A/N: I'm not gonna lie, i feel like a really big over achiever right now lol. I dont know about you but I'm impressed with my fast updating with this chpater. haha, but anyways this chapter is bit of a filler, but all this had to happen. The story wouldnt make any sense with out this so you read and review my dears. I would like to thank all of you for your reviews, it makes me extremely happy and fuzzy inside :]
DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT OR FEELING SORRY FOR CELIA :]
"So you lied to Jacob, and now he thinks he's the father of your baby?" Alice, twirled a piece of her hair, her dark blue eyes, on me intently. I played with my charm bracelet, because it suddenly was much more important, then my confessing.
"Bella!" Alice slapped my hand down, and I looked at her a bit bewildered.
"I'm sorry, its just- I didn't lie, Jake just misunderstood." I put my head in my hands. Oh the shame that came along with confessing was horrid.
"Well you have to make him understand, you cant lie to him like that." Alice through her hands in the air, her tone incredulous, and strict.
"I don't want to." I said in a small voice.
"Bella, that's it. If you wont tell Edward than I will." Alice started reaching for the phone, but I quickly stopped her hand, and shook with panic.
"No, no I'll tell him! I promise." I breathed, my hand still gripped hers.
"When?" She challenged, her eye brow raised, and I let go my death grip on her hands.
"Soon." I nodded.
"Bella." She warned.
"Alice, just let me figure it out." I sighed, putting my hand to my head.
"No you need to start with telling the real father." She reached for the phone again, and I stopped her hand again.
"Alice, please." I pouted. There was a long pause, and I could tell by the way he was staring at me she was considering it.
"Fine." She huffed. "You have till Thursday." She smiled.
"ALICE ! that's tomorrow!" I groaned.
"Exactly." She smiled satisfied, and I put my hands on my head
"Hey baby Alice." Katherine, Alice's mom strolled into the kitchen her, jet black hair, hanging by her shoulders. You could tell Katherine was Alice's mom, they almost looked exactly the same, except for the eyes. Both of their eyes were pretty wild colors, but not the same. Katherine had light blue eyes, different from Alice's dark blue eyes. It was hard not to look them in the eyes and stare intently at them.
"Hey mom." Alice smiled, like I hadn't told her the most scandalous story in the world. About how Jacob Black thinks I'm carrying his baby, when really its Edward Masen's. Ew, the word baby, made me want to puke.
"Oh hey Bella dear." Katherine walked over to where we were sitting and gave me a light kiss on the cheek.
"Hey Kat." I smiled, but not as wide as Alice of course.
"You girls hardly come over here anymore." She pouted teasingly, and went back to looking for whatever she was looking for.
"Lots of school work." Alice shrugged, while I played with the charms on my charm bracelet.
"School work, is horrible." Katherine sighed, opening and closing drawers in the kitchen.
"Speaking of horrible things, your father called Mary Alice." Katherine glanced at Alice for a quick second, probably waiting for Alice's reaction.
"What could he possibly want?" Alice asked, her voice light, and its usual chirp.
"He wants you to spend the weekend with him." Katherine shrugged.
"I promised Bella, we would do things." Alice looked at her shoes.
"Okie dokie my dear." Katherine, found whatever she was looking for. I watched Katherine closely, and tried to find any traces of pain, when she spoke of her ex husband. Could she really hate him like she says? Her ex husband left both Alice and her, only 6 years after Alice was born. Katherine had Alice at 19 and Alice's father Mark was 21.
I don't think Alice forgives him, I can tell by the bitter expression that's set on her face when ever he is mentioned, at dinner, or in a conversation. I wouldn't forgive him either. I can remember Katherine crying, after dinner when my mom suddenly was having her over every night. I thought it was odd, but that thought was soon out shined by the idea of having my best friend over for dinner every night. I was a baby. Its what we do.
