Once again, thank you to Rosaliethropp. She gives this story its final touch and she helped me a lot with the Alex part in this chapter. You guys need to read her mikita fanfic Insecurity because it's genius and really well written.

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Sometimes in life the most unexpected things seem to happen when you least expect it. When something unexpected happens you tend to be surprised by it, even though deep inside you always knew that there was a slight possibility that it could happen.

The thought had occurred in your mind before, so it wasn't brand new. But what happens when you didn't even consider the possibility before; when that thought had never crossed your mind?

Alex learned at a very young age that her life had a tendency to take unpredictable twists; peace and quiet didn't exist in her world. After a while though, she started to get used to the "everything-can-happen" feeling.

But this, in a very complex way, had turned her life upside down. She didn't exactly know why, but it had. The idea that a life grew inside of Nikita; that she was becoming a mother, that she would be a parent…it used to be so far off.

And in some way, it was real now.

If Alex felt quite conflicted with her feelings towards Nikita before, this changed everything. She never thought she could actually take Nikita's life, but now she was sure she'd never be able to even hurt her. That ship had sailed two seconds ago when she felt the growing bump on her former trainer's stomach.

She could never hurt the child or its parents; she could never pass on her misery to another innocent child. She could never do the same thing Nikita had done to her many years ago. This baby deserved to grown up with both parents.

"This changes everything" Alex said her thoughts out loud.

And just like that, her revenge lust against Nikita was gone.

Alex muscles finally relaxed and Nikita carefully loosened her grip. Alex just numbly stared at Nikita; not a word slipped from her lips. Alex didn't know what to say or how to react.

What now? She asked herself.

"This is why" Nikita repeated, taking a deep breath.

"I...I don't get it" Alex said, confused. Her voice was shakier that she cared to admit "Why Nikita, why would you want to have a baby now? In the middle of all this mess?"

Nikita laughed a humorless laugh "You don't really think actually planned this, do you?" Nikita's voice softened "No, we didn't mean for it to happen, but it did and we're very thankful for that. My life completely changed…being pregnant put a lot of things in perspective for me, made me think about a lot of things I've done in my life"

Alex looked at her, still confused. She didn't know were Nikita was trying to get with this conversation.

"And it also made me think a lot about you. There's something I wanted to tell you, that I should've said a long time ago" she continued with a sigh, her gaze far off "sometimes people makes mistakes, they are convinced that what they are doing the right thing; for themselves and for others in their surroundings. All they want to do is to protect but sometimes they end up harming instead..."

"What are you saying Nikita?" Alex questioned, realizing her former sensei seemed deep in thought.

Nikita looked at her, as if suddenly remembering the girl's presence.

"What I'm trying to say is…" she looked deeply into Alex's eyes "If I could do it all over again I would choose another path. I should have been honest to you from the beginning. I'm really sorry, Alex. I lied to you, and I broke you trust, and that lead you to a path where revenge was the only option. And I'm really, really sorry for that."

If Alex felt shocked before, this threw her completely off her game. Not only Nikita was pregnant, but she was also apologizing?

"Alex, are you okay?" Nikita asked, feeling quite worried when her former partner's skin tone changed to a paler color.

"Yeah" Alex voice had softened as well and her eyes were trailing down from Nikita's eyes to her stomach, again "It's just…too much information to get in 30 seconds"

Only now Alex realized how healthy Nikita looked. She had an aura around her and she was literally glowing. She had gained a few pounds, the bags under her eyes were gone and her cheeks had a soft pink tone.

"You seem happy" Alex stated.

"I am" Nikita agreed with a smile.

"Ohh…" Alex nodded, and suddenly felt her eyes swelling with tears "How does it feel like?" she asked, her voice almost breaking.

She didn't quite knew why she was crying. She wasn't jealous of Nikita; she was in fact happy for her. But seeing her sensei's happiness, she couldn't help but feeling sad. Sad for herself.

Nikita saw the unshed tears on Alex's eyes and felt her heart ache for the young girl. She could imagine how unhappy Alex was feeling, and how much she wanted to feel okay again.

"Alex" she said unsurely "Love and happiness comes when you least expect it, even in the worst case scenario. It makes you look at life another way; I actually allowed myself to be happy these days. And I want you to be happy as well" she cooed, her words more sincere than ever "I can still manage to get you out of that hell whole. You can come here, help us and we can help you, as a family" Nikita knew Alex wanted it more than anything, and wanted to give the girl some options.

Alex eyes glanced down at Nikita's growing bump again.

"This baby" she said looking at Nikita's abdomen "changes a few things." She sighed "Look, I won't be standing in your way. You're free to do what you have to do. I just expect you to do the same for me" Alex said, swallowing the lump on her throat.

