Chapter 04

A week later:
Maura sat in the lobby, waiting for her turn with the therapist that had to see her regardless. The voices had dulled a little, but once Jane would show up, they would be screaming at her to kill her over and over and over again. Maura stared out the large window.

Jane had a week to think about what had happened. She didn't mention what happened at the party towards her therapist. She didn't wanna admit that Maura had fooled her. She didn't wanna admit to herself that it happened.

Because of last weeks event after the therapy session, the shrink had scheduled their hours further apart, so Jane wouldn't need to face her again. Since the shrink had mentioned that Maura's sessions were in the late afternoon at 5 now instead of in the mornings like Jane's, she knew exactly where Maura was at 5.

Jane was sick of her nightmares and was sick of being afraid of Maura. She didn't wanna be weak anymore like a year ago. She had changed, she knew that, but Maura didn't. Jane braced herself and then made her way up the stairs to the therapist, even though her session had ended hours already.

She wanted to face Maura. She wanted to tell her that she wasn't afraid of her anymore, that she couldn't control her life anymore. Jane pushed the door of the waiting room open and saw her sitting there. "

Maura." Jane said immediatly as she saw her.

Maura flinched at the sound of her name and she jerked her head around to see Jane Rizzoli standing in the waiting room. Her heart was in her throat. She didn't stand, but just looked at Jane. Her eyebrow arched and she swallowed hard. The voices in her head were screaming and she could hardly hear anything else.

"Jane..." she heard herself say as she sat there. She breathed deeper and her cheeks flushed. This wasn't her Jane. This was another Jane completely.

Jane stepped closer to her.

"I am not afraid of you anymore, Maura. I realized the fear was only in my head. You can't hurt me anymore. I don't even know why I've ever been afraid of you. You are smaller than me, probably weaker too.. It only came that far because I let it." Jane said in a strong voice and stared in her eyes.

Maura stood and tilted her head slightly at Jane's words.

"Not afraid of me anymore? Really," she purred darkly and smiled. She stepped closer to Jane and saw Jane subtly flinch. That was all that Maura needed to feed off of.

"You will always be afraid me. You don't know anything about me... You only think you do," she said and her left eye twitched as the voice over powered her. Her fingers made fists and she breathed a little heavier.

"You are afraid. You are afraid because you think that you will beome like me...that you are me. You are afraid because you want me...want to be like me..."

Jane kept staring into her eyes and shook her head.

"I will never become like you and I don't wanna be you either.." Jane said bitter. She couldn't deny the fact now that she liked women, after all she had told Kensy she did.

"You should forget about all the things I told Kensy. You fooled me and I...I am ashamed I fell for it but it won't happen again. You broke me and cured me at the same time, Maura. I do not regret I slept with Kensy. It cured me on so many levels..."

"But you slept with me, Jane. Me. Maura...the one that you have nightmares about. Me. The one who raped you a year ago... Me... You kissed me with passion and you loved it. I loved it," she said and stepped closer to Jane.

The voices grew louder. She flexed her fingers and licked her lips. Jane saw the wild within Maura's pretty eyes. It was a shame. If Maura wasn't sick...she would have been perfect.

Maura had stepped into her comfort zone and instead taking a step backwards, she pushed Maura back slightly.

"I would have never slept with Kensy if I had known she was you. I liked Kensy more than I have ever liked you. I don't know what's going on in your head and what you think is going on but I never loved you Maura...I never had a crush on you or any of that like. I was afraid of you. Honestly, I don't know why I kept coming back to you...Maybe I was attracted to that fear but that was it." Jane said.

Once Jane touched her, that ignited something in Maura. She came back at Jane, growling her words.

"I loved you! I loved you with everything that I am! You threw me away!" She screamed and her screaming got everyone's attention from the rooms and down the hall.

"I never wanted to kill anyone more than you! You got away! You will die! I will get you and I will love everything about it!"

Jane just got mad as she heard Maura saying that, as she felt the fear creeping up on her again. She didn't wanna feel afraid anymore.

"Not before I kill you." Jane yelled back at her and in the next moment, she attacked her.

The therapist came out of his office, after he had heard Maura yelling and saw Jane attacking Maura. He immediatly rushed over and pulled Jane away from her.

"What is going on!?" He asked them. "Jane what are you doing here? Your session ended hours ago!" He said. Jane didn't even look at him but at Maura.