Dear Bella
We are very proud of you for taking Alice's advice, we bet she feels very honored you are listening finally. And spending time at her house? That's excellent Bella, we are so proud to hear of this. Maybe you can spend the weekend with her, get away from your crazy pregnant life, Just for a second, you deserve it.
Love
The Best Friends Club.
"You know I saw your father today at the mall?" Katherine was speaking to me now, and her eyes found mine, pulling me out of my deep thoughts of the past. Where I wish I was right now.
"Oh." I replied lamely. The subject of my father was not a subject I was looking to talk about. I cant even sit at a dinner table and lie about how wonderful school is. I was suppose to sit there and act like anything but a pregnant teen, who lies about who the real father is to satisfy herself. Alice, straightened out her Rolling Stones shirt, and put her hand through her short hair, ruffling it a bit. She gave me a look, the kind of look that says you-know-why-you're-here, kind of look. I looked down at my charm bracelet, half embarrassed, well completely embarrassed, and my eyes rested on the frog charm Alice's mother had gave me all those years ago.
"He was his usual grumpy mood." Katherine muttered as she began to stroll out of the kitchen.
"Ha." I laughed with out humor. So it would be a bad idea to tell him I am pregnant huh ? I kept that to myself.
"Yeah." Katherine laughed quietly. "But he told me Renee wants us over for dinner Friday."
Crap. Because that's exactly what I need right? A family get together really? Its like they know I'm hiding something and wont stop pressuring me till I blurt it out at the next get together.
"Cool." Alice saved me giving me a warning glance, and I looked up from my from charm to look over at Katherine now.
"Yeah cool." I smiled weakly, and I could have sworn I saw something there in Katherine's eyes, but she too quickly looked away, and back down at the mail she was looking through.
"Alright, well I'll be upstairs if you need me." She rushed, and quickly departed from the kitchen to al but run up the stairs, and I felt the panic build in my chest as she did so. Alice stared at her feet as we both listened to her mom make it to the top floor, and into her room.
"Did you tell her?" I hissed.
"No!" Alice whispered incredulously.
"She knows!" I groaned.
"Well I didn't tell her !" Alice smacked my knee.
"Then why did she hurry out the room right after she gave me that look?" I rushed through my words, not even completely understanding them.
"Bella, she's been there. Remember I was her first child and she was only 19." Alice explained quietly.
"I know but still. What if she tells my mom!" I panicked.
"Bells, when did my mom become a rat?" Alice smacked my knee again.
"Why are you abusing me!" I hissed.
"You're ridiculous when your pregnant." Alice laughed.
"I'm glad you find me entertaining." I huffed. My phone vibrated in my pocket and I told Alice to shut up with my hand, even though she wasn't talking, and from the corner of my eye I saw her stick her tongue out at me. I tried to hide my smile but just couldn't, even in the worst of times, Alice could make me smile. I pulled out my cell phone quickly and the caller ID was bright and bold.
Call from ..
JACOB B.
"Ugh!" I groaned.
"What? Is it Edward Masen?" She squirmed in her seat and tried to look at the caller ID. I moved back so she couldn't see what the call ID said.
"No!" I said incredulously, rolling my eyes. "Its Jacob."
"Baby daddy number 2." Alice mumbled.
"HA HA." I bit my lip and pressed talk, putting the phone to my ear. I could hear him breathing hard, and it was obvious he was doing something.
"Hey Jake." I said, a smile in my voice.
"Hey Bells." He somehow sounded more mature, like he was ready to tall business, instead of make fun of how clumsy I am , or invite me to one of those wild parties, where everyone gets drunk and crashes on the living room floor.
"What's up?" I tried to make my mood seem light. Maybe even a little happy.
"Bella, I think we should tell your parents." Jacob stated, his voice dead serious, and I promise I saw my life flash before my eyes. I could have dropped death right there and then. And Alice who was trying to stay deadly quite to hear what Jacob was saying, froze and put a hand on my knee in comfort, she must have seen my face go pale.