Nikita sighed, not really understanding Alex's resistance in accepting her help.

However, she conceded "I promise you, I won't be standing in your way as long you don't hurt my family. I want a safe future for this child"

"I won't antagonize you anymore. I wouldn't dream of taking a child's future away" Alex said, and Nikita looked down to the floor, a wave of guilt running through her body .

Absent-mindedly, Alex took a few steps closer Nikita "Can I?" she asked very shyly.

"Of course" Alex laid her hand on Nikita's stomach and Nikita re-positioned her hand a little bit so Alex could feel when the baby kicked.

"I'm feeling it" Alex said and chuckled. For the first time Alex smiled a happy and joyful smile. She was fascinated, she had never felt a baby kick before "well that's one little determinate fellow you have in there."

Nikita smiled "Oh you have no idea."

"How far along are you?" Alex asked

"Twelve weeks, soon thirteen" She answered.

"Boy or girl?" Alex continued. She couldn't help to asking; she felt joy spreading in her body, she wanted to know more, she wanted to be a part of this with Birkhoff, Nikita and Michael, a part of the family.

She stopped her own thoughts right there. What was she doing? She had her own goals now, and she just couldn't

"We don't know yet" Nikita answered with a big smile on her face. "I think it's a boy, Michael is convinced that it's a girl" Nikita continued to ramble on about her pregnancy.

"So, how does Michael feel about all this? And Birkhoff? Is he freaked out already?" the young agent asked, stepping away from Nikita, trying to create some distance between them so her thoughts wouldn't dwell on her utopic dreams.

"Well you know Michael, he is more overprotective than ever. He doesn't let me go anywhere without a bulletproof vest on, he keeps asking me all the time about how I'm feeling, and now he started to monitor everything I eat" she chuckled "But he's a real gentleman"

"…And I imagine that you are using that to your advantage."

"You betcha. It's really comfortable. He always does everything I ask him to do, if you know what I mean" she said and laughed.

"Eww, Nikita" Alex closed her eyes and shook her head, as if trying to get rid of a mental picture "Don't even go there"

Nikita laughed and ignored the girl's protest.

"Birkhoff is more excited than us" Nikita said and laughed again " You should see him, he's going to decorate the baby's room and he's all excited about it. We are so lucky to have him, he really helps us. He's looking forward to be an uncle, have a child crawling around these floors."

Alex just kept smiling. As much as she tried, she couldn't stop. She wanted this, a family. She wanted to see this baby grow up; she'd be 'cool Aunt Alex.'

She missed Birkhoff as well, he was like an older brother to her; he'd always been there for her, helped her, and even teased her.

She smiled at the thought, but soon her smile vanished as reality kicked back in, and she realized she couldn't have that. She still had her problems to figure out and she knew she couldn't be close to Nikita and her family until all was over; it would put them in jeopardy.

"I should probably get going" Alex said, her smile fading.

Nikita realized the sorrow in the girl's words; as Alex, Nikita knew Alex's presence was dangerous for them; after all she was still working with Division.

"Yeah you should, Michael and Birkhoff will be back any second and if Michael sees you he'll probably shoot you before I have time to explain everything." She said, trying to lighten the mood.

Alex giggled "You are right, that's one overprotective daddy" she tried to joke, but she wasn't feeling very gleeful. Now that she had to leave, she was feeling rather melancholic.

A anxious silence filled the room as neither of them knew how to proceed. Alex was the first one to take some action, and though she hesitated for a few seconds, she walked towards Nikita and hugged her.

Nikita tightened her hold on the young girl; over the almost two years they'd spent together, she'd grown to care deeply for the girl, like an older sister or a very different kind of maternal figure.

And truth was, she missed Alex.

Not only Alex, but she missed having a feminine companion. Sure, she loved being around Michael and Birkhoff, they were great, but she missed having the kinds of conversation that a woman can only have with another woman.

"Guess we will run into each other soon again" Nikita said "You are welcome here any time" Nikita said, hoping to see Alex again soon "Just ring the doorbell next time, and don't try to steal my black box…" She said and winked

"Maybe I will" The young girl said. And in the blink of an eye, the young assassin was gone.

-x-

"Well that went well," Birkhoff said as he closed the front door.

"If well means hiding behind my back for one hour and a half, I would said that it went extraordinary"

" Pff, I did not do that" Birkhoff said rolling his eyes.

Michael entered the living room. "I got a toy for you" Michael said, expecting Nikita to be in the living room. But she wasn't.

"Nikita?" he called her again. His chest heaved and he took a deep breath, trying not to panic; he was starting to worry.

What if something happened to her?His mind screamed. What if, what if.