"I am sick of being afraid of her, I can't do that anymore. I'm sick of her!" Jane said. That wasn't the only thing she was sick of - the fact that she felt drawn towards Maura was worse. She knew exactly what pain Maura had caused her, emotional and physical and yet she felt drawn to her like a year ago, when she kept coming back to Maura.

Maura finally got herself up with the help of someone else that now stood behind her, mediating between the two. Maura looked at Jane, half hurt and half angry.

"No, you will never even get close enough to me to kill me! I know how to kill you! I grew up with all the time on my hands to learn how to kill people! I will kill you Jane Rizzoli! I will kill you!" She screamed and the security grabbed Maura gently and lead her into the therapy room and away from Jane. Maura screamed and screamed for the voices to stop. That was the first time that Jane saw how really sick that Maura was. Maura cried hysterically.

Jane watched Maura getting brought away and then heard her crying and screaming to something that didn't seem to be there. She took a deep breath and tried to calm down again. She didn't even notice how fast her heart was beating. The therapist said a few words to Jane and then she left the building, thinking about Maura all tbe time on her way home. She was right, she couldn't kill her, that was not how she was.

Maura was admitted to the hospital that afternoon. She had gone into a fit from seeing Jane and the voices were terrible for her. She struggled and cried, and was eventually knocked out.

Angela knocked on her daughter's door.

"Sweetheart...dinner is ready...if you are hungry. I made you favorite," she said softly and didn't really open her daughter's door all the way. It had been a year since Jane's life had been turned inside out. She worried constantly about her.

Jane was lying in her bed, listening to music quietly while she thought about Maura and everything that had happened. As she heard her Ma, she sat up.

"Uh coming Ma..." Jane said and turned off the radio, before she left her room. She made her way downstairs to the kitchen and sat down. It was just her and her Ma. She figured her father was still at church preparing for the next mass or something. Jane looked at her mother.

"I saw her today again..." She told her quietly.

Angela nearly lost her mouth full of food at Jane's words. Her heart stopped. She looked up and stared at her young daugher. The worry was already writting over her face and within her eyes. She breathed a little heavier.

"Jane...oh my god...are you..." she started and then didn't know really what to say. She remembered Maura, easily. She felt sorry for her...but she loved her daughter more.

"I'm alright, Ma." Jane said and glanced at her.

"It was my fault. I wanted to see her. I wanted to talk to her. I needed to get stuff off my chest..." Jane said while she played with the food on her plate.

"Jane you should never have seen her! She is sick, sweetheart. She doesn't know what she does. Jane...oh Jane," Angela said and stopped eating by now. The worry was getting to her. She watched her daughter.

"I know she is sick...she talks to someone who isn't there..." Jane said and met her mother's eyes.

"But I can't stop thinking about her. I don't know why I can't...Something happened at Anna's party and...now I can't stop thinking about Maura. I know she is sick and I know she hurt me but...I feel so drawn to her. What's wrong with me?" Jane asked her frustrated. "Am I sick myself?"

"No, no you are definitely not sick sweetheart. You are just...traumatized..." she said softly and moving to stand. She walked over to her daughter and touched her shoulder. Jane wasn't into hugging, so she didn't even try.

"Maybe you identify with what she did..."

"How do you mean that?" Jane asked and looked at her mother. Her mother was the only person she talked very open about everything. She was kind of afraid to do the same with her father, after all he was a pastor and all. He would judge her for the way she was thinking. She figured her mother would accept the fact that she might be gay more easily.

Angela touched her daughter's cheek and sighed lightly. She looked off and then leaned down to kiss the top of her head.

"Sometimes when someone hurts you so deep like that...sometimes...well...sometimes...you just sympathize with them."

"I feel sorry for her...for having this sickness..." Jane whispered and sighed.

"But I am also scared of her at the same time...but then again I feel so drawn to her. My head is a mess. She told me again today that she was going to kill me...I don't understand how they could have released her from the institution in the first place...she's dangerous." She said.

Angela swallowed and she finally hugged her daughter.

"I won't let her kill you...I won't...let her take my daughter..." That was when she made the decision that they were going to move. She wanted to keep her daughter safe... There was no other option.

"We are going to move Jane... We are going to go somewhere that is safe for you..."

"I am not so sure Pops would like that. He likes it here...working here." Jane said and looked at her mother, hugging her mother back.

"We will figure something out..." she had said and within a month they had moved.

TBC

So now the Rizzoli's moved...You guys think Jane is save now from Maura? Or will Maura find her eventually?