"No.. t-that's… - why?" I couldn't think straight. To many pictures of Charlie getting out a gun and shooting me, were flashing through my head.
"Its important, it's the first step Bella. We cant keep this a secret for long." He explained, and it pissed me off he made absolute sense. I felt like shit, I felt horrible lying to my parents, keeping dirty secrets from them like this, its make me sick to my stomach, it made me feel old and evil. It makes me-
"Bella?" Jacob called, hearing my silence.
"We cant do that." I shook my head even though he couldn't see me, I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to focus on his words intently.
"It doesn't matter we have to." He sounded like her put thought into this. I didn't like it.
"And when did you decide this?" My voice was angry, I could here the coldness in it.
"Today, I did some thinking-"
"Jake ! That's not how it works! I'm having your child, and that kind of makes us a couple, and we have to decide these things together! Do you not know what I'm going through at the moment? I cant take it!" I blew up, and his silence on the other end, was enough to tell me he was shocked. My eyes flew open and Alice had her head in her hands, making her head roll in them, like she couldn't believe something or she was embarrassed. I was going to flick her to stop, because it was annoying me, when I realized the frozen figure by the stares, and when my eyes focused. Katherine was standing at the end of he stairs her eyes wide, and her mouth hanging open. There was almost an apologetic look on her face.
"Crap." I muttered under my breathe.
"What happened?" Jacob asked startled.
"Nothing, I'll call you later." I spat, his voice made me remember how pissed I was at him, and he rushed a few words out that I didn't quite catch as I pulled the phone from my ear and flipped it closed, my eyes on Katherine's the whole time, and I wasn't aware if Alice had lifted her head to look at me.
"Now you've really done it." Alice groaned softly.
"Bella.. ?" Katherine started walking slowly towards us, but Alice didn't turn her little body to watch her mom approach me slowly. I could hardly believe what was going on, or what I had just said out loud. I felt like punching my self in the face.
Ms. Swan,
You are an absolute idiot, it has us worried. Your word vomit, could be contagious to the loved ones around you, and it it very, very distasteful to watch. We suggest a visit to your doctor for your word vomit. Did you know we that's all we do ? We just tell you what's wrong with you? Did we help you? Do you feel you knew about your horrible case of word vomit? Do tell us, because if you knew you had such case, you should have tried better to keep your mouth shut. We are just saying.
Sincerely,
ADVICE FOR DUMMIES CLINIC.
Bella?
Did you hear what you just said.
Lets us replay that for you.
"Jake ! That's not how it works! I'm having your child, and that kind of makes us a couple, and we have to decide these things together! Do you not know what I'm going through at the moment? I cant take it!"
Did you hear that ?
Did you hear what you just said ?
Just in case you didn't, we'll replay it again.
"Jake ! That's not how it works! I'm having your child, and that kind of makes us a couple, and we have to decide these things together! Do you not know what I'm going through at the moment? I cant take it!"
Okay well, we cant do anything else, because all we do is replay. So good luck. We hope you heard.
Yours truly,
INSTANT REPLAY INC.
Swan,
We have made a horrible mistake. Your not bad. Your just an idiot.
Sorry for the mistake, we blame ourselves, so don't feel bad.
Mean Girls Club.
Katherine put her hands on my shoulders, and I tried to blink away a few tears, but they unsuccessfully stayed in my eyes, and I even felt a little pissed at my tears, damn it. I really wished I would just collapse into coma now. I could see Alice's worried eyes, as I looked back and forth, at them.
"Bella, are you really pregnant?" Katherine asked softly, her eyes just as soft as her tone, those light blue eyes so close to liquid, it was beautiful. I looked over at Alice was nodding her head gently, encouraging me to go on, but I felt if I spoke I would just choke on air and die. But it's the truth I had to tell, the truth would set me free right?
"Yes." I choked out, it was hardly audible, and mostly covered by my breath. But Katherine heard me, she sighed deeply, and put a hand through her hair, and I felt like I was in grade school being scolded. The tears came freely and naturally.