His thoughts were interrupted by the sound of Nikita's low voice; he approached their bedroom and saw her lying in bed, wearing only a red bikini. She was lovingly caressing her baby bump, whispering a few words to the baby. He couldn't quite hear what she was saying, but he knew she was having a moment with their child, so he decided to give her some privacy.

As he got back in the hallway to return to the living room, he accidentally knocked a vase from a small table on the corridor.

"Dammit!" he exclaimed.

"Michael?" she called him, recognizing his voice.

"Yeah, I'm home" he said, and before he could reach their room again, Nikita came out from their joined bedroom.

"Hey" she smiled and clapped her hands in excitement "You're back!"

Michael couldn't help but smile "How's my baby been since the last three hours?" he said and bent down to kiss her womb.

"No appreciation for the woman that's carrying you child, huh?" she teased him and laughed.

"Wait for your turn" Michael said with a smirk.

"Well for your information, we had a visit." Michael went from loving dad to over protected dad in a split second.

"What? Who? When?" He said and raised his voice

"Calm down" Nikita said with a sharp voice "It was Alex"

"Alex?" he repeated even louder.

In the living room, Birkhoff was making his way to the couch where his laptop was, when he heard the altered voices.

"Did I hear Alex's name?" he said while turning on his laptop "What happened?" he asked when the couple emerged from the hallway. He took out a bag of Cheetos and started to watch Michael and Nikita like they were an entertainment show on television.

"She broke in through our bedroom window." Nikita started.

"Glass wall" Birkhoff corrected her.

Nikita rolled her eyes and continued "She was looking for the black box. I noticed her, we fought a bit and then I told her about our little ass kicker in here" she said and moved her hand to gently stroke her abdomen.

"Wait, you told her?" Michael frowned "Are you insane?"

"She's not dangerous, Michael. She's just a kid, for Christ sake. And she's confused, I was trying to help her" Michael closed his eyes in irritation and pinched the bridge of his nose. Nikita rolled her eyes "And yes, I told her about the baby. She deserves to know. She belongs to this family as well" she said, slightly annoyed.

Michael just gave her his characteristic look of disapproval and twitched his lips.

"Michael" Nikita said and tilted his chin up "She's only a girl who made a few wrong choices in the past, but she's still a part of my life, I feel responsible for her. She doesn't know what she's doing. She needs guidance"

"That's the problem Nikita." Michael responded "She don't know what she's doing. How do you know she won't run along to Amanda and tell her everything about us, out location, our baby, everything."

" She won't. Please Michael I need you to trust me with this. I know Alex, she will never tell Amanda. The girl was about to cry in happiness when she felt the baby's kicks. She just wants a family, some sense of security. You know that deep down she's just a girl who wants to feel loved."

Michael sighed "I still don't trust her. She's a good actress. She faked it pretty well in division."

"Michael, I trust her and that should be enough for you. And I know that you of all people in the world know where she's coming from. She wanted revenge because she hoped that way she'd find a way to cope with her family's death. But that's not the way, and she needs to make her own mistakes to realized that, and learn from it"

Michael's arms encircled her waist and he pulled her closer to him. "Nikita, I find it hard to trust her again" he said, and she looked at him with pleading eyes. And he couldn't resist her. He sighed again "But you are right; I know where she is coming from. I just hope you are right."

"I know I am right" Nikita said and chuckled. "Give her a few weeks, she will come around again. She doesn't know it yet, but she's not searching for revenge. She's searching for a family. And we'll be here when she comes back" she said and looked over at Birkhoff that now had was balancing the laptop on his knees.

"So, if you are finished I would like to announce that you to are flying to Moscow tomorrow, 9pm. You are now Saphira Claude 29 years old" he threw the passports at Nikita what caught them with one hand "…and you are Eric smith 36 years old" he said looking at Michael.

"Seriously, you made us older?" Nikita said with a disapproving look, and handed Michael's passport over to him.

"Stop complaining. I'm not done yet. I got a trace on Owen. Actually, it's more like Goggle. There will be a meeting between him and Ari on a hotel in the middle of Moscow. It's originally a dance studio and there will be a big contest happening at the same time, so I signed you up. Its tango" he said while giving them a piece of paper and a knowing look.

"Pair dance, tango, that's not a new one" Nikita said and laughed "I think we can handle it" she said and looked at Michael "That was only an excuse to touch you affectionately on my first years in Division" She whispered to Michael and winked.

-x-

"Alright everybody pick a partner" Amanda said to the room full of recruits "And this partner is your constant partner through your whole time division. And since we are uneven I bought in Michael today as well. So, what are you waiting for lets go"

Nikita took a few determinate steps towards the man that stood across the room. But before she could reach him, someone else reached him before she did.

