she'd ever wanted was before her. Ashlee was everything she hadn't even dreamed was possible. It made her ashamed that the younger woman was so anxious about pleasing her. Ashlee had only shared her body with the only man she'd ever loved and it was unfair that she was the one that felt inadequate. For so long Ava used her body as nothing more than a commodity for necessary needs and superfluous desires. It was exactly what Catherine had raised her to detest and what she'd hypocritically accused of Olivia. Now all she wanted was to be worthy of her girlfriend's affections.
They ate in silence and mounting tension and both had to take deep breaths to push down fears and insecurities. Ava had avoided ordering any alcohol but now she was wondering if it was such a good idea. "Hey, its okay we don't have to do anything that you aren't comfortable with." It was what she'd practiced saying for months at this moment but was surprised to hear them uttered by her dinner companion instead. When she looked up Ashlee reached for her hand and kissed the palm softly. "Ava I will love you for the rest of my life. I would be honored to spend the night just holding you."
"How do you do that?" Ava asked as she looked down at her cold plate and smiled.
"Do what? Love you?" Ashlee asked with smoldering stare. "It's what I was made for. It's the only thing that I know for sure."
Ava wasn't so sure how their roles were reversed but she was enjoying being the object of Ashlee's passionate ardor. She was supposed to be the one easing Ashlee into the next phase of their relationship but Ava had learned long ago never to underestimate the blond. "I know that I can't bare another night without you." Standing up and holding out a hand Ava pulled Ashlee into her arms and kissed her lips softly before hugging her tight. "Let me love you."
"For the rest of my life."
It was not what she expected. It wasn't anything like the DVDs or online videos had described. Ashlee could not even imagine that anything on earth could be so soft and inviting. Falling into Ava was literally like falling into heaven. She had not wanted to rush like a horny teenage boy but dear God she didn't know if Ava would ever be safe with her again. It wasn't just the rush from hearing Ava chant her name or the jolt from Ava's nails raking up and down her back but the absolute knowledge that of all the people that had ever been with Ava she would be the last. Ava could have anyone yet she only wanted her. That's what pushed her over the edge. That is what kept her thrusting and straining even when her muscles cramped and groaned in protest.
"I love you."
"I know."
"I'm never going to get enough of you."
"I kind of figured that since you've held me hostage on this bed for the last" Ava said leaning over best she could towards the alarm clock. It took some effort since Ashlee adamantly refused to give up playing with her two favorite toys. She'd enthusiastically enjoyed Ava's breast since the beginning of their relationship. Yet now there was the added attraction of Ava's sex weeping against her stilled thigh while she licked and sucked. Ashlee didn't intend to stop until Ava orgasmed from that stimulation alone. "hour and a half" Ava groaned.
"Too bad." Ashlee said without pity as she continued to rub the tip of her tongue against Ava's nipples and areolas. "I have thirty hours and I intend to take my time saying goodbye to my two favorite girls." Ava used to think that Ashlee's preoccupation with her mammary glands was just a front to make Ava feel better about her less than impressive bust however recent events was calling this theory into question. Ava had never had a love that was so intrigued or enamored with her 32 c's before. Damned if Ashlee's persistence wasn't taking her to the edge despite herself. Ava had tried everything she knew to get Ashlee's fingers where she needed them most or even to grind against her so that Ava could get herself off. Ashlee refused and held Ava's frame rigid against herself.
"Baby please" Ava begged with tears forming.
Ashlee stopped long enough to say "You'll never have another lover Ava. Never." Before biting Ava's nipple hard and held on tight as her girlfriend shock in ecstasy.