"I'm an idiot." I sobbed softly, looking up at the ceiling, and Katherine wrapped her arms around me, in a very motherly gesture. I could hardly keep in my cries as she held me.
"Bella, it was just a mistake." Katherine tried to comfort me, and it almost worked, except for the fact it didn't magically make me not pregnant anymore.
"Ugh." I sobbed into her chest, and her soft sweater was very warm, but damp with my tears now. She didn't care a bit, she only held me tighter.
"Oh Bella." She cooed, and I cried just a bit harder. It want the first time I had heard that, and I knew it wouldn't be the last.
"Sh, its okay, don't cry so much, stressing is not good for the baby." Katherine released me form her arms and patted my knee gently, and walked further into the kitchen to get something. Alice watched me with sad eyes, and I almost felt like I was disappointing her. I mean she did expect more of me, just like everyone else, then I go and let a boy get my pregnant.
"I'm sorry Alice." I muttered.
"For what?" She asked confused.
"Putting you through all this." I pouted tears flowing down my cheek.
"Bella. don't even say that. You didn't put me through anything. Remember its us, not just you." She smiled comfortingly.
"Thank you." I mouthed, and Katherine returned with a cup of hot tea in her hands, she rubbed my back soothingly as she handed it to me. Katherine took a seat next to me at the island with Alice and I. She settled her self in, then took a deep breathe.
"Start from the top." She sighed.
I walked home. One it wasn't raining, and I cant even describe how good the cool air feels against my hot skin right now, how amazing the wind feel rushing through my hair. It feels like nothing I have ever felt before, and it was more soothing than anyone's words or gestures. I like to think it was God soothing me, telling me its going to be okay. And once I took a step into my house, that was wind free, the warmness, sadly just as comforting, and all the lights on. The wooden floor loud as I entered, each step at a time, and the noise my boots made against the floor.
Almost like an annoying squeak, I love to hear. I unwrapped my scarf from my neck and hung it on the chair, along with my coat. When the sound of a deep voice clearing a throat stooped me in my tracks, and I froze staring at my jacket. I felt the tension grow in the room, I felt the discomfort build up and I felt the panic building in my chest. The sweat was in my palms and the pressure was on my hear.
I could hardly breathe, the simple clearing of a throat had me shaking with fear, from head to toe, I even thought of running out the door and back into the cool wind of the outside, where it seemed I belonged at the moment. The simple clearing of the throat had me planning to run away, and changing my name to Billy.
The simple clearing of the throat, made my water come close to breaking, even thought I'm only about 1 month pregnant, I would say, and for the record that was a horrible joke, and as I thought it, I realized it. But the most startling thing about the simple clearing of the throat, is I knew who it was by just the sound of it. I knew who's scratchy deep voice that belonged to, I knew who cleared there throat constantly during awkward or frustrating situations. I've heard it my whole life, my entire life. Since I was a baby.
"Bella?" Charlie's voice was not friendly, or comforting. It wasn't soothing and it wasn't something I like to hear. I lifted my head slowly, and the sight before me made me want to leap across the room and strangle someone. There in my living room sat My father Charlie, still in uniform, looking spiffy and clean, while Jacob sat next to him, in a tee-shirt and jeans. Looking like he knew what he was doing.
"Jacob." I growled, and Jacob looked down at his feet.
"Would you like to explain what's going on?" My Dad's strict voice made me flinch, and I looked over to see his guns were hung up. I couldn't even sigh in relief at that.
"How could you do this Jacob?" I almost yelled, my voice was high, and my fist were clenched by my side.
"I told you Bella we have to do this." Jacob stated.
"Tell me what?" Charlie demanded, and this time we both flinched.
"Bella?" Jacob nodded towards me, and I felt like grabbing one of Charlie's guns.