Nikita's face was filled with anger when Kelly took Michael's hand.

"Oh I'm sorry Kelly" she said, even though her expression said she was obviously not sorry at all. Nikita continued with a restrained voice "but Michael and I kind of need to dance together, since I'm an activated agent now. We're actually having a mission together that involves dancing soon, so….."

Kelly knew she couldn't argue with that. Nikita was a higher level agent than she was, and a mission was always priority number one.

So Kelly shrugged and moved over another partner.

"Really,a mission?" Michael said, he tried to annoyed, but she could sense his tone of amusement.

"Oh c'mon, we both know that we're a little bit better than everyone else, so we may as well enjoy this" she said with a teasing smile.

"Wait, what? You can dance?" Michael asked with a smirk.

"Well yeah, I have a few hidden talents. Dancing happens to be one of them" she said and took his hand to pull him closer to her as the music started to play.

Michael soon recognized the tune as being "Santa Maria Del Buen Ayre" and smiled to himself. It was tango.

He started to lead and took two steps backwards. He knew how to dance, after five years with Amanda; he could dance everything from salsa to waltz. But he was surprised; she was indeed really good, and he couldn't help but admire her as she followed his lead with grace.

Michael felt her inch closer to his body, and he gasped slightly when she whispered in his ear "I told you I was good"

Nikita had a long glittery black dress, with an almost inappropriate slit on her left leg, exposing the tan skin of her thigh. She had a red lipstick on and her hair was pulled back in a tight pony tail.

Tango was a dance filled with passion and lust. It started out gently but got rough after a few steps. The movements turned heavier and heavier, sharp and edgy. The desire and lust overtook the whole dance. They didn't say a word to each other, just breathed heavily as they danced around the room, their bodies pressed together.

He bended her backwards, almost letting her hair touch the floor; he stroked his hand between her breasts, and down to her stomach. It was all a part of the dance he told himself. He straightened her up, pulled her closer, and continued to lead her. To his surprise she let him; he thought she would take the control by now. And that was exactly what she did about two seconds later when they slowly reached the edge of the room. She took two rushed steps forward and forced him backwards. Shadows and darkness surrounded them as his body slammed against the wall.

She was dangerously close to him. Their eyes locked and his mouth came close to hers, they lips slightly brushing against each other's. Nikita leaned in to fully touch their lips when Michael surprised her by taking four steps forward to continue their dance. She chuckled, "Such a tease" she murmured in her ear, her hot breath sending chills down his spine.

Involuntarily, he closed his eyes in satisfaction as she nibbled at a sensitive spot just below his ear.

"And you say I'm the tease" he whispered as he regained his breath.

He looked up at her and their eyes locked hers for a moment "Always" she said and smirked.

He leaded her back to the center of the dance floor, spinning her around and pulling her back to his chest in one swift movement.

Their bodies still pressed together, they continued to sensually sway to the music, making Michael's hands itch to touch her luscious body.

By now everybody in the room had stopped dancing and was just staring at the dancing couple by the corner of the room.

Amanda stopped the music. She cleared her throat "Can everybody look at Michael and Nikita"

"Like they aren't already" Michael whispered in her ear and continued to lead her across the dance floor.

"They are doing the tango perfectly. You have to have passion, desire to sell this act. Look at their body language. This is the way it's supposed to work. Good job you two"

Totally ignoring Amanda and everybody else in the room, Michael smiled at Nikita.

"You never mentioned where you learned to dance" he said

"That's a mystery that will remain unsolved" she answered and smirked once again.

-x-

He just smiled when he saw that her thoughts drifted away to a dance that they had many years ago.

He interrupted them after a while; noticing her beachwear "Why are you wearing a bikini anyway?" he asked.

"I'm heading down to the beach, care to join me?" she asked him with a grin "We are going to cold Russia; we may as well spend a couple of hours on the beach."

"Sounds like a lovely idea"

-x-

Alright, overprotective pregnancy Michael thingy, I took that from my sister. She complained yesterday how over how protective her husband had become and how he does everything she asks him for. And the tango, As you might have noticed I have a thing for flashbacks... I watched a tango video and that's how I got the idea because it was so freaking hot. Don't worry; they won't be any more tango dancing (or, what to you think?)… and I know 'dancers'= probably the worst cover ever, but I think it's so boring with "Married couple on vacation" since they already are together. So review review review, did you like the tango part? Alex reaction? Tell me

Alright, just have to write this, how freaking badass wasn't the latest episode. I really liked it. Sadly I read Shane's interview about Mikita not being back together for a while, that's why I'm writing this sooo fluffy, Hehe. ;) Oh and dm me if you want to follow me on twitter. Lots of love

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