"Jacob?" I asked through my teethe, Jacob glared at me and took a deep sigh, and I couldn't believe this was happening, right now. No this could not be happening right now. HOW COULD HE DO THIS TO ME? How is it Jake could be so insensitive towards this.
"Charlie, I'm really sorry, and you know you can trust me, we didn't mean for this to happen-" Jake was cut of by the door opening behind me, and I wasn't even fully out of the way yet so of course it swung open and hit him, throwing me against the couch, and I stumbled absentmindedly grabbing my stomach, wear I would imagine the baby would be.
"Oh dear." Renee laughed as she stumbled in, seeing how she basically threw me across the room. God was just punishing me wasn't he.
"What's going on?" Renee caught on to the tension in the room, and her eyes went wide, and I almost expected her to start crying right then and there. She probably thought someone had died, when really its quite the opposite.
"That's a damn good question." Charlie was furious now, and his red and purple face gave him away.
"I'm really sorry." I cried, the tears had snuck up on me and Renee was probably horribly confused
"I'm really sorry mom." I turned to her, tears running down my cheek as I gripped my stomach, and cried harder each new round of fresh tears.
"Baby what's wrong?" Renee looked at my stomach than at me, coming closer to me, as I struggled to catch my breathe. Jacob had stood from sitting just like my father. The truth will set me free.
"I'm.. I- I" I stuttered, my sobbing making it extremely hard to breathe and talk.
"Bella." Charlie warned.
"I'm pregnant." I choked out, my sobbing becoming more intense, and unlike earlier today, there were no 'Oh Bella's'. I think its safe to say everyone was frozen into shock, no one was saying anything, and I didn't even bother to look at their facial expressions, I kept my eyes squeezed shut, trying to stop the tears but they just kept going and going.
"Oh god." I faintly heard Renee, as I rubbed my stomach and cried a little harder.
"WHAT!?!" Charlie all but blew up. "YOU!?"
My eyes flew open, and I reached my hand out as if to protect Jacob, even though they were much more than arms length away from me. Charlie was pointing a finger and a step closer to Jacob.
"No!" I sobbed.
"Bella!' My mom put her hand over her heart and the other hand on her head, I could see tears welling up in her eyes.
"I thought.." She trailed off.
"GET OUT OF MY HOUSE NOW!" Charlie screamed at Jacob, and I flinched.
"Please stop!" I cried.
"Stop?!?! Bella your pregnant!" Charlie was screaming and pointing at me now, while my mom stayed still, frozen in shock.
"Charlie." Jacob tried.
"Everyone just stop!" Renee yelled, and everyone looked at her. It was silent, and the only thing I could hear were my sobs, and the heavy breathing from my father.
"I knew those tests were for you." My mom whispered in shock, pointing a finger at me, as everyone listened quietly.
"Jacob you need to go home." Renee ordered, in a concerned and annoyed tone. Jacob nodded.
"Charlie, you need to breath just for a second." Renee took some deep breaths of her own.
"And Bella you need to get upstairs and explain everything to me. Now." Her voice was strict, yet still motherly, and I could see her chocolate brown eyes, that I had hurt her. And nothing could ever hurt more than seeing my mom hurt, and being the one who caused it. I put my head down in shame and sobbed quietly to myself.
"Now!" She yelled, and I immediately headed to the stares, not even looking at Jacob or Charlie once.
A/N: Okay so i know alot of you are TEAM EDWARD. Like myself, even though i have a soft spot for Jacob sometimes, but i cant tell you anything about the baby, and all that drama between them, because there would be no point in reading this story ;] And for those of you who are totally and completely lost when i say 'cotton candy' its just a term in the story for 'having sex, or giving someone your sex'. And there will be more LEMONS in the future, but you have to be patient, i wouldnt want to make Bella a slut or anything lol. So please keep reviweing and reading, i am very happy you guys take liking to my story, and i always love to hear what you think. I'll try to be ssuper fast like this all the time hehe :]